not sure if this the right place to post this its about me need help

hi 47 male south wales average looks 17 stone with 1 major draw back a tiny dick and it does not stop there allso a problem with premature ejackulation and to top it all im tounge tied so cannt poke tounge out very far
had 1 0r 2 tragic sexual attempts before i met my wife and to be honest i thought i was in gods pocket with her as she was very desirable and i could not belve my luck when we started dating
she had no experiance either so we spen quite some time kissing fondlin and mutual wanking and she had not commented about the sizeof my cock and i was getting better at self control
that is until i trie d to fuck her the first time was a disaster i just managed to pop it in and then came straight away which to say the least did not please her and im sure she has nevber forgiven me she still beats me with it when she wants to hurt me
over the next couple of years it was much the same but i did get a bit better and found it helped if i wanked off first so as to ease the tension
but to be honest she hradly ever came as far as i could tell
i did offer the use my mouth or hand sto do it for her but she declined and i did go to the doctors and he gave me a few things too try but basically he said it was some thing we had to work thought ogether but all i ever got of f her was donnt come try to fullfillme forr a change which made matters worse
it ended up she lost all interset and we had by then had 2 youngren so i could not use it as anexcuse for sex
she sujested i looked else where but im sure she new i was to humileated to do so
durin one period she would allow me to fuck her from behind as she lay with her back to me but it was ok but again humileating when she woulod go to relax as i did it
so then i stopped botthering and just wanked and dreamed
my mister who is the youngest just turned 20 so it been a very long time and we are still together but still no sex i have tried i have offered all sorts of sweatners from hoildays to gifts but with no sucsess
a couple of times over the years it has been sujested that she has taken other guys and i have aske dher but she denise it and get even more angry with me i have even said well you told me to look else where so perhaps you shoud or have done
when we hear of others we know carrying on she has asked what i would do wouldi thro her out and i have sid no i woulld be prepare to peak abotu it and see what happened hoping that would provoke the right response but it does not
i dear not ask her out right to have sex with another guy as she will surley leave me
if i could find out for sure she was having sex else where it would be fantastic
it would be even better if i could watch
and to be allowed to lick her clean would be greate
i would love to be humileated infront of her and ome well hung guy and would gladly suck him and if he wantted let himfuck me as she watcarbonsmudged and laughed
but i cannt see this happenening unless i catch her so i can have some leaverage

can anyone help with some sujestions

are ther any women out there who need a cuckold sissy to massume the role of a wimpish husband or a cople where the woman canuse me and so can the bloke while his wife gets it off with the big guy

or any other sujestions of how i can be used to make me feel in some small way useful