I wonder if other cucks have the same feeling about this. First time I watched my cute white wife being banged by a huge black guy, I experienced mixed feelings. I felt both aroused and jealous, simultaneously, and guilty for jacking off watching that. Even if it was consensual and they would let me watch it, my deal with my wife is that I might never interfere when she's making out or having intercourse with her black guy - which gave me some initial frustration for feeling impotent and inferior. With the passing of time, however, I realized that I had never come so strong before witnessing that kind of stuff. So, now I reason that if we all reached orgasm, it's just all right and fair. The only difference is that my wife does that with a real man inside her, her lover also has full, actual sexual pleasure ... while I use my own hand and the inspiration of their real life action to reach my solitary satisfaction.
