Took plunge!!! Angst is killing me! Advice please

So this is all within the last 24 hours or so. I'll try and provide as much detail as possible.
I've had some experience in this but never anything like this. I let it all out. Felt I have nothing to lose.
My relationship has been at a cross roads and in trouble. Lots of tension and issues over a two year period. The counselor right off the bat noticed the affection and stated that's a good thing. We stopped attending. For the most part things seemed okay. Except for my wife, who works part time at a bar, likes to go out late with her "friends." I was assured to be secure and her reasons were she needed this time to unwind. It caused problems between us I didn't like my wife coming home at 3am. But she wouldn't listen and said its important to her. The term cuckold and this lifestyle has never been discussed.

Well we had another fight back in September and it was a situation that almost ended us. We decided to stay together and try our best to try and make it work. More date nights, the sex seemed better, and I thought we were headed to success.
Everything changed on Sunday. I came home to a letter that basically stated she wanted to be alone. That she isn't sure why she loves me, and that its time to separate.
Well I've kind if felt the same way and accepted this. Things were awkward the next day and we didn't cross paths and she said she was going out.
She came home late and was tipsy. The next morning she cuddles up to me and pulls me on top of her. Things get emotional. "You deserve so much better than me. I'm sorry" and then came the admission of adultery. She was with him the previous night. I was so turned on.

She told me she loves me and doesn't know how to let go buy that she has feelings for this guy and wants the passion back in sex. You see, my wife never initiates it. It's almost as if I have to ***** myself or there will be intimacy.
With things already broken an feelings already hurt. I decided to let it out. I told her about my fantasy of here cuckolding me and how an open relationship was worth a try. She gave me that "are you serious" look. We had sex and it was hot. I asked or details of her tryst but she said she can't remember. So I asked for details like did he use a condom to which she said hell no.
All day long I've been talking with her about the lifestyle. I said what I knew. That it only works for rock solid couples that have good communication. She said that she would think about it since we have nothing to lose.
She's out again tonight. I told her that part of the link for me is the ********** to her and my worship of her. I asked if she would wake me when she came home or send me a naughty picture. To both she said shed oblige.
So here we are it's 1130pm. I don't know and I doubt this lasts but she seems very receptive. This gives us a last chance effort. And at least for a day I'm a cuckold. It's all happening in real time. Any advice would be appreciated.
Ronald Curry

At 129am I get a text and she's at his place. She is tipsy and I imagine they're doing the deed right now. I asked her for a sexy pic which she said earlier she would oblige but its been a half hour since asking. I can't *****. My heart is racing. I didn't get into specifics but when I was telling my wife about my desires I blurted out that I would love to clean her. Nothing would cap my first night of excitement then to lick her creamy pussy. Her panties smelled so good from last night.
Anyway I can't ***** and on total edge right now...
Ronald Curry

Sorry to hear your having problems in your marriage but if you are going to be a cuckold get used to the fact you truly are in second place. When she is with her lover, like it or not, she probably doesn't spare you a second thought. So, when she promises you a photo, don't hold your breath. If you are going to be a good cuckold you must put yourself second to her every need even when it really hurts.

I agree with Bumnote, don't expect much to change except the openness of being told she is with him. Don't expect that she will honor your pic request either. It may and occasionally will probably happen but normally all you will get is excuses of why she was unable to snap a few for you. In reality it isn't that she is unable but more *********. That's part of her domination of your relationship I suppose. However on the rare occasion you do hear the chirp of your cell telling you of an incoming text enjoy and treasure what they are willing to share with you.

Oh how I miss that angst. Congrats to you on realizing your fantasy!!! I hope you and your wife are able to work out the differences you two have had over the last couple years. Make sure you two keep up the communication and ask her to sit down with you to set up the things you want and what she wants. Some give and take on the details of her outings may have to understood, mainly by you. I remember asking my wife to take pics, but she never did. She felt it would have made him uncomfortable.

A couple things my wife told me when she cucked me was that she never thought she could love two men at once, and that she loved that he would "f u c k" her and that I would "make love" to her. MAYBE, in time you could share this forum with her?

Good luck to you and her, and congrats again.

What is happening Ronald? Any news on the events of last night? How are you feeling about it all in the cold light of day? Have you cum yet? Please let us know how you feel about everything.

Well guys I tossed and turned all night. I guess it was around 3am of our last correspondence. She said that they haven't fucked yet and were just hanging out listening to music and having ******. And that she was going to spend the night and be home early in the AM before I head to work. I asked we if she was going to let him cum inside but she never answered me. I also never got that pic.
When she came home she was obliterated wasted and said that they did not fuck. I got to her panties and there wasn't the same evidence as the night before. She didn't want anything from me I asked if I could kiss her feet which she reluctantly obliged while she tried to catch up on rest. As I rubbed one out while licking her soft soles i collected myself and got ready to go to work. I glanced over at her ******** and she had a very satisfied look on her face.

We spent all day texting back and forth about the state of our relationship and she mentioned at how tired she had got of my submissive nature. That she likes it sometimes but thinks my obsession has led her to not enjoy it as much. Her exact word for word account when responding to my message that input her on a pedestal and do whatever she asked me to
"I wouldn't want that it's actually isn't something I like about our sex life there's times I love it but its all you ever want is me in control and I need more than that. You want me so much that you actually don't make me feel wanted or sexy. When you grab me or touch me I don't feel passion from you I feel like i am just an object that you like to worship"

Talk about harsh. Very harsh there. But it got me thinking. I've had 3 real significant relationships. 2 of them now confirmed infidelity. And all three have gone sour as I explored my own selfish need of **********. Pretty much if you put your tongue up a woman's ass or lick their feet on a regular basis you may likely lose them. Happened in all now 3 failed relationships.

We talked about things and she is in no hurry to ***** me out but there does not seem to be a chance and reconciling this time around. She agreed to try this open cuckold style relationship for I'm unsure of what reason. I asked that we are able to sit face to face and talk. Which we haven't been able to do aside from text and that few moments when she cuddled me and broke down while wanting me to fuck her following her admission of infidelity.

Anyway originally we were suppose to talk but she said she will stay late. I'm not sure if she is going to see him again. I asked how they met. He is a younger guy who moved here from Georgia. She likes southern guys so I'm sure there is attraction there and she said that while I'm still around we can try this open relationship thing.
Well see what tonight brings.
Ronald Curry

I'd dump her and tell her to take a hike. You don't have to take **** from a woman. There are so many out there.

My wife fucks black guys while I watch and I love it. She even doms me. But she doesn't treat me like that.

You can be a cuckold and a man at the same time. Being a cuckold doesn't mean taking **** from a woman or being in a bad relationship.

I can't believe how many men take **** from women. It's clearly over. It's over. Put her **** on the front lawn and tell her to move in with the other guy. Then go date other women and find a real swinger to have fun with, not this bitch.

In a year, she'll be on her own wishing she was back with you. lol

Life is short, don't take this ****.

James I appreciate that. That is precisely what will end up happening here.
I hate to lend insight into my personal life but let me say that history repeats itself and especially with her. When we first got together she was freshly seperated from her 1st husband. At least that's the story I bought as a young man. She was weekend pussy to me. But started seeing her more and soon enough she became pregnant. I'll never forget those first few months. I talked with her about it and how I thought what we were doing was wrong since she still lived with the man. But all she kept saying was it was done and how thy hadn't had sex in months and how shed use the baby they had as a buffer in the bedroom so he couldn't advance on her. I bought all that ****. She has many issues and demons. Had an older half brother who she claims Sexually ****** her. I felt bad about this I recall early in our relationship she revealed this to me. Couple that with daddy issues and the wise man today runs for the hills but the fool from yesterday was caring and sympathetic to her trials.
And now look she wants to blow up our family and all we've worked for. Probably telling this same guy the same lines she fed me. "Oh it's over with him."
I get the letter Sunday. She cheats initially on Sunday then again Monday and Tuesday she's crying in my arms.
I'm angry. I'm hurt. But also I've been prepared that this was a longtime coming. It's not fixable. I don't know why I let the cat out the bag and told her I'd be okay with an open relationship so long as there round rules. But she hates confrontation. Would rather discuss business via text than face to face. I told her that my knowledge of this subject is that it will only work for strong bonded couples. With mutual respect and communication. She pretty much is along for the ride because we have nothing to lose. Even though there is some resentment and its a story I know the ending too. I sit here tonight wondering what she'll be up to because there's nothing to lose here. Might as well enjoy something because it may be a while before I connect with someone and be able to have this for real.

I thank you for your perspective and I agree. She'll need to be kicked to the curb. The lifestyle of ******* she drowns herself in will soon kick in and she'll realize that she gave up on a man who fought for her. I'm already numb and getting closure and beginning the healing process.
Ronald Curry

So we're on day 4 now and Ilmy head is still spinning from last night. Another Late night but she came home. I was in such a submissive state. She got into bed and was welcoming to my advance "hey baby" she said. I asked if she fucked and she said yes but that he didn't cum. I kissed her back and she moaned so I ripped her panties down and she chuckled. I asked if he made her cum and she said yes. I immediately went down on her and savored her scent and the taste was mind blowing. You can tell by the puffiness of her pussy that she got fucked good. I licked her for all I was worth and made her cum. The taste on my mouth was just amazing. I mounted her and I was rock hard and he moaned. It was hot I asked her if he fucked her good and she said "he always does." I asked if she blew him and she said "uh huh." I was in pure ecstasy. All my years staring at captions or watching the cuckold porn cannot even come close to the real thing. I was enjoying this. I asked about his cock. "It's average size but very thick". I said I could tell by the way he stretched her out.
Then came the bomb! I asked if she'd have him take her ass. She said he had it to tonight. My mind was spinning and I got super hard from that. She said she couldn't take his thickness as she has to be really wasted to enjoy that but he fucked her pussy. I thought her taste was strange. That's not safe sex but I didn't care. She wasn't into the verbal *********** so I had to urge her to tell me how good he was. I aske if he ate her out and she said until she came. She just wanted to get fucked she wasn't into saying stuff without me probing her. Then she said "you got 2 minutes to cum." In which I exploded in half the time.
Simply amazing I can still taste him and all their juices. Amazing I'm on cloud nine.
Ronald Curry

Okay so more probing today. She says "it's weird talking about it because i still love you"
Now earlier today she scolded me again about last night in a see what I mean kind of way. Because this morning also I went down and sucked her pussy and ass like an ****** she ha to have came for sure. If I didn't have to go to work I'd be down on her until she tapped out.
I'd like to be able to post the bubbles from our phone conversation but I'm having trouble. If its possible ill do it to the authenticity of it all. Here are her exact words through various questioning and probing by me. I'd ask her about what he does and how she responds. About his cock and how she feels. You can tell she's uncomfortable but at the same time she's going along with it.

When asked about how she gave her ass up to him
"Yea he had a extremely vanilla sex life he never did anal. But it hurt too much I couldn't handle you know I have to be wasted for that. We didn't ***** last night"

She mentioned how he likes to bite her and that its nice that e can last long

"I don't scream much with him it's more about my body it's like the orgasm runs throughout my entire body."
"For some reason the way his cock is shaped it hits my g spot the entire time"

When asked about taking other cocks she first respond that she's not a whore but later said there might be another guy but if she went for him and this guy found out he'd stop talking to her.

"He ate me out played with my ass then took my ass I couldn't handle it so we started fucking"

"He likes grabbing me biting me just playing with me he loves teasing me pulling my hair just beig a ill rough soft chockes and bites"
Ronald Curry

Been dealing with alot of emotions over the course of the day. She's being cold while trying to let me off easy at the same time. James really nailed, in my case it's a lost cause. If I were to stay it may only be temporary anyhow. She has a trip planned with him and things have moved fast. Who knows its 1230am and she's going to be out all night. If she comes home by 4 it would be a surprise. I asked if here circle of friends were gossiping ot new it was blatantly obvious she was being taken. Her was was simply "a little bit of both"
A cuckold on the outs fellas that's what I am. But I'll go out in a blaze of glory. Nothing was sweeter then her pussy last night. The nastiness of taking a bare cock in her ass then her pussy and me licking it up was probably the hottest act I've ever performed. If only I knew her ass was taken I think she would've came if if soothed her ass.
If she lets me fuck tonight I'm giving it all I got.
Ronald Curry

It's all fun and games until disrespect or *********** enter the equation. Yes James seemed to nail it. If she is going to disrespect you and look down on you and take advantage of your willingness in attempts to please her then separate. One thing you might try is to be a little more dominate. Place limits on her, establish rules she must follow or let their be repercussions. For instance make her ask you for permission to go fuck her friend and put a curfew on her. Tell her that she can go fuck him but must be home by midnight etc. possibly if you show her you care and will not allow her to disrespect you but you will allow her to fuck others with limits she may treat you better. If not kick her cheating ass to the curb.

Thanks i222. But we're passed that at this point. There's nothing to this relationship. What's happening is rather bizarre and probably has we lose even more respect for me. She never seemed to like the submissive side and even wen I tries being dominant she wasn't responding. This guy is fresh in her mind. She's dressing up for him and I was told last night he even stopped over our place and fucked her on the stairs and in our bed. And he ducked her again at night before ate came home around 3am. She wasn't interested in sex and I I'd as you suggested I was dominant and she just complained. That affected my performance.
There is no ground rules to lay down. There is no foundation. It's a man being rejected by his wife and she for whatever reason is obliging and shoving it in my face.
I felt very disrespected last night and even though I enjoyed her rubbing her infidelity in my face, it's exactly as James suggested. His wife does it for fun and keeps him on her mind. Meanwhile mine is cold, we're separating and she has zero respect for me.
My attitude is changing towards the kick her ass to the curb rather then wanting to be a part of her trysts.
I'll be moving out within 2 weeks or so and to be honest there is no chance for us to reconcile and be able to make something work. I got to tell you when I asked about her friend whom some have become mutual friends knowing what's going on and her saying yea, is a type of *********** that I'm not into. I like the idea of strangers or on a vacation a wife playing around but now that its complicated our family dynamic as we do have ********, I can not overcome being a cuckold in the public eye.
Ronald Curry

Well we had to keep up appearances win one circle because of rebids and Halloween. We did good then she got ***** and started bickering but it was more to do right after I asked why she became so giddy while looking at her phone. It was because her lover was suddenly available to her. So she's headed there now. This is clearly not healthy and she said fuck you to me and ran out the house. I need to work tomorrow so she can't stay there buy said hell be with him until the kids wake up. So looks like an all nighter.
Probably wont e getting a fresh cream pie but I hope she calms down by morning...
Ronald Curry

She stumbled in early am and was not in the mood for any oral attention. The woman is just not interested in any sexual interactions with me since she initiated on Tuesday. I want nothin more o recapture the night and the flavor of her and him after they had anal. She went out with her girlfriend and promised to be home. I told her I wasn't ******** well which is true and that I'd appreciate of she would come home and she promised. Well see though. She was very apologetic about how she acted. She always has been after a fight. Usually I get mind blowing sex but that's ancient history now. I will encourage her to sneak off an see him if she happens not to already. I'm like Custers last stand here with her and in a matter of a few weeks ill be gone and won't even have an opportunity for anything like this for god knows how long. I've been a lurker and wannabe for so long and now in a faile relationship with a woman who will at least give me a small glimpse into this life.

It's to early for storybook lessons but I cannot imagine a cuckoos relationship working unless you have the most solid foundation. If or example you have a rocky relationship and think that swinging or cuckolding is a lifestyle that could save your marriage you will most likely fail.
I'm not sure if this would have worked when we were better. Judging by our history an what she's doing with him, she's falling in love. And I feel bad for her more than info myself. There isn't a doubt in my mind she won't last and the hurt shell feel when I'm gone and this flame burning out, she's going to have a breakdown.
It's a very complex issue that is happening and I'm very hurt. I imagine many cucks have gone thru the same. I'd like to hear anyone's story of failure.
Ronald Curry

She came home last night at a decent time after stopping at his place to say hello.
Two things, one she is not interested in stringing me along as her cuckold. She is not getting anything out of this according to her. She did mention when we talked and I said that I'd we had a stronger bond I always wante to swing, she said that she would have loved that. But had no reply to when I said that we have mentioned it and that you just couldn't bear me with another woman, so god knows what's going try her head. Honestly it's probably that the move out date can't come soon enough. She booked a hotel room for his birthday next week and aid she will arrange ********* so t doesn't interfere with my schedule.

Secondly, when she came home she was angry and said how much it killed her to leave where she wante to be to come home to me. She then struggled to take her boots off so I got down on my knee and tried to help. She flipped as said "god I just hate how submissive you are". Then stormed upstairs while uttering "be a man."

Be careful out there you wannabes. This could happen to you. Women can be turned off. Now this one I know isn't for me ad there's plenty of others available, but be warned.
Ronald Curry

It's really started to hit me that its over and it's taking a toll emotionally and mentally. It's been hard to cope the last week and I haven't slept at all. The stress level is high and I've lost about 8 pounds. Not very healthy right now.
Ronald Curry

Ronald,

It really sucks to see this happening to someone. You finally get a huge fantasy come true and yet is destroying your family life. I have mentioned before, some time ago in a thread, something to the effect that its okay to be submissive to your wife/gf. But most likely she married/started dating you as a "man". Women like to know that their partner can protect them, take care of them, etc. I think for most, that a successful cuckold couple has to be a loving one, where her lover fucks her and the cuckold makes love to her. But sometimes, the cuckold has to be able to "switch" and fuck his wife/gf. I have traveled the cuckold road briefly for about a year. But since then have seen first hand how trying to remain submissive can be detrimental to a relationship. My wife and I are still together, love each other, but are having troubles being intimate with each other.

I hope in some way you might be able to make things work, but if not, good luck to you both.

In what ways Allen are you having trouble with I intimacy? Maybe I can lend some insight from my own experience. I hate to know you have your own issues.
I've always imagined that there are only rare cases of successful cuckold couples. Because as you've said, as has been written by many on here and various relationship forums. That although a woman may roll play and enjoy being submitted to on occasion, if it becomes a routine or even happens to frequently, they will often get turned off in such a detrimental way that they never see you as a "man" again.
Now keep in mind although I did many submissive acts with her, it by no means was the only way of sex for us.
There was no more spontaneous sex in public or enough of me being rough with her to keep her interested. And in our case she points to a fight we had in February where we near got physical with each other. It was an ugly incident. I fucked my wife the morning after in an attempt to make up. In the past if she got ***** and blew up on me pretty bad, the next day she realized she was wrong and really gave me some of the better sex we had.
Now some things I noticed that really kept our sexual life in jeopardy was my wife's inability to initiate which I found offensive and communicated to her that it was a need o mine to have her initiate it. In both aggressive or subtle ways. Either rip my pants off and demand it or just walk down the stairs in a sexy outfit. Things that were norm at our origins but faded over time.
Also noticed was frequent masturbation by my wife. Every day the bed would have evidence of her playing around and her favorite toy in the drawer beside our bed in a different position than previous.
So she was getting an orgasm and even though I'm capable of delivering, she chose to masturbate instead.

I'll put t like this an I may have already mentioned it. And it's been confirmed by my now soon to be ex wife, is that sex to her pretty much was me giving myself. Pretty much a willing form of ****. That disgusts me. It makes me resent her and makes me angry with myself.

Anyway I would love to chat we can do private or on here to help others through when things are trying.
Not everything about this lifestyle is what you see on the captions. Wives dot just come home and feed cream pies to their cucks. ****, I think most men out there probably wear the horns without knowing they are cuckolds.
Ronald Curry

Did want to document this past morning as a real exciting one for fulfilling the fantasy.
My wife arrived home at probably around 5am maybe earlier, but that's about the time I woke up. I knew she was going to be at her lovers but she says she doesn't like to stay there so she would come home, however late that may be. Anyway we continued to ***** but at least the next half hour I couldn't doze back as she jug kept purring. Every few minutes she would moan like a "mmmmmmm" they were short 1 or 2 seconds sounds of "mmmmmm"
Eventually I fell back a***** and we got up around 9ish and started getting ready or the day. We were both off and she had taken the kids to school. She started getting ready and was affectionate with me and came and asked if I was okay and we hugged. I asked if she had time for me and he gave me a playful smile and pretty much let me in. I hugged her from behind and kissed her neck as she liked that. I slid her bottoms down and then slowly caressed her tits before laying her down on the edge of the bed.
What I witnessed next was one of the most erotic sites I've ever seen. Live or in porn, words simply could not describe the condition her pussy was in.
She has a picture perfect pussy. It's color it's shape, the clit, it's proportion all is grade A. Usually her pussy looks almost Virgin even though she has kid (1 natural 2 c sec)
It's simply amazing to look at.
Today, I witnessed first hand what a ravaged pussy looks like. I can now tell if a woman had been fucking around. First was the area around her actual slit. It was red and swollen looking. Never have i seen anything like it. No wonder she was purring just a few hours earlier. The pussy walls and everything was beat up!!!! I mean ravaged and torn. Red, puffy, swollen the whole nine yards.
"I didn't shower yet.."I heard my wife say, as if she were pretending to be considered. I slowly started kissing around her mound and with my fingers gently pryed her damaged lips aside as I dipped my tongue in. I commented on how fucked she looked. "2 hours..." Was her comment. I replied you fucked for 2 hours? "Oh yeah be gentle I'm rally sore" with this satisfied look on her face. I licked her to orgasm. I asked if he had her ass an he said no just her pussy an once again how he just lasts and lasts. This guy must have a wonder cock. My wife originally said it was average but very thick. But it's shape is perfect and makes her completely melt with an intense ongoing orgasm. She is in love I can tell which only adds to their excitement.
Once she came and got sensitive I was rock hard and plowed in and she was in noticeable pain. I didn't care at this point I just wanted to fuck. I lasted maybe 10 minutes and aside from some good penetration while my wife moaned she made me feel like usual during sex. She seemed disinterested and unpleasured. It's tough to see that. Very damaging to the ego. I came inside and kissed her clit as I slid off the bed. She went into the shower.

It was truly an amazing site. I ndoubt I will ever experience anything like that again. I wish I captured a picture but there was no way that was going to happen as it could've killed the mood. But the image and the way her puffy lips felt on my tongue will forever be a part of me.

It sucks that its ending. After her shower she commented in a humorous manner how 2 people could be breaking up and still fucking. It's definetely strange. I'm certain she has shared this with her best friend. Not sure what she's saying to the lover. Either way that may or may not have been the final chapter of this journey.

I do hope someone stumbles on this and maybe he's something out of it that may save their relationship. Mine is done I'm moving in 10 days. And my wife gets her period anyday, so there aren't many situations that could present themselves.
Ronald Curry

It's a rough road you're going down right now. Maybe the best thing is to move and try to remain friendly toward her. You have offspring to consider so don't be to negative toward her and also if you part friendly she may still let you play with her adulteress pussy. I'm sure my wife fucked her X a few time after we were together.

Someone on here said that most husbands wear horns even if they don't realize it and I so believe that statement to be true!

She mentioned how she would still like to play sometime and of course we need to be civil. The beginning stages of our separation has me moving out in a couple weeks I've already found a place. Well take it slow at first and try and keep it civil. I don't want to anger her or speak negative of her. The kids are aware but I don't think they quite comprehend what's going on.
It's kind of funny how she said she would've loved to been swingers. Because it sure didn't feel that way while we were together and doing well.
I think it will all hit that first night I'm at my new place. I got my kids that day and she says she's going away for 2 days with her lover. That part hurts the most is how quickly she has found and cloned onto someone. Last night her phone was chirping all night into the late am.
Picking up the pieces of my life and moving on.
Be careful out there guys. People change and the woman who once had you as the center of her world may no longer desire you one day. Keep the spark going. Mine was too sided not only did I fail somewhere but my wife was escaping and would ***** every night and stay out with her friends simply because she couldn't stand to come home. That's a warning sign I missed..
Ronald Curry

We spent today talking about our relationship. Just back and forth text. Surely she is over it although she is saying all the things to keep me from breaking down. But personally aside from the thought of no seeing the kids everyday. I'm actually taking it quite well. I feel a hundred times better than last week.

Would love some insight from anyone who has gone thru with a divorce
Ronald Curry

Been quite for a couple days now. She state home Monday night. I went out for a few hours and hen I came back she was going to bed. I went several hours after and her phone was chirping all night. Not sure if it was him or if she was in a group text or he was blowing her up. The next day we texted back an forth. Some apologies on both ends and we basically talked about how difficult it's been and how we loved one another. She said she was crying I can tell there is hurt. Obviously 7 years is a long time.
Don't recall when she came home last night but it couldn't have been that late. I wet downstairs in the morning to grab a ***** of water. Now I do enjoy a woman's fragrance an have at times sniffed panties. But I'm not the guy who digs through laundry hampers for them. Anyway she left these out in the open for the world, and me, to see. Now having lived with women I know they have natural secretions that kind of gross you out sometimes and make you rethink going down and eating them, but these weren't some natural secretions. This was cum. It was his thick cum most noticeable and sticky like glue at the top near the clit area. She surely took him and she leaks him into these. Couldn't help myself I sniffed me and put my tongue to the sticky gluey part and I won't lie, it tasted good.
I went upstairs and held her before I had to leave and she liked that, I played with her nipple and she chuckled before putting t away. I motioned like I wanted to fuck but all she could say is "I'm not horny"
At this point I jut couldn't ***** the issue or try and weasel my way in I respected she is no longer interested in intimacy with me, and completely engulfed by another man.

Today we talked much more briefly than during the last difficult week. She referenced "in the past." Twice. First I apologized to her for sharing my fantasy and that given the circumstances, thought she might enjoy it. She told me, and this stung, if you get anything from this thread, this should be it, she said that she would have enjoyed that in the past. Secondly, she followed up a similar question about the fantasy by saying "I would have done anything to please you in the past."
Now how could I possibly have brought that up ill never know. But she was willing to please me and would have taken almost no effort to find lovers. That part hurt because it was so close to finding happiness as a cuckold. Of course we ha problems and there was almost no way this would've happened the way the last few years have been. But still not only was i close, but now have to start over with no prospect in site.
Ronald Curry

Would be nice to have someone to talk to whose had experience.
I know one thing I should've listened when I first reported problems. Someone insisted I put spy software on my wife's phone. I didn't listen an I regret that now. Could've been a warning sign. Either carb my wife in lies early on or see what she was bitching about so I could solve it.
If anyone has advice on how to cope with a loss or anything I'd appreciate it.
Ronald Curry

I'm divorced, too. My first wife cheated, then still wouldn't stay even after I begged her. I still talk to her occasionally, and she has confessed that she regrets the decision very much.

Cuckolding should be about including you in the fun, not shutting you out. Is she driving home tipsy every night? I know you seem to be giving up hope, but you could ask her if she will let you drive her on her dates. Meet her boyfriend, shake his hand to let him know you are ok with everything, and just wait in the next room while they fuck. Maybe beforehand you can take them out and stay sober to drive them. The boyfriend might really like his dominant position over you, and if she is in such lust with him, then she'll want him to have fun.

If she won't let you be an assistant to her sex life, then it probably is over between you two. There are plenty of other women out there who will understand your needs better than her.

Ronald,

Each persons experiences are going to be different. I think that best person to ask for advice, or the best person to figure this out is you. You have to look deep inside you and she has to do the same with herself. I have seen in the past two years, two of my good friends get divorced, another one is right about to happen, in all cases the women are the ones leaving. These women in all cases were cheating on their husbands.

What you have is your wife cuckolding you, but its bordering on just outright cheating. Your emotions do matter and I think that the cuckolds/mans feelings are sometimes lost in this lifestyle. I can say that if I were in your situation that I would never entertain the idea of leaving the house. I would ***** her out. She is the one who is stepping out and not wanting you around. Let her stay at her bf's place. You are the king of your castle, if your queen leaves, let her prove her worth if she wants back in. Just my opinion...

Thanks guys. Been lurking in the forum for years. Posted some stuff but this is as serious as life gets.
I don't think as a man I can accept how my wife has treated me and how things are transpiring. That letter she served me was a break up, stating she was depressed and wanted to be alone. But what happened was that night and almost every night since she has been fucking this guy and falling in love. This morning she said she thinks she's getting into a relationship with him. Now apparently from what I've been told is e is freshly divorced himself.
This is just moving too fast for me, and I've already made and executing my exit strategy. Now that's not what I wanted. I blurted out to her how I wanted to do the open thing, but because of my wife's lack of desire or respect for that matter, she isn't the least bit concerned about feelings, ground rules, or having me involved. She does not even feel comfortable giving me sloppy seconds. I even told her part of the excitement for a cuckold is experiencing his wife's adulterous pussy. That pussy I ate after they had anal and again when it was beat up and swollen was amazing. Yet she simply does not enjoy any kind of intimacy with me.
And if we had the chance to lay out a foundation for an open relationship before he took this plunge and stomped on my heart, it may have worked out.
There's a part of me that feels so jilted, I almost don't want to give her the satisfaction of allowing her all the freedoms while I accept being a cuckold. Because you guys are right, there are plenty of women who would be into this and stay caring to their husbands. My situation has completely spun out of control. The life I've known is no more.
It's a very confusing situation because this is something I've always wanted and I was so close and for the past week or two I've lived it. But not like this. I knew there would be angst but I have more felling a of resentment. And to look back at our history and discover the trend that she did this exact same thing with her ex husband is too much to accept. My soon to be ex wife is a raging *********, functional, but heading towards a spiral. I can't stand the thought of another man around my ********. My wife that's fine, but not my ********. I haven't even had the urge to masturbate or check out some great captions. Even the last few times I fucked my wife I wasn't into it.

Someone mentioned how in their circle people are divorcing and I swear its the same thing here. 3 couples I know all threw in the towel. In 2 of those instances, infidelity by the wife. Must be a bad year.

For you divorced cucks, what did you learn from your experience that you took with you?
Ronald Curry

Well it seems like everything is done an over with. I've moved out and aside from my wife toying with me. All that I experienced during this troubling time is about as much cuck action as ill have.
My ex has moved on and seems to be serious with his guy and more so about the sex than anything else. Who knows if we were stronger if we could have developed a Hotwife-cuckold relationship. She is not easy to talk to. She shuts down and even over the last week trying to get closure has been difficult. She's highly emotional and the ******* is not eloping matters. She's all in with this guy. Once told me she had sex 4 times with him in one day and he lasts forever. I believe it because I'll never forget that image of her beat up pussy. She also jabbed me with how she now has her sex drive back. Which really stung because for what seems like almost 2 years with the exception of some times ring sexual, her drive was non existent. That hurt me more than anything. How I ha to basically struggle and not have my woman into it, this guy is getting the version of the woman who I fell in love with. The one whose Sex drive was through the roof and we had great chemistry.
Ronald Curry