Can you ever return?

I know this is a site for those who are totally into this lifestyle, and for me I was for a while. However, it has in many ways taken over my life and that of my wife's. And I wonder if once you bring this into your marriage if it will always be there and resurface.

I have been a cuckold on and off for almost 3 years now, right now we are in off time. Becuase everytime there is always some kind of disaster, which usually means me not being able to handle the reality of my wife's sexual prowess.

But everytime we start back its as if her hunger for other men has increased a hunder times and it means twice the offense, she goes out more and things just get crazy. This last time she got pregnant twice and both ended in mis-carriages. For certain it was an emotional rollercoaster for us all, and for me especially cause she was really willing to have this man's young. Though a fantasy, I never really wanted that to happen and yet we were faced with that reality and it really fucked with our marriage.

So now we have stopped and my wife has vowed never to go back to that type of lifestyle, and yet this is the third such statement she has made. She still complains about my cock size and while we have sex often now she wholly prefers my mouth to my dick.

We are in councilling over all this stuff, but I just can't shake the feeling that this is destined to arise again. As long as she is unsatisfied I have a hard time thinking that she wont bring it up again and again.

I mean she still blames me for turning her onto it in the first place, but I didnt really like it once it became reality and yet she insisted upon doing it till it nearly *******ed our marriage and then after all the chaos she has contniued to bring it up and if object she says its my fault and should have never let her fuck anyone else.

But now, like I said she has once again vowed to stay monogamous and learn to enjoy sex with me again and move away from this. We are into a month of her not being with other men and things are going ok, but I'm still worried.

Has anyone else had or know of similar experiences? What happened, were they able to overcome, or were you able to overcome? I need some input here if anyone can help.

I don't know how old you are, but it appears from your post that you and your wife could both learn some communication s*******s.

You complain about her blaming you for "turning her onto it in the first place" and in the next breath say you "didn't really like it once it became reality".

I would suppose that your wife enjoyed the reality of larger cocks and multiple partners, and you didn't? That's the message I'm getting from your post.

Now, I know it's hard to be objective, but how did you let your wife know you could not handle cuckold reality? Did you sit her down and have a serious discussion? Even so, sexual desire is not something that can easily be turned on and off.

Just as a mind game, suppose your wife talked about you having sex with other women? How hard would it be for you to stop when she told you she couldn't handle the reality?

For both your sakes, I hope she can learn to be satisfied with you again, and I hope you never have a cuckold "on time" again.

Blaming each other will not solve anything. The two of you each made choices and are responsible to yourselves and each other for those choices.

An open discussion about the deep and intimate feelings both of you have is in order - NO loud shouting matches - it leads right back to blaming and nothing is solved.

Things will be challenging for awhile, there will be feelings that will need to be explored and worked thru - with each other - if your marriage is important to the two of you.

Your wife may have a hard time, the orgasmic ecstasy that she's achieved from Big Cock will always be desired and fantasized about. It's an addiction, and I can only compare it to if you were never again to participate in the sexual experience that you find most gratifying.

As I have already mentioned, the two of you need an open, honest discussion about your intimate, sexual desires.

Keep us posted for the benefit of all, and good luck.

gotta love these amatuer psychologists