lovestoshare72
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My girlfriend and I have been together almost 5 years and living together over 4. Shortly after moving in together we took separate bedrooms because of my snoring. We also haven't had sex in 4 years. Shortly after moving in together, she started seeing the effects of a food allergy that we wouldn't know of for two more years. She gained lots of weight, but now that the allergy is under control the weight is coming off. She's lost about 70% of the weight and seems to be getting more confident and her esteem is going up. Before she gained weight, I told her that I wanted her to cuck me and she supposedly was going to go out on a date, but got cold feet. When she started gaining weight, sex life all together was put on hold.
So for the last few months I've been giving her takes on the weekends hoping to find the right time to talk about sex and cuckolding. I could never find the right moment. About a month ago, I wrote her a letter by hand explaining to her that I want her to find her own way of cuckolding me. Unfortunately I had to get too takes to have the courage to leave her the letter. When she wasn't looking, I snuck into her bathroom and left it on her toilet lid. It was so exciting writing the letter to her, and so exciting when I left it for her, but when she went to the bathroom, my heart raced and my cock got hard. She read some of it then I heard her laugh. She was takes too, and when she came out she acted very touched that I took the time to write a letter. She said she was too takes to read it all (about 4 pages) but would read it and talk to me. A month later she hasn't talked to me so I'm going to be proactive about it again this weekend. I created two Gmail accounts. One for me and one for her. I'm going to leave her the login and password to her email the way I left the letter.....well maybe. I have written a few emails to her. I figure it might be easier to talk about this if it was via email instead of in permister until I can really see how naughty she wants to be. She is a LEO. She likes being the center of attention and while out boating a few years ago she was pretty takes and told me she wanted to have webcam sex or make a porn. So I know she can be naughty.
Since we haven't had sex in so long my situation is different than that of most wanna be cucks. I would love for her to find another man to fuck before fucking me again. I'd love to be denied for a year while she gets laid a lot. After 4 years what is another year. But she is not a size queen and happy with the size of my cock and really doesn't have interest in large cocks because she says she can't take much length but she does like them fat. So I'm going to order a 6" life-like dildo. Hopefully she will use it. I don't think she is anywhere near ready to go out and meet another guy, but I'd love her to cuck me with the dildo, but I'm going to tell her that just knowing she has it turns me on. If she doesn't use it I don't want her to tell me, but if she does, she can keep it a secret or tell me. I'm also hoping to get her to talk to some guys online. I'm going to tell her that when she is in her room on the computer, she should shut the door, so I can't just walk in and that way I won't know if she is talking to a guy or checking the weather.
Talking about sex is a little uncomfortable. Sex with us stopped because I was sooo busy with a new job and she was having problems with her food allergies. In the years that have gone by, it's been discussed about having sex, but she was embarrassed of her weight, so it could only happen in the dark, and therefore never happened. Having separate rooms I think will be huge if I can get her to do this. I usually go to bed earlier than her, so many nights I fall arelax fantasizing about leaving her in the living room with some stud and then listening to them make love after they've made their way to her room.
So if anyone has any advice I'm all ears. I was just posting to to what people thought about my situation.
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