A serious question...

Question. Nothing life-threatening, but a reapeating one, which I like to understand better. I'm just a bit puzzled. When can or do you call yourself a cuckold?
This question in spinning through my mind, every once and a while, for almost three years now. If you want me to, I can bother you with some more details about it, but as I said, only if you want me to.

I recognize a lot of the themes on this site and I find some of them rather appealing.
But on the other hand, there are also some matters that don't attract me at all. When I'm reading these stories, the remarks, the fantasies, I sometimes think I'm a bit of a cuck and a bit of a bull in one permister. Is this strange, or do more people feel this way?

Here's the facts. My girlfriend regulary has fucked and fucks other men. Some of my best friends, sometimes someone who we've or she's just met. Mostly in a 'sharing' kind of way. My fantasies about her getting fucked by another man without me being present are getting more and more prominent and I have told her about those. In the beginning she thought it was hot, together we got off on those fantasies a lot, but she didn't want to do it for real. But her reservations seem to have deminished over the past years. A year ago, she had a crush on a young professional and was very willing to date him alone, but in the last moment the poor boy got cold feet. And over the last year her contacts with a young well-hung cyber-lover nearly got to the point where they would bring their hot conversations to live. I agreed on both occasions that she could fuck them, even though I know that these situations wouldn't be so easy the other way around.
And that's one of my points: I too don't mind, or better want to have sex with other women. And I also find the idea of cucking another man very attractive.

But again, on the other hand there are a lot of cuckold-themes that I find very exciting:
- I like to watch or listen when she's fucking someone else, or otherwise hear her complete story afterwards.
- I want her to fuck men that have larger dicks than I do (I myself am 'medium'-built).
- I get off on the fact that most of her lovers have fucked her bareback, while I'm nearly always using protection.
- I just know that she has some secrets for me, although we've agreed on telling eachother everything. But there are always some loose ends and strangely, I also find this appealing.
- Generally I always encourage her to be slutty.
- The fact that she's licked and sucked assholes of other men (even hairy ones) just to see them go wild, but never has licked mine (cleanly shaven) is sort of a turn-on.
- I don't really mind her teasing me with the fact that I jerked and sucked the dick of one of her lovers, a good friend of mine with whom we've had a lot of threesomes. Nor the fact that she started making teasing remarks about him always filling her with his cum, where I'm trying to avoid such.

But I don't have a small cock, I don't like her to get pregnant for real, certainly not from another man, I don't want to be completely excluded from her sexlife, I don't want to become a sissy and I'm feeling some resistance thinking of eating her creampie, baked by another man.

So what does that make me? I hope someone understands my question and also that someone can provide me with some good and helpfull insights considering my contemplations.

Thank you all very much in advance!

she should make u eat her cream filled pussy out after she gets filled, it would show you how much you would like it.

[b]CuckyLight[/b wrote:

]- I don't really mind her teasing me with the fact that I jerked and sucked the dick of one of her lovers, a good friend of mine with whom we've had a lot of threesomes. Nor the fact that she started making teasing remarks about him always filling her with his cum, where I'm trying to avoid such.

But I don't have a small cock, I don't like her to get pregnant for real, certainly not from another man, I don't want to be completely excluded from her sexlife, I don't want to become a sissy and I'm feeling some resistance thinking of eating her creampie, baked by another man.

So what does that make me? I hope someone understands my question and also that someone can provide me with some good and helpfull insights considering my contemplations.

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I would say, based on the detail you've given us here, particularly what I excerpted above, that you're mostly a swinger with definite leanings toward being a cuckold.

Incidentally, the size of a man's cock has no bearing on whether he's apt to be a cuckold. There are some well-hung cucks out there, although the majority are no doubt average-to-smallish. Human sexuality is far too complex to be reduced to just a few simple hard-and-fast rules, like, for example, all cuckolds have small dicks and want their wives to enjoy huge cocks. It's probably safe to say that most cucks just want their wives to fuck around, never mind the size of the guy(s) they're fucking.

There's really not a lot of clinical research that's been done on this, to tell you the truth, because sexual sub-genres like this tend to exist within fairly closed circles. If I were you, I wouldn't worry about what label to affix to yourself. Maybe you're a cuck, maybe not. I think it's entirely possible to have a desire to be both cuck and bull -- like "switcarbonsmudges" in the BDSM sub-genre of D&S, who go from being dominant to submissive and back again. Even within that community, you'll find lots of argument over whether such a thing can genuinely exist. I assure you, it can, even if it doesn't comport with every single other permister's own definition.

Follow your heart; that's all. It sounds as though you have a very understanding girlfriend, which is a tremendous benefit in any case, but especially in your situation. Always keep the lines of communication open with her. Together, you can find your own way.

Hope this helps,
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