A Cuckold of Sorts.

I have been enjoying this site for some time. Long enough to make an overdue contribution of my own to cure my guilt for not making a serious contribution when I should have.
Like many of you my husband is under endowed and generally lacking as a bed mate. We married less than a year when I gave in to the need for a man. I had a convenient but short affair with a married man that ended abruptly. I am considered reamisterably attractive if a little overweight.. But my circle of acquaintances was limited. I became frustrated not having a man readily available to me. I obsessed about finding a virile guy who would scratch my itch with out having my husband find out.
When my husband made an infrequent out of town business trip I took advantage of the opportunity. I visited a couple of lounges hoping to be picked up. I had a couple of men talk with me and buy me takes. But Fri. Night ended with me home with my dildo. Sat. Night was going the same way when on the way home I drove by a bowling alley and saw the sign advertising a bar and grill. I stopped in and it was filled with men and a few women bowlers. I was seated at the bar for less than a minute when two young men sat down on either side of me and introduced themselves as friends who liked to always date together. They asked if I had a friend. When I said no they didn�t hesitate to ask if I would consider partying with both of them.
I was not going to let this opportunity slip away. I smiled and said I would love to.
Ten minutes later we were in a cheap motel room. They asked me to do a striptease for them and I did my best imitation of what I have seen on tv.
I enjoyed two fantastic hours of great sex. I gave them each deep blow jobs and they took turns with long slow sessions of fucking me to multi orgasms.
I told them I would not give them my number as I was married. They gave me theirs and thereafter I met with them individually at their work places on their lunch hour. I was taking turns meeting with one or the other every weekday.
In time my husband found out. I thought everything was over. To my utter surprise his concern was more about his friends and associates finding out. I realized he was much more concerned with me embarrassing him than me cheating.
I weaned myself from the two youngsters when I got involved with our condo maintenance man. We always went to an out of the way motel. Eventually he began having "friends' show up. He denied they were men paying him to fuck me. But I am sure it was the case. iI pretended I would stop seeing him if it were the case. But secretly it got me hot and wet just thinking of him being able to charge a fee for me.
Now for the part that may of be more interest to you..A year ago my husband�s sister came from London to visit her boyfriend who had just obtained citizenship. At the last second she caught a flight here to meet me and visit her little brother before she had to return. It turns out she was VERY liberated. When I confided her brother was ok with me taking a lover as long as it wasn�t done in such a way as to embarrass him, she laughed and said it made perfect sense. She related the following.
He was raised the only mister and youngest sibling of three older sisters. Discipline was doled out by the lady in the form of hair brush spankings. All the youngren were assemred on a Sun. afternoon for an almost ritualistic disciplinary session. At first the culprit was spanked on his or her underpants. When one of the girls complained he was wearing thick cotton pants and she was wearing thin rayon panties the lady agreed the fair thing would be for all the youngren to be dressed the same. You know what happened. From then on my husband was made to wear panties for his spankings.
Before leaving his sister �reconfided� my husbands younghood offenses to me in his presence and to his great chagrin. I put two and two together and told him I "�knew all along he was a pantiwaist sissy and his sister just confirmed my suspicion."� I made him admit in his sister's presence that he was turned on by the idea of other men fucking me. At the time he may not have been. But he was so embarrassed he would have admitted anything to get out of our presence.
Since then I have taken control of our marriage. I have adopted a number of themes from these pages. My dates are a joint affair now. He helps me ready myself before I leave. I have him drive me to meet dates whether at bars or motels. I call him in the middle of the night to pick me up and drive me home after I have been fucked to satisfaction by someone else.
I no longer allow him sexual access to my body. I masturbate him as I see fit and not without causing him to suffer the embarrassment I honestly believe he needs. Usually he has to be satisfied with taking care of himself.
He won�t admit he wants the offense I now heap on him. But I know that subconsciously he does.
His fear of being exposed as a cuckold and sissy has made his manipulation young�s play for me. He wears panties at all time when he is home and also when he delivers me to a date and picks me up afterwards.
I have dialed him up during a date and handed the phone to my date so he can tell him, �I�ll be done fucking your wife in two more hours. Be waiting out side at two and I�ll send her out when I�m finished with her and make sure you're wearing your panties�
Another time I called him and explained my date was reluctant to let me give him a blow job unless he was positive it was ok with him. The guy was good. Really good. He had hubby begging to let me give him a blowjob. Then he went on about , "yeah but she wants to swallow my load of cum. I don't think that's right even for a slut like her to be swallowing cum." Not a problem for my cuck husband.
Poor hubby is terrorized they will find out our phone number, see his license plate or follow us home. He makes a habit of driving away with no lights on so his license can�t be seen.
I have been stretching his limits slowly but steadily. I informed him I have told a couple of close friends about him but for him not to worry as they promised not to tell any one else. Of course it�s not true. But he thinks it is and that is what is important.
Meanwhile I am enjoying the sex life I need. I have had sex with three men at a time and love it. I have been promised a foursome when the right guy is found. I fantasize about a gang bang. The guy arranging a fourth for us said four will be a gang bang. I laughed and said in my fantasy there would be at least ten guys. I wonder if he will ever have such a surprise in store for me.
I understand this is not a normal cuckold presentation. But I feel he is in his own way a cuckold if not of the exact same ilk as many on here. The day he asks for a creampie I will announce his complete arrival as a cuck.
I am sure I will hear it from those who don't feel this is true cuck material. Sorry in advance.
I had no idea recounting this for you all would turn me on. Looks like a dildo session will be underway in a minute.