Always wanted it, now hard to live with it.

I always had this fantasy of seeing my wife get banged by a BBC. After years of being excited by it, we finally did it. After a few ads on CL we found a few potential suitors and went to the Bahamas for a vacation. We arranged everything and met him at a hotel.

I thought nobody could fuck my wife like I did. I thought we had the best sex ever. But when he dropped his pants and she saw his 9 inch black dick, she melted. She was like a kid in a Candy store. She sucked him for 20 minutes, loving every minute of it. I had never seen her like this. But the rest was worst, he fucked her brains out. This guy was a machine, every position imaginable. This was by far the best fuck of her life. It went on for an hour, she was not on this planet anymore. We were no longer connected as the original plan was. She was on another planet. I saw the beast in her that I had never seen.


Since then our sex life has been cooled off. I guess I was intimidated by that hour of torrid sex. I guess you can say I'm affected by it. It's never been the same since. I know, at least I think I cannot match him, my wife says it was only sex, no passion, that she enjoys it more with me, but I was there, I saw her, the look in her eyes, the pleasure.

How to get over this, any advice ?

Thanks

Some say that cuckolds are weak...but on the contrary, real cucks are very stong guys...they are secure in them self in the way that they let other guys fuck their wifes...and in such way that they are able to let their wifes have good times with other men in order to let their women have pleasure...and for sure (often at least) better sex then what they can give themself

If you are a jealous and weak man....by all means, do not involv yourself in this game. It will destroy your relation
A cuck to my GF - A bull to all other women

Norwegian, you have the best take on the idea of being a cuckold. I could not have said it better.

Chris1465, people get and stay married for more than sex. Further, from the perspective of a wife, there is a world of difference between romantic sex between cuckold husband and wife, and hot, torrid sex from a bull. And no doubt there are talents and attributes that you have and her bull does not have that your wife soundly appreciates.

I let my wife fuck around all she wants (so long as I know all about it). There are three reamisters I do so. I am, in fact, strong and secure of myself. She was a cheating wife for decades before I discovered it, and since once a cheater, always a cheater, it would be a losing battle to keep her from fucking around. And, lastly, I decided to join the chase by fucking around myself, fully and explicitly informing my wife and implicitly informing my paramours. We also swap with other couples. I successfully turned my lemon of a marriage into sweet lemonade.

drfarmer - there is a world of difference between romantic sex between cuckold husband and wife, and hot, torrid sex from a bull.

Chris, drfarmer has it right. My wife hates it when I get rough with her, she wants me to be real gentel, and make her feel really loved. But she wants it totally different from her lovers. She wants them to fuck her hard and like a porn star. My wife would have loved the fucking your wife got as long as it was another guy doing it. If I would have tried to do her like that she would have shut it down immediately. Women!!! Just enjoy the fact that she had a great time and love her for it. She probably loves you more for giving that to her. My wife does.

chris1465
Fact is Chris, all these guys are right. Wifey needs you because you support her in many ways, not just in bed. You have to find a way to find pleasure from it yourself. If she evolves into someone who just wants the big one and is no longer interested in fulfilling your needs and fantasies, then it is no great loss to you and she will likely live to regret it.
Lukie