Widowed SI NY Man looking for Cuckoldress mate (is this the place?)

Hello all I'm new to this site.
Last Winter I lost my wife and best friend . She was an amazing person but not a natural Domme .
If she could hand me that person I desire right now I know she would.
I have the things I want in my life ..in Job , Home , Family Etc..
I have a lot to offer in heart and mind. I have been obsessed with submissive desires my whole married life.
Is it possible to bridge the gap between a caring loving relationship
someone who will embrace and grow with my ******** and I
.....and at the same time be that Dominant Woman
in the bedroom who I can worship and cherish
..someone who will take be down roads of cuckolding
Losing Faith and very depressed living in the cattle of submissive men.

If anyone ....Bull , Cuck or Hotwife has any advice for me
It would be greatly appreciated. I am so happy to be in a forum
the is called "REAL PEOPLE" Anthony [email protected]