Is she cheating on me? Its official I am a cuckold

SB,
How's your new arrangement working out? How do you feel about it? Have you talked anymore with your wife?
SFD

Steven,
I've followed your story for over a year and provided you early warnings of where your wife was headed based on her choice of femmeyourhubby methods. My early warnings were removed from the site when I temporarily cancelled my membership.

I believe you're struggling with repulsion (fear) from having sex with men, but I'm only guessing. I suggest you chose on of these three paths:

1. Go see a therapist to talk about your situation.
2. Try m4m massage to try getting comfortable being touched by a man.
3. Consider getting a divorce. I don't think you want divorce, but if you think about it, it will help you clarify your thinking about your options.

As I said, it takes time to overcome repulsion to about having sex with men. Your wife hasn't provided adjustment time for you, she hasn't maintained control or dominance to take you down this path. I suspect she doesn't want to dominate you, rather just to make you impotent and fem, and be your life long friend.

She said she wants you to have sex with her boyfriends. That's part of being a woman. It's not repulsive for a woman, as it is for you. I think this is what you're stuggling with.

Best wishes Steven. PM me if you want.
SFD

SB,
It's been two weeks. How are you doing?

Quick update, going well, Jenn took me shopping and we have stretd building up my female wardrobe. She let me go in male mode but said that next time it will be a girls shopping day.

She said I wont go in public until I look good enough. Shopping was actually quite fun and we bought some lovely things, it was a bit hard to judge sizes etc, withoiut trying on, but Jenn was quite good with her estimates. I ahve been dressing a bit at home and now sleep girly every night. Jenn has been letting me sleep in her bed now that I am all soft and smooth and pretty. She wants me to grow my haoir long and wear a ponytail at work.

Jenn had a date with a new guy last week, she never brought him home and was out till 2am. Other than that its been quite quiet, I await teh enxt development. SFD thanks for all teh great advice and concern, I am happy at the moment and still very commited to staying with Jenn

SB,
I'm glad that you're happy with what's happening. What's happening with hormones? You really should consider laser or electrolysis for your beard.
SFD

Nothing said about hormones, but we have been looking into Laser for face and chest, although I dont have much body hair, she wnast none at all.

She is meeting a new guy for a drink tomorrow, see what happens

...hope she fucks him !!! Hope u lick her...
Fanatique de l'infidelite feminine

Dear Stevie,

I'm sure you'll look so sweet and feminine in your lingerie!

XO
LB

PS Hormones can be good for what ails you

Bit of an update

She didnt come home the other night texed me to say shes "going back to his place to fuck" next day all she told me was he was enormous, by far the biggest shes had so far and that it was amazing, he really stretched her.

She keeps buying me girls items, almost daily, yesterday were 2 new bras, the day before, a ring and a bracelet. I had my first laser treatment teh other day too, it was quite painful, but bearable. It will be good not having to hsave twice a day. Jenn insists I keep my face as smooth as possible.

I am spending most of my time at home enfemm now, it hasnt been too bad, I think i will get used to it over time. She had allowed me to sleep in her bed and some night we have a kiss and cuddle. She has now decided that teh only way I can orgasm is by rubbing myslef through my panties, she says its not ladylike to take out my little clitty and pull on it, and seeing its so small anyway its probably not worth teh bother anyway. She hasnt touched me in that way for weeks, I have to rub myslef to orgasm when she allows me to.

She hasn't mentioned hormones again.

SB, wow you have it so good, this is the best thread on this site, i can't wait for your updates, keep up the great work.

SB,
I'm not sure how old you are. Do you have any issues with male pattern baldness? A good first reason for some hormones would be to address that since you're trying to grow your hair long, and obviously shouldn't be bald.
SFD

SFD, I have a decent crop actually. I am 40 soon, mrs is 36. Melbhusb thanks for teh encouragement, it has been quite a journey, but mostly I have loved it. Still not totally with the femminization, but its getting easier by the day. I am getting quite good with makeup, she spent a lot of time teaching me, and I think I am starting to look quite good.

LB thanks too, are you on hormones?

SB any chance of a picture of Chloe?

SB
Almost 40................
Get ready for beginning to age
Bi-focals
Baldness
Fallen arches...........
etc, etc

sb,
Have you thought why you're still not comfortable with the feminization? I still think it's the gay sex. I still recommend a m4m massage. Have you thought about that? It's seems like you're just letting your wife lead you.
sfd

SFD, i think thats the whole point, she is leading me, thats the way it is and the way it will be and on balance the way I wnat it to be too. Whilst I dont love the femminization, I am not hating it anymore and its worth it, as I love the rest of the changes to our marriage and life. I love the feeling of being cucked, I love it when shes out having a great time and when she is getting the enjoyment that I was incapable of offerring her.

sb
OK, but have you talked to her about where she led you that ended up being almost r-a-p-e, without opportunity to slowly workout your inhibitions toward sex with men?
sfd

sb,
This event gave her what she was looking for to fully de-masculinize you in her mind. It certainly didn't let you, in your mind, work into your new role.

Women and men learn about sex through a process, usually as teenagers. First, looking at eyes, then holding hands, then kissing, then petting, etc.
sfd

SFD, Jenn and I have discussed that night and we both agree that it couldnt have happendd in a better way. Why put off the inevitable, what would the point have been to slowly get there? thats what I am good for, I cant satify a women so at least I can satisfy a man.

Looking back it was a very humiliating experience, but i loved that feeling of total helplessness. To recall Ian saying you have my sperm in you, still sends shivers down my spine.

I fact I must admit, I am hoping that Jenn brings Ian back for another session one day soon.

sb,
I'm sorry, I didn't mean to disrespect your wife. I'm not making my point.

You said (and have said before that you're not totally comfortable with feminization - "mostly I have loved it. Still not totally with the femminization..." I think you're not comfortable with having sex with a man.

How do you feel about being touched by a man? How do you feel about touching a man's penis? How do you feel about sucking a penis? How do you feel about kissing a man? (Kissing is often much more intimate that full sex.) Is any of this repulsive to you? I imagine it is, and I believe that's what's holding up your comfort with feminization. That is my theory - am I wrong? Prove it by trying these things with a man.

sfd

SFD, I don't agree. I dont see the femminization at all connected to sex. I have simply not felt right dressing, although I am getting used to it. I did not feel right dressing from the beginning. My wife has said all along that I will learn to love the dressing, I can't say I would agree with her so far, but she has been right with everything else so far.

As for yiur questions about sex with a man, the whole point is I am not the slightest bit attracted to guys, I hve no desire to kiss a guy or in fact do anything sexual with a guy. What I loved was the whole experience froma humiliation point of view. I am loving being a cuckold, loving the feeling of helplessness and uselessness that comes with that. If Jenn ddint make me, I would never have done it, nor would I do it again, unless she wanted me to.

SB,
Thank you for the explanation. I understand that you're not attracted to guys, but does being submissive and humiliated give you euphoria? If not, why are you attraced to cuckolding in the first place?

I was led into gay sex after many years, not because I was attracted to guys, but because I wanted a real life experience of humiliation and submission. Putting on lingerie did this, but I sought more - submissive sex. I'm still not attracted to guys, it's the humiliating and submission that I seek.

You felt something very strong when Brian touched your pantied ass. You were vulnerable by wearing a dress and exposing your ass so that Brian could touch it by merely reaching under your skirt. Women are vulnerable like this when then wear a skirt - it's part of being female.

This is the path you are on - vulnerablity, submission and humiliation. It will lead to sex with men, not because you find them attractive, but because you seek the euhporia from the humiliation and vulnerability. This is the path that AK Remenko describes. Read his stuff - sex with men is inevitable, Jenn has already taken you there and has told you she wants you to have sex with men.

The form of the sex with men is all that's going to change. You experienced penetration - you need to be prepared for much more intimacy. As I said, kissing is much more intimate than penetration. That's why most prostitutes won't kiss their clients.

I believe once you overcome the gay sex barrier, that the feminization resistance will go away. Sex with guys is part of being a woman, and that is the path that you've agreed to go down.

SB
You said, "I don't agree. I dont see the femminization at all connected to sex."

You also said,"My wife has said all along that I will learn to love the dressing, I can't say I would agree with her so far, but she has been right with everything else so far."

So have you ever talked to your wife about your total disinterest about having sex with men? You obviously don't agree with my advice, I think you're in a state of denial about where this is leading. Maybe you should ask your wife since you've trusted her predictions.

You are correct about your love of the humiliation. You just don't yet see where your desire for humiliation is leading. You said you want to please men since you can't please women. Yet you haven't thought about what pleasing men involves. It's more than just being penetrated. It means being touched, caressed, and stimulated by them. It means kissing them and touching and sucking their cocks. That's what women do. That's the path you're on. Just ask Jenn.

SFD. I have discussed this with Jenn at length. She said she has no plans for me to be satisfying men or women. She loved watching me with Ian, and sees that as a neccessary and enjoyable part of our lifestyle, but as she reminded me, the life style we have chosen is about satifying her not me. Sometimes her enjoyment may be enhanced by watching me with one of her lovers ( or anythign she may chose) but its all about her. I cant say I disagree, looking back on the last year it has been quite a ride, I havnt loved all of it, but I love being a cuckold and Jenn is always right.

Btw she is bringing Ian back here tomorrow night, not sure what that means for me.

SB please can you tell us more about your femminization? how is that going? are you dressed as a girl all the time at home? have you been out dressed yet? and how is your wardrobe going?

Love your story please keep the updates coming

Jay, its coming along. I am dressing a lot of the time at home. Jenn wants to see me femm as much as possible. I have become very good with makeup and kepe myself smooth. I wouldnt sya I love it, but I dont hate it either, I guess you could say I am getting used to. Jeen has not brough up hormones again, but i know she will one day soon. My wardrobe is growing Jenn and I have been shopping on ebay a lot recently.

Thanks for the interest
SB

SB
Have you had more laser treatments? Do you have pierced ears yet? Are you wearing panties and stockings to work every day? Are your eyebrows fem? When do you thing someone at your work will notice? Hiding panty waists forever is very hard.
SFD

THE PATH YOU'RE ON

SB,
I may have told you this story, but the posting was probably wiped when I quit the group before.

I corresponded with a guy in Ohio who's wife had femmed him with Femmeyourhubby methods. We was an accountant. She is a successful business person.

She was open with what she wanted to do to him, as Jenn has been with you. She showed him the femmeyourhubby material and said, this is where I'm going to take you.

She had him start wearing lingerie, etc to work under his men's outer clothing. Within three months, he had lost his accounting job. It's not so hard to understand.

People are very sensitive to gender confusion. When we work with the same people everyday, they begin to notice small things and talk. It's a huge topic for office gosip. Perhaps remnants of makeup or pierced ears, a panty waist exposed when shirt tails are pulled out, straps from a camisole or bra (that's very easy to see) or stocking covered ankles that are sheer unlike men's socks.

So when he lost his job, his wife threw out all his mens cloths and told him he was now the housewife. She brought home the pay check, he did all the housework.

After another three months (six months into the "program"), she brought home a gay guy one night and conviced her husband to suck his cock. Then he started hormones. After another six months (one year into the program), he had developed breasts to the point that he felt he could never return to being a man ever again. They weren't sleeping in the same bedroom, the husband had "her" own fem room. The wife would often "take" her husband's ass with a strap on. She often brought home men to sleep with (husband became cuckold). She encouraged her husband to go out to tranny clubs to find a man to bring home for sex with the husband.

The wife would often bring home her girl friends to taunt and tease the femmed husband. The neighbors all saw the husband going to the store fem and knew that "she" was really a guy.

After another year, the wife sent her husband on a week long gay cruise with the instructions that "she" had to pickup and sleep with a different gay man every night. The husband often is sent out to pick up men at clubs to bring home for sex.

So this "man" is now a full time housewife. Sleeps alone every night. Is permanently humiliated as a pervert from all the neighbors and their friends. A permanently completely humiliated person. Some of the neighbor women talk to him. He has some tranny friends. But..........
Completely, permanently humiliated.

Steven, you probably think I'm mean or judgemental of you. That's not at all true. I care about you very much. I'm much like I think you are - we've confused humiliation for love.

If I sound mean, it's because I want you to fully understand where you could be going. I struggle greatly, but lead a somewhat secret fantasy life that craves humiliation. I'm in a support group and have pursued recovery and therapy for 15 years.

Your situation could permanently affect your total life, just like it did with the person in Ohio.

I wish you well Steven.

SFD thanks for the concern, but all is good. I understand that your friend in Ohio was femminized and hasn't landed up happy, who knows what life has awaiting us.

As for me, work is not an issue, the industry I work in is full of "interesting" people of all sorts, if someone at work were to notice it wouldnt really matter. For example, there is a Post Op women at one of our other branches.

It sounds to me like your friend in Ohio's wife didnt actually have feelings for him. I have done a lot of research about cuckolding & femminization, I am well aware of the risks and the pittfalls. But at the end of the day, I have to trust Jenn, she says she loves me and that we will be together for ever. If you cant trust that then whats the point?

SB,
Thank you for your reply. You have your eyes wide open.

So how are the laser treatments coming? Has this been any embarassment for you with the clinitians running the laser?

What are you wearing to work? Do you think anyone has noticed yet?