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I'm not sure why I'm writing this, but I guess i needed some help from you guys. A few years ago I told my wife that it turned me on when she told me I had a tiny penis. This was during the times that I hadn't, or wasn't able to get fully hard. It always, even to date, makes me very excited and usually results in me getting really hard.

Fast forward a few years and she is constantly referring to my penis as tiny. It's very cruel stuff and most of the time it drives me wild, but when I'm as hard as I can get, which is seven inches, she keeps telling me it's too small. It doesn't satisfy her, and I should go and get the dildo to fuck her and make her cum. She orders me out and then has great sex while I fuck her with the dildo and finger fuck her asshole.

Now I've been trying to get back inside her ass forever. She let me several times a bunch of years back. And at the time I get very excited to make her cum, even though it's not really my penis doing it. However, afterwards, I feel bad. And I think she grew very cold to me the last time afterwards.

I told her not to call me that when I was fully hard, but she say's that she's sorry, but it's true. Now I feel like crap, although I can already feel the need for offense building up in my loins.

What should I do?