Honestly Ruined!!!

Friday was a great day for wife and I. Her lover was coming over for the day and I was invited to stay home, dress in lingerie and serve the two of them, watch and participate in clean up of my wifes used full pussy. Well after lover arrived I was paraded around a bit in my lingerie, served coffee and watched my naked wife sit close to him as she was his. when in the bedroom I was set at the bottom of the bed to watch and wait for commands from wife and lover. To my supprise my wife called me up along her side so she could compare my half hard (thats all I gan get being on estroven) to her lovers 10 inch monster. they compared the sizes and laughed at my inadaquate size. Then while riding her lovers cock she did order me standing in front of her so she could suck my little cock while the one she loves pounded her pussy hard, she stated many times over the next two hours how she loved his cock. I was then told to lick her ass and his balls and shaft as he pounded her pussy, I loved tasting his cock and her pussy together, I was in heaven. This is the place I have always felt I needed to be. I love being a sissy nd love serving others, offense and exposure. I was holding his cock guiding it to my wifes wet pussy and heeling his hardness as he fucked my wife. During a break they both took I was told to stroke my sissy clitty till I came all over her pussy so he could fiinish and fill her with his cum that would be my reward for being a good little sissy. He filled her pussy with the usual big thick load and I was more then happy to clean it up although since I had already cum it was much more humiliating then other times when I have to wait to cum afterwards or I am not allowed at all. I loved the feeling of being made to clean her creammy pussy with out the desire to cum in my own loins. it was a great day and I always will be a dedicated sissy to wife and her lover.

Saturday brought anoher suprize... My wife had me shower, shave my body smooth and then dress in lingerie and come back to bed with her for the morning (something that doesnt happen ) after laying in bed, talking and watching a movie, she started playing with my clitty through my panties saying that yesterday had her so turned on she wanted to fuck and since I was there she would fuck me for the first time in almost 3 months. After becoming as hard as I could from my wife sucking my clitty she mounted my rather small clitty and started out very wet and anxious to get filled. That lasted about 7 or 8 minutes when she dismounted and said she had to be completely honest about something she had wanted to say for a long while and stated that because of my size, minimal hardnes of my clitty and my femme ways (which she has encoureged and used pills to decrease) she was no longer intrested in trying to pretend she was attracted to my little clitty, nor woud she be any longer bothering with it in any way other then to tease the pethetic little thing. she will no longer worry about my feelings and will only take into account her feelings towards he lover and his cock. I was told that I will always be her special gurlfriend, and will never have my little clitty touch the inner walls of her pussy. I am now going to have to suck her lovers cock because I liked licking his shaft while he was fucking her. She also loved the feeling of my tounge licking her as his hard shaft ponded her tight hole. I am now officially ruined and have no chance of returning as the man in my wifes life. I love my new position and would never dream of going back to being a man again. Being a sissy cuckold is what I was meant to be all my life, I finally feel as though I have come to my natural place in my existance and my wife is finally happy after being honest and forthcoming about the way she feels towrads me and her lover. I believe our relationship will begine to grow and develope in many new ways from this point on.... I cant wait to see what comes next hopefully paxil or testesterone blockers and estrogen.....
I have finally decided to take control (total) and have sissy in panties daily lock sissy in her CB 6000s for good. No more feeling sorry after a few weeks and no more giving into her pleas for mercy! Welcome the NEW MISTRESS!

Your story makes me horny and scared at the same time. There are traces of transition in my wife similiar to those you expressed in your wife. I'm not a sissy in her eyes but I'm still less desireable. I don't have a "place" that matches what I think I've always been (not a sissy). So, I'm moving into the lost category. Grats to you - sux 2 b me.