Confused...

Hey guys, sorry I've not posted in a while but still strangely dealing with my wife. To catch you up to speed on those who don't know. My wife, cheats on me...(thats how I came across this site and realized I'm a cuck of some sort, not the humiliation part, just wanting to see my wife get fucked) She has cheated on me 3 times now with 3 different guys (we are in the military) and deployed right now. So we're at different locations and haven't lived together in almost a year due to this deployment. I've seen her 5 times since this deployment and we have sex like usual but she's not as close as she once was. I might as well me fucking a stranger. I know and have proof that she's fucked these other guys, but she lie's about it.

I came out to her about wanting to see her fuck another guy and she got really upset, crying, had to take a day off of work, talking about how she doesn't know me any more, etc...so I said I was lied to see if she would admit to fucking these other guys...her emotions were not an act. So...I'm just stuck as to why she would rather to continue to lie and get fucked than to just of said good....you can watch...what do you guys think? What's the reasoning behind it?

She can't accept her own behaviour? She's afraid of losing you? Afraid of social consequences?

The possibilities are legion...

.... I agree with bootyz, she probably feels bad. Lots of people have a HARD time wrapping their minds around the idea that a husband can be ok with his wife fucking other guys.

Unfortunately now you have said you lied and it would be difficult to go back again or she will think your lieing again. Wow... it sounds to me like she felt like she was missing something between the two of you. If you want to keep her, I think for now you need to work extra hard on the two of you. Find out what she is missing, maybe it is just the time apart, but from the way you put it, it doesn't sound to me that she will be ok or want a cuckold relationship at least right now.

Really sad man. I hope you guys can work it out. I admire you two for serving our country, its too bad its putting such strains on your marriage.

Women lie to themselves with incredible effectiveness.
Most of them want to be the "good girl" that they think society expects them to be so they tell themselves they are and in their minds their infidelities never happened, meanwhile their desires are remakably similar to a man's. If it had only happened once I would probably give her a chance but in your case it sounds as though she will continue to fuck around and deny u the pleasure of knowing about it. This leaves only anguish. Unless she shows signs of warming up to your proposition, I'd dump her. Otherwise u are giving her a mandate to continue. Kudos to all the women out there able to shed their guilt and shame and enjoy lovers while keeping their husbands in on the loop. I believe many women deep down would love to have this freedom but because of social programming they wouldn't be able to look themselves in the mirror. Cheers to the evolution of the sexual woman and truthfulness!

I understand your points Bootyz, merd, and geecrizz. Obviously there is a lot more to this story than what is in that short little bit that I wrote. Like how we joke about her "boy friend" or when I'm going down on her and she cums fast and I say something like wow, it's been a while..she'll joke "for you". So there are hints to it, and we've made jokes in bed about it....but in the end nothing happens.

I love the thrill of knowing she's with other men, she doesn't use condoms and they cum in her and all that go's with that. It's exciting...I even had one of her lovers contact me to tell me about it and that fell though though, they quit talking. But he would tell me exactly how she likes it and everything. No pic's though...

Thanks for all the kind words and would love to hear more on what you guys think. Please feel free to comment.