Is she cheating on me? Its official I am a cuckold

Cloe,
The best part of the second site are the forum discussion boards about men going through feminization:
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If you continue on this path, you need to pursue facial hair removal through either laser (if your hair is dark) or electrolysis.

A bigger issue is your employment and current relationships with everyone who knows you as a man, especially your youngren. Ask your wife what her plans are for those relationships, when you have breasts. This could cause VERY significant emotional trauma and permisteral identity for your youngren.

SB,
May I get spiritual?

You are a beloved young of our Creator, a permister of worth and significance, who that Creator completely loves and accepts. He made you a male. Your whole life identity and relationships have been as a male.

Where will you be in 30 years? What will you have left? Relationships are very important. The impact of relationships transcends generations to our youngren and their youngren.

In the past year since you've begun this, you've had fun and so has your wife. But I ask you, don't you think this is getting pretty serious?

Have you talked to your wife about your youngren and impacts on your other life relationships? AK Rememko would have her finish this process and then blame you for having the idea. He doesn't care about you as a permister, only as a conquest for your wife.

Steven, where are you going with this?

Thanks for your support everyone. I don't know where i am going, but I am actually enjoying the ride most of the time. Of cousre I am scared of going on hormones, but I am now loving dressing as a girl. I would never have thought so, but it just does feel right, I love my smooth body and the soft feel and femm smells from my bath oils and perfumes etc. I love the feel oof woman's clothes on my smooth body and I a much better looking girl than guy. My wife is right, I am not a real man, this is my destiny, maybe it always was? As for kids, work etc, well I have read a lot of websites about Post Ops and girls who have transitioned, it seems like they are able to deal with all those issues, so i guess I could to if it came to that.

I know too, that my wife cannot power me to take hormones, if i do it will be because i want to.
Chloe

SB,
It's been several days since your Wife said "we'll see about that tomorrow." So what's happened?

Are you sure your Wife can't power you to take hormones? Do you remember the unexplained impotence? What do you think that was?

Have you thought of talking to a counselor. Ask about the impact on your youngren. Once your ex finds out, no more visitation. Your kid's identity will be impacted, big time. Have you asked your wife about how she thinks this will affect your kids?

Well, lets say that my wife has had a fun few weeks. She went back to the bar again and went home with a guy. Again she came home very late and woke me to say goodnite. The next morning she told me at breakfats that on wedsday night, Jamie the guy she met the night before was coming over. She informed me that Jamie has had relationships with married woemn often and had been involved in a few cuckold relationships. She told me that I would be watching and partcipating... OMG I was stunned, what does partcipate mean? I asked. Whatever Jamie and I want. That was all she was prepared to say. Well I could not get the thoughts of what was in store for Wednesday out of my mind. I was so excited but yet so terrified, what if they make me do things I dotn want to do?

Well finally wednesday came, I got back from work early, my wife texed me telling me to get dressed as Chloe in my short black skirt and my pink top. I shaved and made myself up and was dressed and making dinner when she came home with Jamie much to my surprise.

I will never get used to teh feeling of offense standing there dressed as a girl, I felt so helpless, but yet so excited, hard to explain really. I was instructed to serve dinner and to eat by myself in the kitchen like a maid. I did so and when I brought in the coffee, they had moved to the couch and were locked in a deep kiss, bodies entwined, his hand insdie her top. OMG I am watching my wife kissing a man!!! Her hand was gently rubbing her crotch, i just stood there until she noticed me an instructed me to serve the coffee. A bit later they went to her bedroom, 10 minutes later he called me. I went up to the bedroom heart pounding. She was lying on the bed, her clothes stil on, but her eyes were closed, she had clearly had an orgasm. Jamie told me to sit in the chair and watch them. i did so, knees shaking, what was going to happen. It was so differnt to Brian, who clearly was putting up with me.

Sorry shes just arrived home have to continue later I am sorry, not doing this on purpose

OK it's a good reamister...you have to SERVE her !

Happy for Jamie and her...your feminization is much less exciting than her pleasure...the pleasure to humiliate you, and more of all to enjoy spunk explosions in her cunt...her delicious cunt, available to the random guy and never ever to you anymore...
Fanatique de l'infidelite feminine

I sat in the chair, it was like a dream, Jamie lay on top of my wife and they started kissing, within seconds i think they totally forgot about me. They tore at each others clothes and i were like two tigers clawing at each other. She almost screamed fuck me Jamie, do it NOW!!!.

It was as if I was floating in the air looking down on the scene. There I was, a girl sitting demurely watching my wife lying on the bed, legs wrapped around Jamie, being pounded, his large cock driving in and out of her. Yes!! yes!! yes!! she was shouting.

My emotions were all ovre the place, so tunred on, so humiliated, so happy, so sad. I think she orgasmed 3 times before he came inside her. And then it happened, he pulled out from her and he said to me come over here Chloe. My heart was pounding, what did they have on store for me? what would I say? what would I do? I sat on the bed, he pointed at my wifes pussy, clean her up he commanded.

Well I had of course cleaned her once before, but that was different, that was after she got back from a date with Brian, this is live and fresh. But what choice did i really have, I knelt on the bed and lay between my darling wifes legs, stuck my toungue out and gently licked. Jamie put his hand on my head and pushed me, my face crashed right into her pussy, clean her up properly Chloe he demanded. So i did, his cumm was all over my face all mixed witth her juices. She came again, like an natural, I must have licked her for a good 20 minutes. Ok he said thats enough, thats all for you for tonight, maybe we will have more in store for you next time. I got up off the bed, I had of course cumm in my panties, I stood there feeling like a slut, probably looking like one too. One last look at my wife dozing happily, and off I went to my bedroom. I didnt relax much all night, i was just to emotional and too mixed up. Thanks for all the support
Chloe

Waaaaaw...il love this, Chloe ! Mooore !
Fanatique de l'infidelite feminine

Awesome! Thank you for sharing. I always enjoy your posts.

Not a good week, wife and I had a huge fight. She told me she wants me to start taking female hormones leading to eventually going fulltime as a woman possibly in 2 to 3 years. Well I put my foot down and said no, that was not the answer she expected. I told her that I am not going to be femminized, I have no desires to be a woman and that I will not take hormones nor go fulltime. I told her I like the feel of the female clothing occasionally. But i am not a girl nor will I ever be one. I told her I love ebing a cuckold and love the feeling of humilation and that dressing as a girl added to the offense, which is in part what I like.

Well she was not at all happy, in fact she did not talk to me for 3 days. Then she said we have to talk. She said, what if i dont agree with what you said? i said then i will have to reconsider the who arragement. She said, you dont seriously think we will ever go back to the way things were? you dont think I will ever let that pathetic little thing of yours ever enter me do you? She said you have 3 choices. non negotiable 1) continue as is, continue to be femminized, leading to transition and possible surgery one day. Stay living together as best girlfriends 2) She will agree to stop teh femminization process, i agree to up 'the anti' on the cuckolding, this would include my wearing a form of chastity of her choosing AND oral and anal involvement with her boyfriends when she wants. Plus she can still make me dress as a girl for her entertainment but not regularly or 3) Pack my bags and leave

She gave me 24 hours, to decide, she told me that the options were in her order of prefence, but that she still loved me and was dissapointed with what I had done to her.

Well I still love this woman so my obvoius choice was Option 2. She didnt say anything when i told her of my choice, just a slight smile. So friends this is where I am awaiting her next move

Thanks for all the support and advice

Choice 2 is probably the "less worse", indeed...just hope she will get LOTS of lovers and be cruel to you...

There's one thing she should understand, denying you and fuck many others is more cruel if you're a man who still desires her with no hope...
Fanatique de l'infidelite feminine

Hi Chloe
Sorry for this late msg.
I read your post almost every day and since the last changes i did not have time yet to post.
Those last evolutions are terrific.
Your wife must be very involved in that cuckholding process for having left her good lover Brian.
It seems now you are completely in it.
Did you love testing the sperm of her new lover (i mean not leaking her but the taste of that Mister's sperm) ?
But her last decisions clearly show where she wants to go.
I think you made the good choice.
And sure next time, for the less, you will have to make Mister hard with your mouth !
Are you ready for that ?
Are you somewhere happy about it ?
And when she left Brian, at first i thought too that she must really love you for wanting to bring you back into her adventures and not only leaving pleasure alone with a man.
But now I wonder ! after all, in 3, she proposed you to leave. May be it was just a part of the deal, just to make pressure.
What do you think ?
Well it reveals her perversion and i think you must love it. Do you.
She really wants to go far in that way. Do you understand why ?

However, now you'd better check your food and the signs of femminisation appearing in your body ...
And have good times too !...

PS : did she told you about the efficiency oh her new lover and how she loved it.
Do you know if he is better than Brian ?
And was she happy of your attitude for having leaked Mister's sperm ?
Did she congratulate you ?
demimolle,
voyeur-branleur inoffensif et respectueux

The wife and I had another long chat last night, I told her that I had chosen option 2. I explained to her that i do love the feeling of offense I feel when she is with another man, and I do want her to continue to be satisfied sexually any way she desired. I told her that I do not want to be a woman and that the only aspect of femminization I enjoy is the offense.

I told her that I would wear a chastity device if that what she wanted and that I would do whatevre she wanted sexually, but asked her to plesae take it slowly with me. She told me that she was dreading my answer as she didi noit know what she would have done if I had selected option 3 as she loves me and wants to stay married. She said that she was very happy with my choice and is now glad that I stuck up for myself as I obviously felt so strongly about femminization. She said she was dissapionted in a way as I made such a lovely girl and that it was a real waste as I was a much prettier gilr than guy. She asked me if I would reconsider my decision in a year or two, I said that I would but its unlikely I would change my mind.

She was so sweet and loving I thought there was a chance we could land up making love, but that was not to be. Nothing was said and she went to relax well before me. So that where we stand... life is going to be interesting

SB,
What reamisters led you to take a stand against feminization (such as your youngren, your job, religious beliefs, etc)? Regardless of whether you want to share those reamisters with us here, have you shared those reamisters with your wife? She said she respects you for taking a stand. Sharing your resaons for taking a stand should help draw you emotionally closer with your wife.

I think you were scared of the Elise Sutton site before you were as far down the path as you are now. This site might help your wife find other ways the establish offense and female domination other than feminization. This also can bring you closer - more emotionally intimate. Consider referring her to the psychoanalysis at that site:
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http://imagefap.com/profile.php?user=Bull%20boss

SB,
Here's an interesting new blog - a wife is writing about her five year experience in a female led marriage:
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Steven,
It's been two weeks since we've heard from you. What's happening?
1. Has your wife had any more dates?
2. Did she get you a chastity belt?
3. Did you talk any more with her about why you don't want to be more feminized?
4. Are you still wearing panties, even though you've not doing more feminization?
SFD

SB,
It's been three weeks and counting. I care about you. What's happening?

I am sorry for not updating, I realyl have not had a chance to get online. Well over the last few weeks we have had continuing discussions about the whole cuckolding thing, our marriage etc. She has accpeted that I do not wnat to be a girl and she has agreed that for now, I can dress like a man (her words). She told me that she remains in love with me, but is just not interested in me sexually speaking at all. I told her that I am very happy with that and that I love being her cuckold, but not her girl.

She told me that she wants to take the cuckolding further (she keeps saying this) I asked her what that means, she said, a more active role for you, that sent a thrill down my spine, but a bit of fear too.

The last few weeks have been quiet, she had one date, was out for about 3 hours, came back and went straight to bed. Last week she had a bad headacarbonsmudge, so actually nothing new to report.

Thanks again for all the support, to answer a few questions, I didnt have any specific reamisters, except I realised after reading some CD Blogs that I was enjoying the offense of being dressed as a girl, but didnt have any desires to be female, I could not see myself as a girl fulltime.

As regards Chastity, mrs has not said or done anything about it, I am sure she will in time.

SB,
Thanks for the update. How's the intimacy with your wife? Sleeping together, oral sex, cuddling, kissing?
Silly

sb,
What's happening?

I am so sorry for not posting, my wife caught me reading another Cuckold Forum, luckily not this one. She has been stopped me from going online this last month. I have a bit to tell, but don't have time now, as I am scared she may catch me online again. Its all going well and things have settled down a lot, she is sort of seeing a guy, I think tonite will be the fifth time, they will be seeing each other. She will be bringing him here tonite for the first time, I am quite nervous. She said he is by far the best lover she has ever had. Gotta dash...

SB,
What's been happening. Did you get to taste a cock yet?

Hi SB,
Why has your wife stopped you going online? What's the latest?
SFD

I am sorry, its not easy to get online much, she has limited my access. Well a lot has happend since my last post. Where do I start. Well she did bring him home that first night. His name is Ian and she met him on adultfinder or something, he is an experienced bull, having been involved in 2 previous relationships. From the moment he came into our house I could feel the difference in his attitude, compared to Brian. He was in total control.

Well that night he said i could watch from a chair in the corner in the nude, what an experience that was!!!! They fucked like crazy, she was like a woman possessed, his cock was big, thicker and longer than mine and he sure knew how to use it. My wife couldnt get enough of it, I was used to seeing her lying there montionless (when I used to be in her) here she was writhing around the bed, yes yes yes as he drove into her, she came over and over, again soemthing i had never seen from her before. I sat there in the corner transfixed. At one stage he stopped, looked at me and said are you turned on seeing your wife being fucked by a real man, I meekly said yes, he laughed and said well it must be very small, because I cant see it. Play with yourself he ordered, I did and came all over my hand in a matter of a minute, they didnt notice of course. After a while they took a breather and both seemd to be napping, I crept out of the room and went to my bedroom, i took out one of my pink nighties (it just seemed like the right thing to do) and went quietly to relax.

I have to go now, I have a lot of housework to do before she gets back. More to tell soon. Thanks for the support.

OMG OMG OMG its happend, where do i start, after the last post telling you about the fist time i watched her with Ian, it was amazingly different to when i watched her with Brian, Then it was like she was in control, and I kinds felt all was fine because of that. It was very erotic and of course she made me swallow a mouthful of Brian's cumm after her blowjob on him. But with Ian it was different, he was in total control, I felt totally helpless and humiliated, he made me play with myself, I have only ever done that once for my wife ever.

I have read up an lot about cuckolding, I suspected wheree this was all going to head, I was not sure how or of I was going to be able to handle what was sure to lie ahead some time in the future, but not in a million years did i suspect what happend the next time.

So 2 nights ago, Ian came over again. He came in took one look at me and said why are you dressed like that, I want you femminized and now! I said, but my Jenn and I had agreed that i wouldnt have to do that anymore, he said, I am not Jenn, I call the shots now, Gulp, I felt so weak, so pathetic, but yet so compliant, off i went, i shaved, amde myself up and dressed in a shrt skirt and top, I came quietly into the room, they were on the bed, he was pounding into her, she was clucthing , clawing at his back saying Nah, nah nah, yesss baybeeeeeeeeee. I didnt think they noticed me, i sat in the corner, quietly. After some time passed, he clearly came in her, and they lay still. After about 10 minutes he turned to me and said come here bitch. Oh oh, I thought i get to clean her out again, I was getting used to it. I approached the bed, he said to my wife , she looks quite good,I think its time don't you? She said oh yes I think it is well past time. Time for what? I thought OMG, he is going to make me suck him, oh oh oh!! I dont know about that, I doint think i am up for that. get on the bed bitch, I sat down, not like that, climb on the bed. I I im not.. shut it he said, you look like a girl ist time to get fucked like a girl. He said what!!!! OMG No no i said, I am not ready for that. Not ready? ready he said, get on your knees. Baby said my wife you know its time, but I thought, well i knew this day would come one day, but not yet, I havtn even sucked a guy yet, or even touched another mans penis ever. She laughed, another mans??? babygirl do it for me, come on. I didnt know how I felt, I was so mixed up, before I knew it I was on my hands and knees and he was behind me, he lifted my skirt up and pushed my panties aside, he put a blob of something wet and slimy on me and rubbed it. Then I felt his cock pressing at my virgin hole. My wife sat next to me facing him, her face was right next to mine, she said to me, you will love this honey trust me. I just looked at her. Slowly he pushed that big cock into me, the pain was quite something, but he never gave up. What a stud he is she said, see how hard he is even after coming in me.

Well it felt as if i were being split in 2, it didnt feel good at all, but he never stopped the pressure, it felt as if I was going to burst, he said I am inside your pussy now, you are no longer a virgin. OMG i didnt know what to think, I was so humiliated, here I was with a guys huge prick up insdie of me, right in front of my wife. I was very uncomfortable, i didnt notice that she was holing my hand and encouraging me gently. It seemd like ages as he gently opened me up, an eventually he withdrew a bit, relievign some of the pain, before he moved forrard again, then he stared slowly moving in and out, in and out. OMG i am being fucked by a man ONG OMG. I dont know how long it went on for, but he got some momentum going. the pain eased, but it was still not nice at all. In and out he drove, i began to feel a bit numb, which was a relief. After what seemed like ages, i noticed he was getting excited, he was panting and moving faster into me, i saw my mrs was fingering herself and she came at least twice that I saw. I realized he was close to cumming, I presumed he was wearing a condom, Then with a stab of pain, he lurched into me and came. Over and over he pumped, I ddint feel anything, he sort of collapsed on me, I tried to squirm away. but he told me to stay still. My mrs was in a frenzy he had one hand almost completely in her cunt, and was fingering herself like crazy. Finally he pulled out of me, what a relief. Thats when I saw he wasnt wearing a condom, I moaned oh no you didnt wear a condom, I never do when I fuck virgins he said, i like to know you have my sperm inside you. Then he said soemthing chilling.. You have been fucked properly by a real man in front of your wife, you will never be the same again in her eyes. I felt so utterly helpless, and so weak and so humiliated, but yet part of me felt, like this is right, this is my destiny this is what I am meant to be. My mrs had recovered by now and she said that was the sexiest thing she had ever seen, I will never forget it. He said you two bitches are both full of my sperm, I am the man, ohhhhhMG

Steven,
On Feb 22, this was posted:
For example, here's an excerpt from installment 2:
"Wives may not want to hear this but if their gurl has no natural
predisposition to date it's going to be the wife's job to line up
and/or bring home her gurl's first guy."

That means she's preparing to find a bi-sexual bull who will be willing to let you suck his cock and "bitch" you in your ass. That's why she's broken off with Brian - he was *** to do this - you said so yourself.

Wake up and smell the coffee Steven. Your wife wants you to be Chloe by having sex as a woman has sex. That means sucking penises and being fucked in your ass.

Ask yourself if you're willing to go down this path. Your wife should at least be willing to prep you with a strap-on. See this site and consider showing it to her:
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Second, think of your boundaries. Consider:
1. You should always have a "safe word." This is a word that you and your wife have pre-agreed you can use during a "scene" that will stop all further action.
2. You should never be restrained (have your arms and legs tied) so that you can not move your self out of a situation that you don't want to continue. Otherwise the activities that your wife wants can be considered ****.
3. Unprotected oral sex (sucking off a guy in your mouth without a condom) is considered not as dangerous for contracting HIV as unprotected anal sex. Anal sex without a condom (also called "bare backing") is considered very high risk behavior for contracting HIV.

You shouldn't be so surprised. You can still set boundaries, like when your youngren visit. Talk to your wife about what has happened.
SFD

SB,
How do you feel about what happened? It almost sounds like r-a-p-e. You certainly weren't prepared physically (lub and progressive expansion) or emotionally for what happened. Have you talked to your wife about it? Have you recovered?
SFD

How do I feel? well firstly, it was by no means the R word, I could have stopped it if i had really wanted to, i guess deep inside I knew that this day was going to come, its what my darling wife has wanted all along. The shock factor was I didnt expect it so soon.

As regards the unprotected sex part, my wife confirmed the next day that, she insisted he was tested before she let him fuck her without a condom.

So i wonder where to from here? whats if anything does my wife have planned. We spoke briefly the next day, she told me that was one of the best nights of her life and that she loves me even more as I have given up my manhood for her. She also assured me that she will never take chances with things like HIV so that unprotected sex would only occur if a guy has been tested. She also told me how much she loves seeign me as a girl and that she would love me to spend more time as a girl. i told her that I was not happy doing that, but I didnt mind an occasional dressup, like the other night. She said if she had her way she would turn me into a full time girl. I cant see that ever happening.

SF thanks for the support

"She said if she had her way she would turn me into a full time girl. I cant see that ever happening."

SB64, I think you should broaden your imagination, if your lovely wife says something like that, expect it to happen... or something close.

No men's underwear - panties only. No more top - bottom from now on. Sharing he men - in a girly fashion. It doesn't so bad does it, Sweetie?

XO
LB

SB, any updates, hanging on your story is so riveting, has there been any new developments?