Good evening to anyone that will listen. It is only 4 days until my girl meets her friend that she has been with on one occassion. Today was a big reality check. I think my heart has gotten involved and today was not a good day. I could not function at work, my hands were shaky, i could not stay focused. 
The first time they met was a couple of months ago, and it was really hot...I have written the story about it. This time though, she does not seem to be scared or nervous at all. She wants 4 hrs with him. She has basically said that is a requirement. She has also told me she was gonna suck his cock this time and that I would have alot to clean up when she gets back to the hotel room. 
I am by no means complaining because I love the fact that I get to clean her while she tells me everything that went on, but I think she is really looking forward to it...being with him. 
My heart has me backpeddling now.......I am thinking about calling it off....any suggestions....this is real.
EricDavis
