Ruined??

I looked over the list of topics and could not find one that I thought best fit me however, I relate to this one but it seems to me that "ruined" can take on a positive meaning. Let me explain..

First of all let me explain a little background I recently went through what I call an awakening in my life and I owe it all to my wife. I was blessed with a beautiful, warm, and very loyal woman. I almost lost her and had it not been for my life before her and my experiences I would've lost her. I have alot to get off my chest and because I am a private permister these experiences can not be made public but if I don't express myself somehow I'll explode.

I responded to a post a couple of days ago "FIRST TIME YOU SUCKED COCK." In that post I explained my first time, here's what happen next.

The next day I was sooo scared. I was worried that maybe Hector would've said something to the others and somehow my parents or siblings would find out. My lady had caught me coming into the house after dark and for me that was not normal. I made up some stupid excuse and of course she bought it. Why wouldn't she I never lied to her before.

That next morning my man told me that I had to drive Hector to a new work site and then come back and help him around the house. My heart stopped the last thing I wanted was to be around Hector. I said no problem and got in the work truck. Next thing I know I hear this loud BAM! I jumped out of my skin Hector had snuck up on the truck and slapped the passenger side door. When I jumped he started laughing his ass off. After he got in the truck and asked me what was wrong.

When he saw I was scared cuckolds brownieless he told me to calm down everything was ok he patted me on the head in his playfull manner and thats when I realized everything was ok. We drove to the site like nothing had happen trying to teach each other our languages like we always did before and man was I relieved. When we got to the site he brushed the back of his hand against my cheek and asked if I was ok, I smiled and said yeah.

Honestly it was those moments that have stayed with me. The feeling that everything is ok and I have nothing to worry about.

The day went without any event worth remembering until my dad had me go pick up the workers from their various spots. After we got back everyone jumped out and I was just about to get out of the truck when Hector grabs my hand I remember looking around to see if anyone was watching but everyone was just walking away from the truck no worries. He tells me again tonite ok.... I smiled and said si.

That night as I walked towards the workers house I was surprised with that familiar "psst.." I looked over and inside the truck was Hector. I climbed in and he smiled at me I looked down and could see the outline of his cock through his pants. It was already hard from what I could see, he takes my hand and puts it on his crotch. Immediately I reach for the zipper and smile... he had no underware on. His cock was not huge but it was not small. It was however thick. I remember that because I could barely close my hand around it.

Looking around and not spotting anyone then looking back into his eyes I felt his hand on the back of my neck and just like that he pushes me down and my mouth drops onto his cock. I remember how smooth the skin on his cock felt and how good his crotch smelled. I could tell he had just showered and the taste of his pre cum I can remember to this day. He groaned the told me to open my mouth more so I did as I was told and he pushed his cock into my mouth deeper than the day before.

Again I don't know how long I was sucking his cock. I do remember him telling me to slide my tongue on the underside of his cock head. Everytime I moved it from one side to the other I could feel that thick membrane that runs between the split of a mans cockhead.

Everytime I would brush my tongue against it he would squirm and moan. Then he tensed up and grunted and my mouth was taking its second load in as many days. This time he didn't have to tell me to swallow I just did it. Another grunt and more sperm and I swallowed. Just like the day before except this time I didn't stop swallowing and suckling after he stopped cumming. All the while he was running his fingers through my hair. Then he whispers.. stop, so I did.

I looked up at him and what I didn't know then, what I know now is, I had feelings for him. Looking back I can remember that we were friends long before I sucked his cock. He was kind to me long before I saw his cock that summer day.

Looking back now I know that what drew me to him was his ability to be a kind and gentle.
He was a good man.... but that night the only thing I knew was oh cuckolds brownie its late I hope mom's arelax....















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Sounds great fun, tell us all more please

Over the years I have had my fair share of girlfriends and one night stands. But they all would eventually bore me. So thats how the whole cuck thing started, out of my boredom or so I thought. It wasn't until recently that I came to realize why I was so bored with my girls\women. Thats what I'm trying to get off my chest... the why.

After that summer my friend left and went back home leaving me with my memories and they were many. I was a kid, niave and stupid but very curious and very happy that he would let me play with his cock on a daily basis. After he left life went on as normal or as normal could be for me. I was able to teach the little schoolgirls that went to school with the art of sucking cock and it felt really good being on the receiving end of the blowjobs. But everytime I would shoot my load I would think of my friend.

A coulple of years later I made a new friend actually he was a close friend of my parents. As I said I grew up on a small West Texas farm and this gentleman happen to hold a very respectfull position in the nearby small town that I went to school in. When you have after school activities and living out in the country its easier to just stay in "town" than have the parents come get you in the evening. So my parents made arrangements with this friend for me to stay the nights on those occasions as needed.

At first everything was innocent enough nothing out of the ordinary. At first he would knock on the door as I showered and ask if he could take a leak while I was in the shower because he couldn't hold it. Next thing I know he's starting up conversations while he's taking a leak. Pretty soon he's just standing in the doorway while I'm getting ready to take a shower as if everything is just okie dokie. I would take my shirt off at first to see if he would get the hint and at first he did he would close the door so I could take my shower.

But by the second month of this little game of his I was getting undressed in front of him and turning to adjust the water temp before I would get in the shower knowing that he was looking me up and down while he held his fake conversation with me . I would be so excited that I would have to get in the shower immediately without turning around so that he would not see my hard on. Then one night he informed me that he had gotten rid of the bed in his spare bedroom and I would have to relax on the couch.

By the end of the evening he had convinced me to relax in his bed and I will never forget that night. We chatted for a while, small talk and then I said goodnight and turned my back to him. Even now as I type these words my hands are trembling and I am feeling short of breath so you can imagine the mess I was in that bed that night.

After what seemed like forever I felt him move and turn towards me. Then just like that he was spooned up against me and I could feel his body pressing against me. To this day I don't know why but when I felt his body against mine I pushed my ass back and up. Just like that I could feel his cock pressed against my ass. My heart was racing because I had sucked cock but I had never felt one pressed up against me. His arm swung around and it was across my stomach, his hand grabbing hold of me around the waist and pulling me even closer to him.

I could hear his breathing becoming more eratic and his cock growing against my ass. Then he reaches under the blankets and grabs the waist band of my shorts sliding them down past my ass cheeks around my thighs. Feeling him fumble with his shorts and just like that I could feel this rock hard, slimy cock head sliding between my ass cheeks and underside of my balls. He started slowly sliding his cock back and forth. His precum smearing between my ass cheeks and underside of my balls gawd I was so nervous, so electric.

He reached down and grabbed his cock and positioned the head against my hole. I knew what was coming and I was so scared but never did I think to stop him. With one gentle push I felt as if I was being ripped apart I squeeled....gawd! And just like that he was inside me. He whispered relax baby relax, but all I could feel was this sharp pain. But he kept repeating it relax, relax so I did. Little did I know that by tensing up I was making it worse and as soon as I relaxed my hole let go. I was still very, very tight but his precum had lubed my hole well.

He started slowly pushing in deeper then slowly pulling out then pushing back in ever so slowly. He kept repeating his movements and before I could realize I could feel his body pressing against my ass and I knew he was in all the way. He pumped me for what seemed like for hours and I went from pain to gasping in between his thrusts I blurted out, "it feels so good."

I don't know how long he fucked me but I do remember how he came. His body went tense and he pushed in all the way. I could feel this warm mushy feeling deep in my hole almost as if I was going to crap myself. He kept grunting and grunting each time dumping his sperm in me. Not knowing I went from bliss to fear. Was I gonna crap in bed!

The things we think of when we don't know huh? I didn't soil myself turns out the squeshy feeling was my ass being filled with his cum and when he pulled out of my ass my ass let out this loud "POP" as if someone had opened a bottle of champagne. I squeezed my ass tight he went to the bathroom and I layed there in bed with cum deep in my ass and my cum smeared all over my crotch and bed. I had cum and not even realized it.

That would be the last time I stayed at my parents friends house and it would be years before I would give myself like that to a man again.... I was 17

That was hot!
M Lura