Am I cuckold.. pls help

It's like being a fish, once you let her get a taste of big black cock she's hooked forever. She'll keep you around as long as you let her have some every now and then, but if you cut her off (It's over) So make sure you really want this in your life. If you do, email me and I will come to you and fuck her silly. "She's hot"

Just start out with some thing mild and see how you both feel.

Find a guy with a big cock to come over and have her give him a hand job while she's wearing something sexy and you watch from the corner.

That way, if it's too much for you or her, you can stop your games and it was only a hand job.

That's how my wife and I started doing it and now she's sucking cock while I hide and watch. We love it.

Don't take it so seriously or be so dramatic about it. Have fun. Put an ad on the internet and find a friendly guy that you get along with to help you with your fantasy. Just a hand job at first, then slowly progress to a full blowjob and then intercourse.