cuckjamesn:
I thought I wanted this till it became real now I'm not sure.
You've found out the hard way that being a cuckold 'wannabee' is not the same as the real thing, just like lots of guys do. Don't wish for what you don't really want. This train's rolling now, and I doubt you can get off it. She's going to fuck your friend and you can't stop it, so either accept it and enter in the world of cuckold husbands or walk away with your tail between your legs!
Sorry if this sounds harsh, but this is what you wanted and it's happened, live with it.