ruinedhub4u
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Sure wish someone could explain why I behave the way I do with my women throughout my life. I'm a good looking man and very masculine appearing. I've never had trouble attracting women and have been married three times and now in my 60's and single.
However, I've always felt inferior to other men on all levels . I let go two beautiful girls in H.S. and sure enough my arch rivals stepped in and eventually married them. I divorced all three wives because I eventually felt I wasn't man enough for them. One man eventually married my first ex and legally adopted my mister. I didn't put up a fight.
I have recently joined a veteran's organization where they have a nice lounge and dances on the weekends. At first I marveled at how the men there manhandled the single ladies. Touching their butts and putting hickeys on their necks, and literally passing them around. Very aggressive but the 'ol ladies didn't put up much of a fuss. Met a very attractive 59 yr. young lady there and as always the absolute gentleman with her.
Found out later that I was getting very attached to her. I then also found out later that several of the men were bitching cause one of there favorites they liked to dance with and feel up was my lady. They wouldn't ask her to dance if she sat with me. I dumped her and she was heartbroken not even coming to the dances for three weeks. When she came back things went back to normal and the other men were on her right off...like a feeding frenzy.
I actually felt good that I had given her back to the "boys" so they could have some fun. Then I went home and wanked off about it all. I like the feeling of being a wimp and a pussy...weak and ineffectual. I like other men taking advantage of me. Now, does that make me a cuck?....sort of?
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briantoronto
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Hi ruinedhub4u
First off, I assume by joining a veterans association that you are indeed a Veteran, so I have to take my hat off and offer a sincere Thank You for service !
But back to the emotional masochism, I think all Cuckolds have this in common. I truly enjoy feeling inferior other Men. The way a Man looks at me after he just fucked my wife, he just kind of smiles, kinda laughs at me, leaving me feeling useless and pathetic. For some strange reamister though, in a strange way, it's comforting, something I crave. Being taken advantage of, in one way or another, is just a simple form of offense, which I think all Cuckolds enjoy, at least a little anyway.
Watching a Man fuck my wife is like watching live porn all the time, which is great, but on a deeper level, all three of us know he's a "Real Man". He's cock is much bigger and he can fuck much longer or better than I ever could. It's humiliating and emasculating, but I love it in a weird way. Knowing another Man "owns" my wife and we all know it.
The same goes for panties. My wife put me in panties years ago, but after a few weeks or months, the thrill fades and they become simply underwear. But even after all these years in panties, I still love that humiliating smiles from my wife when she sees me in them, or when she makes me show my panties to her Lover. Being a Sissy isn't always about being feminine, sometimes it's about the offense or self masochism. When we started out in the lifestyle I know I went out of my way to be terrible in bed. I made sure her Lovers got better and better, as I got worse and worse. I realize now that I did it on purpose.
Call it what you want, offense, self degradation, or self masochism, I think all Cucks enjoy it in some form or another.
Just a few thoughts.
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