Do you think I'm a sissy?

Recently my partner went on a trip to visit old friends for a couple weeks. When she got back she told me that she had fucked some guy she went to high school with. She told me that she sucked him off in an alley and he came in her mouth, and that then she fucked him back at her friends house and he'd made her cum by going down on her, something I've always been terrible at.

I think she said that she let him cum on her face and tits, but I don't remember. I'm afraid to ask for more details because she gets annoyed when I ask. This was something she did without any real conversation with me first, and not at all for my pleasure, just hers. She fucks who she wants, she won't tell me much about it, she gets annoyed when I ask, and she only very rarely fucks me. I sometimes try to make it happen but I'm pretty much always rejected. She only fucks me if its her idea.

I go along with all of this and don't really complain much, and when I do I tend to back down quickly.

Am I a sissy? Am I pathetic? Would she rather masturbate and think about her other lovers than fuck me for real? What do you think?

Also: I am seriously considering offering to pay her to have sex with me. I can't make her do it and she doesn't want too on her own very often. I would happily pay her to fuck me once or twice a week. I'm afraid this will offend her but I'd happily pay my own partner and babymama to have sex with me.

I don't really think this makes me a sissy, just creative. What do you think? Is it pathetic that I'd happily pay her to get her to fuck me?

you should offer to pay her any time you get laid
HIT1969

I've never paid for a prostitute in my life. Although, if you've
been with a woman, you know. KAYS Jewelers theme, Every Kiss Begins
With Kay, sung like this, "Every Woman is a Whore." Of the two of my ex-wives , I wouldn't have asked
her if I could treat her like a whore. I'm too much of a wimp, but it's the truth.
The good ones are indeed whores.

You should let her know that above all else you want her to be satisfied.
Let her know that you are not mad about her HS friend fucking her, or any other affair.

Then you could let her know that anytime she feels like fucking you, you would be happy to pay her.
She should set the price and she should determine when she wants to do it.
Might be a lot less than once or twice a week, or a lot more $$$ than what you were thinking.