Recently Cuckolded on wedding anniversary

My wife and I flew to another country for vacation and to celebrate our wedding anniversary together. She has been cuckolding for approx 8 -9 years and is unfaithful to me approx 3 times a month.
I have been turned into her feminine sissy wimp husband that cleans the house while she is away on her dates and hotel visits with her lovers.

While on our anniversary vacation she met a really good looking young man at the bar while I was in the pool. She later came back to me after apparently spending all afternoon flirting with him, and she had set up a date with him for later that evening.
She had explained tht we have an "open relationship" and that I would be ok with him seeing her, but that I should come along too.
The guy was apparently ok with this, although he was VERY nervous when we did eventually meet up on the evening, but that relaxed after a while.

I had helped her get dressed for him and she looked so sexy , feminine and sensual, and her perfume smelled wonderful.
After taking us in his car to some romantic bars on the island he eventually took us back to his house. While at the bar however he was obviouslly smitten and full of desire for her as he could not help but gaze at her longingly all evening, and she kissed him infront of me at the table a couple of times.

When we got to his place my wife told me to sit outside the bedroom window and wait for her (as she didnt want to freak the guy out and make him too nervous with me being in the room with them ).

I watched from a distance as they undressed each other and in no time at all she was sucking him and after a short while he was deep inside of her giving her an exciting fucking of a lifetime !
After he had cum inside of her he had to wait only 5 - 8 minnutes and he was hard and ready to go again, which they of course did !
I was able to watch most of this thru the window at a safe distance so as not to surprise the guy by me watching.

When he dropped us off back to the hotel later, my wife told me how much she enjoyed having such a young good looking guy fucking her and how WIDE and large he was and how he totally filled her like no ther has ever done.
This of course bothturned me on but hurts and degrades me.

Before going back into our hotel room we sneaked into a nearby building site and my wife put her sexy high heeled foot up on a metal post and told me what a useless fucking wimp I was and reminded of how I will NEVER be allowed insiade of her ever again, and that I am too much of a weak girly sissy to satisfy her, and how much she liked this new guy and how good he made her feel, all this as I wanked my sefl over he beautiful foot and exploded over it in only a minute or so.My white sperm looking very sexy over her tanned brown foot and black high heels.

She fucked the guy another 5 times before our vacation ended. Since then they have kept in contact via text messages and calls.

Now , only weeks later, my wife has booked us on an "extra vacation trip " back there next week !!!!

It is both a very exciting , but scarey time.