kennyboy82:
You're suffering from very typical 'cuckold angst'
Kennyboy82 has hit the nail on the head. I know only too well from experience that mixture of being really turned on, but anxious, insecure and jealous at the same time. I originally found myself aroused by catching other guys checking out my wife's legs and cleavage. This led to me telling her this and her admitting that she liked the attention too. She had a separate social life due mainly to my shift pattern at work and would often be at our works' social club or out with the girls or playing darts in pubs and clubs in a local ladies league.
She enjoyed male company and I knew deep down that there would be occasions when guys would hit on her and with a few dr1nks inside her Debbie wouldn't be averse to wandering hands on her arse, legs or boobs. I felt the temptation would no doubt arise to take things further with the right guy. I hadn't felt this with my first wife or the woman I lived with after, but with Debbie I found this possibility very arousing and eventually confessed as much to her.
Over the course of 2 years I introduced little scenarios into the bedroom, getting her to confess when she'd been chatted up whilst she'd been out, her telling me if she'd seen any guys she'd fancied - younger guys in the early 20s usually - and later, some role-play with a dildo we had. This became an imaginary guy my wife had "met" and she loved hearing how much I enjoyed watching this "guy's" cock going in and out of her pussy and how naughty she was doing it right there in front of her husband. Naturally, she had her doubts when I suggested she should do it for real, wondering if I didn't love her anymore or was looking for an excuse to go with other women myself.
After a false start involving a delivery driver she fancied where she worked, a young customer at her shop started showing interest in her. He was 23 and he seemed unconcerned about the wedding ring on her finger, nor that she was 35 with 4 kids. She played hard to get at first, declining his first offer of a date mainly to check that I was still okay with it. Next time he asked though, she accepted his offer of a dr1nk after work, telling him that she'd tell her husband that they were stock-taking and not to worry if she was very late home. I in turn, to show my approval, bought her a pack of condoms to carry at all times.
Sure enough, he met Debbie from work one afternoon in full view of her colleagues and took her to the nearby pub. Later he suggested they go back to his flat and she readily agreed. This involved walking back past the shop, a 24 hour convenience store, and being seen by staff and the group of teenagers that usually hung about outside. I'm sure they knew only too well that their mate Chris had just "pulled" that ginger woman from the shop.
Once there, they were soon kissing passionately and Chris wasted no time removing Debbie's dark green uniform polo shirt and white bra. Once he'd kissed her neck and sucked her breasts, there was no going back and on his bed, her black trousers and white panties came off too. She gave him the condoms I had bought, saying she didn't any more babies and he eagerly mounted her and fucked her. After a break for a cigarette and a coffee, she mounted him next and later, before he let her get dressed to go home, he fucked her again.
I met her from the station and she showed me texts, her saying that "she'd always wanted a toyboy" and Chris replying, "Well, you've got one now. Every time I see you in future I'm going to fuck your brains out." Once at home and in bed, she told me all about her evening. Apart from her nipples being a bit red from so much sucking, I would never have known she'd already had sex 3 times earlier. I expressed surprise that they'd used all three condoms I'd bought and she giggled, looking like the cat that got the cream, and said, "You'd better buy your naughty wife some more then!" After we'd made love, we cuddled up and discussed what happens next, with her suggesting she see him maybe once or twice a week and possibly staying over at his once a month. I readily agreed, liking the prospect of Debbie now having "a bit on the side" as she put it and we went to s1eep very satisfied.
A day or two later though, I got really, really insecure. What if he was better in bed than me? She said he wasn't, but liked the idea of training him up and teaching him new things. What if he had a bigger dick than me? She siad he didn't. What if he took her way from me? She insisted that I would always be her number 1. Despite her attempts to put my mind at rest, I asked her not to see him anymore. We had agreed beforehand that if either of us weren't happy with the arrangement, then she'd stop. We had a few quiet days, but I gave her lots of love and affection and explained that no harm had been done. I'd wanted it to happen, she'd wanted to try a new young cock and he'd had an older, married woman, so it was a win-win situation. Things weren't helped by Chris not getting in touch with her afterwards, which made Debbie feel used and dirty, plus she was soon propositioned for sex by at least 2 of those teenagers from outside the shop. She thought Chris had told them about getting her into bed and now all those young lads knew she was an easy lay and fancied some of that pussy too if it was going.
We got through it though. In later years I regretted being so hasty. In hindsight, I should have let things carry on. Chris did contact her after a few days, expecting a repeat performance, but Debbie said no. But for my insecurity, he would probably have got more and on a regular basis. Years later, I started to broach the subject of her cuckolding me again, but was met with a firm, "I'm not going down that road again." Later, this became "maybe", and eventually, "Do you think you would handle it better this time?" The advent of the Internet, dating websites and social media made things somewhat easier now and sure enough, 9 years on - Debbie now 44 - she embarked on the lifestyle again. Now both older and wiser, I handled things much, much better, even to point that when Debbie went bare-back with a former workmate of mine (breaking our 2 ground-rules in one go!) Even though I had never liked him very much, Debbie did and he, I found out later, had had his eyes on her almost as soon as he joined my firm, so finally getting my wife into bed was a landmark for him. She had him and her mate's step-dad, in between another two younger guys, a 25 year-old squaddie from 2 Para and a 28 year-old security guard.
I'm sorry to waffle on baiout, but this is my way of saying just hold your nerve and let her do what she needs to do. Remember though, that there is going to be a third party involved now and quite often scenarios and situations the two of you have thought of and prepared for can be derailed by the other guy's ideas, thoughts and feelings. But I hope you go though with it. I don't regret it one little bit. I'd do it all again, but differently.
Good luck and let us know what happens. Photos of my naughty wife below.
Peter C
