the things i miss the most

is there anyone else who's had a cuckold relationship and is now married or in a long term relationship with a woman that isn't interested in the lifestyle...

things i miss the most from what i had....

- eating another mans cum from her
- playing in it, feeling his cum wrapped around my cock...
- adding more to her...both of us praying she'd get pregnant...
- watching her get ready to spend the weekend in the city
- picking her up sunday's and listening to describe her weekend play
- buying her bra and panty sets every pay
- having her tell me details or tell me what she planned on doing while we had sex
- knowing that her friends knew about our lifestyle and helped her find cock to fuck
- having ffm threesomes with her friends or random girls, she was a great wingman
- having mmf threesomes and watching kevin's big cock fuck her while her and i 69, then tasting his cum as he filled her and it leaked out...
- having her tell me she couldn't stop
- having her tell me about her and one of my best friends fucking while i was at the same party ******...but not until we broke up
- driving her or letting her and nikki take the car to iona to the offshore jamacans place to have some bbc...
- how she admitted to prostituting before she met me, and how she started to from time to time while we were together...
- knowing that i'd never be enough for her, that she'd always need bigger or better...


now...well what can i say...i miss that life so much...and its hard sometimes to not have your heart desires...i do feel empty sometimes though...like part of me is missing

anyone else have things they miss?

Hopefully its not truly over forever but i miss partying with various hard haves with my wife and how nasty she'd get after her first hits. shed turn into super slut right there - like Jekyll and Hyde. I should have taken more advantage of things and had gangbangs and MMF 3somes lined up!
she is always nasty but when we got high - she wld lose all inhibitions, morals - anything and everything was on. She's difficult to get to that place without some have - holy water kinda works for about 5 mins then she gets a headache. good thing i had the foresight to film every time we'd party and have a 3some.