What's worse, remembering or not remembering?

Some of you may have seen my other thread at https://www.cuckoldplace.com/2_71767_1.html where I explain how I imagine my wife is cucking me through coincidence. My question here, based on my imaginary cuck status is:

She's been denying me for / It's now been nearly three weeks since I got anywhere near her in any sort of way. What's hotter, exactly remembering the last time you had sex with your wife, or not remembering the last time you had sex with your wife?
My real life: http://www.cuckoldplace.com/2_71767_1.html
My fiction: http://www.cuckoldplace.com/2_81499_1.html