Finally for real... sorting it out.

So let me begin by saying I've been a "fantasy cuckold" for years now. It has become a tremendous part of the bedroom play between my fiancee and I for awhile now. The fantasy excites us both and although I exposed her to it to begin with, she has come to really like it a lot! She has said for some time now that she is very open to the idea of doing it for real while I have been much more reserved. My reservations stem from the fact that we have an outstanding relationship and our day to day life (and sex life) is amazing. I've always been scared to introduce this new variable into the equation that might somehow mess things up.

Fast forward to a week ago Tuesday. My fiancee's birthday is Nov 11th and I had arranged secretly to fly one of her best friends down to Orlando to come and surprise her. So Tuesday night, Amanda (her friend) and my fiancee went out for a girls night out. This is a rare occasion because my fiance stays home during the day with my kids from a previous marriage. So they got to go out together and started the night off by going to a local sex store (her friend is also a very sexual permister and they'd had numerous conversations about sexual fantasies etc etc before). After spending about an hour at the sex store they went out for takes at a small bar within walking distance from where we live.

The bar was not crowded at all and they spent most of their time talking to the bartender Austin. Turns out he is from CT which is where my fiancee and Amanda both are originally from. They talked and drank things continued as such for awhile. Amanda decided (mainly because she was takes I think) to start talking about sex with the bartender. As the conversation went on, the subject of my fiancee and I's fantasy came up. As things progressed, Austin expressed interest and it was shortly thereafter that I received a text from Amanda asking me if it was ok for my fiancee to kiss the bartender. I messaged back that it was her birthday and she could do whatever she wanted. There was no response until about 20 minutes later when I received a picture of Austin and my fiancee making out across the bar.

Seeing the video, I instantly felt like I had been punched in the stomach. It was a very abrupt emotional reaction and very difficult to deal with. As that subsided over the next hour or so, I found myself rewatching the video and getting excited (eventually jacking off to it) twice. Austin closed the bar as it got later, but let both of the girls stay and actually did not charge them for their takes for the night so that was cool. It made a great story for them and was exactly the crazy night out they had hoped for I think.

When my fiancee got home, it was about 5:00 am and I was in bed but not arelax. She talked to me about everything that happened and I learned that not only had the making out happened (multiple times) but she had also shown him her tits and felt his cock through his pants. She was very excited about it and completely enjoyed the experience.

I was unfortunately decidedly more confused about it all. We immediately had amazing sex and have had fantastic sex many times since, but unfortunately the theme that seems to happen is that as soon as I cum and the sexual excitement subsides, I go back to feeling that emotional upset that I felt when I first saw the video. I have not been able to reconcile things yet to get to a point where I truly feel ok about it all the time.

Sexually it's very exciting, but I don't know how to separate sex from the rest of the relationship because it's a big part of who we are and where our intimacy as a couple arises from.

I'll end this first post with saying that she has gone back to the bar one more time since and more things have taken place that I can go into in another post, but for now I just wanted to set the background for everyone and see if any practical advice exists that will help me in the process of sorting this out and deciding if it is something that we can continue to explore safely.

Thanks for any real responses.

hey its part of it i tend to get a tad jelous over talk time ect... from time to time sex part is just amazing now doesnt faze me a bit. you have to trust her and realize your in it together. and she always comes home to you. hope this helps

What you are feeling is the way you should feel. We (as men), are brought up to protect what is ours, another man in your midst is a threat to you. So, you have a natural reaction to protect your girl. But at the same moment you want her to fuck this guy. The word is ANGST!

You have to understand that what you are feeling is natural, and you also need to tell her how you feel. Tell her that you want her to continue with this, but she needs to understand that you might...over react to some situations at first. If things continue, you will learn to deal with your emotions better.

I can say without a doubt that my wife cuckolding me, although it was only for about a year...it brought us closer together, our communication is better than ever...and now that I don't have it...I miss it.

First, you two need to set up GROUND RULES. What you expect, what she expects, and do not deviate from those rules without express permission from the other permister. Communicate, keep with the rules, and have fun. Enjoy what could be the best journey of your/her life.

Good luck, and I hope to read of your/her journey.

Thanks for the responses.

Since the content of the original post occurred there has been a couple more developments. Our sex life has greatly increased. We are having sexual multiple times every day now as a result of the increased sexual tension in the house.

During one session in particular we decided to play an adult game called "Discover Your Lover" with each other. At the beginning you write down your "ultimate desire" and the winner gets to have their ultimate desire fulfilled at the end of the game. Feeling pretty crazy I decided to write down "Take a video of you giving me head and send it to Austin with the caption - Thinking of you". The time spent actually playing the game was incredible and we were very sexually aroused. In the end, I ended up winning the game and so my ultimate desire was the one to be done. She thought I was crazy, but had absolutely no fear about doing it. So she got on her knees and gave me head while using her cell phone to record a short video. This was sent to Austin with the appropriate caption and definitely seemed to perk his interest up.

The next day, he kept in touch with her via text almost all day. Again he was working and so my fiancee asked if I would be ok with her going over to the bar to see him again. I said yes and she asked what if any limits we wanted to set. I told her my only limitation that I felt strongly about was that if he was going to fuck her he needed to have a condom. She agreed and proceeded to get all dressed up in a sexy dress and went to the bar. This time, there was much more making out going on and once he was able to lock the bar up, she ended up going down on him next to one of the pool tables. I've seen the pics of his cock and it's thicker and slightly longer than mine so her ability to deep throat him was pretty impressive. Again her tits were hanging out and he was running his hands and mouth all over them. Also this time, he actually went down on her also for a little while. (I've been told that both when it comes to eating her out and sucking on her tits that I am better so go me lol).

As the intensity increased, he got a little pissed at himself because he realized he didnt have a condom and so there'd be no actual fucking tonight. He was gracious about it and didn't try to make her feel bad. After a little more play time, it was time to leave and she came back home to me where there was a great deal of sex (no condom required).

So I'm still sorting things out but we're taking things step by step and continuing the journey. I appreciated the advice you guys gave so far and you put into words pretty much exactly the way I was/am feeling. Anyway... so far so good I guess.

Your situation is very hot...keep us posted!

very hot...keep us updated
A cuck to my GF - A bull to all other women

What a hot story, you must have loved kissing her when she got home from sucking him
I know I would have

Thanks for the responses everyone. We certainly are being very honest about things. I think she may be a little frustrated because of the rollercoaster that i'm on with it. During the moments it's amazing but once the sexual energy subsides i'm still having a difficult time putting it all together.

Not much new to add. He's out of town this weekend and they have not really been in touch.

The only other thing that's happened that's kinda related is that we were playing a game of our creation with each other called Truth, Dirty or Dare and during the course of it she dared me to fully disclose everything that had happened to one of my close friends (and groomsmen for our upcoming nuptials). I complied with the dare and told him all about it and then surprised her by giving him her phone number so they've talked a little bit and I think that was kinda a turn on for her also. Now to be clear, he lives on the west coast and right now we are still out on the east coast so there is no immediate opportunity really for anything to happen there, but the conversation was fun.

That's it really. She is checking this post daily (sometimes more) to see the responses, although she has not made an account she has talked about possibly making one down the line. So even though she is not responding, just wanted everyone to know that she's definitely completely aware of what is said here.

Alright, thanks again for the responses! Hope to hear more soon from everyone.

This sounds like the beginning of a hot sexy journey for the two of you. I have enjoyed reading it.

witness, maybe you should let her control your orgasms? If you are having trouble with this after you cum, maybe she should not allow you to cum?

For me, even after I came, I just loved what my wife did so much, it didn't matter. I wanted her to do it for years, she finally did, now that she is not doing it anymore...I miss it.

You have a chance to do something that most here only dream of. Have fun...and relax.

That sounds very exciting! Please keep us posted on how this progresses.

The angst thing is hard though - double edged sword. Im trying to bring my partner together with a 79 year old (she loves it with old men anbd wants an old bull) and I want it too. But once you come and IT IS a hot cum you can get a bit angry. Then the lust creeps back again. what a business!
B.Kellard

Very hot developments! Maybe you should get the ring on her finger before you let her heart drift

Well not much to report right now so just wanted to say thanks for the responses. The fantasy remains very hot and we're feeling a huge increase in our sex life. Recently some of the real world stress has gotten in the way from us being able to really enjoy it though so we're dealing with those things so that we can get back to having fun. (mostly having fun anyway)

As far as my own development goes, I'm trying very hard to relax and separate the sex from the rest of reality so that it doesn't emotionally effect me. Since nothing new has happened just yet it's hard to say whether or not I'm being successful in that.

Thanks for all the advice everyone... I've honestly been surprised at how much quality advice I've actually received. I know how much of a fantasy this is for everyone so it's easy to just focus on that and not on the real life aspect. I appreciate the genuine help.

Anyway... we'll keep you posted. We're not even close to done exploring, just been a busy week.

And just so this post isn't completely without any excitement, here's one of the pics she took for Austin.

So no sooner then I finished typing the above entry and my friend Nick, (the groomsman) texted her to hear more about the birthday story. Things progressed and now she has apparently offered to suck his cock the next time he's around. ;) He texted me to ask if it was ok for him to have her send him a pic of her tits. So I had to respond back that she could do whatever she wants so ofcourse it's ok.

Talk about coming out of nowhere... just when I thought things kinda slowed down now one of my best friends is making plans to visit sometime so he can fuck my fiancee. She is quite a happy lady right now lol.

Maybe because it's not an immediate danger I'm able to just enjoy it right now without any of the negative feelings. Hopefully i'm turning a page on that rollercoaster stuff because it really sucks.

I'll keep you posted.

I'm loving the way this is unfolding so far!

Hey all, hope the holiday treated you well.

Not much new to report. We've had some increased contact with my friend Nick. She had me take another picture of her laying on the bed naked to send to him and he sent her a couple of shots of his cock. She liked what she saw a lot.

We're talking about setting something up for us to all get together. So hopefully down the line that works out.

Otherwise, she made another trip to the local sex store and purchased some exciting toys. I haven't gotten to see them all yet, but among the toys was our first porn DVD, a Cuckold video. We watched that and didn't make it through the first scene before we were fucking and I came.

Tomorrow night we are looking at going out together for a night of fun. I know the sex shop is on the list of things we are going to do, and then we are thinking about going to a bar. The decision to make will be if we go the romantic route and go to the bar where we first met when she was on vacation.... or if we go the cuckold route and she takes me by the bar where Austin works (no idea if he's working or not).

I don't really know yet how it will play out because we definitely do have our romantic side and don't want to lose touch with that in the midst of our sexual side.

Anyway, as always your feedback is always welcome.

Thanks!

I enjoy your story and just loved her big tits! How about showing the full photo that she sent to your friend?

Have fun..... and hold on tight as your ride continues!
Cuck who loves a creampie.

So things are continuing on about the same as before. We had a great date night. We did dinner and a movie and then we went to the sex store... spent about $240.00 and called it a night. We flirted with the idea of dropping by the bar and seeing if Austin was working. Thought about maybe going in separately and her just doing her thing with him while I watched. In the end, we decided that since nights out together are kinda rare for us, we would just have our own fun.

We took the toys home and then enjoyed trying out each one. A pretty wide assortment to play with and we used all of them except for the dildo mouth harness. Looking forward to putting that big ball in my mouth and having her straddle my face sometime soon, but we haven't used it just yet. One of the most exciting things that we did was we got a big remote controlled bullet vibe and the following day decided to try it out at the movies. She said that when it wasn't activated, it felt surprisingly very comfortable... then somewhat reluctantly she gave me the remote and allowed me my brief chance to be in control. I made the most of my opportunity and enjoyed it very much, but I should have known that I would pay my price later.

After we returned home and the night wore on, my fiancee made it clear that it was payback time. She decided that I needed to know what it is like to feel helpless as something inside of me vibrates. After applying some lube she took a vibe to my ass. The vibrator was very unforgiving and she worked me over fairly good but still showed more restraint then I could have asked for. I definitely felt very thankful that she chose to not completely destroy me.

More along the lines of the cuckold experience though, she has been in contact with Nick quite often. After reading my posts she told me that I needed to be more clear in stating that he is 100% into the idea of being 100% inside her. He is definitely excited about the idea of fucking her repeatedly. He loves her tits and had me send another picture to him of her gorgeous tits. I have once again included that picture below for your enjoyment as well.

So this is life for now. In the bedroom we are experimenting with new ideas and toys constantly and outside the bedroom we continue to experiment with adding more to our fun. We bought our first cuckold porn dvd to watch together as well. Obviously I've seen a ton of cuckold porn online, but there is something different about laying in bed watching it knowing that the permister next to you wants to do all of the things you are watching to you.

Guess that's it for now, just wanted to give you another update. Thanks as always for your responses. She was online today to read them and catch up and enjoyed what she saw. She commented on both the idea of denying me orgasms as well as the bluetooth idea. She also appreciated the compliment on her tits.

Nick's favorite set of tits.

Thanks for the update. Your wife's breasts are quite lovely!

How does Nick size up? Does your wife talk about size a lot?

Ted, thanks for the compliment, I agree completely. Absolutely love her tits.

To answer your questions, I'm not sure what his actual size is but he sent her a couple pics and she was very happy with what she saw.

She talks about size when we are in bed and she wants to get me off by humiliating me. She'll obviously degrade me and talk about how i'm too small to please anyone and nobody would want my little bitch clitty. Pretty much all the things you would expect. In reality though, she cares much more about width than she does length. Length is impressive to look at, but width is impressive to ride.

Hope that answers your questions.

I am with Ted...beautiful breasts!!! My wife before she cuckolded me always said that size didn't matter to her, then when she finally slept with the neighbor...he was not much longer than me, but wider...and that did it...she now agrees that size does matter.

I have really enjoyed reading your journey so far...looking forward to reading more. Thanks for sharing.

Thank you for posting your messages, and also for the pictures of her. (Beautiful!)

It seems like you have gotten over your initial reaction of being uncomfortable. If it occasionally happens, it's okay to be uncomfortable and to tell her that's how you're feeling.

And keep us posted! Thanks!

I've just found your post and enjoyed reading it. I know all about "cuckold angst". After my wife went with a young guy I became very insecure and asked her to stop, but regretted that later. It took over 9 years for me to coax her into repeating the experience and now we are both a bit older and wiser, I am fine with Debbie enjoying cock elsewhere. We had ground rules, but they have gone by the board now. Since starting to cuckold me again, my wife has been with 3 new men, two of which were much younger than me.

The feelings you felt initially are only natural : jealousy and anxiety mixed in with arousal. I have overcome the insecurity now. I used to worry that Debbie would prefer younger men fucking her with their superior stamina and fast recovery and that she wouldn't want me anymore, but I know now that with other guys it's just sex. Only I make love to her. These young guys undoubtedly have better bodies than me, although I am lucky enough to have a decent 7 inch penis. The rest of my physique is poor : very tall, but far too skinny - I admit I look a wimp and most people would regard me as one if they knew I allow my wife to fuck other men. But I love it and Debbie certainly enjoys a different cock now and again. She appreciates me letting her do it, but I think she would have been unfaithful anyway if I had not given my approval all those years ago.

I look forward to hearing more about you both.
Peter C

It's 6:00 p.m. right now and I just woke up. I'm waking up now because last night the fiancee and I went out for another fun night out. We started off takeing at the bar we met at 2 years ago. It was fun to kinda relive the memories that we made there but after awhile, it became clear that she was not having as much fun as she could have. So after she brought up the idea of going to the bar that Austin works at a few times, I finally just made the decision that we would go. We arrived at the bar that Austin works at about an hour before close. Upon first arriving my fiancee showed me around. "Here's where I was on my knees sucking his cock." "Here's where we were making out up against the wall." etc etc... The bar was packed but I finally saw Austin in permister he was at times less than a few feet away from me and it was a exciting and very terrifying feeling. Eventually she went up to the bar to get some more takes and Austin came to help her right away... however, the first thing he told her was that his girlfriend Rikki was in the bar. After observing the situation for a few moments it became clear that a brunette on the other side of the bar who was incessantly calling him every 5 seconds was Rikki. My fiancee flirted with the idea of acting up a little and turning up the heat on Austin because she is still a little annoyed about him not really being in touch much. In the end though, she's a good (well at least kinda good) girl and so she didn't do anything to fuck him over.

We left after last call, grabbed some food and went home. Very shortly after getting to the house (both of us feeling incredibly buzzed) we started making out. Clothes were coming off very quickly. My fiancee said that she needed to go to the bathroom. I didn't want to stop making out with her so I kept following her insistently. It's blurry to me now having drank so much, how the transition happened, but soon I found myself laying down in our shower. She was standing over me asking me if I was sure I could handle this or if I was going to act like a little bitch as soon as it was over. I heard myself telling her that I could take it... that I wanted it. That's when I felt the first drops hit my stomach. Then a little more. Now my chest was feeling her warmth run all over it. I could hear myself begging for my face and she laughed and called me a fucking freak, but then the piss came all over my face and in my mouth. I'd spit it up all over myself when my mouth filled up. I wanted more.

After this was done, we showered and got cleaned up while continuing to be dirty. We fucked in the shower and eventually transitioned to our bed still soaking wet and fucked again. The talk of Austin and Nick flowed between us with the added shame of having what we just did talked about repeatedly as well. Eventually I came and following everything else that had happened I found myself waking up today on the floor. There's probably holes in this recounting and some things may not make sense, but you are getting an account that was kinda lived through a foggy lens given all the holy water that had been consumed.

Another ridiculous step in this sexual evolution that we are experiencing between the two of us. She's already talking about how she's going to work this new experience into future interactions with us and her lovers.

Guess we'll see how it pans out.

p.s. Thanks everyone for the comments. Some of your perspectives on the whole cuckold angst issue are really helpful to me in understanding what I'm feeling and sorting it out. We had another little bit of a flare up last night because at one point she told me to go order a take from Austin by name and I refused to do it. I just felt like I wasn't ready. I'm still working on it, but for every step forward that we take it seems like I need to pause a second and regain the composure to take another step. Anyway, one step at a time I guess.

I can appreciate your problem. Upto now Austin has just been a name, but now your fiancee has taken you to his bar, you now know what he looks like. In the early days, I shied away from this and one of our ground rules was that my wife would not have sex with anyone I knew, such as friends or work colleagues of mine. Debbie's first was a much younger guy, a regular customer in the shop she worked in, in another town, and all I knew about him was his name. He was 12 years younger than her, 23 to her 35, and 18 years younger than me. I didn't want to be able to put a face to the name, preferring to just picture my wife under this young, fit anonymous guy.

When she started going with other men again 9 years on, we were older, wiser and more mature and when Debbie ended up in bed with a former workmate of mine, I took it in my stride. Admittedly, I haven't seen him about, so haven't had to face him, but have promised Debbie I will stay calm and greet him politely, should we bump into him in town. I just know he will have a smarmy, arrogant smirk on his face, having fucked my wife, but I sure I can handle the offense.
Peter C

I have met two of the men who have fucked my wife. Both times other people were present so I had no choice but to be calm which helped.

Time for a new update and what a random update it is.

Following our visit to the bar and more importantly to Austin, the next day my fiancee received a text message from a number she didn't recognize. As the conversation continued the permister revealed that he knew things about her and about our relationship. He said her reputation is that she's down to fuck and is engaged but it doesnt matter and then he asked if that was true. He said that she has some fans and he is a big one, exactly how big, we'd find out later. She said that it was but her primary interest was in trying to gain more information about who this was texting her. As the conversation continued she eventually asked what his name was and he said "You can call me Boss, because what you got works for me." At this point her interest definitely increased because he was setting himself apart from a lot of guys by being very clever and funny. Take that and add to it the mystery element of who he is and she became very interested. Little did she know her interest would increase a great deal more.

So as the conversation continued he fell into his stride with the situation. Apparently it did not take him long to nickname me "little dick" and to start talking a little cuckolds brownie about me. He told her "It's cool that you love him, just know I dont and am going to talk a lot of cuckolds brownie." Based on some of the things he had said and speech patterns and so forth, we created a mental image of our unknown "friend". It seemed to both of us that he is most likely a black guy, but we realize we are basing that off of assumptions that are rooted in stereotypes. So who knows, we could be wrong but further supporting the stereotype angle is that he told her his cock is 11 inches and thick. So he's either a black dude, a horse who learned to text, or the exception to many "rules".

Anyway, they continued to text each other and my fiance made it clear to me that there was no trying to guess at whether or not he was willing to actually get into this. She said it's very clear that he wants her pretty bad. The how and why of how he learned about her habits and how he got her number is unknown to us still. The simple answer would be Austin, but given his girlfriend situation it goes against how discreet he wanted to keep things. At this point, even though there are holes in the reamistering, Austin makes the most sense. However "Boss" knows though is not really important, what is important is that he is texting her things like "I want to fuck you so hard that next time your fiance is inside you your pussy will feel empty." He's been saying a lot about how he intends to handle her and make her pussy ache.

So tonight it almost became a reality. Apparently while I was taking a nap earlier in the day they were in touch with each other and had tentatively set up a plan to meet up tonight. He made it clear he just wanted to come straight to our condo to get straight to things and she really preferred the idea of getting some casual takes because at this point she still had no idea who he was or what he looks like. Eventually after talking to me and instantly making my cock get hard, she decided to text him and see if he would mind having an audience here at our condo. Unfortunately, even though he was completely into the idea, he had some family drama come up and had to postpone. The one thing he did give her in exchange for not being able to come through tonight was he gave her his name, Mike. My fiance thanked him for telling her his name but said she prefers to just call him Boss.

The biggest positive for me in all this is that I came very quickly when my fiance was telling me about having him over. The good part was that this was the first time really where after I came, I did not feel the freefall feeling that i've felt in the past. I actually got hard again very quickly and when my fiance learned all this, she decided that it was time for me to ride this high and update our entries here with this new information.

Obviously there is some pretty exciting news here, I will have more to come as it happens.

She sure took to things quickly. Would love to hear more.

I think that has been the easiest part because we talked about it so long that any reservations she used to have were replaced with desire. It started off as my fantasy but it definitely has become a mutual fantasy at this point.

You're living the dream! Soak it in! You can count me among the jealous wannabes