Growing up Cuckold, Story 1

Taking a break from the story writing tonight, a little tired, so thought I would add a couple of pictures that help to illustrate the scenes I am describing here. Here is a pic that reminds me more of my early cuckolding than almost any other. Lisa was a bit fuller in build than this woman, not as skinny, but the teasing look captures the experience I had well, and the small cock is not unlike my own, maybe a bit smaller but same teasing ballpark. I love how she looks totally in control and totally unintimidated. I am very used to this kind of erotic "I'm in control" smile as I sure many cuckolds on this forum are.

teasing pic

This picture goes earlier in the story actually, but this is not unlike the view I had when I was watching Lisa mount Frank's big cock cowgirl. This guy's cock looks to be about Frank's thickness and length. Lisa's legs were maybe shorter and her butt a bit rounder, but this is a pretty good likeness of her too. The real similarity is the happy smile on her face as she looks forward to this big penetration. I had a chance to see this with her a few times and like this girl, she could not contain her excitement.

a happy big dick mounting

Moving right along�.

Growing up Cuckold, Story 1 (true story): high school sweetie (part nine)


The next few days were kind of a blur to me. I was in a state of pretty big sexual confusion. I had tried to fuck the cuckolds brownie out of Lisa and had been only moderately successful. In the end, she had told me that I just wasn�t big enough to make her come on my cock. I couldn�t believe how much it turned me on to hear the truth after suspecting for a long time that my cock was not big enough to give a girl maximum pleasure. At the same time, I was in a bind � I didn�t know about true cuckolding and the option it would give me to share my girl but still have the love and sexual fulfillment I wanted and dreamed of (as well as the hot teasing that I couldn�t help but love).

So I felt a lot of teenage despair during those next days, and I also jacked off a lot. I didn�t see much of Lisa, I was out of the house a lot, riding my bike to hang out with pals, play music, just forget about it for a while. I would have had no way of telling my friends what I was into. It felt crazy. But I was too turned on to be utterly discouraged. Confusion was the best way to describe it.

And for Lisa, while she had enjoyed our scene, it had left her more horny than satisfied. So, we just kind of avoided each other. The girl I was really awkward around was Lisa�s sister Elizabeth. I thought she would think of me as a total freak, and I think partly she did. But I think she also saw the affection that flowed between me and Lisa and respected that. Some of Elizabeth�s boyfriends were kind of jerks and it seemed like Elizabeth respected how kind I was to Lisa and how well I treated her. I tried not to run into Elizabeth in the mornings before she went to work but we did have our run ins. At one point, Elizabeth smiled at me while we were both in the kitchen, and she said, �it�s sure been noisy around here lately at night.� That was her way of saying that she had heard me screaming to Lisa, begging her to �make my little dick come!� Elizabeth knew about how Lisa was teasing me then.

Elizabeth was pretty intimidating, I was a little tongue tied around her, and she didn�t seem to be that interested in the details � though I later found out that she and Lisa talked about it some. If this situation had presented it in recent years, I would have had the confidence to try to pull Elizabeth into it too. But at that time I just slinked around it, but I played that situation over and over again in my mind when I jacked off, either reliving that day Elizabeth walked in on me jerking my cock or that she was maybe lying in her bed masturbating, listening to Lisa make my little cock come while I yelled out.

There�s not a whole lot of new things to share about my first experience with cuckolding, and as I said, it wasn�t real cuckolding but a couple of kids finding their natural roles without real education on it. However, there were some more hot scenes before I moved out. They weren�t too different than the ones I�ve already described, but it may be worth it to write about one more.

What happened was about four nights went by, and finally Lisa visited me in my bed again. After curling up next to me and just talking about other stuff, she finally said,

�Do you want to watch me have sex with Frank again?�

I think I said �yes� before I could really think about it.

�I was thinking about it,� said Lisa, �and the first time you watched me with Frank I didn�t know you were watching. I really want to know what it�s like to fuck while you are watching me.�

Of course, it didn�t occur to Lisa to ask Frank if it would be ok for me to be there, or even watch. I�m sure she figured another man would not be ok with him. So, she suggested that we have a replay of the other scene. It had been a rainy week but it was supposed to clear up that weekend. Elizabeth was planning to be out of town, so it seemed an ideal time for Frank and Lisa to fuck in the backyard. I could watch from behind the curtain again.

�I would love to think about the look on your face, watching me get fucked so well. Would that turn you on too?� Lisa asked me with that total confidence she was perfecting around me.

�Yes.�

�What would you do while you were watching us?� (she knew, but she wanted me to say it).

�I�d be jacking myself off,� I said, kind of dodging the point.

�Well, that�s true,� Lisa said and kind of giggled. �You�d be jacking that little cock off so hard.�

I didn�t say anything. I loved this kind of talk but still didn�t know quite what to say sometimes.

�Wouldn�t you?� she pressed.

�Yes.� I said helplessly.

�Yes what?� she asked, more powerfully this time, not smiling.

�Yes, I�d be jacking my little cock off, jacking it off like crazy,� I added.

My presentation made her smile. She loved that control.

�Would you be jealous?�

�Yes.�

�Why?�

�Because he is so much bigger than me.�

�And�..�

(I swallowed hard and admitted it)
�He is so much better than me at fucking you.�

�Yeah, Jamister,� she said. �I�m afraid that�s true. Frank makes this pussy come so hard.�

When she said that, she lifted the sheet. I could see her fingering her pussy through her shorts, and a stain on the crotch was growing. It was so fucking hot. This girl was just torturing me with her hotness.

�Look at this pussy,� Lisa said. �Don�t you wish you had a big cock like Frank�s to fill it up with?�

�Oh yes�.� I was off and running now, my ego was gone and my dick was so hard.

Lisa shifted her pussy rubbing to her left hand, taking her wet right hand and slapping it around my cock.

�Oh, that little dick is so hard for me. That adorable little penis loves this pussy but can�t fill it. It�s so cute.�

Lisa was jerking me under the sheets while she said that. I couldn�t even think straight. She ended up jacking me off again. This time she was nice enough not to make me yell, which would have been really embarrassing because her sister had a couple of friends over. In retrospect I wish she had made me yell but at the time it was nice to avoid the embarrassment.

That was the end of that scene, but we agreed to set it up so I would watch them fuck again from my bedroom while they were outside.

This was to be an important scene for me in terms of my own small penis acceptance. Before I could accept total cuckolding, I needed to accept my small penis. I was getting closer to that total small penis acceptance, I was maybe 80 percent there. It was going to take a little while longer. A part of me couldn�t quite remember, or didn�t want to remember, just how different she had been with Frank than me. But now that I had fucked her myself, I would watch her with Frank very carefully. And Lisa had some special treats planned for that time that I was not expecting. One thing we did agree on: if she was facing me and Frank couldn�t see me, she wanted me to open the curtain.

�I want to see the look on your face while you�re jacking that little cock and watching me ride him,� she said teasingly. �But don�t keep the curtain open for long, I don�t want him to see you there.�

In the final installment in this first story series, I�ll share that scene watching them outside. Then I think I�ll fast forward to my next cuckolding a few years later, which was a true cuckolding that I probably wouldn�t have been ready for without this �dress rehearsal.� In some ways, the true cuckolding was more intense than this warm up round, but at the same time, I guess you always have special feelings about your first.

Nice story, please continue!

Before I continue with this story of a defining sexual experience in my life, I want to comment on a couple of emails I have received. I also want to apologize for the delay, I've run into some health problems and am having some trouble shaking them, though I seem to be improving. I hope to get back into the writing more shortly, so bear with me.

A couple of the emails I received pertained to cock size and cuckolding. One permister pointed out, rightly, that size is not the only reamister to get into cuckolding. That's true, I have run into some large cocked cuckolds online, and they have the same submissive tendencies and desires as some of us smaller guys. Obviously having a smaller dick leads more naturally into exploring presentation, but just about anyone can wind up wanting to explore that side of themselves. That is understood.

However, I feel that if I had a larger cock, I would have been much more dominant in the bedroom as a youth. That's not to say I never would have been submissive, but I was powerd into looking at that side of myself earlier and sooner due to women who were not satisfied with my size. This does not mean all women would feel that way, just my experience. And my experience is that the majority of the girls I dated were not satisfied with the size, though that majority has increased in number as I�ve gotten older and run into women who have had babies and/or more experience with bigger guys and toys.

There is also the matter that some folks emailed me regarding that five inches is not necessarily small. Having an argument on what is small and what is not is not worth it, obviously there are many factors. I can only say what I've concluded through my several cuckolding experiences and a couple cheating girlfriends as well: five inches may or may not be small compared to other men, but in my experience, it feels small inside most pussies that have had larger and thicker cocks in them. So when I say "small," that's where I'm coming from.

Coming to terms with my small cock was a gradual process and these stories shed some insight into it. I know I have used the phrase "sexual inferiority" in these stories but in some ways I think "sexual handicap" might be a better phrase. Only because inferiority seems permanent whereas "handicap" implies something that to some degree can be overcome or even in some cases not be an issue at all. Of course, in other situations, size can become so important that some solution (toys, other lovers, less penetrative sex) has to be decided upon for the woman's satisfaction. Some might say the defining aspect is casual versus serious relationships, but I don't agree. Size can become an issue in every kind of relationship, short or long term. "Handicap" might be the better term to accomodate all these possible situations. But, inferiority is a loaded term that can be fun to use sometimes for effect. OK, Emails answered.

Now, back to the story.

Growing up Cuckold, Story 1 (true story): high school
sweetie (part ten)

So Lisa and I had agreed to set up a scene where I could watch her with Frank with her knowing that I would be watching.

In the days before the scene, I fell back a bit into denial about my situation. I convinced myself that I had made Lisa come well also, and that I could treat her a lot better than Frank as well. Maybe I wasn�t such bad �boyfriend material� after all. As if to reinpower that, she and Frank got into a fight that was primarily based on him being an idiot and getting takes with friends and not calling her back. For a couple of days, I thought the scene was off. I was both disappointed and also happy, glad that Frank had shot himself in the foot. I did not yet realize that guys with big cocks who know how to fuck can get away with a lot of misbehavior and still get back into good graces.

The weekend came, and I didn�t expect much to happen. Elizabeth went out of town as planned, so it was just Lisa and myself. Saturday afternoon, Lisa was out and I was reading a Stephen King book of short stories. The phone rang and I almost let the answering machine get it, but then I wondered if maybe it was my manager
calling (I was sometimes called in on weekends), so I picked it up. It was Lisa�

�Jamister!�

�Yeah,� I said a bit groggy from being such a slacker reading in bed.

�We�re coming over soon, Frank and I�get ready! I gotta go.�

She hung up before I could say anything. The next minutes went by in a blur. I quickly rinsed my dishes and took my work out clothes from the living room and got rid of any evidence I was hanging around that day. Then I shut the bedroom door and turned out the light in there, closing the curtain almost all the way, but making sure I could peer out from the crack. I left the window up a crack as well so I could hear them.

I waited, trying to pass the time by reading my short stories.

Eventually I heard voices in the house and knew it was the two of them. Whatever they had been fighting about was over now, I could hear them joking and laughing. I peered out of the curtain and saw them walking outside in the distance through the main glass door. They were both fully clothed at that point. They started kissing and rubbing each other. This wasn�t so great for my view because they were on the left and pretty far away. But I knew Lisa wanted to be watched, so I was hoping she would move the action over closer. It was also really cloudy so it was a bit harder to see than last time.

Frank pulled her t-shirt off and she took his off. I was a bit jealous as she rubbed her hands on his chest, which was well built and manly as she rubbed him. They were kissing and she was rubbing her crotch on his. Even far away I could see a bit of a bulge starting to tent up his jeans. Lisa pulled them down and he kicked them off. He was wearing tight fitting bike shorts and you could see the bulge a bit clearer,
but then they were kissing again and I couldn�t see anything. He had his hands under her jeans caressing her beautiful ass and she was rubbing his bulge through his bike shorts. Then she pulled the shorts down and his large cock flopped out, already half hard. It looked so fucking arrogant and strong flapping in front of him and you could see his cocky face as she grabbed his cock in a state of lust.

Just then, I got some bad luck. It started to rain. Frank put his hands up to see how hard it was raining, then he grabbed her and she grabbed her purse and he led her into the poolside room. This was not a good development for watching at all! He went into the pool room first and I thought I saw her looking over at me as she went inside, as if to apologize, but I could barely see her from that angle as the pool house was well across from my bedroom with the pool in between us, basically diagonal to my viewpoint.

It was raining really hard now, and I realized I had been rubbing my pants and then stopped, trying to listen for them. I thought I could hear some noises, voices from the pool house, but the rain was beating down hard. The only good thing was that it had that �summer thunderstorm� feeling and I was hoping it would pass soon. It rained hard for a while, and I just waited there, pretty jealous and disappointed. I couldn�t believe she would pay so much attention to Frank after he had blown her off all week. But I guess that is the definition of sexual power. If you have it, you can control people. And Frank had much more sexual power than I did � something I would accept much more in retrospect than I did at the time. It was a very painful truth, all the more frustrating knowing he was kind of a jerk and I worked so hard to be a good guy that women said they wanted.

The rain stopped and I definitely heard some sex noises now, mostly Lisa, but couldn't really make it out. I was thinking about coming out of the bedroom and sneaking up by the pool shed to listen, but that was a really risky move as I wouldn't be able to hide very well if they came back outside. I really didn�t want to miss it. But I remember I promised Lisa not to listen/watch her fuck without permission, and maybe this crossed that line. So, I just lay there and rubbed myself a little. Suddenly I heard the voices louder and a door opened.

Lisa was walking out of the pool room wearing nothing at all. I was surprised to see she was a bit hairier in her pussy than usual, I guess maybe she hadn�t shaved down there since the last time I saw her naked, but she looked amazing in the sunlight. Frank was walking behind her, and a condom was still mostly on his cock. His mostly hard dick was glistening with her juices and standing out firmly from his body. He
looked like a porn star and I was hating him.

--- As a quick aside: Lisa had already decided that she didn't want Frank to know she was being watched, but knowing my kinks and hers as well as she now did, there was one thing I did not know as I was watching this scene unfold: Lisa had told Frank in the poolhouse that she had recently fucked a guy with a small cock and was really missing his. Now that this is known the scene will make more sense.

So, Lisa pushed Frank down on the diving board with his cock sticking straight up in the air, tall and thick. She straightened out his condom with her beautiful ass in the air towards me. But this time, when she sat down on his dick, she was facing me.

I watched her pussy slowly lower down on his meaty cock. It was amazing to watch the look of pleasure on her face, and more amazing to see her pussy stretched almost obscenely around his thick shaft, slowly sliding down. She groaned as she sunk all the way down on it. I couldn't help but think back to when Lisa and I had fucked, and how easily she had slid down on my cock. Taking Frank's cock was hard work, even with her weight bearing down on it. Still, she had it all inside her when she let out a satisfied grown and started to raise up and down on it slowly, the muscles in her tanned legs flexing on each side of him.

"Oh my God." Lisa said...."I love that cock so much."

"Yeah you do," said Frank. "I told you not to waste time with little dicks."

"Oh yeah," Lisa said. "Your dick is so much better."

I wondered how much Lisa had told Frank. I also noticed that she was being a bit submissive with him, which she never was with me. Frank knew how to make her pussy come, perhaps even when she didn�t want to come, and that was the power he wielded over her.

As I watched through the crack in the curtain, I could see Lisa's eyes staring straight at me, a look of lust in her eyes. Watching this girl that I adored, who had such an incredible body and appetite for sex, riding another guy's cock, was downright humiliating. So close, so far. But it was fucking hot and I couldn't help but start jerking, starting towards my own come.

Frank egged her on.....

"Tell me how good this cock feels..."

"Oh, so good, so fucking good," Lisa said, starting to move up and down a bit faster.

"So much better than that other cock you were stupid enough to fuck, right?"

"Oh yes, Frank."

"Tell me, or I won't make you come. Tell me."

Lisa knew what he wanted to hear.

"God, your big fat cock is filling me up so good. I could barely feel his little cock."

"Do you want me to make this pussy come? Come like you couldn't with his little one?"

"Oh god yes," Lisa said. The next lines almost ripped me apart and made me come at the same time...."Please Frank, make me come with your big cock, come like his tiny little cock can't do....."

On the next upstroke, Frank pulled out, and Lisa let out a gasp of disappointment. The excitement of knowing she was being watched and all the hot talk must have been intense for her too this first time�she didn�t� want it to stop.

"Oh....Frank, Please let me put it back in, please put it back in, I need to come so bad!!!!"

Lisa's hips were bucking as she said this, looking for his cock which was just out of reach. She could have reached for it with her hands but I guess she was enjoying this submissive game.

"I don't know," teased Frank. "I don't know if you deserve this big cock after being such a slut."

"Oh Frank, don't tease me, I'm so close, I need to come so bad."

"What's the matter, little dick guy didn't make you come?"

"Oh, he did," Lisa admitted, "with his tongue." Frank laughed. It was all I could to not run out there and punch him. "But that was just a small come, and then he fucked me and tickled my pussy but didn't really fuck it, because of his tiny little one." Lisa stared right at the curtains when she said this, and throughout this part in her scene, she had more of a mean lusty look on her face than the teasing smile. I guess she needed to come too much to smile right now.

--- one more aside: even years later, it always bugged me that Lisa called my cock �tiny.� It was small, sure, but it wasn�t tiny. It wasn�t until years later that I discovered the concept of �cock volume� and did some math. Turns out Frank�s cock was about five times larger than mine in volume, and with some work, she could take all of Frank�s cock. No wonder my cock felt tiny to her. That also explained the massive difference in sensation. I might have been just a bit under average compared to other men, but to her pussy, my cock truly was tiny. And her pussy wasn�t worried about hurting my feelings, it was concerned with the primal need to come and take sperm deep inside of it. --

"So you've got a come all ready for me, and you need this big cock to give it to you!" teased Frank.

"Oh yes, Frank," she said.

"Ok, I'll make you come, on one condition."

"Yes, anything!"

"You don't fuck that little cock ever again! It makes you too frustrated and I have to clean up the mess!"

"Oh yes, Frank, whatever you want, I won't fuck that little dick again, just pleeese make my pussy come!" (it didn�t make me too sad to hear that because I wasn�t sure I wanted the offense of trying to fuck Lisa again anyway. I also learned later that girls say things in these heated moments they don�t totally mean�cuckolds know what I mean by that.)

"You asked for it!" He said..."put my cock inside you!"

Lisa then reached for his big cock and put it back inside her. Her body literally jolted with a bolt of electricity when she put it back in. This time, Frank took control of the thrusts and starting really pounding her, bucking his hips up and driving her into the air. It was so fucking violent, and you could hear that wet plunging sound that only a big cock inside a very wet pussy can make. I realized later this was one of the great secrets of big cocks: he could pull out halfway and ram back in, getting lots of power without ever taking his cock really out of her pussy.

I started rubbing my own small cock also, because I could see from the look on Lisa's face that she was heading for a come, and it turned me on so much. I looked for her to see if she would put her hands on her clit to help make her come, but I knew deep down that she was getting so much sensation from being stretched and filled that it wouldn't be necessary. Instead, she had her hands on both of Frank's legs for support while he pushed into her so hard.

There wasn't any more dirty talk at this point, there were screams and moans and stuff but nothing I could make out. Suddenly I saw Lisa start trembling, a shake that started in her legs, and I knew it was happening.

"Oh cuckolds brownie...I'm gonna come! I'm gonna come!!!!!!"

Lisa's eyes literally rolled back in her head as her entire body tremred and her hips shook as she sat all the way down on his cock and just let that huge come rip through her body. Cuckolds on this list probably know what I am talking about here, that there is nothing more beautiful than seeing the girl you love come so deeply, in the way that she deserves, getting an itch scratched that you couldn't scratch. It wasn't my fault I couldn't scratch that itch, and it wasn't Lisa's either. But I knew that I would never deprive her, or any woman, of that kind of pleasure. Yes, I had made Lisa come. But not like that. Not screaming so loud the neighbors must have heard. Not sweating so hard that she was just drenched. Not making her pussy so wet that juice was just rolling down her legs. Yes, my cock was too small to make her come like that. It was a fact, not a sick/hot fantasy. And that fact made my little dick come harder than I ever had in my life, come on my hands, on the curtain, on the carpet, everywhere.

Lisa came to rest on his cock after she came, and he was still mostly hard inside her. She had a big happy smile on her face, and I could see her smiling finally as she looked towards the curtains. She would tell me later that this was the best come that she had ever had. Knowing that while she was getting her pussy filled, that the man who loved her most was watching her helplessly, stroking his little cock and likely coming and in awe of her beauty and power, that put her over the top. Yes, she would have come on his big cock without me there, nothing could stop that from happening, but the intensity of the come was heightened even more by my presence...and maybe that's why cuckolding is so hot for everyone.

I'll finish this scene and the likely the wrap of the "Lisa era" in the next installment.

good work mate...hope ur health s fine now...

Don't leave us hanging. These anecdotes are great. And I hope you do get around to filling in the fantasies with Lisa's sister Elizabeth...

this story is awesome

I love this story. Your story reminds me of how I became a cuckold. There is nothing better than a sexy woman that needs more than you can offer and teases you about it.

Hey folks...thanks for the good words, glad people are enjoying the story. I will definitely continue and have no intention of leaving people hanging between installments. I've made a commitment to telling this story and I will. Having said that, real life does interfere and I have some issues right now. But, bear with me and I'll get these installments down. I appreciate the encouraging words. I'm planning on writing either way, but an enthusiastic readership definitely motivates me to fight to find the time to write this stuff down.

More soon!

- Jamister -

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Growing Up Cuckold, Story 2, Part 2

I'm not going to spend a lot of time on the detail of this part of the story as I want to get back to the part where my life intersected. However, Bethany told me about her college sexual experiences in a lot of detail since we both enjoyed talking about it. So, that may be a topic to revisit down the line after I have finished telling of my own adventures. I will cover this part in brief now so we have a good understanding of Bethany's sexual outlook when I met her. I may spend some time on some parts of this college story, but I'll skip over others and come back to them maybe later.

Let me describe Bethany briefly as I haven't done that. Heading into college she was a 5 foot 6 blonde with pretty striking facial features, kind of a movie star look which she had inherited from her lady. Her breasts were on the small side but well shaped. Her ass was in my opinion her best asset, perfectly round (though by the time I met her it had gotten a little bigger). Bethany was one of those girls who was always a little frustrated by a little extra fat on her ass even though guys just loved it. She definitely oozed sex in kind of a classic "Marilyn Monroe" kind of way and had a really fun permisterality, more of a geek in some ways than a goddess, though she learned more how to be a controlling goddess as she got older and more experienced.

Her first year of college she pretty much ignored her Mom's advice and didn't discrimate based on penis size. She ran into some small and medium sized cocks and had fun, but all cocks pretty much felt good to her then and she was more focused on just experimenting, so she tried anal sex a few times, even had sex with a couple of girls. Her interest in sex was strong enough that she decided to include sexual health as a significant part of her college studies. She would eventually major in a pre-med health curriculum and minor in theater.

Her second year in college, Bethany got involved in a health clinic that was partially staffed by work study students. There, she met her first real boyfriend of her college years, who was also involved in sexual health as part of his goal to be a social worker. He was one of those social change types and looked back fondly on more experimental sexual times in the 70s. He prided himself on being real open-minded sexually, had been with a couple of guys even. To the point I lost track of Bethany, this guy remained number one all time pussy eater in her book, even counting the handful of girls she had been with. He had a combination of zest for the job and well-practiced technique. His cock was average at six inches or so, not real thick, but he knew a lot about female anatomy and knew how to find his way to the gspot. He was a good boyfriend and lover for her, though he pushed her to experiment so much that sometimes Bethany just wished they could be monogamous. They had a few threesomes, things like that. I'll call him David.

Things proceeded along those lines for most of her sophomore year. Then, toward the end of the spring semester, she ended up doing a counseling intake session with a girl that she knew from the dorm. This girl, Abby, was a pretty attractive, busty brunette, marketing major, a go-getter. For the past month she had been dating a pretty geeky guy that seemed to be having surprisingly good luck with the girls in the dorm. Bethany recalled thinking that he had an odd, off-key self confidence.

As an intake counselor, Bethany's job was to take a brief survey of the issue and then offer a bit of advice and refer her to a full time staff permister. So Bethany sat down with this girl (Abby), and asked her what the reamister for her visit was.

Abby got kind of flushed. "Well, I'm kind of embarrassed to talk about it." Bethany assured Abby this was all totally confidential.

"Well, I'm having some trouble with sex with my boyfriend David. His penis is just too big for me and I don't know what to do. I can't take it inside me and we are both frustrated."

Bethany knew the basics of this kind of thing, so she asked Abby if she was using lubrication.

"Yes, but it doesn't help much. I'm really tight and as much as I want him inside me I can't get it in. I love playing with it though!"

Bethany felt a little flushed and out of her league. Big cocks were not something she had experience with.

"Have you ever had this problem?" Abby asked Bethany hopefully.

"No, but...." Bethany felt shy talking about it. "I've never really had a big cock."

Abby looked disappointed. "But don't worry," Bethany said, "I'm sure one of the full time staffers here can help you."

Bethany thought through her mind...there were only two female doctors on the staff. One was older, near retirement age, and was helpful for some problems but probably too conservative for this one. The other female doctor, Sally, was in her mid-forties. She was one of those older women who was not as attractive as she once was but seemed to hint at a lot of sexual experience and likely was very hot when she was younger.

Bethany referred Abby to Sally, who would see her the next day. That night, Bethany woke up after David was arelax and found herself masturbating thinking about this big cock that wouldn't fit inside a pussy. She had never really had any trouble getting a cock inside her. What would that be like, to go up against your limits? What if David had a cock like that, what would it feel like inside her? Would it feel differently than his small one? This was the first time she had ever thought of David as "small," and she corrected herself in her mind. "David's fine, he's average, he feels good inside me." But the fantasy carried her and she came hard.

The next day, Bethany had a day off from the clinic but she found herself making an excuse to come by. She poked her head into Sally's office.

"So," she asked Sally, "Did you talk to Abby about her little...problem?"

"Yes I did." Said Sally, motioning to Abby to close the door of her office and step inside.

"Actually," said Sally, "Abby has kind of a 'big' problem." Then Sally made a gesture with her hands and smiled kind of wickedly.

Bethany couldn't restrain herself. "How big?" asked Bethany.

"Well," said Sally, "from what I could gather from Abby, he's about eight inches long, which is large but not exceptional. She should be able to take most or all of his penis inside him when she is aroused."

Bethany felt herself getting wet just listening to this.

"The problem here is girth," said Sally, emphasizing the word "girth" as if she loved using it. "Her boyfriend is pretty exceptionally thick. It sounds to me like he is seven inches around. That can be painful for a young woman who hasn't had a lot of sex."

"Of course," smiled Sally, "It is a really great thickness for many older women." Sally was implying that she would have no problem taking such a cock but she was careful to remain a little bit professional about it and not speak for herself.

Bethany felt a decided drip come out of her pussy and trickle down her leg, but good thing, she was wearing jeans and not shorts. She found herself feeling a little squirmy and sat down.

"So what did you tell her?" asked Bethany.

"Well, I asked her about lubrication first," said Sally, "but I knew you already covered that. Then I asked her about foreplay. It sounds to me like her boyfriend could use some work on the foreplay, getting a girl warmed up."

"Bethany, you may find this part interesting," Sally said with a knowing smile. "But a lot of women, even older women, don't understand this part. Abby told me that they always took time for foreplay and by the time he tried to insert his big penis they were both really turned on."

Bethany felt flustered by the phrase "big penis." It seemed like Sally was trying to make this conversation as sexual as possible without being unprofessional. "But I asked her, 'have you typically come by this time?' And Abby said 'no.' Usually he licks her but then they get too excited and they want to have intercourse at that point. I told her it was very important that he make her come with his mouth or fingers first. Only at that point, after an initial orgasm, will the vagina expand enough to take that kind of girth for the first time."

There was that word girth again, emphasized again by Sally. Bethany crossed her legs and tried to ignore how warm she was getting.

"One thing I did warn Abby, however. I told her that no matter how warmed up she is, there is a good chance the first time with such a thick penis will be painful for her, at least at first. And she needs to watch the length carefully also, to make sure she can take the whole thing before she tries any deep thrusting."

"So I said, 'Abby, you have a choice. You can avoid penetration with this partner and avoid some initial pain. Or, you can try these techniques and grit your teeth a bit. If you do, from the research I have done, you should have some of the best orgasms of your life. You'll have some pain, maybe always just a little, and certainly some soreness afterwards, but there is a good chance you won't regret it. It will take some work, as this lover is probably three times as heavy in size as the biggest lover you have had previously'." (Sally seemed to have some knowledge of the important concept of cock volume, though she didn't use that phrase. It's something I've thought about a fair amount in recent years...cock volume comparimisters are far more revealing than cock size comparimisters when it comes to a woman's pleasure).

Sally continued with her advice but Bethany had an odd feeling she was now addressing it more to her than to Abby. "Remember, a longer, thicker penis will stimulate your orgasmic pleasure in a few different ways that smaller ones can't. First, a thicker penis will rub against the clitoral hood while thrusting, and likely pull the walls of the vagina in and out which is highly pleasurable also. Thinner penises can't generate that friction." When Sally said that last part about thinner penises, she looked at Bethany almost like she was accusing Bethany of putting up with inadequate lovers. Or maybe Bethany was just taking this too permisterally.

"In addition, many women will experience a massive, deeper vaginal orgasm through the sensation of being filled and rhythmically stretched throughout the vaginal cavity. And some even report a very pleasurable orgasm through contact with the cervix, though you have to be careful as penile-cervical contact is not pleasurable to all women."

Bethany felt a little tongue-tied by the honesty of this advice. She found herself dwelling on that word 'massive,' picturing a massive cock slamming in and out of her tight little pussy, making her feel pleasures she had never known before. She suddenly thought of David, pushing his little (there was that word again!) cock into her and not stretching her pussy and not tugging on her pussy walls and she thought of him banging away but not filling her up and not hitting her cervix for good or for bad.

"Bethany," Sally said with almost a wink, "I hope you remember this advice for future treatments and intakes."

Bethany had lost concentration, thanked Sally and excused herself. That night David did not relax over, he had to cram for an exam. Sally did not need David's help that night to have a huge orgasm. She was lucky that her roommate was out of town, as she screamed extra loud while making herself come, jamming extra fingers inside a pussy that had been leaking and craving a big come all afternoon. And on her way to her orgasm, she had a very nasty image that came out of nowhere, it felt so mean it was almost satanic, but it was an image of David jacking off his little thin cock sitting on the edge of her desk while she screamed in ecstasy, her pussy clinging to a big fat cock that literally pulled her pussy inside and out, while her body dripped with sweat and contorted underneath the pounding thrusts of...Abby's boyfriend? No! That was too much, too twisted...but she had one of the best orgasms of her life in the middle of those thoughts.

- to be continued -

Hey folks...since I don't currently have time to write another installment, I thought I would take the time to track down a couple of pictures that resemble the people in the story. In the previous installment (story 2 part 1), I refer to "Alex," Bethany's Mom, and that she looked a bit like Lauren Hutton. Attached is a picture of Lauren about the age, I think, that Alex was when I ended up meeting her. Alex wasn't quite this hot but had a similar look of grace and self-confidence. I can't post a real pic of Bethany unless I track her down again and get her permission, but I'll find a likeness of her too here and post it pretty soon.

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Thanks for the good words "Ill be." Hopefully you read earlier in this long-winded story that I did acknowledge that cuckolds do come in all penis sizes. Penis size and presentation are different concepts, however, I do feel that for many (though not all!!!) cuckolds they are related. For example, I think it is harder (though not impossible) to be a dominant guy with a small cock. (if you have ever been cuckolded by a guy much smaller than you, "I'll be," you should share that with this board sometime as it would make a very informative perspective on cuckolding we don't hear as much of around here).

At least some Alphagirls simply won't be dominated by a guy who is smaller in size. I have been with a number of girls who could only come vaginally on larger cocks, and for those girls, they were much more submissive in the presence of cocks that could make them come whether they were in the mood for sex or not.

But just as not all cuckolds are small, not all women are turned on by the same things or think the same way about size. This diversity is great and also means there is hope for all of us to find our right sexual "match." For me, my smaller size was my avenue into cuckoldry and also sexual presentation. Mostly it's been a great ride, sometimes it's been difficult. I've already hit on both sides in this piece and will continue to.

I have a dominant side too and I have to think that if I had a bigger cock I would have explored that side of myself more easily and thoroughly. But I guess I will never know. So, I agree with your point of view, and we never want to simplify these things into saying that "all cuckolds are like this" or "all women are like that." At the same time, this is my story and I find that it's better to just tell it as I experienced it without trying too hard to incorporate all viewpoints. Since I have never run into a cuckold with a big cock in real life, it doesn't factor into my story. Anyhow, thanks for the good comment and I'm trying to get to another installment now. Back to the writing.

I really got caught up in your story. One reamister is that I had a girlfriend named Lisa who used me like your friend did.

My Lisa looks like Jennifer Love Hewitt only sexier, if you can believe that. I met her at work, I'm a manager and she's a secretary. She was going through an ugly divorce and I took advantage of the situation and offered my shoulder for her to cry on.

One thing led to another and soon she was living with me.

Like you, I suffer from an average, if not smaller appendage, but at first, Lisa didn't seem to care. Maybe she was grateful for me taking her in and paying all her bills. Our sex life was awesome, at least for me, but I soon realized that she came away frustrated usually.

Consequently, more and more often, I tried to satisfy her with my tongue and mouth. I was trained by my ex-wife, who took cheating to an art form, to appreciate a woman's body with copious oral adoration and found that I enjoyed it almost more than love-making.

Most nights found me beneath the sheets with my mouth glued to Lisa's mound trying my best to get her off. Everything seemed ok until the night she rolled over.

As an aside, I have a strong streak of masochism that runs through me and if I don't control it, it soons controls me. The end of my marriage was partly caused by my worship of my wife to the extent of getting off by mouthing her. When she taught me to kiss her ass I was doomed. By submitting to this depraved act it became easy for her to convince the both of us that cuckolding was the only solution to our marriage.

Back to Lisa. When she rolled over I was back in the situation of surendering my control to another woman. As I licked, I entered some zone of presentation and soon shot all over the bed. It didn't help that Lisa was chuckling.

At work, Lisa started flirting with a warehouseman. I watched, secretly, as they flirted. Of course, I was torn between jealousy and arousal, the familiar state that my ex-wife kept me in.

I decided I should talk to the guy, thinking I could stop things from getting out of hand.

You talk about alpha women, this guy was a alpha man.

He is stronger, a lot more muscular, and has a condescending way about him even though I am techinically his boss.

Instead of making the situation better, it worsened because I approached him. He quickly saw how intimidated I was around him and before I knew it, he invited himself over to my house.

more later
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This was my first reading on this site. I was really blown away by this confessional. Thanks so very much. I hope you post again. You really seem to have a deep understanding of the whole cuckold/beta male thing. It's fascinating.

This quote (below), in particular, speaks for so many of us less fortunately endowed, yet intelligent individuals. I've felt this so often in the past. Have denied my "inclinations," yet it seems to be in my nature or genes. I've even hated myself for have these inclinations. But it turns me on, I can't say why. I don't want to be a "perv" yet I feel myself instantly aroused at the thought of it. Because, again and again, I recognize that women have these primal needs; it's always surprising, but undeniable. On some level, we're really beasts underneath. Females desire the bigger lion to mate with, on a primal level; I've lived long enough to recognize this, again and again. Sensitivity and PC correctness aside, they all fantasize about the big hard dick, whether they admit or not.

But here's a quote from you writing that I liked so much:

"It was sexually gratifying, but it left an emptiness in its wake and at the time, a profound confusion over how I should carry myself as a man."

This is really great. Boy, I've felt this so often. I hope you'll write more.
Thanks again for posting.

Hi Curio. I'm glad that my story struck a chord with you. My goal from the beginning of writing this story was on some level to entertain by sharing my journey but to offer more than just a good read for those who have also struggled (and continue to struggle) with aspects of the cuckold identity. The Alpha/Beta struggles of coming to terms with your masculinity in a world that is still driven by primal attraction is intense.

One thing I would say here is that I have made a commitment to seeing this story through to completion, so I will do it. Health and work problems are keeping the progress slower than I would like but I will persevere as I am working through some key things for myself while writing it. At the same time, I welcome feedback from folks like yourself because it energizes and motivates me to know that others are taking something from my work.

If this story makes people less lonely and isolated in their own sexual identity then I am really humred by that and glad for it. I know what you mean about struggling with self-hatred and even aspects of your identity that might feel perverted. God knows I have been there before and will probably be there again. During times when I have been single, I have had huge porn addiction struggles trying to make sense of my fetishes, which have tormented me but are not something I think are ultimately healthy to deny. The goal is some kind of healthy integration.

At the same time, there are some great things about coming to terms with who we are sexually, and I think, an odd and different kind of "cuckold confidence" that can emerge from this. Now, I'll be the first to say that some cuckolds thrive on the offense and don't look to be sexually confident in that classic way. But while I think it's hard to have Alpha male confidence when you have a cuckold identity, there is a different kind of "cuckold swagger" you can find. It's got something to do with having faced your deepest fears, your shadow as some would say, and come out on the other side proud and unashamed, and fully accepting of one's sexual strengths and weaknesses and how to get all those needs met.

As I said in the intro to this whole story, I think it takes more strength to acknowledge our weaknesses and/or handicaps and embrace/allow them fully into our identity than to just be control freak/small dick jerks running their women into the ground, or trying to, and we all know guys like that, who take out their insecurities out on others in a secret rage about their unexpressed inadequacies. I believe our insecurities can become a source of sexual connection and power if acknowledged and celebrated. Not, no alpha male confidence and power, but power nonetheless - the power of an intelligent, unashamed, erotic mind and self-awareness. At least that's what I am shooting for! Though I'll be the first to admit that it's never going to be easy being a sexual "beta" in an Alpha type of world. Well, perhaps in this forum we can help each other through it and even inspire from time to time. And of course get some hot sexual stories out of it too!

Ok, end of thought process, will try to post another installment soon.

Some incredible points:

"The Alpha/Beta struggles of coming to terms with your masculinity in a world that is still driven by primal attraction is intense."

"It's got something to do with having faced your deepest fears, your shadow as some would say, and come out on the other side proud and unashamed, and fully accepting of one's sexual strengths and weaknesses and how to get all those needs met."

Wow. You're a true artist, with the reference to a Jungian "shadow." I'll be into reading anything you write.

I'm definitely in the same psychological boat as you, it seems. I'm similarly endowed and aroused by the offense caused by this.

I've been called "small" directly to my face. There's something disarming about acknowledging this "fact." My inadequacies are nothing I can do anything about.

I'll always know she'll want and fantasy about someone more virile and masculine, and there's nothing I can do but accept it and eroticize it. I'll always know I'll be on beta end of the scale, instantly replaceable in the bedroom and more than likely quickly forgotten.

I'll go through periods of striving to see myself as something more ... but it always comes back to me in end. Size, but also hardness and virility is a factor. In romantic relationships, my destiny is clear; I'll always be a secondary choice, more "the friend" and never "the one." The one who takes her breath away and make her swoon.

It's almost gotten to the point where the more humiliating things are for me, the more of a turn-on it is. In many cases, it's not just about cuckolding, it's accepting (or being powerd to accept) the sexless, beta-male "girlfriend" role, which is my constant fear and therefore of course what I fantasize about. The "boyfriend who moves in" scenario always blows my mind, too -- and the slippery slope effect of that, of having to accept that "role."

Growing up Cuckold, Story 2, Part 4

Thanks to all for the good comments of late. It's nice to know that this story is being read and enjoyed and sometimes provokes good discussion. Curio, I was going to comment more on your last post but I think I'll continue on with the story instead and get through this backstory, and as I go forward I'm sure some of the good themes you have raised will be addressed in certain ways as I tell my story.

Anyhow, picking right up...

As Bethany stroked Nick's cock to full erection, she wondered at the size of it. She would later see some longer cocks, but she never saw a cock too much thicker than his. Bethany told me later that as soon as she wrapped her hands around Nick's cock, even before she had ever tried it in her pussy, she knew instantly that all the feel-good New Age stuff she had been taught in her sex education training about how "size didn't matter" was way off. She felt so turned on stroking this big piece of meat, she felt herself sorry humping Nick's leg and she could literally feel her pussy starting to lube up and drip. She had never had that reaction to smaller cocks. It was primal, politically/sexually incorrect, and completely undeniable. Perhaps some girls would not be able to explore these size fantasies, but Bethany was young and in sexual control and she was going to find out one way or the other. She almost wanted to stop though, just because she was at that age where you hate it when your lady or man is right about something. But as much as she resented her lady in that moment for being right about big dicks, she was too turned on to care.

"Oh Nick, I love how your cock feels in my hands."

"Ohhhhhhhh...." was all he could say...the pleasure of seeing such a sexy girl go crazy for his cock and the feeling of her hands jerking it up and down, it must have been incredible to him, especially after a junior high school life of being shoved into lockers and picked on. Sure, junior high was a while ago at that point, but as the cucks among us know, sexual status feelings are formed early. Nick was like someone who had rose from the bottom of the sexual totem pole to near the top, and he couldn't quite believe his fortune yet and hadn't totally seized his new power.

"Wow....it takes two hands to jerk your dick off....it only takes one hand for me to jerk David," she said.

"Yeah," said Nick..."What about David?"

"I know...."Bethany said, kind of self-consciously. She felt conflicted about it, but guilty wouldn't be the right word. Some weird lusty part of her was telling her that she had a right to this cock. At the same time she was torn, but lust was taking over. She started jacking Nick's cock up and down, mostly with one hand and long strokes while she rubbed herself through her jeans.

"Oh Nick, I want to fuck you soooooooo bad."

Nick could barely speak he was in so much pleasure.

"Nick, do you want me too? Do you want to get this big dick inside me?"

"Oh god yes........."

"I'm a little worried," Bethany said, "I've never had a cock this big and I don't want it to hurt. Is it gonna hurt me Nick?"

Nick told her that his first girlfriend found it painful, she was a virgin, but after that he learned more about sex and never had a problem getting it inside a girl. It took a while to explain this as he was moaning the whole time.

"But can they take it all?" Bethany asked as she slowly rubbed his cock up and down.

"Well," Nick said, struggling to get his words out. "Most can...a few couldn't take me all the way in but we still had fun," he said, with a wicked grin on his face. Nick was starting to feel cockier, seeing how lusty Bethany was for his cock. Nick still didn't find it natural to be a "bull," but he was definitely starting to grow into that role more.

Bethany liked talking to him about his conquests while she was stroking him, so they talked about that. She asked him how many girls he had been with; he said shyly that he had lost track at about thirty. This was another one of those signals to Bethany that size maybe mattered more than she thought. David was a lot better looking than Nick and more outgoing too, and he had about ten sex partners and some of her other boyfriends had had less. Nick, meanwhile, had been with way more than thirty, including a friend of his ladys during high school (she would learn more about that later).

"Nick, I want to fuck you so bad," Bethany said. "But I don't want to cheat on my boyfriend."

"Uhhhhhhh." Nick was in such pleasure he wasn't communicating well.

"Nick, David likes to have sex with other people, threesomes..." She smiled at him and starting jerking his cock off a bit faster. "I already asked him if he would do a threesome with you.....would you do it?"

"Uhhh.......n.." It seemed like Nick was going to say no, but then how could he say no, starting at Bethany's sexy body humping up and down on him...."I'm not bisexual, remember?" Nick managed to stammer out.

"Oh, that's ok," said Bethany. "I don't need the two of you to be together....I can tell him that....you two would just take turns...maybe I would suck one and fuck the other...."

Nick groaned.

"Nick, please........I want you inside me so bad...please do this!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Nick couldn't really argue...."OK Bethany....one time."

"Yes!!!!!!!!" Bethany said.....

It was then that she realized that she had been stroking Nick for a long time and he hadn't come.

"Nick....your dick doesn't come easily, does it?"

"Well, I used to come so fast," Nick admitted. "I used to come right after I got inside a girl...." Then he smiled that cockier smile. "But I guess you could say I got more practice...."

"Oh...." Bethany said..."I'll bet you did."

"But I want to make you come Nick. I want to see this big dick come."

With that, Bethany took some of the pre-cum dripping of his head and rubbed it up and down. Then she put his hand in between her legs and spread some of her juice on it and then had him rub that on his own cock....he obeyed her almost helplessly.

She started working his heavy balls with one hand and jerking him off with the other.

Nick started moaning more and twitching a bit but a few minutes later still hadn't come, and it was starting to get late.

Bethany was amazed by this, David definitely would have come with all that wet stimulation plus the ball rubbing.

So Bethany tried something she would later try a lot more, when she realized the power of this kind of fantasy play, which is to add something verbally aggressive....

"Nick?"

"Yes."

"Does it turn you on?" (more stroking)

"What?"

"To think about fucking me right in front of my David?"

"Ohhhh" Nick said. He had no experience with this kind of scene yet....it seemed intense, taking some other popular guy's girl in front of him. Bethany felt Nick's cock twitch noticeably, so she continued.

"Would you like that Nick? Would you like him watching, all jealous, while you slam your big dick inside me?"

"ohhhhh!" Big twitches this time, all through his torso. Nick probably loved this so much having once been a picked-on geek....now he was the powerful alpha guy, what a lucky turn on for him, talk about a God-given turn of events!

"Would you like it, Nick? Would you like to hear me scream as you go deeper then he ever has?"

"Oh god!" Nick was starting to lose it......Now Bethany knew what would trigger him, how much he loved being the big bull, so she let him have it. Not in the way us cuckold guys like it, but the flip side of that.

"Yeah," Bethany said, jacking him faster. "I want to look over at David while you're slamming me hard...." "I want to see him jacking off his little cock while you fuck me!" "I want to him to see you really stick it to me!"

Bethany couldn't believe what she had just said but it felt so good, so right, and Nick was going crazy. She went on.....

"I want to see the look on his face as my pussy comes all over your big fat dick.....All over your it....!!!!!"

Nick was about to come.......he got kind of quiet, trance like. Bethany could tell.

She got on her knees and rubbed his balls quickly while jerking him as fast as she could with her other hand...."Come for me Nick!!!!!" "I wanna see that big dick come!!!!!!!"

Nick started coming in big ropy spurts. Bethany had to lean way down to avoid getting hit by his come, H e did hit her once on her shoulder.

After Nick came, there seemed to be a lot of come around. It was dark and hard to tell where it all went, but Bethany remembered thinking to herself that it made sense that big cocks would come bigger than small ones. Especially since Nick's balls were so much bigger than what she was used to seeing.

Bethany loved seeing Nick come, but she was very horny now. She told me later if Nick's dick had been hard still, she would have fucked him on the spot. It was soft now, swollen and flopping on his leg, but it was nowhere near being hard again. Oh God, but it was so much more powerful, and yes, she had to admit, more manly, than David's little cock looked when it was soft. Bethany knew she had to get out then.

So she left, but not after getting Nick to promise he again would do the scene.

"Nick," she said before they left.

"One thing I'm worried about is that David will be a little jealous. He says he's open-minded but he might be a little intimidated. Your dick is MUCH bigger than his. So......if he acts weird I don't want you to worry about it. I want you to focus on me and I'll take care of David's feelings later."

Nick agreed as if in a trance. Ever since she put his hand in her pussy, he was pretty much out of it, in a spell of her making and following her instructions. But he would turn out to be a pretty decent bull when the time was right.

- to be continued -

Growing up Cuckold, Story 2, Part 5

Sorry for the extended delay, real life intervened again. I was looking forward to writing this section because this is the part Bethany used to tell me about and it was always hot to talk about.

Anyhow, picking right up, Bethany had gotten Nick to agree to a threesome. David, who claimed he was up for anything, was looking forward to it. He was a little disappointed that Bethany had promised Nick no bisexual activity, because David liked to come off as pretty enlightened and wanted this chance to reinpower his sexually adventurous credentials. But David still agreed.

They set up the date for the following weekend when they knew they would have some privacy as most people went out Friday nights. In the days leading up to the big threesome, Bethany started getting nervous. She had a feeling in her gut that it wasn't going to go well, and one night in the middle of the week she almost cancelled it. But her sexual desire got the better of her and she didn't. Deep down, Bethany thought that David was one of those guys who claims to be fun and open-minded but is really more of a control freak. She didn't know how he would take this scene.

And Bethany also didn't know how it would go for her � would it really make a difference to her, the size? Nick's big dick definitely got her mind racing and her juices flowing, but would it make a difference inside of her? Enough for anyone to notice or care? In a way, Bethany hoped that it wouldn't make a difference. It would make life less complicated and it sure seemed a lot more sophisticated and open-minded to say "size doesn't matter, it's all in how you work it."

But just in case there was some kind of difference, Bethany decided that she should let David have sex with her first so he wouldn't have to follow Nick. She thought Nick could get more comfortable with the scene that way too. So Bethany suggested to David that she thought Nick would be a little shy, and that she and David should have sex first to get Nick more comfortable. David claimed to be up for anything so he agreed.

And that was how the scene played out. As expected, when Nick came over, he seemed a little shy and awkward. The high school geek part of him had him kind of sheepish, but he did really have the hots for Bethany. So Bethany told him to sit and watch and she and David would go first.

As soon as she and David started kissing, Bethany realized that this dynamic had her extra horny. She had never really been watched like this before � sure, she knew she had been overheard a lot having sex in the dorm, but this was different. When she reached down and felt David's cock, he seemed extra hard too, like this whole situation turned him on also. Bethany made a point of not looking over a Nick for the first part of the encounter � she wanted to focus on David and making him feel good, so that's what she did.

David was pretty aggressive with her that day, he was a cocky guy anyhow and wanted to show off in front of Nick. So it wasn't long before he threw Bethany down on the bed and jammed his cock inside her.

"Damn Bethany! You're fucking wet!" David said.

It was true, Bethany realized. The scene had her about as wet as she ever had been. David's cock felt great inside her and he pounded her hard. The one thing Bethany noticed is that being as wet as she was, she couldn't feel David quite as intensely as she usually could. David as we have mentioned had a decent sized cock, six inches or so, but not super thick. It felt awesome to have such wanton sex in front of someone else, but Bethany realized that as hard as David was pounding her, it was really more like foreplay with her pussy this wet. Which led her to look over at Nick.

The sight took her breath away. Nick was sitting back, eyes almost rolled back in lust, and his thick swollen cock was jutting out of his pants, which he hadn't bothered to take off. His dick looked just huge from that angle, jutting out so angrily, so ready to fuck. Bethany powerd herself to focus back on David, who had yet to look over at Nick. David was definitely determined to make Bethany come in front of Nick, kind of like a dog pissing on a tree to mark his territory. Ordinarily, David would shift his cock around inside Bethany at different angles until he found the gspot, and then he would nail her into a pretty solid orgasm. But he was having trouble finding that spot today, maybe because Bethany was looser than usual, who knows. But David, not skipping a beat, started rubbing Bethany's clit while he fucked her to make her come that way.

Ordinarily, Bethany loved this extra stimulation and would come hard this way, but today, she felt a selfish desire to get Nick inside of her, so she brushed David's hand away, maybe a little carelessly, and said, "Honey, just fuck me till you come, I want to feel you come inside me!" (Even though they always wore condoms, Bethany still loved to feel David's dick pulsing inside her). David was too horny to argue so he fucked her madly until he came inside her, and Bethany increased her pumping by grabbing his ass and pulling her to him, which David could not resist. I can make David come whenever I want, Bethany thought to herself in a happy manner.

David rolled over on his back, all cummed out, and that's when Bethany turned her attention to Nick, who still seemed a little shy. "Nick, take your clothes off ok, and come over here."

Nick stood up and started peeling off his clothes. Bethany kept her eyes on his huge cock the whole time, and she had this politically incorrect thought flash through her head, "What a man Nick is!" She dismissed it as an inappropriate thought, but not before a hot flash of Alpha girl sexual naughtiness surged through her body.

And this is where the scene started to shift a bit from swinging to cuckolding. Some of you cuckolds reading this who found out about cuckolding "the hard way" by swinging know exactly what I mean. Swinging, to me, is not about cock size and dominance and competition but about sexual experimentation and fun. But sometimes a swinging situation can turn into a cuckolding situation, and the whole power dynamic shifts despite, perhaps, the good intentions of some of the participants. It's as if the natural sexual pecking order rears its ugly head and says, "sorry to ruin the experimental fun, but we're not all sexually equal."

David was not making at all a big deal about Nick's cock and in fact just handed him one of his condoms to put on. This was the first time we saw a flash of Nick's latent bull tendencies.

Not too shyly, Nick said, "Umm.....that condom is not going to fit me."

"This size condom fits almost all sizes," David said arrogantly. "It will fit you."

Nick looked to Bethany with a "resolve this situation" look on his face. Bethany felt another one of those hot flashes ripple through her and her pussy was tingling.

Bethany figured that Nick had his own condoms with him, but she also figured that would be really embarrassing for David. "Well," she said, taking the condom from David, "Let's see if we can make it work."

As David looked on, Bethany tried to put the condom on Nick's cock. And it did fit, but barely and with effort. Bethany's pussy was just creaming at this for some reamister. When Bethany had the condom all the way on, it was stretched obscenely tight on Nick's cock and didn't cover the last two or three inches of his eight inch cock at all.

"There we go," Bethany said, not wanting to call too much attention to what a struggle it had been to roll that condom on Nick's cock. She thought to herself how easy that condom was to roll on David's dick and pushed that thought aside also.

"Have fun," said David in kind of an arrogant, sporting manner, but for the first time, Bethany thought she heard an intimidated quiver in David's voice that she hadn't heard before.

Bethany laid down on her back and rubbed her pussy while Nick came over to fuck her. She was so horny looking at that dick, practically bursting out of that condom. But she was also worried, Nick was so much bigger and thicker than anyone she'd had before. "Take it slow," she said to Nick, then self-consciously realizing that wasn't maybe the nicest thing to say in front of David, but it had to be said. A part of her wanted to add, "big boy," but she smiled to herself and kept that comment in her head.

Bethany realized later that while it is harder to take a big thick cock, especially a younger woman for the first time, she also realized that she was wetter than she ever had been, and that made a big difference. So when Nick pushed into her, it did hurt a little, but he was able to get about three inches inside of her pretty quickly.

"Oh........." Bethany said. This felt pretty intense. It hurt a little, but it felt strong and full.

Nick just went back and forth for a little bit, he had learned not to be too aggressive with girls when he first got inside them. Back and forth, and Bethany could feel her pussy lips getting tugged a bit as Nick's thick shaft pulled in and out. This kind of penetration went on for about ten minutes, and after about that much time the pain started to go away, and Bethany just enjoyed the sensations. Did this feel better than sex with David? Not really, well, maybe a little bit. Bethany suddenly felt relieved � this wasn't that much better, just different - and looked over at David who flashed a smile back at her while he watched and rubbed himself a bit.

Nick kept the penetration going, but Nick seemed to feel that Bethany was loosening up a bit, so without asking Bethany's permission he suddenly jammed his cock further in � not all the way yet, but probably about six thick inches.

"Ohh!!!!! Nick!!!!!!" Bethany said. Wow, this was interesting, Bethany thought to herself. Nick started moving a bit, about six inches of his cock in and out. Hmmm, this feels interesting, Bethany thought to herself again, but after about five minutes of that, Bethany felt a funny feeling she didn't recognize, like some kind of itch she didn't even know she had getting scratched. Before she knew it her body was warm and tingling and shaking a bit and she had just had a really nice orgasm, maybe not more intense than others she had had in the past, but different. Bethany realized later that this was the first orgasm she had ever had from pure penetrative sex, but at the time she didn't realize what had happened, just that it felt good. It wasn't life-changing, but it was a nice come. Again, this was working out great, she came on Nick, but not enough to make David feel like a lesser lover.

For a minute, they slowed down and Bethany basked in the glow of that, but she didn't want Nick to stop and he slowly started moving in and out of her again, until he got into about the same medium rhythm as before, laying on top of her, about six inches in and out.

And that's when Nick showed he had a bit more bull in him that maybe it seemed at first. "Are you ready to get fucked?" he asked her.

"Isn't that what we are doing?" Bethany asked him teasingly.

"No, not yet. Are you ready to get FUCKED?" he said again.

Bethany was a little taken aback by this, but something about the way he said it really turned her on and she felt another wave of cummy wet intensity surge through her pussy.

"Ummm..Okay Nick, let's fuck."

And with that, Nick plunged his cock all the way inside her.

"Oh my God!" Bethany couldn't help but say.

Nick knew that since Bethany had come on her, she was open enough to handle a pounding, so without hesitating, he started just pounding her, not all the way out, maybe halfway out, but then all the way back in, as deep and hard and he could.

"Oh my God Nick, Oh my God!"

Nick kept pounding.

Bethany couldn't think straight but something was changing, changing her sexual identity forever...THIS WAS DIFFERENT. And right then, something took over in Bethany's Alpha girl brain. She wasn't going to humiliate David, but she wasn't going to spare his feelings anymore either. It wasn't because she wanted to hurt David, but she was too primally turned on to have a choice. The words that came out of her mouth from here on out felt beyond her control.

"Oh God Nick, your big cock feels so fucking good!!!!"

"You like it, I knew you would...." Nick said as he pounded her hard.

"Oh God I love it Nick! I love that big fucking cock!"

"You'll love it even more when you come on it...do you want me to make your pussy come?"

"Oh God yes!" Bethany wailed, she was really screaming her head off now. "Make this pussy come!"

Nick started really pounding her, and lifted her ass a bit with both hands to help Bethany take it harder and deeper. Bethany started flinging her hips up to meet him, her pussy thrusting up at him.

"That's it," Nick said, more confident than ever. "You're just about to come!"

Bethany thought to herself, now how does he know? (Nick told her later he could feel a woman's body give off a slight tremble when a big come was on the way)

But then a few more thrusts later, Bethany could feel it too, it was something she had never felt before, just a massive, tidal wave of warm sensation rippling through her body, building up that much higher and just about to crash to shore and obliterate everything in its path. She didn't look at David, didn't see David, couldn't think about anything, and while she had never experienced these feelings before, she knew it could only be one thing: a truly massive, inside-out orgasm: "that's it Nick! Make my pussy come all over your cock!!!!!!!!"

And with that, Nick held her tightly to him and stopped thrusting as Bethany's beautiful tan hips thrashed and spasmed all over his big thick cock, and it was a long enough cock to absorb all her thrashing without slipping out, and the thrashing went on a long time. Bethany told me after she came she looked down and just saw sweat and pussy juice everywhere on the lower half of her body.

I often thought about this scene when Bethany and I were together and she would retell it to me as she jerked off my little five inch cock and teased the living hell out of me. No, I didn't imagine I was David. I imagined I was Nick, some forgotten rejected high school geek who could now look proudly down at the hottest girl on campus coming helplessly on his big cock, all the way up inside her, filling her up so nice, literally risking her relationship for the chance to come all over his cock just once, while her boyfriend could only look on, equally helplessly, knowing that whatever great things they could say about their relationship, he had never made her come like that.

- to be continued -

This story is amazing...thank you!

Thank you very much for your kind words. I have committed to writing this story even if I'm the only one that reads it but it is a real motivator to get the rest of this to paper when I hear good words from other readers. So thanks! Sorry I haven't posted very regularly, but I will definitely keep writing whenever I find a chance. I will always make sure that when I do write that it's something of a good quality. I can only tell this story once and I want to do it as much justice as I can. More soon...thx again!

- Jamister -

Jamister,

Please I could not stop reading this.............please give us more about Nick, Bethany and David. Dying to know how David reacted to Nick and Bethany!

Thanks for the kind words...seriously, I am very glad you are getting something out of the story...I'm honestly not trying to leave any readers hanging and truly appreciate the good words. I'm hoping to find the time to tell you what happened next sometime this weekend.

Jamister,
You are definitely not the only one reading. Just try to imagine the hundreds of quiet lurkers devouring your every word. The're there.

Growing up Cuckold, Story 2, Part 6

Thanks again for all the kind words, it's great to know others are enjoying this story. Before I continue, I just want to acknowledge that as a true story, there may be times when the erotic parts are mixed with parts that are a little emotionally "heavier." I realize not everyone likes that, so be forewarned this next part or two is probably going to be like that.

My hope is that by telling this story honestly, I can do justice to my own search for sexual identity and offer perhaps some good warnings/cautions to consider as I tell the story, so perhaps some of the lesmisters learned along the way will come in handy. And yes, hopefully it will be entertaining also. I'm looking forward to writing some fantasy stories later that might not have these heavier moments, but meantime, back to this one.

As we re-enter the scene with Bethany, David, and Nick, I would like to say that Bethany always had a hard time remembering all the details of this next part as it was pretty emotionally charged for her. But I think I can be true to her story and fill in some details that are very accurate, at least to the spirit of the event. Who knows, maybe someday she and I will be in touch again and I can get her input on how I've described this.

But for now, here we are, back in the room. Bethany has just had the best come of her life on Nick's cock. It felt amazing, and her pussy was giving off the hint of the soreness she would feel the next day, but at the time, she wasn't fully satiated yet. Having come like that, her pussy wasn't quenched at all, it just wanted to come even harder. Bethany always felt some shame about the meanness she exhibited in this scene, letting the selfishness of her pussy's needs take over. She told me later when we got into our cuckolding we always needed all the ground rules worked out in advance, because once a guy with a big cock got inside her (at least one that knew how to use it and didn't come too fast), her pussy would take over and a different side of her would come out. It was hard to be responsible for other people's feelings during that time, so she always made sure with me to talk through all the aspects ahead of time.

This time, however, she hadn't done that, didn't know enough about cuckolding to do that. Her attention turned briefly to David and she noticed through a fog of lust that his dick wasn't hard and he looked a little angry. He was sitting in a chair by the window and his arms were crossed. She thought to herself, "this isn't going well," but it was a distant thought, coming into a focus for only a second, before her pussy took over and sent one clear message to her head: "I NEED TO COME AGAIN...I NEED TO COME LIKE THAT AGAIN..."

Bethany felt almost in a trance as Nick rolled her over doggy style. She put her face in the pillow to silence her scream, sure it would feel intense when Nick put his cock in her. Her face was still in the pillow and nothing had happened yet, no cock, so Bethany started arching her ass up, searching for that fat stud cock that had given her so much pleasure, working her ass around to find it. I always thought of David at this time, how amazing her round and tanned ass must have looked swirling in the air like that, and how humiliating it must have felt knowing she was seeking out another cock, not his. Later, I got to know that beautiful and hot and devastating feeling all too well.

Still no cock. "Nick, put it in me!" Bethany whipped her head around. She saw what the delay was...Nick was pulling the condom back on his cock. His cock had maybe gotten even fatter, the condom looked swollen and overwhelmed, but Nick managed to roll enough of it back onto his cock and he plunged it back inside.

"Oh God!!!!!!!!"

She had already forgotten how good it felt. Nick worked it all the way in, only this time he didn't wait long to pick up the pace. Before long he was working it all the way inside her and she could feel him slapping against her with each thrust. Bethany also felt a new, strange sensation which she soon realized were the feeling of Nick's large balls flopping and whacking against her. ("I can feel his big manly balls," she thought to herself, "that's amazing.") She also became aware of a different sound, which she soon realized was the sound that only a big dick can make going deep into a tight, wet pussy � it was kind of an obscene, nasty plunging sound, maybe like a drain getting unclogged, whapping and clacking and slurping, god it was so nasty and hot...it was going to be so easy to come on this cock...

"Fuck me Nick, fuck me harder!"

Nick obliged, pushing in and out of her faster, maybe halfway out then all the way in, hard and fast, but not maybe at full speed just yet. "Harder, Nick! Harder!"

This went on for a while, Bethany wasn't sure how long. She couldn't see David directly, but David definitely had a full view of Nick moving in and out of her. "Oh Gawd! I'm getting closer!" Bethany called out.

At that point, Bethany felt a strange sensation inside of her, like she was suddenly pinched or something. It didn't feel great. "Oh oh." Nick said, and she thought she heard David say something too. She felt Nick's cock pulling out, leaving her gaping pussy like and making a loud obscene reverse suction noise when it plopped out. She looked around behind her, still moving her ass all around, and she could see that Nick dick had burst right through the condom, popped it like a balloon. The ring was still on his cock but the rest of the condom was flapping around, broken and useless.

"Oh, that's great!" said David. "That's just great!"

What Bethany did next surprised her at the time and even moreso looking back.

"Nick, I was so close to coming!" She said. "Put your cock back inside me."

"What!!!!!?" said David. Sexually transmitted disease and birth control were a cornerstone of their relationship.

"Put it back in," said Bethany, and she reached her hand down to help guide the cock back in, the ring still on it, the rest of the condom hanging down uselessly.

Nick looked a little disbelieving but he put it back inside her.

"Ohhhh...that's it.....that's what I needed...." Bethany said. "Now fuck me hard Nick! I need to come again!"

Nick started moving in and out again, he was only three quarters hard at this point, perhaps a little nervous about the twist the scene had taken, but Bethany realized that even at that size, he was quite enough for her and that a big cock didn't have to be all the way hard to get the fucking going. (Bethany would later tease my little cock about this, asking me if I was jealous of big-dicked guys who could fuck even when they weren't all the way hard....) "Oh wow..." Bethany said...she could feel Nick's cock twitching in and out of her as he was fucking her, expanding to its full length and thickness, taking her pussy over.

"I can't believe this! Bethany, you have to stop!" David said something along these lines. David wasn't happy, a little voice in her head reminded her. But it was just a little voice, a pathetic little boy's voice, and she pushed it aside. Her pussy was in charge of her right now, and her pussy NEEDED TO COME. David could wait. If he could make her come like this, her pussy wouldn't be so desperately famished anyway, so fully and totally in control.

Later, Bethany would realize the heart of the problem. David wasn't a cuckold. Well, he might have been an *** cuckold in this situation, but he didn't have the sexual identity of a cuckold. His need to be THE MAN in bed was too great, if he did have a submissive side he feared it too much to surrender to it. David was, in reality, an aggressive beta male successfully posing as an alpha male who was "phony hip" enough to be a progressive hippie, but David didn't like being called out as a beta. He viewed himself as an alpha and to be fair to David, while his cock wasn't huge, at a bit over six inches he was big enough that there were lots of girls, especially college age, who would have been glad to spread their legs for a hot confident guy like him.

David loved Bethany, but he didn't like having his open-minded hypocrisy being exposed. I believe he acted the way he did to protect his own sexual confidence from being totally shattered. If he had a smaller dick, he might have just given in to the truth of his inferiority, but he had more wiggle room on that issue than some of us on this board do, for better and sometimes for worse. David just wasn't cut out to be a cuckold, and Bethany didn't understand, being so new to this, that there is a huge difference between swinging and cuckolding. Not everyone is cut out for both. She also probably thought from her lady's advice that most guys are open to this. Not so, certainly not most "average hung" pseudo-alphas like David.

But at this moment, Bethany felt no love for David or compassion for the situation she had put David in, only a distant and passing contempt. She was here on this earth to FUCK, she was put on this earth to come this hard just once. Or again, or as much as she wanted. OR RIGHT NOW. "Don't listen to David, Nick, just keep fucking me!"

To prove her point, she reached around and pulled Nick to her. "That's it!" "Now keep fucking me!!!!" Nick started pounding her harder, working up the tempo again. "Oh God!" Bethany called out again...this felt so good.

"Bethany, stop!" David said once more, with some finality.

Bethany felt Nick slow down a bit again and she felt irritated, that come was so close, if David would just leave her alone.

"No David, I won't stop!" Bethany said, slapping her ass back on Nick's cock and looking over at him cruelly. And then she said it. This part she did remember, and told me word for word. It always sent a chill up me...: "It's your fault, David! Nick's cock is way too big for your little condoms! He tried to warn you! His cock is so big and fat and it's going to make me come, so stroke your little cock and watch how a real man fucks!"

Wow. Did she really just say that? Wow. That wasn't very nice, a part of her said. BUT IT'S FUCKING TRUE! her pussy responded. Nick was fucking her harder and faster and it was all she could do to hang on to the sheets! She looked into the wall and listened to those nasty pussy plunging sounds. A couple minutes later, she heard the door slam and she knew David was gone. "He's mad," she thought to herself. "We'll worry about him later!" her pussy said, and the rest of her agreed, so she threw herself into the fucking totally. It was kind of a relief to have David gone at that moment, and she realized she had held back a little because he was watching.

Now she could really scream. "But the others in the dorm might hear you...." The proper part of herself said. "But most of them are out for the night," her pussy reassured her. "And besides, there's nothing wrong with letting them hear you getting totally fucked!"
That's right, that's right!

And so the fucking commenced in earnest. It was vulgar fucking, it was mind-blowing, it was naturalistic, it was perfect. It was the first time Bethany had ever truly let herself go while fucking. It was incredible to fuck without worrying about what she needed to do to make herself come. As long as Nick's big cock kept ramming her in and out, filling her pussy up and stretching it out, she was going to come. There was no way she could not come. She didn't need to get in the mood, it was simple enough to thrust away, let her pussy go, and let it happen. And to make it more intense, she was cheating! She was cheating on her little dicked boyfriend, taking advantage of his false permission that she had obtained selfishly and manipulatively. This was so wrong, so dirty, so....damn good!

"Oh, fuck me!!!!!" Bethany wailed!!!!

Nick kept fucking her.........but he had another gear he had not yet shifted into.

"Do you want to come?" Nick asked her?

"Oh god yes, Nick!!!!"

"Do you want to come all over my cock?"

"Oh yes, Nick!"

"Then tell me what you want!"

"I want to come on your big cock! Please, Nick, fuck me with that fucking cock!"

"OK," Nick said, you asked for it....

And with that, he sped up his thrusts one more gear, and did a little twist on some of them. Bethany felt a warm sensation building, spreading from between her legs to the rest of her body � how does he know how to do this to me, she had time to ask herself - and then it was upon her, that massive come she had dreamed of her whole life and never imagined she could feel, sweeping over her in waves, in sobs, and just when she was about to stop coming, she heard Nick scream in pleasure and she felt these huge warm jets of his baby-making come spurting on the back of her pussy walls, and it felt so good, those spurts, covering everything, she had never felt hot come on the back of her pussy and it sent her spiraling into another orgasm, almost as intense as the last.

Finally, she lay back on the bed, Nick laying down next to her. The smell of sperm and pussy juice was everywhere, sperm was leaking out of her pussy onto the bed. Bethany's pussy was sore now, that was for sure, but her body had never felt so loose, so perfect, "so much like a woman," Bethany thought to herself. "A satisfied woman." She said out loud to Nick. Nick reached over and finally pulled the poor destroyed condom, still barely attached to the ring, off his cock. They looked at each other and laughed.

They talked for a few minutes, Bethany couldn't remember much, just a feeling of post-sexual satisfaction she had never felt. "Mom, you were right," Bethany remembered thinking to herself. That part she did not share with Nick. After a little while, Bethany wanted to fuck again but this time she was too sore and they had to stop. Eventually they took a shower together, which was a little bold because the stalls were in a shared bathroom with others on the hall, but no one came in.

Bethany couldn't control herself from jerking Nick off in the shower, she loved the feel of his big cock in her hands and he loved hearing about it. Bethany was in love with Nick, kind of, or so she thought. It was really about being in lust more than love, but her confusion was understandable, feeling so much like a woman around Nick, jerking off his big pussy-pleasing cock. Nick loved the ego stroking, loved hearing her tell him how much bigger his cock was than David's, how much better it felt in her pussy, how David had never made her come like that. Interestingly enough, while David wasn't that into cuckolding, Nick really was born for it.

All that school teasing he had endured, now flipped on its head, it gave him a latent desire for revenge on anyone and anything, and there it was. Bethany had trouble making him come in the shower until she realized how much the hot talk turned him on. When she referred to his big cock busting through David's little condoms, she felt Nick's cock twitching and shaking, swelling to full erection and beyond. I can only imagine what Nick felt, seeing a beautiful girl like Bethany kneeling below him so submissively in the shower, so entranced and worshipping of his cock, so indifferent to her boyfriend who had just walked out, her supple legs squatted wide as she assured him again and again that his cock was so much bigger and better than her boyfriend's, her "little dicked" boyfriend! "Let me see you come, Nick!" Bethany said to her, "I want you to come for me...." Jerking him harder and faster now..."I'll bet you have so much more come for me...." Looking straight up at Nick, already knowing what will please him....

"So much more than his little dick!!!!" "Come for me Nick!!!!" one hand on the balls, one up and down the big shaft, and suddenly, the ropy spurts of come, too many to count, A LOT of come. Maybe not as much as the first time inside of her, but still a lot of come. "That makes sense," Bethany thought to herself as she uncharacteristically and compulsively wiped the come on her breasts and face and licked it off her fingers. "Bigger cock, bigger balls, bigger orgasm...." She smiled to herself.

And then, off to bed, by herself, kissing Nick goodnight, fingering herself to one more goodnight orgasm, smiling to herself about what a bad girl she was...then falling arelax in bliss, but having bad dreams, not good dreams, but bad dreams. Waking up scared hours later, pitch black and alone, wondering, "Where is David?" Oh, what have I done? And her pussy, so fully satisfied, had no rebuttal this time.

- to be continued -

As a relatively new member, I think that this is the best story on the site. I'm sure it takes a lot of time and effort to write something this good. Thanks and keep writing!

Please post more....I love this story.

Thanks for the kind words eet and simple 7! It definitely motivates me to hear from readers and I'm going to do my best to add another installment this weekend. I can only tell this one once and I appreciate everyone's patience as I try to do justice to the story.

There are some great story tellers on this forum and I'm glad to have the opportunity to tell mine. I am telling it largely because of how much I like how the CuckoldPlace administrators have set up their forums for readability. More soon!