ptamom1968:
I was hurt seeing these and got hard as a rock
THAT, my friend, is a very typical cuckold husband reaction to knowing your wife is fucking outside your marriage. You hate it, it hurts emotionally, but it makes you harder than you could ever have imagined, because your cuckold brain is programmed to turn you on by the fact that you're married to a slut.
Rita told me in some detail a long time back that you begged her to fuck around and when she did you couldn't handle it. I don't believe that anything inside you has changed, you're still bursting with typical cuckold angst, wanting her to be your married slut wife and at the same time feeling insanely jealous.
Unless you're black and hung you stand NO chance.