Am I 'Making Up' for Something... ?

So... I've had this fantasy (her being with another man/other men) for about as long as I've been with my wife. I started talking to her about it around 9 years ago... and at first, she thought I was crazy and demented. It pretty much started because of how beautiful I think she is... and I always wondered what it looked like when we were together... but from a bystanders point of view.

A few years back (around 3 years), she finally decided to try it out. It wasn't the greatest experience... and we tried a few more times... but none of them were 'WOW'. Every time, it would be her and I... and then someone else would join... and I'd watch (sometimes participated too). She never tried anything without me and never gave me any indication that she WANTED to try anything without me.

We had a decent experience with one guy... but it turned into a disaster because he became attached, even thought we said it was a one time thing. The problem, as I see it, is my wife likes to chat to these guys for extended periods of time. She'll email them for a few weeks... and then she'll text... and then phone calls. It's all great... except for the fact that they become like friends... and I DON'T want that. I've told her that... but she's not comfortable just DOING it with someone.

She told me we were done with it for awhile because of that guy... but then about a year later, we had a random hookup with a guy she met online. They chatted for only a few days... he had a huge cock, and that's what she wanted... so he came over and we all had some fun. Luckily, this guy followed the rules... it was one-and-done. But then the other guy from earlier started emailing at random and freaked her out again.

It took about 18 months... but recently my wife has been VERY into it. She's posted ads on sites, joined pay-sites, etc. She's looking for something very specific out of it... she wants to be pissed on. Well, one guy she found said he'd LOVE to piss on her, and told her all kinds of stuff that she LOVED hearing... but then he said he wouldn't do it with me in the room. At first, I told her I thought it'd be hot if I was downstairs in the basement... and he thought I wasn't there. She disagreed at first... but then told me she REALLY wanted to play with him so she'd go that route if that was okay. I said it was fine... but then as the time got closer... I started to have doubts.

She went through with it... and she said it was a lot of fun... but that she wouldn't want to do it again. Now, she's been writing to this guy who I guess she accidentally gave my cell number to (our numbers are one digit off). It seems she told him that she'd like to meet him alone one evening... but just to meet.

I want to ask her about it... but I feel like if I did... I'd ruin everything that we're enjoying. I almost feel like, because I've had past transgressions (with other issues, not cheating)... I need to 'make up' for them and allow her to explore... but I'm absolutely PETRIFIED of losing her.

It's weird though... because leading up to the fun times we have... I LOVE to think about it. During the time it's happening... it drives me insane seeing her with someone else. Afterwards... I feel like a total douche. I love my wife like you wouldn't believe... and to know that she just had such a dirty experience with someone else almost hurts. But I can't STOP wanting it. It's addictive. When we have sex... it's CONSTANTLY on my mind. When we chat about sex... both of us bring it up. Afterwards... I feel WRONG though.

Anyway... I wanted to just vent. I know I'm going to continue enjoying the way things are. I'll have the internal battles with myself afterwards... but there's no way I'm going to be able to stop wanting it.

*sigh*

Oh well...

extaCY


once you see your wife enjoy another mans cock it can be no other way. We too started off having things with others, some good, some bad. She went away for a while to Iraq, fell in love with a soldier, I freaked out. She offered to tell me everything in detail only if I dressed like her "GIRLFRIEND" I did, she told everything! I couldnt stop my silk covered cock from getting hard and leaking precum, she noticed my reaction, stroked me through my panties I came in a minute! since then she has had many boyfriends I became her sissy fag. She hasnt fucked me in over a year I am in chastity most times, under her control and believe it or not. I am happy and addicted! Wife is getting ready to deploy again to Afghanistan, Threatening to fall in love again I am excited as hell, although the threat of loosing her to a real man is *******ing me inside I cant help but fabtasize about what it will be like to be here home again sitting in my pretty pink lingerie, big black dildo up my ass stroking my little cock as I cry about her being in love and the chance she may never come home to me. Thats what I did her first deployment, yes I did crossdress in her things while I dildo fucked myself as I cried and rubbed my little cock and came hard as my tears made my mascara run down my cheeks... I can't get enough

Just go with it and enjoy, trust in your wife and let her have it and you her way....
I have finally decided to take control (total) and have sissy in panties daily lock sissy in her CB 6000s for good. No more feeling sorry after a few weeks and no more giving into her pleas for mercy! Welcome the NEW MISTRESS!

Once a Wife knows she controls you, her floodgate of suppressed sexuality is unstoppable. Having a Wife serving in the powers gives her plenty of opportunity, to screw around and fall in love, hopefully she will return pregnant, you cab be her permanent nanny.

Cuckolding has its ups and downs, and it carries risk. The risk of pregnancy, her leaving you, if you are careless...std's, or even stalkers. But it can carry many good things. It can in many ways bring a couple closer together. While my wife is not currently cuckolding me, the time she did...has brought us closer together than we were. Things had gotten somewhat stale, and well...we communicate much better now.

Start out by setting up your ground rules. No one is allowed to break them without the other permisters permission. If either one of you says its got to stop...then thats it. But understand that she might be upset if you cut it off in the heat of the moment. You obviously have a computer, so set up a camera in the bedroom, and stream the video to your computer. That way you can be in the other room, she can have her privacy with him, and you can see what is going on.

Communication and ground rules...without that...things could end up bad for both of you. Once you have those set...enjoy the ride...enjoy the journey.

Thanks for sharing your experiences. I look forward to reading more.

You felt guilty because you know you were holding back on her.

Imagine how much closer you will feel to her when you learn to enjoy being pissed on like her!

It will be something special you can share together.