Thought I would share some of my story

I begged my wife for years to cuckold me with no luck she just thought I wanted to fuck other women.
You see I am submissive when I get horny, and she likes a man to take charge and be strong and protect her. Don't get me wrong I love my wife and never want any harm to come to her. When I get horny from offense I can't help myself I crave more.
I guess it began when I was a young and the girls I always like would kind of lead me on just to hurt me by liking another guy. How this caused me to crave offense I guess you would have to ask a shrink.
I was introduce to offense at a young age somewhere about nine years old. My older brother Charles was about 14 years old and I fell for the oldest trick in the book. "if you suck my dick I will suck yours", Charles would asked all the time. After several months of constantly asking, Charles caught me on a day I was horny and I gave in. He was laying on the bed I got down in between his legs and lifted his dick up and licked it. His dick responded as it grew with each lick. I licked the full length with my tongue, and stop at the head. After it reached full erection I let my tongue travel across the head of his dick. That was a mistake he shoved it in between my lips and into my mouth. I ran my tongue across the head as I sucked on his dick. He then drove his dick all the way down my throat. I quickly I pulled off and ran my tongue down the full length and sucked each of his balls in to my mouth. I then licked back up the shaft and took his dick all the way into my throat and jacked his dick with my lips very quickly for about a minute, he really like that. I sucked and lick his dick and balls for a good 45 minutes until he pull out and went to the bathroom to finish his orgasm in the toilet. I removed all my clothes and climb back naked on the bed waiting for my turn. All of a sudden Charles and Leon (my other brother) both came into the room and started laughing at me. They told me I was a dumbass and fell for the oldest trick in the book. "No guy will suck another guys dick unless he is a queer", Leon said. I was totally humiliated as I laid there naked on the bed with a hard on after sucking my brothers dick. Well little brother it's not a good day for you because if you don't suck me off I will tell Mom and Dad you tricked Charles into sucking his dick because you are a queer", Leon said. "I am not a queer", I said. Doesn't matter you suck a dick and that makes you a dick sucker. He pulled out his dick and said get busy. I had no choice I sucked his dick into my mouth. He just fucked my mouth and didn't offer me a choice he fed me his cum. Afterward I laid on the bed still naked the taste of cum in my mouth and yes a hard cock I was super horny thinking about the nasty things I had just did.

I can't explain it, I am not gay I know what you are thinking, "sure, you are sucking dicks you must be gay. I don't like guys, I don't want to kiss them or hold them I just want to be a slave and be humiliated. I guess I am really messed up in the head I guess maybe one of my brothers dropped me on my head when I was a baby.

When we was home alone I would talk Leon into playing strip poker and I would lose on purpose until I was naked in front of him. Being naked while he was clothed was offense and that made me really horny. As I stood naked before my brother I would ask him if I could bet a blow job to keep the game going. Sure he said as he dealt the cards. I was getting really submissive as I sank deeper in offense. I lost and owed him a blowjob. How nasty is that, so what did I do I ask Leon double or nothing. Done he said as he dealt. The offense had taken over and I was sinking deeper into presentation as I was losing on purpose. Lost again double or nothing I asked. Done Leon said as he dealt again. Lost double or nothing Done Lost Double or nothing Done lost. I owe him sixteen blowjobs and then I was as horny as a man can be. The last bet would be for 100 blow job or nothing I said as my dick was hard as a rock. "Done" Leon said, and I lost again as I sank to my knees and gave my first of 100 blow jobs to Leon. It took me five months to give them blow jobs my mouth got sore from sucking his dick but he didn't care. Leon was smarter than me he discovered my Achilles' heel which was offense. He would use it to get him all the blow jobs he wanted.

We lived in the country and houses were scares. So we was swimming in the stream naked about 1/2 mile from our house and I was getting horny as I splash in the water. Leon seen my dick getting stiff and got up on the bank and rubbed his growing cock and said I would give twenty dollars for a blow job. I swam toward him and sucked his cock into my mouth. He looked down at me and said you want to cut high card for the twenty. I knotted yes with his cock in my mouth. I lost as he was cheating but I didn't care I was getting more submissive my the second as he fucked my mouth. "Just think if someone caught you here sucking my dick", Leon said. "I would have to suck them too", I answered. I returned my mouth back to Leon's dick as he continued his questions. "What if it was some of your friends at school caught you sucking my cock", Leon said as he moaned. "They would laugh at you and call you names like fagot, queer, dick licker, cocksucker, cum guzzler" Leon said. Leon was driving me crazy with lust as I sucked him harder and faster. He was no longer fucking my mouth I was masturbating his cock with my lips. Want a chance to get your twenty back. Yes I moaned jacking his cock with my mouth. High card I lost double or nothing I lost again. he kept high carding double or nothing until he climaxed and I was as horny as I could get as I drank down his hot cum load. When I came to my senses my offense had me in debt to my brother for three hundred and four blow jobs. For the next year and a half I was his suck slave there wasn't a day I was powerd to suck his cock.

Leon final made it to high school and started dating this girl they dated all though high school and they got married after graduation. I was still in jr high school and was still trying to date but the same as always they would lead me on and I would have to watch as guy after guy took my girls that I was interested in.

I got through high school and enter the work power hoping things would change for me. I meet a wonderful girl we dated and fell in love and set the date to married. Two days before the wedding she had an affair with an older man. I broke up with her like a man would do. I couldn't tell everyone about what she had done to me I would be humiliated.

I did the un-thinkable I forgave her and told her it was my fault I begged her to married me. It took some time but she agreed to. later I would jack-off thinking about what I had done, and if anyone ever found out I would be total humiliate now that would make me cum. No wonder she cuckold me all throughout our two year of marriage. She met a real man and left me and married him.

Two year later I married again but this time I had changed no more cuckold thoughts for me.

Two years later I was back to my old tricks reading magazines' about guys wanting to watch their wives fuck other men. I had started fantasizing about being a cuckold again because as you know the most submissive thing is being a cuckold.

My wife didn't want anything to do with the cuckold lifestyle. She wanted a real man not a cum-eating cuckold fagot as she called it. The next twenty years I pestered her constantly about making me her cuckold. Then my dick went soft and all I could do was eat her pussy, finger her pussy or use a dildo on her. When I would use the many dildos I brought for her I would fuck her with it and tell her nasty stories in her ear as she would cum. I would always tell her about the big cocks and how they would make her cum. She had never cummed on my dick.

After no dick for 6 years she was going crazy other wives of couples we knew would tell me to please take her home and give her a good fucking. My wife would just laugh and afterward in bed I would cry and tell her I am sorry and she needed a real man one with a dick. I just use dildo and masturbated her orgasms. The guys at her work would wringer their tongues at her which was making her horny as hell. All of our friends were talking about sex and her not getting any dick was pushing her over the edge. Me at home whispering in her ear as I fingered her pussy about big dicks was powering her to talk nasty all the time. She work with mostly men and their attention soon led to some nasty comments. My wife just laughed it off so it increased and I know how it works the guys smell the scent and begin to move in on their pry. Chris one of them and he was having marriage problems and my wife was telling me that Chris's wife wouldn't let him have sex that much and he would have to masturbate in the shower in the morning before work. Later that night as we talked in bed I would play with her pussy as we talked about Chris. I would tell her it was a shame for him to masturbate in the shower would finger her pussy as I talked to her about giving Chris a blow job as she reach orgasm. Afterward I would lay on my back as she would tell me how she was going to suck his dick as I masturbated. My wife seen I hard I cummed when she talked that way. We talked about Chris every evening and at night I always use Chris stories to help my wife reach orgasm. I know she was fantasize about him as she used the dildos on herself. I would use different Chris sceneries as I would fingered her pussy. I would encourage her to grab his cock or rub her ass against his cock at work and she would come home and tell me what she had done. We would have long talks about Chris fucking her and her sucking his hard cock as I masturbated. After months of fantasizing she final agree to have sex with him. They work evening shift and while I was at work the next day Chris and her met for the nasty deed. You could imagine the state I was in trying to work while my mind fantasize about what they were doing. I was going crazy I had to do something I would duck into my office drop my pants and write nasty things on my legs with a permanent marker. The first trip in my office I wrote cuckold down one leg and slave down the other. Each trip I would add something like cuckold by Chris, My wife is getting real cock now, cream pie eater, and more and more nastier as the day went on. My dick don't get hard anymore so I didn't have the embarrassment of having a erection visible all day, but that didn't stop the precum from flowing. The precum was so bad that it smear some of the nasty writing on my legs. I finally had to wrap my dick in toilet paper and rewrite the nasty words that were smeared. At near the end of the day my wife call said she was heading home. My voice cracked as I ask her am I and she stop me with the words yes daddy you are a cuckold. I cummed in my pants as she said those magic words.

After arriving at home I when straight to our bedroom and she was under the covers I stripped and forget all about the nasty things I had wrote on myself. She laughed as she seen me as I stood before her a sick pervert with some of the nastiest words a husband could put on his body. She made me stand as she read all the things I had wrote. The offense was causing my dick to leak again. You are leaking everywhere my wife said without thinking I wiped up the precum and licked it off my hands to my wife's shock. I pulled back the covers to reveal my wife was naked. I looked at her beautiful body and her pussy which look red and swollen and used it looked delicious. My poor dick was gushing precum as I prepare to dine on her cum filled pussy. You can just imagine how she felt watching her husband eat the cum from another man from her pussy, and to top that off all the nasty precum on her legs and our bed. Talk about losing respect for your husband that is the day I lost my manhood in the eyes of my wife.

A few days later while in bed and horny I told my wife that I hope I never met Chris face to face. "Why", she asked. "I couldn't look him in the eye because of what he knows about me", I confessed. "The offense would be too great of him knowing how sick I am", I continued. "I would have to agree with the sick part", my wife said. "I would be so humiliate that I would just fall to my knees and hide my head in my shame", I admitted. "You ask for it now it's real you should have thought of that sooner", she answered. "But that on your knees in front of him that sick", she informed me. Later as I was jacking off in the bathroom as my wife was relaxing I was fantasize about meeting Chris. I was at her work and my wife said here is the man that has been taking care of your homework. It was Chris oh my God I fell to my knees which is the proper place for a cuckold in the present of his master. Oh my God my wife said while your down there might as well get it hard for me as they both laugh at my expense. My wife's other guy friend came around to watch a real cuckold husband at work. Chris pulled out his cock and my wife shoved it in to my mouth. Everyone was laughing and rub there cocks as I suck Chris's dick. I masturbated to a great orgasm as I imagine my wife powering me into the a circle jerk of hers friends and I was the pivot man.

Things do quickly change for a cuckold husband. I stared going online looking and chatting with cuckold husbands.

If interested I will continue