My task

I have been set a task by my online Master Bovril to post the events of the last 3 weeks that have lead up to me consuming my own cum every time I am permitted to cum.

A brief background. I was a cuckold by choice to my first wife for 5 years who then developed deep feelings for one of her lovers and I couldn't cope so asked her to make a choice me or him. After we split I married again and this time was sure I could keep my cuckold urges in check here living out a fantasy excistance. Unfortunately once a cuckold always a cuckold and eventually my second wife had 3 dates with an ex including giving him a BJ. Unfortunately this marriage as also end although this time not due to this lifestyle.

I again felt I could control the urge of needing to feel that cuckold angst and I am in nature a beta submissive male. However I could no longer fight it and responded more in hope than anything to Master Borvil post here in the personals forum entitled Online Cuckolds.

Sir now wants me to hum iliate my self here by posting this journey to all other Cucks Bulls and hotwives to read. My first task set by Sir was to cum onto a plate and then eat it after 45 mins whilst then cumming again. I am a cuckold but consider myself straight and even though an real life experienced cuckold this not a task I had ever done nore wanted to do. I have to admit once I had cum I don't think I could have eaten it but after the 45 mins I did knell at my cum plate and cleaned whilst masturbating and cumming again on the floor.

I was set the same task 2 more times each time the interval between cumming and consuming reducing by 15 mins till last week I consumed my own fun fresh for the first time. Also during this time I have given up control of masturbation to Sir who now tells me when and how to cum. I have also been told that from here on I may now only watch cuckold clean up porn and must when eating my cum think of my ex wives standing over me seeing me for what I am which is just a cuckold clean up beta male. Sir has now even gotten me cumming in my ex-wife's panties and cleaning them.

I would like to publicly thank Sir for filling in this empty need to be hum iliated and with some fear and trepidation what is to come

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If that's the case, then your training is going well. At some point it has to be one to one, face to face. Are you ready for that kind of thing yet?

The honest answer is i don't feel i am yet no. However given less than a month ago even the idea of eating cum would have repulsed me we will see. When me and my first wife were together I was the dominatent *****. Over time cuckolding changed this balance of power and i came to terms with becoming a beta male as she fucked more men. I feel the same thing may happen as I continue now. It's very hard to reconcile needing to submit to a inner desire to be hum I listed in this way. I wish I had an understanding cuckoldess but until that time I take solice here and with Sir. I hope that makes sense

Becoming a fully sUb missive cuck is an evolutionary process, the more you get involved the more you want to submit. Eventually you will fully submit to an Alpha male, he'll fuck you as well as you sucking his cock and swallowing cum. Don't be surprised by the changes in you over time. You've already surprised yourself by the radical changes you've already accepted, there's more to come, guaranteed!

Kenny you totally get this. cuck you should listen to this experienced bull

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once again Master Kenny is correct and cuck you would do well to listen. the transition to being a true cuckold is an unbelievably exciting journey made even more so by the extacy that your Mistress will experience from a real man and seeing you in your proper position. do not be afraid of submitting your entire body to your Master as he knows what is best. an the feelings you will have as you submit to his cock and the *********** you will feel doing his bidding in from of the woman you so love will be incredible. his cock in your holes and watching as he buries himself in your bride will bring you overwhelming pleasure. i hope that you continue your transition as have i into becoming a true sissy cuck and to living your life as a submissive lil bitch whose sole purpose it the pleasures of his Mistress and Master and anyone else that they should lend or sell your services to.

My red line at the start of this was any ass play as I am very much straight but a submissive cuckold. I now understand that in this lifestyle as a cuckold you don't need to be gay to service your masters cock. I still have deep fears and reservations about been taken analy (yet the idea of been on my knees sucking a cock in a cuckold environment now gets me very hard very quick)

That said I have submitted to Sir so far and i am in my car on lunch from work wearing panties knowing that either tonight or tomorrow a set of training butt plugs is due to arrive. I haven't felt like this since I was with my first wife who openly cuckold me and hope some day I may be fortunate enough to meet another woman like her

You already know that you are on a journey from which there is no return. You're progressing, your mental state is becoming more accepting of the inevitable. Just as the frisson of pleasure courses through your body as you kneel before a superior male, then it will be at a much higher level as you fully sUbmit to a Bull and he claims your anal virginity.

This is nothing to do with being gay, it's your recognition of your place in the presence of superior males. You will end up like suntzuson and be happy to be a fully fledged cuck.

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and i am so happy and thankful to be owned, used, misused, ****** and serving my Mistress/wife and real Men suck as Master Kenny (cannot use the term "boy" as he is big MAN!!)

Can't believe this post was over 18 months ago

So, give us an update c2w
it might be painful

Due to personal home issues I need to take a step back so only a few weeks after this post is stopped. I really do miss the cuckolding side of my life and hope one day that I will find another S or Tracy. Until then will need to find other outlets for my desire for h umilation kink

That shouldn't be a problem, I'd assume. Willing subs always find their superior. Make the offer right and you will find takers.
it might be painful

Time will tell i guess but i do miss the need to submit

Any body advice please feel free to private message me

Long time cuckold here. Now I suck, swallow, take his cock up my ass when told. If you want to chat...email me at [email protected] and we can go from there.

Just a little update. I am still a single cuckold (if there is such a thing) and still consider my self straight but all the porn I watch now involves the male been ****** or submitting to sucking cock or cleaning cum from his wife. I don't fancy the men in anyway but the *********** of the act is such a turn on. I also re-read an e-mail sent from master bovril that told me to get our a pair of my ex wife's knickers kneel on the floor and cum in them before Cleaning them with my tongue and to imagine her stood over seeing as the beta man I am.

Really need to find something or someone to fill in this gap I have

Bovril and I share very similar views on how a cuck should behave etc. I'm not sure how any form of cuckolding without a wife/partner would work. Yes, you can be set tasks to complete, just as you were previously, proving you've successfully completed those allotted tasks is a different matter, but I'm sure something could be arranged. I find it significant that you still have your ex wife's knickers to jerk off into. It's not just a question of old habits die hard, but cuckolding is so deeply ingrained within you that it's now your automatic 'reset' sexually.
If you want to discuss your situation more then pm me. Incidentally, tell me in the pm where you're located please.

Your task is very simple! Punish yourself!

Select a slightly uncomfortable CB and lock your penis. Keep it strictly under lock and key while masochistically and constantly denying yourself any sexual relief.

Purchase a big dildo with vibrator. Fuck your own ass with the dildo as you imagine the pleasure your wife's cunt is receiving from a real man's capable cock!

Think of the oral pleasures you would pers0nally love to provide to any man who fucks your face as good as your wife's lover fucks hers!

Somewhere along the way you fell in love with cock. Now that you know this, it is time to cut out the wife as the middleman and enjoy 100% of the cock sucking experience yourself! Admit it. You can deliver a first class blowjob because your heart is really into it!
..............PSEUDO PERSON...YMMV!

I have sent you a pm kennyboy82

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The only pm I've had from you is dated the 20th, not today (23rd).

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once you have felt the true freedom that comes when you submit to a real man at the bidding of your Mistress, feeling his real cock grow in your mouth as your tongue swirls about the magnificent head, strokes the bottom of his powerful shaft and taste the sweetness of his precum. and once a real man has exploded in you mouth you will be totally hooked

It's been 2 and half years since I first posted here on command of Master Bovril. I am still a single ex cuckold but the tasks i was set all that time ago have had a big impact on me still. I now mainly cum to sissy cuckold porn. I still very much would love to find another full time cuckoldress but I am getting to the point where I feel I could submitting to either sex. I still miss this part of my life and there is a growing desire to act on it.

Face it! Literally. This is what you really need and want!


Bi experiences usually default to cock sucking because girls are basically seeking a man. Once she leaves, she is very hard to replace! Not too many girls hunt for a man that only wants her to feed him the cock of other males! Admit that you hunger for cock and quit hiding behind a cuckoldress' skirt! You don't need a girl to find a cock! You can get as much prick you desire all by yourself! There are countless cocks ready to fuck your face! Plenty of guys would have zero problems using your mouth or asshole for a cunt! Put your pretty panties on and go to a bar. Walk up to a group of men, politely get their attention and state that you wear panties and need a cock to suck. If anyone is interested, I'll be over there. Then go sit down. Someone may amble on over to chat. Go to the men's room. An interested party may follow you in to chat. Maybe a different bar or other venue could give better luck if things aren't happening there.

You want to suck and swallow a boiling hot stream of salty slime pumping out of a man's very hard penis! Go to a few places, quietly advertise the fact that you are a panty wearing bitch who loves sucking cock, and soon enough you will be gagging on guy! Or wiggling your ass on another man's cock that is buried balls deep into it!
..............PSEUDO PERSON...YMMV!

Hindsight is 2020 but when I was very young and still in school I had a black boy in my class come up behind me while we lined up to go outside and push his semi-erect cock to my ass. I could tell it was huge as it spanned both my ass cheeks. He was dominant and asked, "you like it don't you?" I said no. I lied. He persisted 2 or 3 times asking me the same question. Two or 3 times I lied and said no. I was afraid people would think I was a faggot.

I can only imagine the "tasks" he would have made me do! He was dominant and I felt very submissive at that moment. In hindsight, I regret not confessing to him that even through his pants, his cock was exciting. I should have bent over for him and served his needs, but sadly, I never did.

I suggest that if you know you are a genuine submissive cuck (and I think you are) you should find a real man and become his bitch. You don't need the woman in the equation but you will likely find a woman who will cuck you.
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i think i now may be at the point to be ready to accept who i am. I still need guidence and still very much hope to meet a future cuckoldress but i am also accepting the desire in me to submit to a Dom. I have been wearing panties now to work by choice and chose only to watch sissy cuckold porn. I would be honoured if anyone wanted to private message me to discuss where i may go from here

The good news here is the fact you now accept 3 very important realities. You identify with sissy cuckold porn. You are comfortable wearing female panties. You seek a dominant male to make you his bitch.

The only thing you currently need is enough balls to ask such a man to allow you to suck his balls.

You have a twofold need for guidance. First, you need a man to gently place his hand behind your head and tenderly guide your mouth onto his cock. You will have no problem figuring it out once your lips are wrapped around his prick. Second, you will need to place yourself in a suitable position to reach behind, take his well lubed cock in your hand, and guide his eager manhood into your ass. Once his cock is well inside you, all you need to do is relax and enjoy him as he makes you feel just like a girl!
..............PSEUDO PERSON...YMMV!

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Thanks for your comments. Since that last post things have progressed to the point where i am now commited to wearing panties every day. I have also bought myself a pair of stockings and suspenders and when I masturbate it is nearly always to sissy cuckold porn where the male is degraded. I still consider myself as a straight male as I do not find men sexually attractive in anyway. I also don't have any inner feelings to become a woman or identify as such.

However I have now started to accept that during my time as a cuckold to my now ex wife my encouagment of her to become more and more slutty with other men during our marriage was me projecting on to her what I may have wanted to become myself.

I still seek a true cuckoldress that understands these feelings but I am now actively trying to pursue my sub sissy side. I still seek a dominant man or women to help guide me and at some points push me down this road. I am very nervous still but these submissive desires to serve and be used keep pushing there way though. I really appreciate all the comments here and any private messages

you're starting to accept yourself, that's nothing bad. It is, what it is. Be happy. Enjoy what you are.
it might be painful

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