Please help me do what i need to do

I'm a 23 year old male with what I've been told by several past girlfriends and their friends is "too small" of a dick. And have currently been with my girlfriend age 20 for a little over 3 years now, we've basically a marriage as we've lived together almost since day 1.

Now like alot of guys on this site, my girlfriend has more of a slutty past than most, but UNLIKE most of the guys on this site, my problem/stories are true and I DO want advice on how to proceed.

I've always felt an inadequate lover and wished i had a massive length and great girthed cock- but i do not. Well my girlfriend is gorgeous, round 5"4, brown hair, beautiful pale skin, green PIERCING eyes, huge round thick ass, nice big 34 c (maybe 36 c) tits and is all around a thick girl. NOT fat mind you...just "thick".

During the beginning of our relationship she used to practically beg for sex repeatedly daily, and as time has passed we're lucky if we fuck once a month, generally because i'm not in the mood because i 1.) feel i don't please her enough and that the sounds she makes are light and possibly fake. and that 2.) i jerk most of my loads to porn on the internet 90% of which is watching big cocked black guys slamming young white innocent looking girls and turning them into complete cock whores for them, and i especially enjoy watching when the dick is so big and the guy thrusts so far in u see the physical pain in the girl.

In any event I used to constantly worry that my girlfriend would cheat on me, but with the way she speaks, I doubt as she could. (But then again maybe im just a dumb white cuck waiting to discover that.) But the past few times we've had sex i've used a nice dildo on her thats about my same thickness, but about 2-3 inches longer and has rubber studs all over it- well i've gotten extremely hot jerking my cock while i fuck her with this dildo and watch her writhe in ways i don't make her move, and listen to her breathing change as i hit spots i cannot hit with my cock as hard as i may try. i want to see her cum so fucking badly but when i feel like she's about to she always makes me stop and pulls me inside to fuck her. Now I could take this as she really wants me, or she's afraid she wants bigger cock and that'll make her realize how much she misses being a casual fuck kinda permister as she was before we got together.

Also over the past several months i've found myself continually thinking/wishing/dreaming about what it would be like to see my girlfriend slammed by a big cock- more specifically a big black cock; and wondering how she would sound and look then. My girlfriend is very naive in alot of ways, and in alot of ways she's not...but she has that "innocent" looking/sounding/acting factor to her that makes it irresistable. And i find myself get angry when I notice black guys in public staring at her and being like damn he aint doin it right...but at the same time im standing there thinking...wow it'd be so hot to watch them completely own and obliterate her little tight pussy. She has fucked a black guy in her past but says it was nothing to brag about, but i can't believe it. So every day i think of this and then last nite i dreamt of her being double stuffed by 2 huge dicked black guys and woke up hard as a fucking rock. Aside from ALL of this...i think she DESERVES bigger, better dick.

my question now is how do i even THINK of bringing this up to her? we've talked about swinging before but not seriously, and we both said we didnt want that. but i think this might be just what both of us are looking for. i don't know, it could ruin us...it very well might, but im so obsessed with it. and i need/want to know how u guys have successfully talked ur girlfriend/wife into letting another man or even men fuck ur wife, while u watch and jerk off?

PLEASE, if u've read this much...please respond with some help. i will check back later this morning for advice. and i will post pics of my gf, which I took and yes they are really of my gf of 3 years.

posting more pics

heres even more

last ones- see doesnt she deserve a nice thick dick? how do i go about bringing this up to her guys? cuz if shes not into it i dont wanna lose her.

this is from our anniversary on 10/31/06

Been there (Started there.)

The safest way to bring it up is not to propose it directly at first. Instead, have an intimate romantic time and lead the conversations to sexual fantasies. Then share with her that this fantasy makes you hot and see where it goes. Alterantely, you might consider renting a porno video (if you two do that kind of thing) as part of getting "in the mood" that has a conversation opener in it (say a "wild wives" theme or an interracial scene).

Approach the entire subject first as just a "you know what is really hot" kind of thing - don't move to "let's do it in real life" yet. See how she responds. If she finds it hot, you can start bringing it up again over the next several weeks and move it towards "maybe we should try it." If she isn't into it, but doesn't mind, you can do the same, just move slower, stopping at "maybe someday," before "let's try it."

Another thought: Do you have any interest in chasitity play? I only ask because I think if you stopped beating off so much by yourself, you would be more turned on and motivated with her. Despite a lot of the posts you see on this site, the real truth is that woman are more willing to experiment sexually when there sexual part of the relationship is working well and they are more open to the ide of outside lovers (swinger, cuckolding, threesomes, etc.) when they feel like the primary relationship is secure, intimate, and healthy. If you too warm it up again, you have a better chance of moving her along. (Also, I advise you stop posting her pictures without her permission. She may not like it if she finds out.)

Good luck.
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Wishing you the best of luck. Your girlfriend looks very hot

You are right that she DESERVES bigger, better dick.

But she also deserves orgasms from you. You need to learn how to satisfy her with your tongue on her clit. Ask her help you find her clit and ask her to direct your licking; harder, softer, more direct, less direct, faster slower. When you start satisfying her orally your relationship will improve.

Well being a young couple, alot of our friends are also young, and I don't really think I'd be comfortable with the idea of having parties each week to see who outta my friends she wants to fuck. Honestly I don't want it to be my any of my friends, that'd be weird to me. I read in a post on here somewhere where a "bull" says he likes to meet the couple before anything, talk with both parties seperately make sure everything is worked out beforehand. And that sounds fine as long as it's a stranger and we can work it out prior to.

In reference to the porn idea...she's forbidden me to jerk off since we've been together but I do that daily cuz i feel i HAVE to. So no to renting porn and introducing it that way...and also...

to the chastity- no...I couldn't do it. I'm also not wanting to do the offense thing either. but i do think it would be hot to watch it going on in front of me maybe the first time restrained, and then the next time unrestrained so i could beat off and do as i wish.

I also have no interest in eating creampies, I permisterally think that's disgusting to eat another man's fucking cum much less my own; but in the definitions on this site of this whole "lifestyle" is that i know my girl wants/deserves/has had better dick than me and she needs it again. As well as it being a huge turn on to me; but its mainly that I want her to have the Alpha Male cock she desperately needs/deserves because I know i'm not good enough for her. Aside from having a puny cock, I also cum very quickly during sex, so that's also no fun. Anytime she says she is ABOUT to cum and not to stop and to fuck her harder it makes me cum even faster and so she doesnt get off and i just fucking hate that

Being from an urban city, my girlfriend loves rap music and she has this one gangsta rapper she just is in love with and always makes comments about wanting him to be her husband and stuff. And i think it's cuz she likes that super rough vibe, i think she NEEDS/WANTS to be owned as a black cum dumpster. But yet she doesnt care for most black people. So i dunno wtf to do? all i've done today is think about it, obsess about it. i feel i'm gonna lose my mind if i don't come up with a resolution soon! im going nuts here!

Adding to my confusion over this whole subject is this...everytime i jerk off, its to porn vids of black guys/white girls, and after i've cum and i'm thru i'll begin thinking bout my girl doing this and it just makes me feel sick and disgusted like i could never look at her again. so i don't know if i could go thru with it- can i? im so fucking confused

Good luck. Think you could get her to do it.

But once you go black....

When my ex went black she wanted me to not only eat cream pie and ass, witch I did, but to clean and serve her bulls too.

Chickened out at sucking cock. She left.

Regret it now. Good luck.

is it just a fantasy then? cuz i most assuredly am 1.) NOT gonna suck anyone's fucking cock, 2.) am not gonna fucking eat a creampie, 3.) am never gonna eat ass. maybe this isn't the right lifestyle for me...i dunno....as i said i'm very confused.

Dude, that what I thought. But...

Eating creampie is O.K. And it really show that you are bond to your woman, that you love and respect her.

Have eaten lots of white cum out of her. Black is better, thicker, creamy, and more of it.

Doing the duties show your woman that she rules you. It's part of the lifestyle.

Black cock rules. Wish I'd know that before. (admitted it to myself). Now I'm ready to spread my checks for the right woman. Another think to think about.

Once she goes black....

It's O.K. to have it a fantasy. But if you get her start thinking about black cock, if she doesn't allready, she will.

Any updates? I say just mention to her in passing that you get turned on by being a cuckold and see what happens?