Cockold or Voyeur or something else

My wife of 26 years and I swing and we have done MFM 3some with a close male friend.
On one of our first swings ever, after an hour of talking with the other couple in the hotel room we got up the courage to take off our clothes. This would be the first time my wife would be fucked by another man. The wives started out sucking the cocks of their own husbands, then they slowly switched over. I could see my wife hesitate as she took the other husbands dick into her mouth.
But it was an amazing turn on for me to see.
Eventually we tumred around the bed for awhile and we found our selves with my wife being fucked missionary by the other husband who was kneeling while doing her missionary. The other was was sucking my cock and my face was next to my wifes.
She had a rather worried look on her face and I whispered "whats wrong". In a sad voice she said, "you still love me don't you".
I assured her I did and kissed her passionately while the other man continued fucking my sweet innocent wife.

I later explained to my wife how much of a turn on it was to see another mans dick sliding into her mouth , pussy or ass. It was more exciting watching another husband fill my wife's pussy or ass with his cum than it was for me to be banging his wife.

I'd wind up fucking my wife after the other man was finished with her. If the other man came in her ass, I would ass fuck my wife again and shoot my load into her.
Something about knowing 2 different loads of cum was mixing inside her.

I like watching her getting banged good, and love the site of stranger cum over flowing her holes, but I also want to fuck her right after the last guys fucks and cums in her. I like the idea of gang bangs fro her as long as I fuck her last.

She would not do any of this without me being present and me seeing it is the turn on. Her going out on "dates" and telling me what happened after does not interest me.
Clean-ups do not interest me at all.

Am I a cockold? A voyeur? A sharing Bull?

Attached are pics of my wifes ass. It looks even better with 2 loads of cum dripping from it. When she knows she's getting anal she'll spread her ass cheeks for the guy as her slides into her. She said it's more comfortable as the strangers dick goes in if her asshole is already spreading.

exposing ass or pussy, take your pick

wife prepares as 1st of 2 cocks pump her ass

sounds like a cuckold to me.fact is your wife is fucking other men.i havent seen my wife in permister fucking. closet thing to cream pie was 9 hrs after her bull fucked her.but im still a cuck
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I'm finding more and more I'm fantasizing that I really would rather my wife have a permanent boyfriend and I have a permanent girlfriend.
The idea of my wife getting fucked by one or more men is okay with me. I don't "have" to have sex with her myself.

I'd say voyeur. A cuckold is typically a man who's wife fucks another man or men whether he likes it or not.

You are a very strong voyeur and I understand where you are coming from because I swang (partner swapping only plus some girl-girl play) with a g/f some years ago and I never considered myself a cuckold because we both played together. Were you and I differ is your fascination with another man's cum which I permisterally find revolting to see dripping out of my woman. That I think makes you a cuckold and, if you permit me to say, betrays bi tendencies in your permisterality. To want to come into contact with it betrays that. Perhaps you even envy your wife for getting fucked and you enjoy watching her getting fucked because you are getting a fuck by proxy. The bit about you wanting to ejaculate to replace the other man"s semen is a justification you made up, perhaps based on something you read about the mating habits of certain species. In conclusion then, you are a bi cuckold my friend but you are still putting up a fight in order to keep having some sex. In time, she will get the upper hand and place you in a subordinate role, especially if she sees you playing with the other man in your 4some. Enjoy your present status while it lasts!

Regardless of anyone's permisteral reamisters for wanting their wife fucked by anothe man, isn't it about us enjoying ourselves? Who cares what the psychology behind it is! If some of us are latent "bi's" then so be it, although I have never had any desire to suck on another man's cock..it doesn't mean that I don't enjoy my wife doing it in my presence. Matter of fact I absolutely love it and encourage it as much as I can, but I don't think there's anything bi about me.