Hormones. Anysissies taking then?

Dear ShrimpDick

If you already have the desire then you should go ahead and turn yourself into a girl. you're already sized right from what you said.
I wish I was smaller like you so that I would look better. Unfortunately, I am about 5'11" but I am getting my weight down with dieting and excercise! Down to about 170 now. My wife thinks it would help me to be smaller so that I look better.
I posted the links for a place to purchase the necessary items in a previous post along with the pricing.
The interesting part is the larger your breasts get, the smaller your penis gets to be. And after about 6 months time on the hormones, it will never get hard again. According to what I've read on the various websites, it will take about a year to really loose muscle mass and be really femininized but I think it will be worth it. I know I can't do a lot of things that I used to be able to do physically. I don't have the strength that i used to so I know the hormones are busy doing their thing on my body!
I have to say that I was a bit hesitant at first but the further along I get, the more I accept what is happening.

Hi Katie,
Well!? I'm all curious how it went with the "boyfriend"!
Mona

Katie,
Thanks for answering my questions.
I am looking forward to hearing of how you progress in your life.

Initially how did your wife change from being surprised to encouraging you to feminise?

How did she encourage you ?
I guess her support has been fantastic.

Have your friends / neighbours and family noticed and what do they say?

Are you dressing as a woman outside of your home?

My wife and I play with chastity and also she knows of my wish to be cucked but refuses to do this.

I fantasize about giving head to a man hopefully my wifes lover if she ever feels comfortable with this.
I wonder if this aspect of your change is exciting for you? and do you look forward to giving oral sex.
I sometimes wonder what it would be like to have sex as a woman however i do enjoy the sex as a man also.

I will look at the web sites you gave me.

Thanks

Hi Katie, I just read all of this that covers a few months. I really wish you the best in this phase. You're where some of us dream about.
Mona

Sorry it's been a awhile since my last post but I'm still getting myself settled back down from Sunday.
It was very strange for sure and I'm still not sure how I feel about everything.
My wife said that I should cook something nice for dinner for us all so I made as much as I could early in the afternoon.
Then my wife said that I should get go ahead and get ready as "he" would be there soon. She said she had a present for me. She had gotten a really pretty pearl necklace for me to wear that night.
I went and took a nice batch and when I got out my wife had laid out the clothes for me to wear. I was kind of hoping that I could dress "low key" that evening but she had my clothes already laid out for me.
She had selected a really pretty yellow dress that was kind of low in the front. There was also my white bra (a �push me up� style) and panty set with matching garter belt with nude stockings as well as a waist cincher to go with it. She has selected a low heel white sandal too.
One other thing that she had gotten for me to wear that night was a lacy white apron. She told me that it would help keep my dress clean tonight while I finished cooking dinner. I have to admit that it did look really cute on me with the yellow dress.
I got dressed and she came over and helped me with the pearl necklace and when I looked in the mirror I felt really proud of how I looked. My breasts have already gotten to be small �B� cup and with the �push me up� bra, and lower cut front on my dress, my breasts looked much larger and my cleavage really stood out!
I went to finish putting on my makeup and fix my hair and shortly after I heard the doorbell ring.
I heard my wife answer it and the two of them talking. I was REALLY nervous now as I felt that I didn�t want to see this guy at all! And especially wearing a dress!
I was still sitting in the bathroom when my wife came in to get me. I almost started to cry and she could see how upset I was so she sat down and talked to me a little bit trying to make me feel better.
She told me how good I looked and we talked about how much I was enjoying the changes and she finally convinced me to go in and meet her �friend�.
My wife walked in front of me and each step I took I thought I was going to faint!
When we got to the living room, my wife made the introductions and she was just so casual about it that it made me fee a little better. He had gotten up to meet me and did shake my hand. He gave me such a nice smile that it helped put me at ease a bit more.
We sat down and he and my wife started talking (about what I have no idea as I was spaced out at the time with nerves!).
Then he started talking to me about dinner. I guess my wife had told him that I had made it tonight. We talked and as I got more relaxed from the conversation, I started feeling a bit better too. Then my wife suggested that I go and get dinner ready. (she had set the table already.)
Well, we all ate and then my wife and I cleared the table. I finished up in the kitchen while they went and sat outside on the deck. When I went out to sit with them, I was again shocked as I walked in right when they were kissing and he had his hand on her breast. Another major blow to my ego! I wasn�t expecting that at all tonight.
I just stood there for what seemed like forever until my wife noticed me and they stopped and sat down. She told me to sit down and relax too. He started saying something to my wife and eventually we were all conversing again until my wife suggested that we all go inside.
We started walking in but didn�t stop in the living room but instead she led the way to the bedroom. She immediately started undressing and asked me to do her a favor. She wanted ME to put a condom on her boyfriend! It was is if went into a dream world hearing that and I just responded by following her instructions.
He had already unbuttoned his shirt and was just removing his pants and my wife handed me a condom. He just stood there for waiting for me. I think he may have been as shocked as me.
I walked over and started opening the condom and took it out when my wife came over and whispered in my ear that it would be easier if I was on my knees.
Without thinking I went down onto my knees in front of his cock and took the condom and started putting it onto his cock. He was already fairly hard so it went on easily. I had put condoms on before but never on anyone else.
He helped me up and gave me a kiss on my cheek and said thank you to me, and my wife said that I would probably enjoy having another take out on the deck.
I left them in our bedroom and went out and had anther glass of wine (then another). My mind was racing all over thinking about all that just happened tonight.
After about an hour my wife came out dressed in her robe and sat down with me. She asked me how I was and how I was feeling.
I told her that so much had happened that I didn�t know what to think! She had some wine and then took my hand and led me into the bedroom. She kissed me and started taking off my clothes (left my garter and stockings on) then.
Yes, I was excited despite everything else that had happened that day.
We got into bed and hugged each other for awhile then she started playing with my breasts and moved down to kiss and suck on them. She got the dildo from the nightstand and there with it was the used condom, the condom I had put on her boyfriend and he had used to be inside of her.
She told me to go ahead and out it on the dildo the way I had done before. I knew what she meant that I should put it on inside out so the outside was covered with his cum. As I put it the dildo, I started stroking it thinking about how smooth and slick it was then she moved it to my mouth again but this time she told me to put my hands on each side of my breasts and push them together.
Then she took the dildo from my mouth and started sliding it between my breasts. It felt so smooth and slick sliding and at the same time I was realizing exactly what she was doing to me. I was being �titty fucked� by her as she stroked my little cock with her other hand.
I found myself kneading my breasts as she kept working the cock between my boobs until finally I came in her hand. Then she moved her hand to my mouth and I was licking my cum off her hand.
We hugged very tightly afterwards and didn�t really say much more that night.
The next morning it all see so unreal, like a dream that never happened and at the same time I have to admit that I felt good in a different way about everything.
I guess it�s just coming to terms with what I am now and what our relationship is and will be.
Not sure if I should write anymore or not�

Dear Happy
My wife was very PO�d to start with and it kind of took me by surprise when she started supporting me. I can�t really say why she changed but I�m now glad she did. I do miss the life we had but I enjoy the life we have now too.
Her support seemed very strange at first and I wasn�t sure about how to accept it or what it was all about. It was very confusing to me. I wish I understood it better myself and at the same time, I don�t care anymore either.
I do now go out of the house quite a bit dressed as a female. Usually it�s very �low key� dressing. By that I mean more in line with typical girls dress. Usually jeans or nice shorts and a two piece top to go with it. If it�s to a place where skirts or a dress would seem the norm or at least not out of place, then I prefer to be dressed that way.
The oral sex part I had not really thought about beyond fantasy before but after all that went on the other day I think I would actually enjoy it now. It may be partly due to the way my wife introduced me to the dildo and condoms (used) that I got used to it very quickly to where it didn�t seem abnormal to me.
Since I am able to fulfill being a woman with toe out of three penetrable spots available, I feel that I am basically having sex as a woman anymore. This comes with the knowing that I am being penetrated as opposed to penetrating (which there is no way I can do anymore since I can�t get hard at all now).
Good luck with your decisions and I hope you find what you are looking for!
Katie

I hope all this isn't too boring. I think I have gone a bit too far from the original question and probably the intent of the question.
If this is getting boring, please let me know.

Well last night was different. She went out with him again. Didn't seem as strange now, more like when your sister went out on a date. Still in the back of my mind though, it felt strange. I couldn't really be upset as I am no longer a man, standing there in a short jeans skirt, tank top with my bra straps showing and knowing how large my breasts now were and how small my cock had gotten.
She was getting ready and we were talking when the doorbell rang and she asked me to get it. I went to the door and opened it without even thinking about my appearance anymore. It was of course her boyfriend. I asked hm to come in and he commented on how nice I looked. It was another one if those mixed emotions things! I loved the compliment but at the same time here was a man , who had come to pick up MY wife, telling me how nice I looked!
I told him she was almost ready and asked him if I could get him anything. He politely said no and sat down to wait. It didn't seem so uncomfortable now with him there. Strange...
My wife came out right away and they kissed lightly on the lips. She looked really pretty! Then she said the'd be back later and kissed me on the cheek saying bye and they left.
I have to admit that for some reamister it really hit me about everything and I started crying.
I guess everytiung caught up with me seeing my wife going out with another man and everthing seeming so casual to everyone, including me.
I decided to take a nice bubble bath to feel better so I ran the water and got a glass of wine.
I had gotten kind of horny in my bath and had worked myself up playing with my breasts (I really love the feelings from my breasts!) but hadn't finished. It felt good leaving myself at that point. I should add that with all the changes, there is less of an urge to "cum" but a strong desire to "enjoy" my body.
Later, when she got him, (I wasn't sure if he was going to stay the night but he didn't), she came into the bedroom and I had already woken up when I heard her come in. She came into the bedroom and asked me how I was doing and started massaging my breasts getting me worked up again. Then she asked if I'd like another of "his samples" and I said yes. She got her purse and gave me the condom and it seemed like it had twice as much cum in it as before!
My wife took the condom and put some of the cum on my breasts then she started massaging my breasts again with his cum. It felt so smooth and when she was pinching my nipples I wanted to cum so bad!
She got my dildo out and handed it to me along with the condom. I did my usual putting the condom on the dildo so that it inside out and all the cum was on the outside. I was going to start licking it but my wife took reached over and pulled my leg over so I was now laying there spread open, then she took my hand and moved the dildo to my �cunt� and started sliding it over my hole. It felt so good, then she took her hand away and I just kept working it there until it started sliding inside of me. It went so easily being covered in cum and slid right in. I kept sliding in it and out of me fucking myself with his cum and then I started to feel like I was going to cum.
I knew my wife was just watching now and it felt strange to not have her as a part of this but I kept going. She didn�t even say anything but just kept watching me fuck myself with the dildo.
I reached up with my other hand and started massaging my breasts with his cum on them too. It felt so good I mister started cumming! It felt so GOOD! And so different!
I just layed there when I was done covered in cum, my wife�s boyfriend�s cum.
She got up and went into the bathroom and when she came back she had a tampon. She said it would help keep �things� from leaking out. I opened the package and she told me to spread myself with my one hand and insert it with the other. She showed me how to push it in from the tube.
Then I pulled my panties back on along with my nightie and she got changed and we went to relax.

Katie,
No it is not boring but facinating hearing about your development.
I for one am partly jealous but also i dont think I am ready for all that yet. I dont think my wife would either at the moment.

However your stories have awakened something in me and I have joined a couple of groups on Female hormones and growing breasts.

Please keep us informed.

If you want you can mail me at [email protected].
Thanks

Dear Happy

If you think that this life style is for you then you should by all means pursue it. I wasn't sure for a long time and was very fortunate that things have worked out as they have, I think.
I say I think because I do have a part of my life gone. Actually all of my life pretty much as I knew it.
Everything is now turned around. I do worry about my future as I don't think that I can technically be married to my wife anymore (or think she sees us as even being married anymore) or be married to a man (not sure how I truly feel about thaty yet anyway.
I am learning more about myself and the new me. I learend that I enjoy the taste of cum (or at least my wife's boyfriend's cum), I love the feeling of being filled.
By the way, my wife made a little "rule" that when I'm on my back, then my "backside hole" is my cunt, if I'm on my knees then it's my ass. That way I can be fucked in my cunt or in my ass and I love them both!
I don't know if I qualify as a true cuck as I still have relations with my wife, it's just that it's a different kind relations where we share a double end dildo inside both of us.
I guess I can be called "sissified" as I was a man and now take cock like a sissy (or like a woman would).
Also, yes I am dressed as a woman whenever I'm not at work and that will probably be changing shortly as I don't think I can hide it anymore, nor do I want to. I want to be able to wear dresses and skirts and not feel strange wearing bra's (I've been wearing a bra to work for the last three months as my jiggle would definitely be noticable).
As for the neighbors, yes I got the stares, disgusted looks, and stopped talking to (maybe they thought it was contagious) but they actually don't seem to pay much attention anymore. Like all things, time heals. A couple of them have already started talking to me again now. Also, I'm not dressed in frilly things but rather "normal girl shorts and tops and outfits" of course with a lot of pink to them (now my favorite color!).
Or I may sit on my patio in the morning having my coffee in my robe and nighty and usually (proudly) showing cleavage.
Again, time heals and hormones help make the woman!
Have you showed this post to your wife?

The hormones my wife has me on has made my titties grow so nicely that now i need to wear a size B bra and my dicklet is shrinking even more. what used to be small balls are now the size of marbles and have no cum in them any more. The best i can do is drip a little precum when I watch my wife get fucked by by big cocked neighbor. i am always ordered to clean up the mess left behind by all that dripping cum in her and him as well,
Then i suck him off so he gets hard again and shoves his big pole up my pussyass while i continue to drip.
intimate encounters in NYC area

My wife and her boyfriend went out again last night. It turned out different then I was expecting though.
They got home earlier than I had expected at around 12:30 and I wasn't expecting him to come with her. I had taken a nice bubble bath and put on a little baby doll nighty and I was already in bed but not relaxing when they came into the bedroom. She came in and gave me a light kiss on the lips and asked me to help her. First she asked me to unzip her her, then she continued getting undressed to just her panties. Next she took my hand and guided me up from the bed and handed me a condom and I knew right away that she wanted me to put it on her boyfriend again.
When I walked over to him she gently pushed on my shoulders guiding me to my knees. I unbuckled his pants and pulled them down so he could step out of them, then I started pulling his underwear down in the same way except now I had his cock sticking right in my face.
I took the condom and started opening it but my wife bent over and kissed me again and then with her hand on the back of my head, she guide my mouth to his cock. I could feel it touch my lips and I instinctively opened my mouth and stuck out my tongue to lick it, then I let her push my head onto his cock so his cock filled my mouth. It felt so strange and different from the dildo that I had been using. She kept one hand on the back of my head holding ne on his cock and with her other hand she stroked my cheek and then put it under my mouth and starte moving my head so I was fucking him with my mouth.
I realized I was really giving a man a blowjob now and I wasn't sure if I liked it or not.
Her boyfriend started getting more excited and started pumping in my mouth fucking me in my mouth while my wife reached over and started massaging my breasts. Then he started playing with my boobs too and my wife moved her hand down and started playing with my cock. I was getting really excited as she kept rubbing my cock and then I started to cum right when her boyfriend came in my mouth. It was a strange feeling having cum shooting into your mouth for the first time. I had licked his cum form a dildo but now I was getting it shooting right in my mouth as my wife continued to hold my head onto his cock!
I kept my mouth on his cock until I felt it start to soften and I realized exactly what I had just done! I had given my first real blowjob and my wife had made it happen! She had rubbed what little I had cum between my legs and then took her hand out of my panties. I could feel the sticky wetness between my legs. Then she took my hand and helped me up and walked me into the spare bedroom.
She kissed me again on the cheek and just said "now you are on your way to being a real girl" as I got into the bed.
She walked out of the room and back into our bedroom to relax with her boyfriend.

OK, so now I know why all that happened. My wife is on her period and her boyfriend was wanting some so she decided that it would be a good learning experience for me as well as her not having to do it (she never liked giving blowjobs), and her boyfriend would get satisfied.
So now I guess I'm the official fill in for when she's on her period.
She was asking me the next morning if I liked doing it and I have to admit that it did turn me on to be pleasing a man that way.
She asked if I thought I might like him to fuck me too and I told her I wasn't sure if I would or not. To be used as a woman that way means my full commitment in my mind to being a woman.
A lot to think about...

Katie,
I am loving your progresion. Keep us updated

So it happened again last night. He came over last evening and this time my wife helped me make dinner. We started making dinner and she asked me why I wasn't wearing the apron that she had gotten for me. I had forgotten about it but went and got it right away and put it on. I'm getting used to be a lady of the house now and actually it felt right putting it on now.
We had it ready when he got here. I let him and he complimented me on how nice I looked when my wife came over by us and she walked right up and kissed him again. Just a light kiss this time. I knew she was still feeling the affects of her period and wasn't "inviting" any more than the kiss. He whispered something in her ear and then we went into the living room while I got us takes. We were sitting there for a few minutes when her boyfriend excused himself and then my wife came over to me and asked if I would "help her out" again. I knew right away what she was talking about and actually I was kind of looking forward to trying it again. I had been thinking about having a cock in my mouth since it happened the first time the other night and was wanting to feel it and taste it again.
So I told her I would and we got up and went into the bedroom. Her boyfriend came in a few minutes later and kissed me on the cheek and this time I didn't wait for my wife's prompting, I just slid down to my knees and started unzipping his pants. Now that was the strange part to be unzipping another man's pants that way. Although I shouldn't really say "anther man" anymore I guess.
I unbuckled them and let them slide down off of him and then pulled his underwear down too. His cock was still pretty soft so I started by just stroking his cock a bit, feeling it in my hand.
My wife came over then and she started unbuttoning my blouse, I pulled back first because I didn't really want anyine else to see my top undressed, but she started kissing me while she kept unbuttoning my blouse. Then she just went ahead and started pulling it off of me and started unhooking my bra. I was feeling so embarrased and held it on in front but she whispered in my ear telling my how nice I looked now and not to worry because I would enjoy it more.
Before I really thought about it, I had let go of my bra and there I was kneeling in front a cock that was getting hard fast, showing my boobs to a man. He immediately reached down and started massaging my beasts and it was just so strange that a man was doing this to me.
It did feel so good too as he started pulling on my nipples in between squeezing and massaging my boobs!
I wasn't even thinking anymore so he went ahead and pulled my mouth onto his cock and started moving his hips so that he was fucking my mouth.
My wife came over and took my hand and put it on his balls so I could massage them as I sucked on him. Then she just sat back to watch. I could see her looking satisfied at everything that was going on and I jsut kept sucking on his cock.
I was able to take it pretty deep into my mouth as I had the dildo before. I could feel him starting to tense up and his ball sack kind of tensed up and pulled in a bit too, and he took a firm grip onto my breast, then he was shooting his cum into my mouth and I was swallowing all of it as if I'd been doing this all my life! It just felt so natural!
As excited as I was, I couldn't get hard at all. My cock just stays totally limp and has really shrunk down to a very small size.
It's almost like a different kind of satisfaction when I give a blow job like this now.

I'm on 'mones....
Can you tell?

John's hormone transformation

John's hormone transformation

hi Irza
Was wondering if you feel better now that you are on hormones?
Are you doing it because your wife wants you too also?
You're breasts are coming along nicely and your nipples have gotten pretty big too!
Are you going to keep changing and go all the way to become a woman full time?

Well, my wife is "taking care" of her own boyfriend now again. Although, I have to admit that I was getting to the point of not minding giving a blowjob at all. Actually kind of liked having a cock in my mouth!
I'm wondering now if this is going to be a "regular monthly" thing to fill in for my wife during her period.
I feel a little more confident now having been topless in front of someone other than my wife too. And I did like having him play with my boobs. I'm really learning to enjoy being a woman now although I miss doing a lot of the things I used to be able to do.
My cock is so little now and soft always, that I could never even think about putting it into a woman again. My wife said that in about another 5 or 6 months that all teh changes will be permanent and I might want to start thinking about surgery to have a vagina instead of a cock and become a full woman.
The thought of that is still unnerving though.

My wife found a new thing for us to do. When she got home last night she was apparently still horny so she started on me right away. She gave me the used condom (getting to be standard paractice for me now) and I put it on my dildo but his time my wife said she wanted me to rub my nipples on her clit and pussy while I licked and sucked the dildo.
She pushed me down and I was lined up with my boob right on her pussy and she told me to start rubbing my boob on her. She said she wanted me to try to penetrate her with my nipple, to use my nipple to fuck her while she was feeding me the dildo covered in cum.
It felt good on my breast to be rubbing it that way but at the same time I was feeling a little embarrased thinking about how I used to penetrate her with my cock. Now she had turned me into what I am and was using my breasts for her pleasure. The only part of me that gets hard at all anymore is my nipples.
I could feel the cum from her boyfriend on my breasts as I continued to rub them on her pussy. I was getting covered with the sticky cum all over my breasts but it felt really good when I was massaging my boobs.
"My boobs", I still can't believe I'm saying that, that I have boobs now!
I love her and want to be with her but I'm really wondering anymore what she wants me for and why she "helped" me this way.

Katie,
Yes i also wonder what the future holds for you.
However it does seem that your journey of exploration is exiting i hope in the long run it is what you really want

Katie this is a wonderful story. I already have a small penis and some boobs but no women right now. Hopefully I will meet a nice woman like your wife to fulfill my dream. Please keep posting
Thanks,
Sissy Jenny

katie1z


Your stories are Fantastic! I wish I was you!!!

Pls post some photos of you, and your brest!

Dear jbalk20 and hard_anal_slave

Thank you for your encouragement. I's nice to feel that I'm not alone.

My life changed rather dramatically Saturday night and now I'm really questioning who and what I am. I mean I know but I don't know.
Saturday, my wife told me that she had a surprise for me (as if I haven't had enough of them already). About three o'clock she said I should get ready to go out and we would have a good time.
I'm already used to going out as a woman as we have been doing that for about two months now. So I got in nice bubble bath and shaved my legs and "other" parts. I dried my hair and took my time making my hair look just right. I had done my nails the night before so I was already set there!
My wife had set out my really pretty red dress that was just above my knees and showed a lot of cleavage. I put on my push up bra that further enhanced my bust and along with matching panties. Then I put on my garter belt and nylons (my wife said she always preferred me in nylons instead of pantyhose so I thought I'd surprise her!)
I finished my makeup and I looked really sharp!
I was just adding my earrings when I heard the doorbell ring. I heard my wife answer it and then I heard her boyfriend's voice too.
She called me in and when I got there I was very surprised to find her boyfriend had brought a friend with him! Before I had a chance to really react, my wife told em to grab my purse so we could get going.
We got out to the car and the "friend" and I ended up in the back seat. My wife had set me up on a date with a man! I wasn't sure how to react and I was like in total shock being unprepared for this.
Well, we went out to a nice restaurant and the friend and I were actually having a nice conversation but in the back of my mind, I kept wondering if he knew what I really was.
We had a few takes with dinner which loosened me up quite a bit fortunately as after dinner we ended up going right back to the house.
My wife asked me to get everyone takes and then we were just relaxing for a bit. The conversation started getting a bit risque and I started getting a little nervous wondering what else my wife may have planned for the evening
It didn't take long to find out as she and her boyfriend started kissing and hands started roaming until my wifes skirt was up to her waiste. In the meantime the friend started kissing my neck and his hands started roaming too pushing my dress up while stroking my legs and thighs between that and feeling up my breasts. He did have nice hands and they felt good on my breasts despite my nervousness.
I started really feeling horny ny now with all his touching and feeling me up and before I knew it he was gently pushing me down from the couch onto my knees in front of him.
I knew what to do and unzipped his pants and pulled them down and right in front of me was his cock already half hard. I just took it in my hands and started stroking looking at my hands with my long red nails around his cock like I was somebody else.
Then I moved my mouth closer and started licking the bottom side of it and then took his cock into my mouth and started moving in and out on it.
It was then that I looked up and saw my wife and her boyfriend. She was on the bottom with her legs up in the air while her boyfriend's cock was going in and out of her pussy while I had a big cock in my mouth watching her getting fucked.
I almost started to cry thinking about not ever being able to have my cock inside my wife anymore. Not even that I didn't really even have a cock anymore but just a tiny little limp thing between my legs.
It was then that "my guy" pulled his cock out of my mouth and moved behind me. Before I knew it he had pulled my panties down and had his cock pushing inside of me while I still had my wife getting laid right in front of me. He had grabbed my breasts and had his cock sliding in and out of me.
I think he came at the same time I heard my wife coming. Icould feel his cum squirting inside me. It was so different than having a dildo inside me.
I ended up having to use a tampon to keep his cum from dripping out of.
I guess I may as well start planning for an operation to give me a real vagina.
We both now had cocks filling us.

That is so hot Katie. Congrats on your first real cock. MAybe someday I will be as lucky as you. I hope it was fun sounds like it was. Also, I hope he was big enough for you. Again Congrats. Keep it up.

Well last night my wife out a new twist to the whole thing and now I'm REALLY wondering what the heck is going on!
She got home from work and said we were going out again and I should get ready. I figured it was going to be the same guy again which after thinking about the last time and all that happened, I was already getting to the point of looking forward to it! So I got dressed in this really sharp, low cut, cleavage showing spaghetti strap dress that accented my figure pretty well. Only with this dress I have to wear a strapless bra because of the open back.
After I fixed my hair and makeup, I have to say that I did look very good!
I guess the hormones have really turned my thinking around! I almost don't care about making it with a girl anymore and would rather be with a guy if you can believe that! Craving a nice cock over licking pussy. I really have changed!

Now my wife knew very well how I felt so I was extremely surprised when my date turned out to be a black man! I couldn't believe that she would do that to me! I was so mad and I let her know it as best I could with everyone else around us so as not to make a scene.
I need to give a little background on this one too I think. I've always been a bit of a bigot I guess toward other races and particularly black people. Just never thought much of them over all. I've had some very distasteful experiences from which I really grouped them all as being below me and pretty crappy overall.
We went out to the car and he immediately had his arm around my waist and when I turned around to look at my wife, she smiled "knowingly" at me.
Why did she do this to me? I thought she cared for me? It was totally confusing.
Well, we went to dinner (I'm used to ordering very light meals now too by the way), and I was feeling very uncomfortable, not as mad but still very uncomfortable. The man seemed to be nice enough and kept trying to maintain some conversation with me and I eventually got drawn in to the conversation trying to make the most of the situation, plus not drawing any attention to myself either while out in public.
We sat there quite awhile and had several more takes before they decided that it was time to go. Well we went back to our house and I figured that it would be short and sweet saying goodnight but my wife asked if they'd like a nightcap before going.
So my wife and I both got the takes this time and I asked her what the heck she thought she was doing, but all she would say it to not worry, trying to re-assure me that everything was ok.
We had our takes and my wife and her boyfriend started kissing again. I was really getting nervous now and before I knew it the black guy came over closer to me and started stroking my arm and then put his arm around me and pulled me over to him and started kissing me! God I felt so terrible! I wanted to yell at him and I think he knew it because as I kept trying to pull away, he started pushing me down to my knees. Before I knew it he had pulled out his cock and was pulling my face to it. I wanted to feel a cock again but not a black man's cock.
He started fucking my mouth and it was all I could do to take his cock in my mouth. It was bigger than the other guy but not huge. There I was on my knees with a black cock in my mouth and I knew my wife was watching me. I was so mad, but he had me by my hair and kept my face down on his cock.
He leaned down and pulled my top off and unsnapped my bra while he was saying "let's see those titties". I was so embarrassed now at being a man with a black man's cock in my mouth giving him a blow job right in front of my wife. I never wanted anything to do with black people and now I was sucking a black cock.
He kept fucking my mouth for what seemed like forever then he started breathing harder and started cumming in my mouth. He kept me on his cock telling me to swallow it all and I didn't really have a choice as he had it pushed all the way in my mouth.
I thought I was done and was waiting for him to let go so I could get away from him, but he still kept on fucking my mouth and got even harder.
Then he let me go but pushed me over the footstool and pulled my dress up and my panties down while pinning me under him. I felt the head of his cock start pushing against my hole and I knew I better relax myself there or it would really hurt.
My wife came over then in just her bra and panties, and she had a tube of lubricating jelly that she rubbed on his cock. Then she rubbed some on my hole.
She took his cock then and helped guide it to my hole, holding it for him until he started pushing his cock inside me.
At least he went slowly pushing just a little of his cock inside me and waiting for me to relax a little, then he kept pushing the rest of his cock in me and he kept talking telling me things like, "oh yeah you're a really tight bitch", "you know you want all my big cock in your cunt", I'm going to make you want more black cock".
God, I felt so full, I'd never had anything that big inside me before. I was concentrating so much on just relaxing that I wasn't even enjoying it at all. I was just wanting him to get out of me so I could get away from him.
I could feel going faster then breathing harder, and he reached around me grabbing my boobs and using them to pull me onto him and then I could feel his cum squirting inside me. It felt so warm and it seemed to take him forever to finish. He was just laying on me holding me down and I was trying to get up and leave.
My breasts felt sore from him pulling on them so hard and I felt sore in my hole.
Finally he leaned over and kissed my neck then got up. I ran into my bedroom to get away from him. My wife came in right away and put her arms around me as I cried. Then she took my hand and pulled me into the bathroom. She got a warm washcloth and wiped me off then she got another tampon and gave it to me to use. I put it in me then went and put on my nightie and crawled into bed.
She went back into the living room and I fell arelax. I want to ask her why she let that happen to me when she gets up!
I guess I need to just get used to being used now. Sex is going to be to only satisfy men it seems like.

Great story. I too am taking Estrofem and have little tits and some fat deposit around the hips. My gf is concerned that they will get too big and I will be unable to hide them around family. Any thoughts on this?
Fem Sissy

Dear Jeannette

Thank you for the compliment on my story, and I will say again that this IS my life now. Afer last night, I'm no longer sure that I want it either.
Be careful with your girlfriend as you never know what they will do once they have found out. I thought my wife was very supportive, and now I'm confused as to what is going on.
To answer your question, I found a place that sells spandex tops that look like "wife beater" T-shirts. They have doen a very good job for me in helping keep me "stealth" at work so far. That with baggy shirts and pants (and of course nice panties underneath).
I know what you mean about teh faat around the hips and butt as my butt has increased nicely in size. It almost feels like I'm sitting on a pillow now.
Relating my story may seem strange to some who come to this site but I don't have anyone else to talk to about everything and writing is a kind of therapy for me.
I almost feel as if I have understanding friends here or at least people who can understand what I've been going through.
Good luck with your changes.

Katie

Katie...you can talk with me anytime. My gf is lurking around right now and I have a few questions to ask you. May I email you through private message on this site?
Fem Sissy

Great job Katie Keep it up your story is great.
Thanks!

Well, I'm really starting to look forward to weekends and our double dates! I'm really enjoying having a nice cock in my mouth (only to get it good and hard!) and then have it pumping inside me and filling me with cum. Especially when I'm on my hands and knees doggy style and my breast are jiggling all over! Oh it feels so good being filled up and feeling the cum shooting inside me!
I did have a bad part of the week earlier. I lost my job. My boss and the H/R manager confronted me about my "changes" and how it was affecting people at work. They said I was being too much of a distraction anymore as things were getting to obvious. I ended up admitting to them how I and changed and if there was anyway that I could start coming to work as a girl. They turned me down saying that it was already too much distraction.
So I got home and cried. When my wife got home, I told her what had happened and she was very comforting telling me that it was probably for the best and I'd be happier in the long run.
She said that we'd find another job soon for me. Later that night, she told me she had made a few calls and had some options for me. She was telling me about a restaurant that needed a waitress. Her boyfriend had apparently told her about it.
I told her I wasn't wild about the idea of being seen so regularly by a lot of people but she said what's the difference since no one can tell I'm not a real girl anyway.
So the next day (Monday), I went over to the restaurant and told them I had been referred to them for the job. I did all the usual applications and interview stuff and the manager told me that I was hired. I do have to wear a kind of uniform though. It's basically the standard "waitress" kind of dress that buttons up the front and isn't really short but it's not very long either.
So now I have to wear a dress everyday, along with pantyhose, and the rest of what I used to think was fun stuff! Plus I have to get up early enough to do my hair and makeup too. I had to get some different shoes too since I was going to be on my feet all day now. They're kind of like nurses shoes with a kind of wedge type sole so they're still high heels. They do feel a lot better than any of my other high heels.
The first day went ok but I was very tired when I got home. I never pictured myself being a waitress! Taking order from people while wearing a dress in front of them.
I got home and was tlaking to my wife and she asked about tips. I told her that I didn't really get many. She suggested that I unbutton a few more buttons to show a bit more cleavage. And she said that maybe I should "stuff" my bra a bit too, to push up what I have. So now I have to show my breasts off to everyone?
This is getting embarrasing. She told me that all the girls do it now and then whenever they need the extra attention.
Just when I thought I was liking being a girl.
I told my wife I want to keep looking for a different job, one in my field. She said that with things they way they are that I'll probably have a hard time finding something.
So, now I have two new dresses to wear everyday now.

Well, it's been a week of doing that stupid job and wearing those stupid clothes! I told my wife I couldn't do it anymore, that it was too embarrasing.
She said that's she is still looking for something else for me in my field but right now it was hard to get a job in that area.
I'm doing ALL the housework now to boot! My wife said it's good practice for me. She's upped my dosage of estrofem and the spiro now too.
I'm taking 200 mg of spiro eveyday and 8 mg of estrofem. My nipples are more tender now than they've they've ever been. I asked my wife why they hirt so much and when will they stop being so tender. She said that it takes a long time and they stay sore and tender the entire time that my breasts are growing. If I even bump them it hurts!
My bras' are getting tight on me again too. I think I need bigger bra's now to hold my breasts as they are pushing out of the ones I have.
My wife said they should help me get better tips but I still stay buttoned up.
I think we are going on another double date tomorrow too. I'm glad I have off so I can relax in and rest my legs.
I would like to feel a cock inside of me again though. Funny how I miss something that I never thought that I would ever want.
Just don't want it to be black again.