I posted about this in another forum, but thought I'd repeat here and add more thoughts...
I dated a girl for quite a long time, but eventually she met someone else (behind my back) and left me for him. I was angry at the time, but since then have had dreams about being on my knees and giving him a blowjob while she watcarbonsmudges. At first I thought it was stupid, but I've dreamt it a few time since and now it's beginning to turn me on big time. Given what he did, how weird is it that I get turned on about pleasuring him and swallowing his cum?? I'm not quite sure what to do, other than to masturbate thinking about it! :-o
I don't find other men attractive, but even the thought of this guy's cum on my carbonsmudgest/face is enought to get me going. It's not even proper cuckoldry, as I've already been rejected for a "better model" I guess. So why do I want to be his cock slave?
