Reality

I've had this fantasy for years, and for the first time it seems like it could actually happen. Of course, now, I'm scared. I thought maybe I could get some perspective from you all.

As background, growing up I had several long-term girlfriends who all ended up cheating on me. I would stay with them. When the Internet came into common use, of course I started watching porn and was amazed by the size of amateur men, not just porn stars. Yes, I'm small and particularly thin in the penis department.

Anyway, recently I've been messaging with a bull I found online who lives a reasonable distance away. Not too near, not too far. Then, out of the blue last night my wife was stroking me off and asked about my bucket list. I was too surprised to bring up watching her with a hung man. We have had a couple of ******* sessions in the past where I told her about my cuck fantasies, but that was a long time ago. She's really not a hyper-sexual woman, but can occasionally get into it.

So, I don't know what I'm really seeking here. I guess I just want to hear from other cucks and how it worked for your first time.