sissycindylynn
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i am a divorced sissy, my ex is now an out of the closet lesbian. We were just married and she took off with a dkye from her office for 2 weeks and came back.
Next, she started dating men. One night while i was in bed, she came in at 1:30AM and woke me up by climbing onto my face, with a cream-pie treat. i think i knew what i was eating, i was so sub-spaced, i was unable to stop while i licked her and as she laughed at me. At this point she'd often leave dirty cum caked panties on the floor or hamper for me to find, no sex for me, the cum was someone else's. She used to laugh at me saying, "I think it's funny, i have a truly fulfilling sex life, and you get to stay at home here, just where I want you, and you dress up and get to jerk off as much as you want, all alone."
Eventually, she switched back to women, as i've come to find out she was always involved with since high school, and even at times, her own sister.
i have been feminized by GF's since i can remember. my first sex in college involved me having my head shoved down by a coed down the hall and licking her with nothing in return for me, as her roommates burst in just after she came.
One of my longest relationships, involved my actively being feminized by my college gf, panties, bras, nighties, pee takeing, hormones effecting my body, time delayed erections, more emotions, sensitive nipples, etc. She used to dress me in a nightie, matching panties, garters, stockings and have me sit of to the side of the bed and use vibrators on her, telling me how it would have been better if us 2 girls had some big cocked guy here to do us, how i should lick her like the girl that i am, and figure out which vibrator attachment would make her cum hardest.
Both my college gf and my wife, now ex, insisted i develop more feminine attributes, think things were cute, use moisturizer, read feminine magazines. i've been conditioned to wear only panties, find interest in women's topics and sit when i pee, like the girl that i am, and fantasize about be
"Most women i know, think of me as one of the girls, for example, they will pee in front of me, strolling into the bathroom while i'm in there or pee with the restroom door open, totally unthreatened. I've also heard among the women i know talking to one another, "oh, don't mind him, he's like one of the girls" or "I'd never pee in front of a guy, but with you it's different" or i've heard stories about periods, spotting, and guys who turn them on, and the guys hot packages.
If either one caught me standing to pee, she'd have a fit or i'd get punished and made to admit that guys stand to pee, and as i'm a panty wearimg girl and not a guy, i pee sitting down, people who wear panties sit when we pee.
Post divorce, i had a few dates with this fat chick. No penetration, she sized me up as a sissy. Mutual jerking off. Soon, she had gotten me some panties, and one night, put me into a bra, panties, even a napkin into the panties, and pulled her denim shirt up my legs and made me play with my clitty. Things cooled down with her, she told me she needs a real man to Dom her, not someone like me.
Does any of this sound familiar to any sissy here?
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sissycindylynn
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More . . . something i wrote a while back -
Signs in my life i've always been a sissy!
i had a thought about how there were signs that i was a sissy early on and all of our lives.
In my teen years, i was treated as a confidant by numerous Girls who would tell me about Their ups and downs with boys they were interested in, like i was one of the Girls. i'd also heard about tampons, periods, etc. But the most telling sign was that i've never been offered or have ever taken a Woman's virginity. The Girls back in those days, found real men to give their prize to, but never me. From this point of view, they might have known in someway, i was a sissy and saved Their virginity for real men, i was only allowed when They had moved on. i was scared of asking females out when i was younger. i think that came from my feelings of presentation towards
Females and recognizing them as superior to me and them sensing my desire to be like Them, coupled with knowing most of Them didn't recognize Their superiority over sissy males like me. i had been told back in those days by Female friends that I would have been better off if i had been born a Female as i was so much more like a Female than a male and i knew this to be a fact. My earliest fantasies involved Dom Females taking charge of me in numerous ways, and that just
felt right. i had one GF who claimed to be a virgin, and let me enter her, with lots and lots of screaming, crying, and telling me to get off her, it hurt, etc. But later, i found out from 2 other guys who had dated her before me that this was some sick act she was into and that she used to lord it over Them that they took her virginity and now they owed Her, as a ploy to marry her. None of us married Her, She married to someone else. my thought when writing this was that as sissies, the Females we had known, knew on some deeper level that we were to be who we truly are deep down, not real men but femmy, lady like, more like them than a masculine counter-part, wishing to wear panties, sitting to pee, sissies. There are many real men who these women gave themselves to for the first time, many real men who have a list or a long list of virgins they have deflowered, but that list is most likely remaining a blank in our books because we are sissies and not manly enough to have such a list in our lives. i've also in past years dated virgins who refused to have sex with me, but later saved and gave up Their prize to someone more manly and worthy. Panty wearing sissies like us, are just not suitable to make a Female a real and true Woman via her first sexual experience, we are no-one whom She would want to remember that way for the rest of Her life. And even though she might later come to regret who she had Her first sexual experience with, as many women have, as their first guy being an asshole or an undeserving cheat, at least She was truly excited by him, something sissies like us could never hope to ever give to her. Has any other sissy here never been allowed to take a virgin, and if not like me and as I suspect, like many of us sissies here, how do you feel about that and do you think that points out to you your sissy-ness, as i feel it does to me? Does it ever bother any sissy here that you never had and were never offered a chance to be the first of a woman's lovers while there are some males out there who have had many, many women for the first time? To me, this
is a sort of early sign of sissy-hood and a cuckold in the making. When i was growing up, like most teenagers, i had other male friends who were actively pursuing women, scoring while I was left to go home and jerk-off by myself. i was the shy type too, but I was there many times while a guy I knew and the women he was with would make out, seeing lots of panty under her skirt while his hand was up there under her dress or skirt. i was even there while they screwed in a relaxing bag right in front of me many, many times. As long as there was 3 of us in the basement, his parents would think nothing was going on, but it did. They even laughed at me and told me what a Virgin I was, how I didn't even get any. The females involved would also tell me I was more of a girl than a boy and how much better off i would have been if i had been born a girl. All of this seems to be a form of early sissy cuckold conditioning, wouldn't you agree? i was supposedly married, but my ex-wife, who is now seemingly starting to come out of the closet as a lesbian, had cucked me for years, now moved out and divorced. There were lots of excuses, about how she'd
disappear, like house / pet sitting for a lesbian she knows and has sexed. She told me she was going to take her Mom to the Dr. then called and told me she had to stay there and hasn't returned. She finally moved out while I was working one night, which think was now for the very best. i think a real man would have ended it sooner than i did, heck, a real man wouldn't have wound up with a dyke like i did. i had lots of sexual encounters in college but none with anyone in
High School. I was dommed by most of my GF's in College, even if we weren't being sexual, i was ordered about and obeyed. Some of them weren't even sexual - i remember one virgin, i used to date for a few months, who used to kiss me goodnight and rub herself off on my leg and cum, but refuse to in anyway reciprocate. One college GF, was intercourse only, no oral sex - another was oral sex only, no intercourse - the main GF in college was a better Dom than most on the Internet, i'm sorry that one ended. i would have been better off being born a sub female. Women who might be interested in relaxing with me, who are kind enough not to laugh when They see I wear panties, have an undersized sissy wee-wee and sit to pee, are also of an age where babies are no longer possible. So as a sissy, as the years pass by, i now know i will not be
having any kids and my inadequate wee-wee will not be a genetic hindrance to any future progeny. i've never had a virgin, in my younger years � and now no kids for my future. i truly and really am a sissy! Had another thought. What types of sex are studs allowed and those of us whom are or were suspected sissies denied in real life, before our self-realization as sissies? i am currently friends with a Woman who told me She had Her 1st sex with a man who is now an out of the closet gay, in a relationship with another man for years, so even gay males have gotten what i've failed to. Also, for example, i've never been allowed to penetrate a Woman anally. In fact, my first sex in college involved a Woman who made me get on my knees and lick her and as soon as she came, her roommates came back in. I got nothing in return. a day or so
later, She told me thought i'd be a good licker, but She already had a boyfriend and had no need for someone like me. we've been sissies our whole lives, the Women we knew were aware of this. The classification of a sissy wasn't as prevalent as it is
now. We live in a much clearer world now.
sissy cindy
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