I can hardly believe what you wrote. Because it is exactly the same way for me.
Yes, well, I imagine there are many of us out there but, let's face it, this is not the sort of thing most men would advertise about themselves!.. lol...
When I was a schoolboy a young black student came up behind me and pushed his half-hard erection up against my butt. I remember thinking that since it literally spanned both my ass cheeks he must be MUCH bigger than me in the penis department- despite the fact that we were both about the same overall height and build.
When I turned to see who this kid was he looked me in the eye with total confidence and asked me, "it felt good didn't it?" Immediately I denied it but he persisted, "you liked it. Be honest." But I was too embarrassed to admit the truth; I DID like it! Still, at that time and place in my life, there was zero chance I would admit to this young man that his cock, introduced so rudely to my ass, actually gave me a thrill!
After insisting several times that he was right and I should admit the obvious, he gave up and never "bothered" me again. I sometimes find myself regretting my choice.Faggot Pussy