Took plunge!!! Angst is killing me! Advice please

Personally I think she went beyond just sex. It sounded to me like she has emotions for this guy that run deeper than just a good fuck and friend. That's the problem with infidelity whether it be the Hotwife or bull, if together long enough and if their personal life isn't completely satisfying it is easy to start looking at the other person as someone that you want for a long time and not just a good time. Just remember that in life as one chapter closes another opens if you allow it.

That's great advice. It's pretty much exactly what happened. Not only has she allowed herself to be in the arms of another man. She has completely replaced me in all facets. She is in a relationship with this guy. Flag entries saying it was just sex but she also says how she's falling for him and like today. They drive off 12 hours to his hometown to grab some furniture or something from a home he's left so he can settle down here. It's bizarre.
I actually called the guy and warned him that the situation with the woman I'm for with but he can not be around my kids. I'm not a small guy and have ways held my own and although in the bedroom I like submissiveness, I don't play that **** in real life especially around my kids.
Unlike her jumping into a serious relationship, I will take some time for myself.
Ronald Curry

Well it seems the ex is having some major regrets. I'll get to some of the specifics later but she says she has made the biggest mistake of her life. I talked to her how I wish I approached her about swinging/cuckolding and she said that would definitely have worked. She also said she wants things back but that she doesn't think she would say faithful. Long story short she has sent sexy pics and also wants to get together for sex.
Now personally I'm doing well. Even though I'm not looking for a relationship I have began talking to a few women and one in particular is surely going to result in a tryst. So that parts always nice.
Well see how tonight goes as my ex wants me to stop over once the kids are asleep as to not confuse them. But it's looking as if something fun will happen tonight.
Ronald Curry

Ronald,
Your story is similar to ours. Reading through your posts I was on the verge of suggesting that you try and delay breaking up and allow more time to sort things out, because women often will come around eventually. Then I get to your last post today, and she's done exactly that.

Your relationship obviously had issues. Her seeing someone else created emotional confusion and a recipe for disaster. It was only natural for her to turn to him while she felt conflicted, as you were part of the "problem" in her mind. He was her new flame, and the new penny is always the shiniest.

In time that shine wears off though. As reality sets in women will usually default back to their comfort zone... which is you, and the relationship she had before.

You have an opportunity to use all of this to reconnect at a deeper level, and rebuild a stronger relationship going forward. Her admission that she may not be able to remain faithful, combined with your interest in the Cuck lifestyle, sets up the potential to rebuild your relationship with the lifestyle being a part of everything. But you need to spend hours... even days... talking openly and honestly. Try to align your desires and expectations going forward. My wife and I just did something very much like that, and things are wonderful now.

One caveat though... it's not a bad idea to let your wife know other women have an interest in you (it elevates your value in her eyes). But be prepared to immediately give up the women you're seeing, and spend a lot of time proving to your wife that she is the ONLY woman in your life once again. She will need your complete devotion and fidelity in order to recommit to you. Women are threatened, not aroused, by their spouse seeing others.

Good luck. I hope your situation ends up on a path similar to the one we were able to find. It can work out great!
cuckold - Pronunciation - kuk-uhld - noun 1) The husband of an unfaithful wife. 2) A husband whose wife has sex with others. NOTE - It does NOT say: Sexually confused, submissive, humiliated, sissified, crossdresser, cocksucker, or piss drinker

Good advice from SheDatesHeWaits, the guy know's what he's talking about, he's been there, got the tee shirt!
Keep us in the know, we want to know how things work out for you.

Well update is perhaps the best one yet. Why not go out with a blaze of glory. It's Sunday night now and in at my place but the last 2 nights have been eventful. This is all 100% in real life and occurred in the last 48 hours.
So after a week of fighting and no real contact the ex started talking about making a mistake. But she also admitted that it wouldn't work because she would never stay faithful to me. During these exchanges is when undecided to smoothly re introduce the idea of the lifestyle. She mentioned how odd it was for me to want her in such a way but she wasn't rejecting it in anyway. She knows and has been comfortable sharing with me her exploits. Well throughout the week we planned on me coming over Friday we did some flirt things she sent me a picture in some lingerie and then i told her I missed her tits and she sent me a pic of her cleavage and you could see blatantly the guy sucked her tits hard enough to leave a small bruise. I mentioned to her and she tells me he is just the most dominant lover and she is in love with the way he treats her so roughly. This was welcome as she shared this stuff in the beginning and then we started fighting and here we were back to playing a sexual game.

She kept mentioning how she loved the way I use to leave bruises on her when we first started. And how we talked from the get go of how exciting swinging and orgys would be. I forgot about these things but do recall early on being very open. This was 7 years ago and I was just beginning to explore this fetish. But we revived the dialouge and web though she warned of being emotional, wanted to hang out preferably once the kids went to bed. So we made plans to meet Friday evening.
Ronald Curry

So Friday came and we spent some more time chatting. I asked her if she had anyone else but him and she confessed until last night that she just had sex with someone last night, this being Thursday. She said she was wasted and that it was a huge mistake an that she got up in the middle of it and got dressed and cried to the roommate who I guess was her friend. She sai she didn't realize who she was with but said she did remember Doug things with him that she did with me. Which confused me a bit but I has an idea it was her old boss an the roommate this guy fried of hers. It old her I'd prefer not to know who but that she enjoyed it. But she wouldn't say any details except that when pressed if she liked his ass, her response was a "yep." I asked if he came inside her and he again backed the story saying she realized who she was with was a mistake and for up and got dressed. I didn't press anymore but clearly she's out making up for lost time. I asked if she'd had gotten with a girl and her response was no.
Ronald Curry

So Friday arrives and Incan tell she is having cold feet. She had sex with him in the afternoon and specifically mentioned how he worked her for an hour straight and also took her ass for a goo half hour. She mentioned several times throughout the day how sore she was. I must've have not been playing it cool and was aggressive because she just kept saying "lets take it slow and see how tonight goes." I'll cut to the chase. I went out with a buddy until about midnight and came to see her the boys were still up and had their friend over for a ***** over. But remained up stairs. Anyway for the first time she wasn't crying and we openly discussed what we were doing. She said she's technically in a relationship but is confused. Meanwhile he was texting him as I was siting next to her and held her in a way like the old times. She didn't cry but she had no affection and it was standoffish when i tried to kiss her. It reminded me of adolescent experiences with girls who were uncomfortable. She kept saying there was no way that I was getting any or even any play braise of her pain. I didn't ***** the issue but pleaded that I thought she'd insinuated we'd have some fun time in which her response was maybe. It again felt like I'm chasing a girl. In this case my ex who is giving other men anything they want yet does not want to give me squat. She pretty much suggested I leave as I pleased with her and how unfair it was. That I just wanted to please her and kiss her body. She was acting real weird and no. Then came "what do you want?" I picked her up and said I wanted to fuck her. She held me for a second but again was no. I asked if I could see her pussy and she pulled her bottoms down and just looked annoyed I was on my knees and then she starte pulling her bottoms up but i pleaded her and *****fully turned her around and dove into her ass at which ingot maybe 5 seconds before she got real nervous and asked me to leave. So I just walked out but decided to park down the street and confront her lover. I assumed he was coming over. Obviously I was aroused, disappointed, jealous, angry. To sum it up full of emotions. I waited a good 45 minutes into like 3am waiting for him but no one came. The ex text me shortly and asked if I was home to which I said no and that i stopped at a local 24 hour taco place. She invited me back but said for me by to get aggressive. Now I wanted to return and told her yes. But went home. Then she said where are you, I told her I didn't feel comfortable and didn't like how I was treated and I'd rather go home. And that's how the night ended
Ronald Curry

Saturday rolls around and the ex is again talking like we should get together. Obviously Friday didn't work out but these thins do take time and communication. But also it's felt like a game. A woman has interest from many men. Has an ex wrapped around her finger and a lover she yearns for. And an endless supply of other cocks. I decided to play it cool and was like whatever. Made no commitments but dropped the simple "if you wanted to try something with me, I'll come over hang with the kids while you go see him but you have to come back to me. She thought this was strange. I came out and said many people do this. And instead of playing the cuckold submissive angle I played its a swinging thing. And in tonight's play I enjoy that she goes out and I enjoy her coming to me. I realize I cannot be submissive to her. She even mentioned him impressed she was with me picking her up and now she felt how hard my cock was. I just played it cool. I knew she was taking the kids and her nephew to see a show. I was originally slated to go and then not. Then again the day of she wanted me to come but I played it cool and just avoided it and for her to just let me know if she wanted to try this again tonight.
The night goes by and the show is over and she said "I'm on my way home " I just play it cool. As she gets closer asks I'm coming. I simply said if you want me to and that I don't want it to be weird or disappointing. She said we could try.....
Ronald Curry

As I arrived shortly around 1030pm the kids were passed out. She was dressed up. Jeans with a sexy top. Open toes heels and a bottle of wine. She mentioned she was oh wanting to go until 1230. And for me to text her as if I was the baby sitter. Unsaid its fine but I'd like to kiss her good by. She be kissed me. I said not like that. She didn't say anything but gave me the go ahead. I carried her up the stairs but she became reluctant about going to the bedroom. So I layed her on the stairs and lulled her jeans and panties down to her ankles. I placed myself underneath her with her feet resting in my shoulders as I began gently licking her pussy to which got a nice response and I went to her ass and she giggled while oooowing and awwing. Until she stopped it and said she had to go. Once gone I had two and a half hours of angst. I should be in chastity as I kept grabbing my cock. I we t through her hamlet and noticed the panties she wore last night. They smelled great and I noticed in her closet previously some of her toys were previously hidden but i saw the whip along with her favorite you in her basket. Which means he played with the whip with someone.

I gave her n extra 15 minutes before making the text then ft no response so I told her no hurry and that I'd lay down ins bed. Moments later she was home. I gave it a good 5-10 min before going downstairs to see what was up. I could hear her make herself a *****. So I went down and said hi. She had that angry ***** look on her face this could have turned ugly. But I schmoozed her and even though I don't care to ***** I asked her to do a shot and she could never resist that.....
Ronald Curry

Then he said I looked at her with weird faces which I'm not sure what was about but I didn't care. I said in tired and wanted to lay down. She asked if I was spending the night I said if its okay with her. She said fine and we at upstairs. She had me spoon her like old times and mentioned something about a previous conversation and how she doesn't want me to think she's my girl. Quite frankly I didn't remember ever mentioned that and just reminded her were trying something new. Then she said why isn't I text her early like he asked. I said to give her some extra time. She said that they sex sooner than usual. Apparently he likes to hang out before they get into it. But this time she spend time in his arms in his bed waiting for my text. She also asked me when was the last time I remember her actually lusting for me. Which was a difficult question i answered with whenever she'd come tipsy and to that she objected that's just ******* horniness. I just got silent. Waited 15 minutes and slowly began making my move kissing down her back until i got to her ass.

You can tell her lover is a smoker cuz she smells a bit of smoke down there. I kissed her entire behind and began slowly rimming the outside of her ass hole. Savoring the taste knowing his balls were slapping that vicinity. I sucked on her thighs and eventually started rimming her. Slowly making my way down to her adulterous pussy. I flipped her around and had her raise her legs up and rest her feet on my shoulders ad I dive into a push which nearly an hour ago was being stretched and ******. I asked if he came inside and she said yes he did. But it wasn't like what you see on the porn flicks. You can surely tell there was an off taste and there was surely remnants of cum and I savored the flavor. I licked the pussy until my cock was a out to explode. I sucked her clean and I enjoyed very moment of it.

I probably should've kept going but she made no noise she later admitted she had kind of blacked out. I fucked her with all i was worth too bad I was so hot and I could tell my cock reached places my tongue couldn't and now was coated with another mans cum. I erupted quickly but remained hard. I just kept fucking her. Eventually she started complaining and I offered to take it off and lick her feet as she passed out but she rejected that and even started a countdown till she would take herself away.when she down to 2 I begged her to let me finish and within moments i busted another load. So by my count, 2 men and 3 loads.

It was very exciting to have had that experience. We talked again today and likely this wont be the last time. And I used your advice told her about a woman I'm talking to. She sent me 4 up close pics of her pussy. Who's knows she may or may not be capable of this lifestyle . I'll keep you all posted of there other situations
Ronald Curry

Wow, what a roller coaster ride...lol! She just might come full circle back to you. Good luck to you both

We will see. She text me last night I took the kids for the night. She text me at like 230am apologetic about her and her lover running into a friend of mine who was celebrating a birthday. Which is humiliating in some regards but he knows o the separation. But again humiliating that he partied with my ex and her lover.
She said she was going to shower and I asked if he was going to fuck her. Her response was "hope so." And I left it at that. She's on her way over to grab the baby now and I'm hoping to get some sort of action.
Ronald Curry

Ronald,
There are strong signs of confusion in her. She's enjoying her new freedom, but continues to communicate with you. She likes the excitement of having exciting, "rough" sex with others yet she she continues to see you. New lover... then contact with you... sex with someone else... then letting you start to have sex, then backing away... etc. This is a classic back and forth situation... she's emotionally torn.

If I were in your shoes, my strategy would be simple. Give her space, while at the same time be supportive. Let her know you understand her desires to explore with others, but that she can also count on you when she needs comfort and support. Let her know that you don't judge her for playing with others, because you love her for who she is. The idea is for her to know that she can have you at home and still enjoy the excitement of playing with others (have her cake and eat it too), without being judged or fighting about it.

The newness of fucking others WILL wear off. Over time she'll calm down and want her old, stable home environment back. Play it cool, be supportive, don't push her, avoid fights and give it time. At some point you two will sit down and have that heart to heart talk. I suspect it will go something like this:

(Her) I made a mistake splitting up, I love you, I want to stay together, but having sex with others was exciting and I don't think I can stay faithful if we get back together.
(You) I've missed you, I'm glad you're back, I love you too, I want to make it work, I found it strangely exciting to know you were having sex with others and would actually enjoy letting you continue that if we get back together.

One last thought... don't be a doormat during this process. She'll lose respect for you. Until she comes back, drop hints that you might be talking to other women. When she texts you, especially late at night, do NOT text her right back. Wait until the next day. Make her wonder what YOU'RE doing when she's out fucking someone. Let her worry about who you might be with, etc. If you play it that way you'll be having that "Let's get back together" discussion sooner rather than later. Good luck!
cuckold - Pronunciation - kuk-uhld - noun 1) The husband of an unfaithful wife. 2) A husband whose wife has sex with others. NOTE - It does NOT say: Sexually confused, submissive, humiliated, sissified, crossdresser, cocksucker, or piss drinker

The more I read of this, the better it gets, even though it's one complicated situation. I was going to say she wants her cake and wants to eat it too, but SheDatesHeWaits beat me to that!
I agree that if you allow her to use you like a doormat then you'll end up losing out big time. Be at least a little assertive, stand your ground, but let her enjoy all that fresh cock she's busy fucking. So what if your friends know she's fucking her ex, it only shows them that you have a liberal and open minded outlook on that kind of thing - good on you!
Play it cool, she'll come back, but like SheDatesHeWaits, it will be with some demands, non negotiable, you'll end up still married, but a full blown cuck, she'll end up getting all the cock she can handle, with your full co-operation and blessing. Everyone wins!

"...but like SheDatesHeWaits, it will be with some demands..."

Exactly. The irony is that her 'demands' are actually your 'wishes', making it an illusion.

This contrived power exchange is the very cornerstone of the Cuck lifestyle. You adopt the role of an "accepting cuckold" who is willing to tolerate her infidelity in order to keep such an amazing woman... while she assumes the role of the "insatiable, adulteress wife" who loves her husband, but is so sexual that she's unable or un-willing to remain faithful.

That line between reality and role play can be fuzzy. Each couple must find the level that works for them. Be aware that it can also change over time, as your relationship matures and evolves.
cuckold - Pronunciation - kuk-uhld - noun 1) The husband of an unfaithful wife. 2) A husband whose wife has sex with others. NOTE - It does NOT say: Sexually confused, submissive, humiliated, sissified, crossdresser, cocksucker, or piss drinker

What's even more complex is our conversations on the subject of swinging. For the record the term cuckold has not been uttered by either party. We have discussed how swinging would have been great for our relationship.
Now clearly there were many problems. My wife simply was disinterested in sex, stating to me several times over the course of a few years how her sex life has been lost. What bullshit. Most women begin peaking around age 30 and here I am with what should be prime sex. And don't get me wrong there were some good nights but for the most part it was my wife masturbating with her favorite toy and then me mounting her daily to her not really at all being enthusiastic unless she was tipsy or felt like it. And that felt like it part was rare. I recall getting upset on my birthday because of all the things and I had already mentioned previously, clearly communicating my needs, that I wanted her to initiate intimacy and to dress up And do what we do. And that just did not happen. It caused a fight to which she was not going to give in on. For years even though we had sex almost daily, I ignored the clues of my wife simply not being at all interested.
And learning now as we discuss certain things how she has her sex drive back. Or the time he fucked her 4 times including twice before work to which she said made her so dizzy. And admitting to me that she is pretty much in a relationship with this guy. But here she is talking to me, fucking me. She fucked someone this past week so she is in a place for a woman that has to be real good. She's an attractive woman so she can have just about any man. I'm sure all the guys who have come to her bar over the years are no just licking their chops knowing she is not only available but willing.
Then she has me. The man she was in love. The man that sexually did all the things she's having done to her now. Who she pretty much rejected but is still involved with also giving her attention. Definitely pigging out on that having your cake and eating it too.
There's been some other things discussed as undo have some pictures I will try to get Ito the site. She sent me some pics of her snatch.
Ronald Curry

Well it was an eventful day which started with the ex sharing her adulterous pussy with me.
First let me retrace. It's my night with the kids and I have a great spot. So the night is great. It was arranged that as I drop my *** of to school I drop the baby off. But because if a mix up of the car situation she was having him stay over and as I mentioned to her that I'm bit comfortable having a man around the kids at this point and time and its going to be a situation if he's there. So I suggested she can have her fun and ill hang with the baby until she can one get her as long as its by 930. To which the ex said yes. Then around 9 says she's on her way. What transpires next has given me a hard on all day.
She walked into my home as if she owned the place . She was in her regular comfy home attire and walked right into my bedroom saying something about how much she hurts and can barely sit down. She was in my bathroom with her bottoms down to her knees. I said come here and nudged her to the bed where she giggled and asked what I was doing, yet did not object. As I pulled her bottoms down I witnessed an amazing scene. He have here at least 3 or 4 hard hickies all over her thighs, ass cheeks, around her pussy area.

I told her do I even need to ask if you've been fucked. She giggled and said cant you tell. I said she looked amazing with these bruises. Now she did mention she was in a hurry. So I dived right in and you can tell this time she really enjoyed it. I lapped her up and savored her flavor along with his. I asked if her ass was played with and she said only with the anal beads. Usually when I lick her ass its usually for quite an extended time so even though I went down there to taste her she again reminded me how urgent she needed to leave. So I stuck my aching cock inside her. I fucked her real good as she finally was being receptive and as I encouraged her she taunted me a little bit saying how much she loved his cock. Looking down at those bruises was so sexy and I was doing everything I could from not cumming so I could show her still that is can tear her up. She looked at me and said I had 10 seconds to cum or she was taking it away. She got to 3 and I begged her not to stop as I was so close. I think she kind of knows I like the *********** so she mentioned how great his cock was. I started cumming and she liked that. Was smiling as I filled her up. Then she ran off.

So now I've had about a half dozen scenarios with her used cunt and I must say, I've lived a life of hypocrisy. In real life I portray this to be unacceptable and would get mad at my wife if here was any suspicions to which my knowledge was none besides the one she confessed as a period of us being "broken up." Which was total bullshit. But deep down I'd come on a site like cuckoldplace to jerk off to my fantasies. How ironic and sad is this situation that I'm in. Sure I may be today and in the short term getting cuckold action. My failure to speak up has caused me to move out of my home and be able to enjoy my wife the way i fantasized. I get some adulterous pussy but it could have been heaven had we simply talked. And who knows, maybe what we are doing is progress. It's just not the way it should have gone down is all in saying.

The ex did mention a possible late night invitation and also on Friday night we will spend together . Things are moving and may change but that's the plan right now.

Thanks everyone for chiming in in fascinated having you share your experiences or draw parallels. I would very much like to discuss more
Ronald Curry

Palm coast I read what you wrote word for word and will follow your game plan to perfect execution.
Especially the last part. I recall her being so angry coming home one night and mr asking to remove her boots and he began crying and angry about me being to submissive. That was a problem with her. Now our routine was me rolling over and either kissing her hently on her shoulder and starting some oral foreplay. Or if it was morning and I wanted some I just turned her over and plowed right in. Rarely did she same like she came. But I also always pestered her with playing with her toy, or letting me lick her feet, and even using the whip on me. Although she at times enjoyed these things, I must have requested these acts more than she was able to stomach.

But back to the last part, and please note I am not in a hunt for a relationship, I am talking to women. I asked the realtor out, a woman from work is interested, and I'm on. A dating website and have pulled a handful of numbers including one I'm seeing tonight. And she asked about other women and I said yes there is. She pressed me a. It and I told her it was all preliminary stuff and nothing serious. She aske if it was weird for her to wonder what the chick looks like. I answered with "about as weird me wanting to have you after you've had sex." Communication had been good and a part of me does enjoy this single life, but I also understand there may not be an opportunity for something like this. I had something similar in college but nothing like this. She for the past 2 sessions blatantly flaunted her sex to me. Including how bruised she was which was a great site to see.
Ronald Curry

A couple of points: You state in your post (48) that you think there is progress within your relationship with your wife, I agree. It's slow, but it is evident, Keep working on it the way you are, you're getting there. Secondly, in the next post (49) you talk about her flaunting her used sex at you. She wants you to see that she's being actively fucked, by other guys besides you, and she's proud of the evidence being there for you to see, it makes her feel wanted, sexy, loved, and very fulfilled as a woman. But I believe that at least some of this is down to her attempting to lure you back again. She definitely wants the best of both worlds, even if you get back together full time, I can't ever see her giving up the extras from outside the marriage now, not now she's come to realise how good it can be. You need to reassure her that you like what's going on and you approve of this 'new' wife that's 'come out'!
Keep us updated.

Perhaps it's not be going as it could have, if you had communicated better with her in the past. But it's still moving in the right direction. She knows she made a mistake. You two are talking regularly, she's been meeting with you and she has been receptive to sex. You'll most likely get back together, as long as you don't fuck it up (as us guys tend to do) LOL

A few points jump out at me; First, she's uncomfortable with you being too submissive. You obviously enjoy that, but try to think long term and let it go for now. Most women want to please their spouse. Over time she will probably come around and learn to enjoy being more dominant over you. But right now it's freaking her out. I would back off and keep the submissiveness to a minimum during this rebuilding phase.

Second, I wouldn't introduce the phrase "cuckold". If she's not familiar with it she may Google it. If you do that, you get hardcore fetish sites that are nothing but black guys gangbanging white wives while pissing on their cock-sucking husband who's dressed in panties and wearing a cock cage. If she sees that crap then she'll think that's what you want, and possibly run for the hills!

kennyboy is correct... she's flaunting the fact that she's having sex with the other guy because she knows it makes you desire her, which reinforces her self confidence. Go with it. Encourage her to keep it up ... let her know you're both on the same page, and use a LOT of positive reinforcement. This will be one of the key building blocks as you rebuild your new relationship.
cuckold - Pronunciation - kuk-uhld - noun 1) The husband of an unfaithful wife. 2) A husband whose wife has sex with others. NOTE - It does NOT say: Sexually confused, submissive, humiliated, sissified, crossdresser, cocksucker, or piss drinker

SheDatesHeWaits

This man deserves huge respect, he's talking from an experienced point of view, as opposed to the cuckold 'wannabee's' fantasy perspective - listen to him.

If you truly want this to work then you must treat it as a long term exercise, not an overnight conversion. You doing well at the moment, she's learning more about herself with every cock she fucks, she's gradually taking the lead in your relationship.

You know I've been in this site for quite sometime, but never have I received anything better than some of you folks advice, critiques, and general insight. I appreciate it and it simple reiterates what needs to happen.

Because ultimately what is going on is very complex and goes beyond the fun stuff that goes on in the bedroom. For instance, how do you handle public knowledge. My close friends get my version. They all know that although we did have a solid foundation, our relationship was rocky. I'm more accepting, go with the flow, don't fix what ain't broken , etc. while also focusing on the ideal such as keeping us together for the sake of the kids. My friends and family basically see it as something that was long in the making and her ending it as she begins courtship with another man. She has publicly been seen with him. Has had a night in a hotel with him perhaps even to the knowledge of others. She dresses up for him. Does all the things women do, and men also, at the early stages of relationship. It's like embellishing ones resume. But the question remains, that in the eyes of just about everyone, it's plainly obvious she is sexually active and I am out of the picture. Remember, I no longer live there but for 2-3 weeks it was in my face and others know.
I don't exactly no how I feel about that. I shouldn't care and frankly it's my life and behind the scenes I am having an amazing time with a woman who clearly has deep feelings for me and at least for the last few sessions has come around and not only realizing this is acceptable sexual behavior for me, but I think in some way she must be getting a thrill as well. But there is that humiliating feeling of the kind where you hear laughter, and you think it's you that's the butt of the joke. That seems to be a struggle.

Today out of the blue she tells me she loves me and how upset she was this morning about us not spending the holiday together. And her words "I keep thinking one day we could make this work" I responded with go knows what fate has in store. Maybe or maybe not. It's nice to dream.

It's kind of dumb but its almost playing some twisted game.
There are some other updates but ill share those later.

Last nights date went well. We agree to a greet and meet since it was an online thing. She looked real good. Nice fit body, great eyes, face was nice especially the smile. Needless to say there was no silence, multiple laughs. It was comforting to be around another woman albeit I was nervous, we will likely be seeing each other again.

More coming later
Ronald Curry

Your situation is progressing nicely in the right direction.

However, the other woman you're seeing is a potential land mine. The relationship with your wife is very fragile right now. You need to strive for stability. Avoid rocking the boat with surprises while she's dealing with her emotions.

Her seeing another guy is mutually agreeable because you both get off on it. You seeing another woman will NOT have the same effect. Women are different. You going out with other women could help tease her back to you. But if things get serious between you and another woman your wife may feel threatened and get angry. So try to find that balance and don't let things get too serious. Later you can offer to "give up other women" as proof of your love for her, and your commitment to the relationship.

As far as your friends knowing what happened, you're going to have to deal with it. Once it's out there, there is no putting it back in the bottle. I would suggest being upfront about things. Let your friends know that you hit a bump in the road and separated for a while, and you BOTH played the field while you were apart. Everybody would understand. It happens.

Now... later, as you patch things up and get back together, you both need to talk about that issue and come to an agreement. 99% of most couples are very secretive about their Cuck/Hotwife lifestyle. The wife is selective and discreet, always keeping a low profile and avoiding risks of being seen by acquaintances.

However a few couples are very open and don't care who knows. You have to decide which you prefer. There is usually no middle ground though. You can't be "moderately secretive". Everyone loves gossip. If one person knows, rest assured that everyone in your social circle will eventually know that you're okay with your wife fucking other men. Think about it...
cuckold - Pronunciation - kuk-uhld - noun 1) The husband of an unfaithful wife. 2) A husband whose wife has sex with others. NOTE - It does NOT say: Sexually confused, submissive, humiliated, sissified, crossdresser, cocksucker, or piss drinker

Palm coast couple thank you. Are you in Florida by chance?

Well it was left open by the ex that she wanted to see me either tonight or tomorrow morning. I think she is really enjoying what we are doing and well see how it progresses. Before our breakup and for the last few months my wife would endulge me in my foot fetish. But more of the denial of her feet. She'd only let me have them for a brief minute or two and usually after I'd take her to get her toes done. So she asked if I would still like to continue this, to which I agreed just so long as she still lets me enjoy them. Well the last we spoke a few hours ago she says she'll be by in the morning. Well see I'm not holding my breath but I imagine she chose the morning so she can spend the night with her lover. This ought to be an interesting evening as ill have angst all night and hopefully she doesn't stand me up. A part of me wants to have her pussy clean and not sexed up. Can't explain why but I'd like her to come around like that. But of course I know we're in deep now and well see if this happens whether ill get another dirty treat. I can't tell you how much I'd really like to dive into a fresh cream pie and if we ever did reconcile, I'm sue its possible. Because the times I've eaten her after him you can tell she's had sex but there wasn't anything oozing or very moist. Nothing beats the time he took her ass and her pussy. That's risky sex but god damn did her pussy taste good.

Anyway hopefully tomorrow is an eventful beginning and not a blue ball situation.
Thanks everyone for chiming in. And for the record, any woman and there are a few I'm talking to would not be anything I'd want in a serious nature. I am simply seeking to get out there and gain repititions. I've been gone from dating for such a long time i do forget how tough it is. But I would really seek some new pussy in the same way she lusts for cock.
Ronald Curry

Ronald Curry I know what you mean when you say that you sometimes hope that she comes home with a clean pussy. It's the unknowns and the possibilities that contributes to the addictive nature of this lifestyle. My wife describes it as "keeping me unsure and unsteady". Not knowing if they will play with someone else on any given night, or choose to snuggle up with us as our loving wives, is what keeps it interesting!

She's right on track with your foot fetish... using it as a reward if you'll agree to pay for a pedicure. That's a key element of cuck, and she gets it. Try to get her to expand that concept into other areas of play as things progress with you two.
cuckold - Pronunciation - kuk-uhld - noun 1) The husband of an unfaithful wife. 2) A husband whose wife has sex with others. NOTE - It does NOT say: Sexually confused, submissive, humiliated, sissified, crossdresser, cocksucker, or piss drinker

That's an interesting thing for me, as I'm currently in the very early stages of developing a possible addition to my stable, a voluptuous white wife with a husband with a definite foot fetish. he prefers jerking off over her feet (in 'fuck me' heels) and then licking it off, as opposed to actually fucking her. I've encouraged her to let him continue as I know the lack of 'real' attention from him is making her super horny. She's already brought up the subject of him being made a cuckold and he's ok with the idea. She's considering having him placed in chastity, at least for a while. She also has a fantasy about hung black guys, what she doesn't yet know is that I plan to introduce her to a couple of good friends of mine that just happen to be black!

I think you are on the right path. She wants to see a more dominate side of you than you gave her in the past. When she invited you over and you did not show that was a form of power play that you handled very well. The next time you see her demand some sex. If she is too sore from her previous fucking have her give you a knobber or a hand job. Remember it is about power and respect, just don't let your frustrations turn ugly or violent

Sometimes you need to be more demanding, even if she does claim to be sore from too much cock (is there such a thing?) you should still insist on fucking her, show her you can be assertive when you want to.

Well let me get this on while it's still fresh. All week my ex has been all about her guilt. She now knows about the hunt for women, probably realizes she has made a monster mistake, and now is confused with my admission of accepting this particular fetish which happens to meet her needs.
Makes me ponder many things about our relationship and things she would choose to argue about now seems like excuses. She wanted to be adulterous but remained only faithful to me until she could no longer. Although her admission of guilt when she "thought we were broken up" is such total bullshit. An makes it difficult and confusing for me whether this is the right path. I'm actually now more concerned for the hunt of new pussy, than I am to remain a cuckold to a woman that meets some of my needs, but ultimately it's almost purely sexual, I'm not sure I'm connected to her at the level we once had.
I'd really like to say more on the subject or is this just a part of the process. Anyway let me get to the fun stuff.
Ronald Curry