Cuckold ! Yes ? or NO !

I don't know if my story will be a turn on. It is not meant to be. Maybe if I write this down, it will help me sort out my feelings of excitement, anxiety; my fantasies and my fears. Got married to a beautiful mature lebanese woman, love was divine and making love was great ! Cuckolding never entered my mind. She seldom initiated sex but she truly enjoyed it. I know she did because after her second orgasms, she transformed into a wild woman. She wanted more. And more. It's like after she came twice, she was eager for sex and pleasure, wherever it comes from! And that's when I started to get indications that she could, under certain circumstances became a slut, needing to be fucked, she didnt care how ! That was my first clue.

She assumed my cock was long. Her ex-boyfriends must have been short, because I don't consider myself well endowed. Very turned on with a full erection I got just over 7 inches (18 cm) medium width. We sometimes had sex twice before going to ***** and when we had privacy, and enough time for me to get hard again, we went for a long third time ! If her moans, screams and orgasms were any indications, she was sexually satisfied. Eventually I bought a vibrator. I chose a white model about the same size as my cock, maybe just a bit harder, and although she was reticent at first, she realized it could add to her pleasure and accepted it. She called it "your little friend", and we used it from time to time.

Fast forward a dozen years or so, we have a kid now, monotony reigns in our house (happiness was scarce), and in our bed (orgasms rare and far apart). Day to day life is boring. Of course I had started masturbating to compensate. Our marital sex was not what it had been. Around that time, I got my second hint of naughty / nasty behavior. I was still completely oblivious to their meaning, but they were there. One precious night, we just had very pleasurable sex and each had an intense orgasm. It was an sensuous and erotic moment. I ejaculated inside her cunt and laid beside her before pulling out. We wipe ouselves and she says :" Why dont you go in the drawer and bring out your little friend and continue pleasuring me with it ?" I was surprised but of course complied ! We had A LOT of fun. But I never forgot the incident. I should have known that something was amiss.

A few years later, my 16 year old ******** told us that she had a new boyfriend, and he was an 18 year old black jamaican. My wife didn't react well at all. I never knew she had such intense racial prejudices. When we were alone, she explained her reasons. "She's too young ! She's a minor ! What happens if he kisses her !?" I replied:" If they kiss, they kiss, what's the problem, it's just kissing !"
-- No it's not ! It's not just kissing. Don't you know what happens when a black man kisses a woman with those thick full lips ??? She wont be able to resist.
--What ?
-- Yes ! Don't be naive! You know about black men! They have thick black lips, so soft, when they kiss a woman, she just melts into his arms. Those lips are so seductive, a woman can't whitstand the attraction and if, God forbid ! , the kiss lasts a long time and then he slips his thick tongue in her mouth ! It's irresistable ! Oh, my poor baby girl !!
-- You're serious ? How would you know all that ?
-- Remember, I told you about a party I gave for a few collegues, when I was 25. And everybody left, except a black man who was flirting with me all evening. I had asked my best friend not to leave me alone with him, but she couldn't stay. He tried to seduce me, he kissed me with his delicious lips. And just like I told you, I melted. I tried to resist him but he was so tall. And strong. He kept on kissing me and then darted his tongue in my mouth. I wanted to protest, and kept up trying to push him away. But I couldn't. I was overcomed, by those lips.

Fast forward. A few weeks later. Jacking off while watching porn on my computer. I stumble upon a cuckolding video and my memory brings back to mind the pieces of the puzzle. I put it together. One, two, three strikes, you're out ! And I am turned on !
So I watch more of the same, and specially, a white wife cuckolding her husband with a well hung black man. And I start reading stories about it, and forums and blogs, and black superiority web sites. And I don't understand. Probably because I have jealous tendencies...

A husband who loves his wife can't let her be used like that by a black man. Impossible. And yet, not taking into account the video-clips who are 90% acted, or fake, I can't deny that some of the amateur, homemade movies seem real life clips and most of the stories on forums and blogs can't all be false. I have to face the fact that some men do, let their wife, or encourage their wife to cuckold them. I still don't understand.

Then I compare my couple to the "cuckold's" couple. Ooops. Damn !
My wife likes sex, but when she cums a lot, she LOVES sex ! She becomes insatiable.
I have an average sized penis, and I have gained weight, while my wife is still super sexy !
She never found it necessary to shave or trim her pussy for me. But she has asked me to help her cut and shave a bit of the hair 'down there', before she goes to the gynecologist. She says: When I lower my panties and spread my legs in front of the Dr., I don't want him to see how hairy my cunt is.
She rarely sucks me and everytime she does, she warns me the she will never swallow my cum.
She categorically refuses anal sex. I cant even put a pinky in her ass hole.
And, finally, without mentioning the size of their cocks, she has expressed an attraction for black males...

I am confused. I know I am possessive, not a little bit, then again, not extremely jealous and green with envy. To elaborate, I don't particularly like when strange men flirt or dance with my wife, but I don't worry that she's going to leave me for one of them. I don't think I have the inferiority complex that I read about on some cuckold site. But I will concede that I am slightly insecure.

The big question is : Why do I get excited watching those cuckold videos or reading the stories and personal experiences. Because, I get turned on. A lot !

So where does that leave me ?
I am torn with the desire to experience the sexual excitement of having my wife fucked hard by a very well hung black man while I watch, And the revulsion for a situation that would very probably cause jealousy, deep anger, resentment and disgust, maybe even hatred.

Cuckolding is an evolutionary process, you don't just wake up one day and think 'I want my wife to fuck other men' - it develops over time. You've reached the stage where you're attracted to it, you want you sexy wife to fuck other guys, especially black guys, you know deep down both of you will enjoy it so much. You're now full of cuckold angst and misgivings, both desperate for it to happen yet fearful of where it might lead.
It seems you're honest enough to recognise that physically you have deteriorated, no longer the powerful man you once were, whereas she is still Hot'n'Sexy, her needs outweigh yours now, once aroused she can cum like a train! I suggest you start by using your 'little friend' a lot more, and roleplay that it's a thrid person, maybe a good looking and younger black guy, or how about buying a new 'friend', a bigger and black version?
Although nothing seems to have been said between the two of you, you both want this to happen, your body language tells me so, so give it a try, if it comes off you'll both love it.
Welcome to the exciting world of being a cuckold husband. You must keep us informed as to further developments.

First of all..... welcome to your first posting on this site!
Maybe you could talk to your wife more about her "black cock" experience and find out how much she really did like it. This could very well open the door to you telling her how much it turns you on by the thought of a strong black cock driving her wild.

It doesn't sound like your wife has cucked you yet, but one can never be too sure about how sneeky a woman can be when she's thinking with her cunt.



Kenny had some good insite here..... hope you test the waters, it could open up a really fun, new sexual chapter for both of you to enjoy.
Cuck who loves a creampie.

kennyboy82
Thank you for your comment. I love the idea of a big black dildo !

cuckold4one
Thank you for your comment. The first time she told me about her black encounter, she said it was against her will and used the "R" word, so I didn't elaborate. But, I didn't get the impression that she had been traumatized by it, she wasn't distraught or crying. The second time, she seemed to recall there was some (a lot) of pleasure to it. So, you're right, I could ask her to go into more juicy details. And look into my reactions, do I get hard while she talks about it. About her cheating, right again, we just never know, do we. She would have had many opportunities, like working late or trips she took alone. I have my doubts but I don't think so.

Once cucked you never want to go back.

My advice would be to take your time. I realize that you're not a young man and we're all working against the clock but the LAST thing you want to do is jump into this before you've come to terms with your feelings. My wife has a lover now and I gave it a great deal of consideration before I told her my desires. Years. We've also had many talks leading up to this. And to be honest, at times, it's still been extremely tough. Once a man convinces his wife to fuck another man, she is likely to enjoy it immensely and then there is no going back. You will be ceding a fundamental right you have as a husband to be exclusive and its next to impossible to get it back. Know that. If your wife experiences sexual bliss with another man and then you attempt to put a stop to it, it will most likely not end well for you or your marriage. That said, marriages crumble all the time for a variety of reasons. I made sure that the idea didn't just sound appealing to me when I was horny but also when I wasn't. That's key. Your wife sounds promising though. She has been secretly harboring a sexual desire for black men. If you open that can of worms it could be amazing. But you HAVE to be ready for the aftermath. It's a risk.

It seems there are quite a few people here that are giving you the same advice, I can't fault any of them. Becoming a cuckold is a once only thing, like losing your virginity. It can't be undone, it's happened, it's part of your marital history, it's there forever. Handled correctly it can enhance your marriage and bring both of you a great deal of sexual pleasure and satisfaction. If, as is the case here, the cuckolding involves your wife fucking a black guy, then the sky's the limit. It's really important though that BOTH of you are ok with what's being proposed and done. Agreement will involve talking about all the facets of it, and being honest with each other. It's also important for you both to think of the other and ensure each of you get what you want out of this lifestyle. Get it wrong and it can be a nightmare, get it right and you'll wonder why you didn't do this years ago! Enjoy!

geecrizz
Thanks, lots of great advice.
And yes, it's very possible that she has hidden fantasies...

kennyboy82
Thanks again !
Very colorful language. I like the images it brings up :
"losing your virginity"
"the sky's the limit"

I have tried getting her to watch some porn. progress is slow. nothing much has changed except I pay much more attention to details like when she is late coming home. I observe the way she acts with other men, her reactions. I watch her watch men , on the beach, black men. I see things I never realized before.

Do you want to elaborate?