Davey J
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My wife and I have not had any kind of sexual relations now for several years. She seemed to “go off” sex and I have always said that her body is her own and although I am married to her, I do not own her, so we just stopped having sex. I have never powerd my attentions on any woman.
One thing which happened though, puzzled me then and still does now.
It must have been about 4 or 5 months after our last session of sex, one day she came home with a pregnancy test kit. Now my wife is not stupid, obviously she knows how a woman gets pregnant, so it puzzled me at the time as to why she was concerned enough that she might be, that she bought a quite expensive pregnancy test kit (it was a twin pack too), when we hadn't had sex for 4 or 5 months.
When I asked at the time, she said she was concerned because she had missed a couple of periods and she was eliminating the “pregnancy” possibility before she accepted that she was starting “the change”, which seemed a bit early as she was only about 43 or 44 at the time.
To the best of my knowledge, the only way a woman can get pregnant is if a man's sperm comes into contact with her egg inside her womb, so, as the years have gone by I have wondered more and more if her “explanation” about that test kit really holds water.
She had told me that, teasing (as I thought) there was a guy at work she quite fancied, and it had become obvious enough to other ladies she worked with, for one of them to comment “you can't have him *******, he is too young for you, and anyway you're married”.
There was around this time, a works Christmas party, to which partners were not invited, and I seem to remember that she took more care than usual over her appearance when getting ready for this.
Some time before I had bought her a suspender belt and lace topped black stockings but although she had worn them once, she said they were uncomfortable and she wouldn't wear them again. I seem to recall that on this party night she tore her last pair of tights when putting them on, so after some “Oh dear, what shall I do, the shop is closed and it's too late to get any more” type protestations, she decided to wear the black stockings and suspenders under her dress. She said that they felt very naughty but as the skirt came below her knees nobody would know.
I drove her to the party venue, which was in quite a secluded venue, and told her to ring me when she wanted picking up. As I stopped to drop her off, a young man who was standing in the car park opened the car door for her to get out. As her skirt had ridden up just above her knees on the journey and I thought her legs opened a little more than was absolutely necessary to get out of the car, I think the young man might have got a quick flash of her stockings and thighs. I have no idea if this guy was the one she fancied and he was waiting for her, or just someone who happened to be there and held the door for her to get out.
Looking back some years later, I wonder if that night she hoped that she might pull and had dressed to give her “friend” maximum chance to reach her pussy. Maybe she (and he) got lucky and instead of just a quick “snog and fumble”, things went a lot further than they expected and he got his cock right up inside her. Perhaps because he hadn't expected to “score” he hadn't “gone prepared” and in the heat of the moment fired his sperm deep into her unprotected pussy.
A lot of “maybe” and “perhaps” but it would certainly explain her concern over missed periods, and the purchase of the pregnancy testing kit, wouldn't it?
The thought that she had had sex with someone else and they hadn't used a condom, I found incredibly exciting, but it was when we were going through something of a difficult time and although I knew her explanation was more than a little bit "thin" to say the least, I didn't want to "make waves". At the time I was very naive and thought I was weird and probably the only man in the world who found this situation exciting, but it did turn me on.
Later I suspected it was not just a "one time only" deal. My main reamister for thinking this though was a pair of her panties I found in the laundry basket when I was sorting out some washing. They were pink, lace edged french knickers and the crotch was absolutely stiff with a yellowish/brown substance. If it wasn't a man's cum I don't know what it could have been. I just put them back where they were at the bottom of the basket and said nothing about finding them.
It was around then, when I was doing a search on the internet I discovered the term "cuckold" and looking at some of he sites, realised I was not the only man who finds the thought of his wife relaxing around exciting.
However this was all quite some time ago, but it has been going around in my head for so long that I need to get some kind of answer to my concerns over what has been going on. I am thinking of trying to bring it up and push her a little into talking about it. See if she will admit it or deny everything. I will have to be careful though, I do love her and wouldn't want to lose her.
I decided to start by talking about our complete lack of any sexual relationship, but bring the subject round to the possibility (in my mind) that she is either having, or has had, sex with someone else.
Her response was, quite predictably, that she hadn't been with anyone else, so I brought up the subject of those pregnancy test kits. At first she pretended that she didn't remember them at all, but when I reminded her that the second one had laid in the chest of drawers next to my side of the bed for ages she admitted she had bought them.
Then I said that the only reamister I could think of for buying a pregnancy test kit was to check if she was pregnant, which she hesitatingly agreed with. I then said “so, by your own admission when you bought the test kit, the thought you could be pregnant must have crossed your mind”.
After a short silence, very hesitantly she replied “I suppose so”.
I then reminded her that at that time, we hadn't had sexual intercourse for at least 4 months, so if she had been pregnant, either she was over 4 months gone, and would have been showing a quite considerable “bump” by then, or it would have been put there by someone else.
“Ah ….. but I wasn't pregnant was I?” was her response to that.
“No” I said, “but my point is ….. You thought you might be, and the possibility was strong enough for you to spend money [which was really tight at that time] on a test kit to make sure, and you looked really relieved when it came up negative”.
Then she said "of course I was relieved, we couldn't afford another baby", so I reminded her that even before we stopped having sex, I always wore a condom so she wouldn't get pregnant for just that reamister, yet she still spent money we couldn't afford to buy those test kits.
She still hasn't admitted anything, but after I convinced her that as far as I was concerned it was all a long time in the past and anyway, because of an ongoing medical problem that I have, if she had, or wanted to take a boyfriend, I would be ok with her decision.
I then made the slip up of saying I didn't want her to sneak around behind my back, but it was ok as long as she told me what she was doing. This brought the response of “Oh yes, it's ok as long as I tell you everything” in a very sarcastic tone. I calmed her down by saying she didn't have to give me all the intimate details, well not unless she wanted to anyway, but just so I knew what was happening so if someone I knew said “I saw your wife in *******'s last night, she was with another man” I would be prepared and able to say something like “Oh yes, she went out with some friends from work and she finished up there with ******”.
I then showed her this site and explained that I, like a lot of men who go there find the thought of their wives having sex with another man exciting, and as I am no longer able to provide for her in this area, she can, if she wants, look elsewhere. At this she went very quiet for a while, until I managed to convince her I was OK about this, but just wanted to get all it out in the open, because it was beginning to prey on my mind so much.
So, hopefully the early seeds have been sown, only time will tell if they will take root.
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