i just milked myself with my dildoes

This i is all the cumm i was able to milk out. i use these too dildoes i love the way the smaller one feels inside my sissy ass the best, it fits just right. i no longer let my self masturebate my penis of even touch it any more as i was a cronick sissy masturebater i would jerk it for hours and hours to porn but never let myself cumm. Finally i realise that i must stop that. So now the only way for me to get any sexual pleasure is analy with my butt plugs and dildoes. i want to have a hands free anal orgasm. i mean and anal orgasm with ejaculation but no stimulation to the penis. i havn't had a true anal orgasm yet thought i know i will some day i hope. i havent had and orgasm in over 30 days and i am aroused constantly. i get horner every day and the dildoes feel so good in my sissy ass that i almost cumm from them in the doggy style position with them suction cuper to the was as i look porn and pictures of my G oddess Erica.

i hope to cumm analy soon becasue it is the only way i will let my self. i wear a condom doing this so that i can catch any spirm that is milk out to eat or if i do finaly pas the threshhold and have an ejaculation the yummy cumm is not wasted as i love to eat my cum after i cumm.

i see a male anal orgasm as like a female vaginal orgasm. they say that many young woman can only have clitoral orgasms and not vaginal orgasms but as they mature they learn to have a true orgasm a vaginal orgasm. they say that clitoral orgasms in young woman are like practice orgasms till they have a grown woman orgasam vaginaly. The same is true of me all my life ive only had sissy slit orgasm and now i want to mature and becpme a grown sissy woman and have a sissy vaginal/anal orgasm

i saw videos of a guy on x tube that can have a hands free anal orgasm with ejaculation from riding on dildoes.

Can any body tell me how i can pass that threshhold point and have a true hands anal orgasm with ejaculation with my dildoes like a woman?

Can any body ells have them?