Can't get it out of my mind.

This is my first post under this name. I have posted here in the past as "shelovesbig" but I can't remember my password if that account would even work anymore. I closed that account because the wife and I are in and out of the lifestyle and I would get uneasy about it at times. I could never go to the extremes some others do and completely deprive myself or let her do anything she wanted. The reamister I chose my new screen name is because I just can't stop thinking About her fucking a hung stud. We have done it, I have pics and videos and nothing in this world gets my dick harder. NOTHING! Just wondered if any other guys were part time cucks like myself, I consider myself a #4 with bi-desires. Can anybody relate?

CantStop: Believe me, you are not alone...in this crazy game we play with ourselves there are all kinds of people with similar situations. I too have been in and out of the lifestyle, but for me at least it is not by choice...I have never wanted it to stop as nothing gets my fires burning any more than when my wife cuckolds me...in my case it is my wife who is hot for a while then cold, then out of nowhere she has guilt feelings about it and says we must take some time off for a while, etc. It has been a real roller coaster ride, but again, not by choice...it all depends on her moods, so I have learned to keep on the pressure, but not too much so as to not piss her off and having her stop all together. She knows that any time she wants to get laid outside the marriage I am fine with it so long as I am told about it and I either get to watch or hear the details. The rest is upto her and her moods. Go figure!! Women, can't live with them can't live without them!!

My wife and I are in and out of the Lifestyle. As well as Swinging and FMM 3somes. I love seeing my wife being used by other men or share her with another guy in a 3some. I've been a bull for other couples where the wife wanted to see her husband suck cock. So I'd let him. But I've had no bi-desires myself. I agree with JAUNITO, "there are all kinds of people".

Thanks for the replies guys. I have always been the dominant in this relationship always aware of what was going to take place except twice(long story there) I want to give April "free reign" kind of but haven't. I guess I am too worried about her safety and her discretion. When she is horny she will spread her legs for almost anyone and she likes bareback no condoms for her. She loves a guy cumming inside her. All of that makes it too dangerous for
Me to say do what u want. My ultimate fantasy would be her. Ome home from the grocery store and take me straight back to the bedroom make me get naked cuff me and possibly put a cock cage on(I haven't tried that yet but want too) and sit on my face with her used. Cum filled pussy. And tell me what happened while I clean her pussy. I guess I also wish she would tell me my dick was not big enough or wasn't what she needs sometimes. As freaky as my wife is she is so quiet in bed. I wish she would dirty it up a little. Damn I am horny now after writing that.