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sb64
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# Posted: 9 Aug 2008 17:34:31
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SFD, I don't agree. I dont see the femminization at all connected to sex. I have simply not felt right dressing, although I am getting used to it. I did not feel right dressing from the beginning. My wife has said all along that I will learn to love the dressing, I can't say I would agree with her so far, but she has been right with everything else so far.
As for yiur questions about sex with a man, the whole point is I am not the slightest bit attracted to guys, I hve no desire to kiss a guy or in fact do anything sexual with a guy. What I loved was the whole experience froma humiliation point of view. I am loving being a cuckold, loving the feeling of helplessness and uselessness that comes with that. If Jenn ddint make me, I would never have done it, nor would I do it again, unless she wanted me to.
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 9 Aug 2008 18:29:53
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SB,
Thank you for the explanation. I understand that you're not attracted to guys, but does being submissive and humiliated give you euphoria? If not, why are you attraced to cuckolding in the first place?
I was led into gay sex after many years, not because I was attracted to guys, but because I wanted a real life experience of humiliation and submission. Putting on lingerie did this, but I sought more - submissive sex. I'm still not attracted to guys, it's the humiliating and submission that I seek.
You felt something very strong when Brian touched your pantied ass. You were vulnerable by wearing a dress and exposing your ass so that Brian could touch it by merely reaching under your skirt. Women are vulnerable like this when then wear a skirt - it's part of being female.
This is the path you are on - vulnerablity, submission and humiliation. It will lead to sex with men, not because you find them attractive, but because you seek the euhporia from the humiliation and vulnerability. This is the path that AK Remenko describes. Read his stuff - sex with men is inevitable, Jenn has already taken you there and has told you she wants you to have sex with men.
The form of the sex with men is all that's going to change. You experienced penetration - you need to be prepared for much more intimacy. As I said, kissing is much more intimate than penetration. That's why most prostitutes won't kiss their clients.
I believe once you overcome the gay sex barrier, that the feminization resistance will go away. Sex with guys is part of being a woman, and that is the path that you've agreed to go down.
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 11 Aug 2008 00:00:56
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SB
You said, "I don't agree. I dont see the femminization at all connected to sex."
You also said,"My wife has said all along that I will learn to love the dressing, I can't say I would agree with her so far, but she has been right with everything else so far."
So have you ever talked to your wife about your total disinterest about having sex with men? You obviously don't agree with my advice, I think you're in a state of denial about where this is leading. Maybe you should ask your wife since you've trusted her predictions.
You are correct about your love of the humiliation. You just don't yet see where your desire for humiliation is leading. You said you want to please men since you can't please women. Yet you haven't thought about what pleasing men involves. It's more than just being penetrated. It means being touched, caressed, and stimulated by them. It means kissing them and touching and sucking their cocks. That's what women do. That's the path you're on. Just ask Jenn.
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sb64
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# Posted: 12 Aug 2008 15:48:32
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SFD. I have discussed this with Jenn at length. She said she has no plans for me to be satisfying men or women. She loved watching me with Ian, and sees that as a neccessary and enjoyable part of our lifestyle, but as she reminded me, the life style we have chosen is about satifying her not me. Sometimes her enjoyment may be enhanced by watching me with one of her lovers ( or anythign she may chose) but its all about her. I cant say I disagree, looking back on the last year it has been quite a ride, I havnt loved all of it, but I love being a cuckold and Jenn is always right.
Btw she is bringing Ian back here tomorrow night, not sure what that means for me.
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Jayj
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# Posted: 12 Aug 2008 16:01:11
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SB please can you tell us more about your femminization? how is that going? are you dressed as a girl all the time at home? have you been out dressed yet? and how is your wardrobe going?
Love your story please keep the updates coming
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sb64
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# Posted: 15 Aug 2008 16:55:13
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Jay, its coming along. I am dressing a lot of the time at home. Jenn wants to see me femm as much as possible. I have become very good with makeup and kepe myself smooth. I wouldnt sya I love it, but I dont hate it either, I guess you could say I am getting used to. Jeen has not brough up hormones again, but i know she will one day soon. My wardrobe is growing Jenn and I have been shopping on ebay a lot recently.
Thanks for the interest
SB
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 16 Aug 2008 14:43:15
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SB
Have you had more laser treatments? Do you have pierced ears yet? Are you wearing panties and stockings to work every day? Are your eyebrows fem? When do you thing someone at your work will notice? Hiding panty waists forever is very hard.
SFD
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 17 Aug 2008 20:36:13
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THE PATH YOU'RE ON
SB,
I may have told you this story, but the posting was probably wiped when I quit the group before.
I corresponded with a guy in Ohio who's wife had femmed him with Femmeyourhubby methods. We was an accountant. She is a successful business person.
She was open with what she wanted to do to him, as Jenn has been with you. She showed him the femmeyourhubby material and said, this is where I'm going to take you.
She had him start wearing lingerie, etc to work under his men's outer clothing. Within three months, he had lost his accounting job. It's not so hard to understand.
People are very sensitive to gender confusion. When we work with the same people everyday, they begin to notice small things and talk. It's a huge topic for office gosip. Perhaps remnants of makeup or pierced ears, a panty waist exposed when shirt tails are pulled out, straps from a camisole or bra (that's very easy to see) or stocking covered ankles that are sheer unlike men's socks.
So when he lost his job, his wife threw out all his mens cloths and told him he was now the housewife. She brought home the pay check, he did all the housework.
After another three months (six months into the "program"), she brought home a gay guy one night and conviced her husband to suck his cock. Then he started hormones. After another six months (one year into the program), he had developed breasts to the point that he felt he could never return to being a man ever again. They weren't sleeping in the same bedroom, the husband had "her" own fem room. The wife would often "take" her husband's ass with a strap on. She often brought home men to sleep with (husband became cuckold). She encouraged her husband to go out to tranny clubs to find a man to bring home for sex with the husband.
The wife would often bring home her girl friends to taunt and tease the femmed husband. The neighbors all saw the husband going to the store fem and knew that "she" was really a guy.
After another year, the wife sent her husband on a week long gay cruise with the instructions that "she" had to pickup and sleep with a different gay man every night. The husband often is sent out to pick up men at clubs to bring home for sex.
So this "man" is now a full time housewife. Sleeps alone every night. Is permanently humiliated as a pervert from all the neighbors and their friends. A permanently completely humiliated person. Some of the neighbor women talk to him. He has some tranny friends. But..........
Completely, permanently humiliated.
Steven, you probably think I'm mean or judgemental of you. That's not at all true. I care about you very much. I'm much like I think you are - we've confused humiliation for love.
If I sound mean, it's because I want you to fully understand where you could be going. I struggle greatly, but lead a somewhat secret fantasy life that craves humiliation. I'm in a support group and have pursued recovery and therapy for 15 years.
Your situation could permanently affect your total life, just like it did with the person in Ohio.
I wish you well Steven.
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sb64
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# Posted: 20 Aug 2008 16:05:31 · Edited by: sb64
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SFD thanks for the concern, but all is good. I understand that your friend in Ohio was femminized and hasn't landed up happy, who knows what life has awaiting us.
As for me, work is not an issue, the industry I work in is full of "interesting" people of all sorts, if someone at work were to notice it wouldnt really matter. For example, there is a Post Op women at one of our other branches.
It sounds to me like your friend in Ohio's wife didnt actually have feelings for him. I have done a lot of research about cuckolding & femminization, I am well aware of the risks and the pittfalls. But at the end of the day, I have to trust Jenn, she says she loves me and that we will be together for ever. If you cant trust that then whats the point?
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 22 Aug 2008 04:06:25
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SB,
Thank you for your reply. You have your eyes wide open.
So how are the laser treatments coming? Has this been any embarassment for you with the clinitians running the laser?
What are you wearing to work? Do you think anyone has noticed yet?
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tinydickjohny99
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# Posted: 26 Aug 2008 04:25:50
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so how about an update of whats going on its been awhile
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sb64
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# Posted: 29 Aug 2008 16:12:22
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quick update, she has popped out to the shops. Laser is good, i have never specially liked body hair. Not embarassed at all. I am wearing normal work clothes, no change except for underneath.
She had Ian over the oher night, he couldnt make it last week. I was unsure what woudl happen, as the last time Ian was over he took my virginity. Jenn made me dress up ina very sexy short skirt and see through top. I had to opne the door and serve them drinks. They started getting into each other on the couch, they were kissing and within minutes had his hand up her skirt. They went off to her bedroom whithout saying a word. I wanst sure what would happen. I spent the night in my room, expecting to be called to help clean up, or more, but it didnt happen. I eventually feel asleep fully dresed on my bed and woke up in the mornign to find Ian had gone. Jenn said that they were having such a hot time that they forgot all about me. I have to admit, I was dissapointed and felt quite let down. My feelings suprised even myself, I guess I wanted to feel Ian's hard cock inside me again, I think I need to feel that humiliations again. Jeen said mayeb next time.. she was very pleased that I was so keen and rewarded me with a 'girly session' of kissing hugging and rubbing. I had my first orgasm for weeks and my first with her for ages, it felt so good when she rubbed me through my panties and I made a huge mess in les than a minute.
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 31 Aug 2008 03:09:17
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Steven,
Were you thinking about Ian's big hard cock? Would you have liked to have been on your back with your legs in the air, a pillow under you to let Ian take you, with your legs spead, up in the air, resting on his shoulders? Wouldn't you have felt so vulnerable and submissive? Would you have reached out and touched his cock. Would you have sucked it?
How do these thoughts make you feel? Vulnerable, submissive, humiliated? Isn't that exciting?
Isn't isn't that you're attracked to a man. It's all about feeling submissive in real life. It's about being vulnerable, serving, submissive.
SFD
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 16 Sep 2008 04:45:41
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SB
What's new?
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 25 Sep 2008 11:52:08
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And......?
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Little Boy
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# Posted: 2 Oct 2008 21:32:33
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Hello SB64!??!
How ya holding up?
XO
LB
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 17 Oct 2008 23:15:36
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SB
It's been several weeks since we've heard from you. How are you doing?
SFD
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 23 Oct 2008 11:57:06
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SB
Are you OK? Are you still here? It's been almost two months since we've heard from you.
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 16 Nov 2008 01:47:44
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It's a shame that this thread has gone quiet. I hope SB is connected with others in this adventure that his wife is taking him on. He really needs some support. She wanted him to be active in TG sites. I guess this one doesn't qualify.
SFD
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