At the end of the day, does it sometimes hurt?

Don't get me wrong I love being a cuckold and fully embrace my role, but I'm wondering if any other husbands sometimes feel a lot of shame when they have moments of realization that your wife loves others more than you. It's the offense we crave, but when we finally get it do any others kind of get that ache in their stomach like I do? It's like a physical reaction to knowing you are inferior and she totally recognizes that

I know the exact ache you're talking about, and I also know the shame you're feeling. I also totally crave the shame and offense and want all of it I can get. It used to bother me, especially when I was very young, but I knew by the time I was 19 it would likely always be this way for me. I've been in the position for so long it seems totally normal for me. Having others doing my wife is nothing out of the ordinary, and really never was, since our relationship started. She's always had many, many, other men, and virtually every girlfriend I've ever had before her did too.
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Of course it hurts. Its a complex and paradoxical relationship, the cuck and his woman. If it does not hurt a little then its not a cuck relationship. Thats how I see it anyway, swinging and being a cuck are very different things.
My wife and I love each other and there are quiet moments of doubt and tenderness.

FLM24M, I felt that way when I first started thinking about it as a real possibility. Right after we had sex one night, my wife said, "I think I want more variety than just you." Seconds before she said that, I had made some embarrassing comment regarding my insecurity with my size. I had already prepared for the idea of her getting rammed in front of me, but she wanted to hook up with guys away from me -- said she didn't think she could get off with me watching. I kind of freaked out.

I think she got a little frustrated with me for freaking out because she knows I get off to the fantasy of it all. When I started considering it as a reality... that she would actually leave the house, go hook up with another guy, and then come back home to me... It definitely hurt.

After time and talking about it all, I finally communicated that I was comfortable with us opening up our relationship on her end. Eventually, she met a guy and did the deal. I was worried about myself psychologically because of how I had freaked out before (I could barely focus on work I was so distraught). However, when it came time for her to meet the guy and play, it was pretty painless.

So to answer your question, once it actually happened, I didn't feel anything but compersion (getting pleasure from your partner's pleasure). However, I know the angst you speak of, as I felt it when I realized that she needed more than me sexually.

Lastly, I wouldn't assume she loves anybody MORE than you. Even if it's not being communicated, it could well be that she loves you even more for allowing her to have subsidized sex from another man. My wife told me it made her feel more like had 'given her a gift' by allowing it all to go down.

So, hang in there fellow Cuck, and if you're worried about something, communicate it clearly to her and she should be more than happy to reaffirm how happy you make her. If she doesn't, you could have a bigger problem than whether or not you should be in a non-monogamous relationship, but I'd be willing to bet this is mostly a minor insecurity you're feeling more than anything having to do with your wife.

I don't know you, and I don't know your wife or the overall dynamic between you two, so definitely take my comment for what it is -- some stranger who hopes you're dealing with all of this as well as you possibly can.

Best of luck!

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I agree with Tatlocks in that if it doesnt hurt and concern you and if you dont get jealous etc.....then you are not really being cuckolded. I recognize the "ache" so well and still get it all the time, but it IS part of being a cuckold and in some weird way part of the excitement too.
If you are feeling the ache then you are probably feeling scared, vulnerable and submissive, and that is how your sexy dominant cuckoldress would want you to feel ;)
Try not to worry so much and just recognize it as part of being a good little cuckold.
In my own permisteral opinion the only "provider" would be that she DOES love you and that you DO have a close strong, warm relationship otherwise.

Of course the hurt and angst is always there for us, but isn't that what we in fact crave? It hurts, but it hurts in such a good way we learn to love it! There is someone for every one and thankfully there are hot wives out there who like having a cuckold husband, otherwise we would be totally frustrated craving the hurt and offense that turns us on. My wife can be a total bitch to me and I still love her...she seems to know just how to turn me on with her slutty behavior and plays it perfectly. One of her favorite things is dressing slutty and going with me to a lounge where guys will dance with her...she likes to dirty dance and rub up against them on the dance floor, knowing that I am watching her with a million butterflies dancing around in my stomach in anticipation of another possible conquest for her to fuck. It hurts so good!!