Looks Like it Will Never Happen for Me

Looks Like it Will Never Happen for Me.

Even though I too wish to be cuckolded, my problem is a little different than some of you.

I married my 35 year old wife as soon as her divorce was final. There was never a question about her willingness to party. We dated for a year before she left her husband. Additionally there were no surprises for her in regard to my lack of sexual prowess. My dick is a little shorter than average at 5 inches hard. But with only a 4 inch circumference, I am seriously lacking in size. Also my staying power is not something I am proud of.

But none of the above is or has ever been an issue. I give my wife head whenever she wants it and for as long as she wants. She is effusive in her praise for my attention to her pussy. She is always available to me on weekends when we indulge in coital sex. A failed pregnancy while a teenager resulted in her losing most of her uterus. So there is never a cuckold women period to complicate our sex life. She has never complained about our coital sex. She teases me about my size and lack of staying power. But never in a vicious or mean spirited way. She will say things like, '''Sweetie, putting up with two minutes of your little dick for an hour of your tongue is a bargain any woman would go for.''' But it is always in good fun and we laugh together during and after sex.

So what is the problem?

The problem is Sara is having sex with other guys but won't admit it even though I have told her I would be cool with her screwing other guys. I have shown her cuckold sites and regularly email her links to them. (Just not this one) But she steadfastly denies her other life.

Instead of cuckolding me she is cheating on me. I just don't understand why she would want to sneak around behind my back to do what I want her to do with my blessing.

She is on a mixed sex bowling team on Tuesday night and another mixed bowling team on Thursday nights. When I suggested coming along to watch her bowl she was adamant in her refusal to permit me to do so.

On Friday night she goes out for a night of dancing with her two girl friends, both of whom are divorced. She was doing this when all three of them were married. Even before we met. It is common for her to come home at six or seven Saturday morning. If I make a comment about it she says the girls decided to relax over so they could have a gabfest or else she or one of her friends drank too much .

For the weekends Sara is the perfectly dressed and coiffed wife any man would be proud to escort to the theater or anywhere else. At 5' 9'' tall Sara is statuesque. Her 150 pounds are nearly perfectly proportioned. Her Nordic features include long natural blond hair and blue eyes. Her appearance is striking and wherever we go she attracts the envious stares of other women and the lascivious stares of fantasizing men.

In deference to my short stature Sara seldom wears high heels. The exception being if she is miffed at me. Otherwise her dress is impeccable. Whether Jeans for horseback riding or a mini dress for a night of clubbing.

How do I know Sara is doing other guys?
Every bowling night Sara doesn't get home until one or two in the morning. She says her team likes to go to the diner and have a strategy session after their games. I'm not a bowler. But a two hour strategy meeting every night? For bowling ? Come on.


Sara knows I would be fully supportive of our living a cuckold lifestyle. I encourage it at every opportunity. I have even let her know that I thought women who engaged in lesbian sex were cool. But she exhibits no inclination to admit to an extramarital sex life nor to be interested in one. I don't dare confront her as I would never risk alienating and possibly losing her her love and affection.


As things stand now she is doing other men which I have absolutely no problem with. But I want to be a part of some of the activities I have read about here. Buying lingerie for her to wear for her bull. Preparing her to go meet her bull. But most of all I would like her to share her experiences with me.

Once while reading comments on a cuck website she said she was surprised women would allow their husbands to be present while they were fucking their boyfriends. I immediately agreed with her and said that it was not something I would want to do.

Another time she said she couldn't understand how the women on the cuck sites were able to get away with showing their faces. I assured her I would never expect her to do that. Then she got my hopes up. She asked if I thought her pussy was pretty. I said it was more than pretty. It was beautiful. She said if I took her picture she would look away from the camera like one of the women she had seen. I said that would be great. But that was all she ever said about it.

Another time she mentioned about guys wearing panties. She said she bet I would look cute in her panties and she was sure they would fit me. I said I was game. She brought out a pair of panties for me and told me to put them on.


We had the best sex we have ever had. We even did 69 while she teased me about being her lezzie lover. When she orgasmed her screams were so loud it frightened me. Afterwards she teased me about being her pantied sissy. But she never mentioned having me wear panties again.

Another time we were at a cuck site and she asked me if I would like her to spank me. I said yes and she giggled and said no I wouldn't. She said if she spanked me I wouldn't be able to sit for a week. I said that would be OK with me. She laughed, pulled my face into her tits and said she loved being married to such a wuss. Then she whispered in my ear, '''I'm serious. If I ever decide to spank you it will be with my hairbrush. I will tie you up and you will cry like a baby.''' She kind of scared me and the subject has never again come up.



Instead of ever being a cuck it looks like I will just have to resign myself to being the husband of a cheating wife.

You should insist on eating her on her return from her outings. If she has been fooling around and is wetter than normal, tell her you love how she is so turned on and wet when you lick her. Hopefully, she will think you don't know she is being fucked and will have you eating her creampies every time she comes home. It should turn her on enough that she won't care after a while that you know you are licking cum from her beautiful cream filled pussy.

You also might ask if you can wear the panties again, because you like her reaction to it.
Natural Born Cuckold
Pussy-Free For Life

Why not just simply ask her to..."Honey, I really want you to make me your cuckold. I really love you, I think you are the most sexy woman I have ever met...or have seen. But I can think of nothing hotter, than to see you get FUCKED by a stud with a huge cock. I can think of nothing hotter that to see your expressions of passion and lust as you get the best sex you can have...which in order for you to have...will have to be with someone who is much better at sex than I am. After you have had that great sex...I will use my expert tongue on your swollen, sore, used pussy...and get my treat"

Or something along those lines. You could also just show her your post here on CP?

Dont give up! You are closer than most of us will ever be.

Keep up showing her cuckold websites and even videos.

Because of her positive response on you wearing panties, I would buy some and surprise her by wearing them in bed sometime. Then maybe start wearing them to work once in a while and telling her later that night. You cant expect her to start initiating all these things. You have to start making them happen. She will get more and more used to it.

I think at some point you need to gather more proof of her affairs and confront her. But you should confront her out of love and tell her that you support the rerlationship. If she truely loves you, you wont lose her.

Thanks for the suggestions guys.

hando - I have tried to get her to let me go down on her on a Sat. when she comes home at 6 or 7 in the morning. But she goes straight to the shower and lets me do her afterwards.

As for buying some panties and voluntarily surprising her, it is something I never thought of. I am definitely going to give it some serious thought. I'm just not really into that. But I see your point and I think it has merit. The one time we did it she was very turned on and she assumed a real take charge role.

As far as me insisting anything, well, it is not my nature to be assertive with her. I would be very uncomfortable trying to do that.

Allen - LOL. If I was as eloquent as you I might try that. I bet you have never had a problem seducing women. I, unfortunately, am at the other end of the bell curve.

As for showing her my post, I could never do that. I have shown her some other cuck sites. But never this one. This is my fav by far and I have never told her about it. If she read this post she would have a fit. Me describing our permisteral life, telling people she was cheating on me. No Allen. That might work for someone as glib as you. But I could get in a world of hurt. LOL

iwmwtcm - You are not the first to suggest that I should take it upon myself to start wearing panties. It seemed cool in bed. It just seems weird otherwise. But I feel like you all have a lot more insight here than I do. I am trying to anticipate/visualize what her reaction would be if I told her I wore panties to work. I think I would say I was so comfortable in them when we made love that I was compelled to wear them more often. Hell. I probably over think things too much.

As far as gathering evidence and confronting her, I doubt it would be difficult to gather the evidence. But I could never confront her. I would never risk a reaction on her part I might regret for the rest of my life. She is out having dinner right now and will be at the bowling alley later. I could easily wait for her to come out and see if they really do go to the Ocean diner for two or three hours. I may do that Tues. night I just may.

The answer to me is obvious, and it's what most of us have to make do with anyway, but you have a lot more to build on. She's cheating, and she knows you'd like her to cuckold you. You have so much material there to turn you on, I would just carry on and pretend that's what's already happening. She goes out, you put her panties on and imagine it's part of the real thing. Just pretend she's told you not to cum until she comes home. After a few weeks of her knowing that you're wearing the panties when she goes out your two routines merge into one. She knows she's getting fucked and you're at home wearing her panties and waiting for her to come home wet. Just persist with that without being pushy, and surely eventually your cuckoldry becomes part of her own sexual games. If it doesn't work at least you'll have had some extra fun on what you're getting now, and it's not likely to be a big deal if she doesn't like it.

Of course I have no experience in this, but your post has given me hope. When she goes out I look for signs of anything that might have happended, and maybe she's as clever at concealing it as your wife.

Good luck.

Make sure you insist on eating her when she comes back, even if she has showered. Never tell her you think she has semen in her, just remark how good she tastes and how you love that she is "really wet" from your tongue and make sure she thinks you can't get enough of her beautiful wet pussy. Performing oral on your wife is an act of presentation, even if she hasn't been having sex, and it's even more submissive if she has. Remember the one in a relationship that gives oral is the one submissive to the receiver of the oral. If you haven't done so already, you should begin licking her ass. When you are eating her, concentrate on the spot between her ass and the very bottom of her vagina. Then begin with some tentative exploratory licks that just barely touch her rosebud to see if she wants more. She will move so you can lick more of her ass if she wants you to go further. There isn't much that is a more submissive act than performing extended ass-licking for your partner, and she will love you for it.

As for the panties, only wear them when she wants you to and don't make a big deal about it, but make sure she knows you love doing it for her, not for yourself. They are only underwear, but they symbolize presentation to your wife. And whatever you do, don't come in them unless she is with you or gives you permission. Don't masturbate to completion no matter what while she is out, you need to be pent up and ready for anything she wants when she gets back from her night out.

Don't push too hard on any of these things, and don't dump them on her all at once. Just let them take their own course as she becomes ready on her own time. Don't insist she admit any of her screwing around either, as she might think you will get upset. She might be afraid you might use her infidelities as an excuse to insist on seeing other women, which you are going to have to reassure her you won't do no matter what she does.

Let us know how things progress, and be prepared for a long slow journey. It might take years, it might not.
Natural Born Cuckold
Pussy-Free For Life

Make sure you insist on eating her when she comes back, even if she has showered. * [u]We have established a kind of routine. If she wants me to"eat her" she will say, sweetie, my wrinkle and or pucker needs your attention.[/u]* Never tell her you think she has semen in her, just remark how good she tastes and how you love that she is "really wet" from your tongue and make sure she thinks you can't get enough of her beautiful wet pussy. Performing oral on your wife is an act of presentation, even if she hasn't been having sex, and it's even more submissive if she has. Remember the one in a relationship that gives oral is the one submissive to the receiver of the oral. If you haven't done so already, you should begin licking her ass. * [u]I do already. She calls it her pucker.[/u] * When you are eating her, concentrate on the spot between her ass and the very bottom of her vagina. Then begin with some tentative exploratory licks that just barely touch her rosebud to see if she wants more. She will move so you can lick more of her ass if she wants you to go further. There isn't much that is a more submissive act than performing extended ass-licking for your partner, and she will love you for it.

As for the panties, only wear them when she wants you to and don't make a big deal about it, but make sure she knows you love doing it for her, not for yourself. They are only underwear, but they symbolize presentation to your wife. And whatever you do, don't come in them unless she is with you or gives you permission. Don't masturbate to completion no matter what while she is out, you need to be pent up and ready for anything she wants when she gets back from her night out. * [u]I'm a little nervous about the panties outside of our home. On the other hand what iwmwtcm, cuck4kirsty and you have said got me to thinking about our panty experience[/u].* Make sure you insist on eating her when she comes back, even if she has showered. Never tell her you think she has semen in her, just remark how good she tastes and how you love that she is "really wet" from your tongue and make sure she thinks you can't get enough of her beautiful wet pussy. Performing oral on your wife is an act of presentation, even if she hasn't been having sex, and it's even more submissive if she has. Remember the one in a relationship that gives oral [u]*me lol *[/u] is the one submissive to the receiver of the oral. If you haven't done so already, you should begin licking her ass. When you are eating her, concentrate on the spot between her ass and the very bottom of her vagina. Then begin with some tentative exploratory licks that just barely touch her rosebud to see if she wants more. She will move so you can lick more of her ass if she wants you to go further. *[u] It's like you know her. That is exactly how she got me to do it long before we were married.[/u]* There isn't much that is a more submissive act than performing extended ass-licking for your partner, and she will love you for it.



Don't push too hard on any of these things, and don't dump them on her all at once. Just let them take their own course as she becomes ready on her own time. Don't insist she admit any of her screwing around either, as she might think you will get upset. She might be afraid you might use her infidelities as an excuse to insist on seeing other women,* [u] lol. Sorry. Not laughing AT you. There is just no way she would be worried that I would ever flirt with another woman.[/u]* which you are going to have to reassure her you won't do no matter what she does.

Let us know how things progress, and be prepared for a long slow journey. It might take years, it might not.

hando - tried to underline my comments to your response. It didn't work!

[u]Test?[/u]

Dude...and i don't mean any offense by this (or irony),but you need to grow a pair. It's your life, and you have an opportunity (it seems) to live an experience that many of us dream about but know we will most likely never realize. Yet we are here on this site because what we all have in common is an unequaled sexual fetish (if you will) for the cuckold lifestyle. Some posters on this site seem to be into the "I want my wife to fool around behind my back" scenario where they either know or strongly believe something is going on but are content to play detective and search for clues while not getting any information or disclosure from their wives. You, however, state that you want to share in this lifestyle with your wife and she is hiding this part of her life from you.

My questions are this:
1. You say you know your wife is fucking behind your back but you don't REALLY know for certain because you haven't REALLY seen any proof of such. Why not? Aren't you dying to know for sure? You don't mention any kids so what's stopping you from following her or dropping in on her sometime and maybe watching from a distance? See where she REALLY spends her overnights? That can be done by just seeing where her car is parked.

2. If it turns out to be true (and you already stated you feel certain that it is because of certain signs), won't it or should i say doesn't it disturb you greatly that there is this level of dishonesty within your marriage? Cuckolding aside, being married is tough enough for two people who love each other and are basically honest with each other. You said you have told her about your cuckold desires and from what you described I would say it should be crystal clear to her. Although I would vote for sex being just about the best part of marriage, there are so many more non-sexual aspects of marriage that require honesty and cooperation and I would be troured by the lack of it.

3. What are you prepared to do?

Just my thoughts...in no way am i attacking you...to each his own.

I agree with those who say you should get some proof and then confront her but in a positive way, it's worth a try...maybe you'll get lucky and you'll come to find out even though you thought you made it clear to her you were cool with it, she still doubted you or just feared your reaction. i wouldn't get my hopes too high though. Some women when given the option would rather go behind your back anyway...hard to believe but true.

Either way, bring it to a head dude...go for it...I sure the fuck would. Good luck.

I'm with geecrizz on this one.
Peter C

Yep.... geecrizz said it just about the way I see it too.

Something to think about...... she cheated on her ex with you for a year. It looks like cheating is part of her nature. Trust is the bigest factor in any relationship. Watch your back!

Now go into detective mode...... and keep us posted with what you see.

Best wishes to you!
Cuck who loves a creampie.

I don't think a confrontation is all that good of an idea, with or without "evidence". It would be best if you can get her to admit to her infidelities without a blunt "in-your-face" style discussion. At some point she will be convinced you are readily accepting of her relaxing around and will not "freak" on her, but will go along with her activities with support and encouragement. She may feel that you can't handle the cucking, that it would devastate you and ruin the relationship, and therefore may never admit to past relationships. When you two are joking about your smaller size and lack of staying power, joke about getting her a larger cock to take care of her "needs". Plant the idea that you are OK with her going to somebody else for that bigger dick she would love so much.

My own wife has had my very explicit permission to relax with anyone she wants since before we married, but claims she has never done anything. I caught her coming home with another man once when I came home unexpectedly and she admitted to me that one of my co-workers "came just like that" from either a blow job or hand job. She also dared me to let her go in a back room with an in-law once, because if I did, she was "going to fuck him, just you watch". Now, she has a convenient memory about those incidents and swears she has always been faithful, because it suits her better these days. She doesn't want me to have any ammo to argue with her or to throw in her face, despite having my total unconditional approval of her fucking anybody, anywhere, any time she sees fit.

Bottom line: Don't expect her to unload all her past activities on you. Look to the future and try to let her draw you in as she becomes comfortable with your acceptance of her behavior and your role as her submissive.

Please keep us posted on how things go.
Natural Born Cuckold
Pussy-Free For Life

geecrizz - No offense taken. None at all. But it is probably kind of late for me to be "growing a pair." I suppose it is why I chose meekone as a user name. Even in my business I have lacked the powerfulness to deal with my employees in a firm manner. To such an extent it was necessary for us to hire an operations manager three years ago.

Sara's girlfriends just picked her up to go dancing. Now I have some privacy to come here and I can relax.

In answer to your questions:

1. No. I don't KNOW FOR A FACT that Sara is doing anything behind my back. I have no PROOF.

Why have I not attempted to gather any proof?

Good question. I'm sure it goes back to your "growing a pair" comment. I once said I wanted to go along and watch her bowl. She made it emphatically clear I am not to go to the bowling alley. Ever. She said I would never fit in with her friends. She said I would make them uncomfortable. They take and smoke. Marijuana too I suspect. And the truth of the matter is not only would I make them uncomfortable, I would also be uncomfortable.

No youngren. Sara is unable to conceive.

At yours and the urgings of others, I am working on a plan to watch Sara when she leaves the bowling alley Tuesday night. Pretty much what you said. I'm going to park in the lot next door and try following Sara's car.

2. Yes it disturbs me if. I am worried that she has a lover behind my back. I'm fine with being cuckolded by a bull where there is only a sexual attraction. That would be great. I would have no problem at all with that.
But I am frightened to death I will discover she has an emotional lover and will someday leave me for him.

3. What am I prepared to do?
As I said. I'm going to try to find out for sure. Beyond that probably nothing. There is no way I would confront her. Just no way at all.

I am wondering what will hapen if in fact things are as she alludes. Her just having her nights out and not wanting me intruding. I'll be ecstatic she has no real lover. But hugely disappointed my three year desire for a cuckold lifestyle has been nothing but a dream.


However things work out I am very, very glad I finally got up the nerve to come on this site. I joined a few years ago but was too chicken to do anything. Until the other day. I was overcome with the urge to "talk" with someone about things. I just had to share some thoughts with another human being. I came here and am relieved to have done so. Others have shared their thoughts, ideas and suggestions with me. This was the only place I felt I could find people who would not ridicule me.

Based on those ideas and suggestions I have laid out something of a plan. I am not as frightened as before about her catching me spying on her. Well, maybe I am. But I am going to do it.

If it turns out I have been paranoid all along I will come back here and apologize to all.

Thank you all - meekone

Thanks hando. - I need the "evidence" for my own peace of mind now. But you are absolutely correct. No way will I confront her if there is evidence. I am going to try to find out next week. I am mostly worried she has a lover. If she does meet someone there is no way I will be able to tell if he is a lover or just a sex partner. I don't know how I could tell the difference.

meekone:

Have you thought of hiring a PI? This way you will know one way or the other if she has a lover or maybe even how deep the relationship is.
Cuck who loves a creampie.

Cuckold4one - I hadn't planned on mentioning our past. But she is still out with her girlfriends so here goes.

Yes. At one time before her divorce was finalized I thought about hiring a detective.
We had been intimate for almost a year while she was still married to her husband. But I had a feeling she was spending time with another man besides me.

She and her husband had an argument. In describing it to me she said she would never marry another jealous man. She basically said she never questioned her husband about his free time and she didn't plan on ever again being questioned about how she spent hers. I can take a hint. That statement was, in my mind, aimed squarely at me.

For two months leading up to her divorce finalization, I begged and pleaded with her to marry me. All the time assuring her I would never be jealous or question her about her 'private time'.
Then she did it. She agreed to marry me. That was all I cared about. I already had mild cuckold fantasies. If she was relaxing with someone else being a cuckold would be fine with me.

That's when I dropped all thoughts of a detective.

But it wasn't long until I admitted to myself that I wanted to be a real cuckold. For three years now it has been hugely frustrating knowing I am half a cuckold. I have openly encouraged her to see another guy. If she is it's great. That's half the cuckold experience. But I crave the other half. I want to buy her lingerie knowing it is for 'him'. I want her to call me while she is with him. I want to do her nails for her. I want her to brag about what a great sex machine he is. I want her to openly share those experiences with me. If she would do that I would be a complete cuckold and love her even more than I do now.

Aside.lol.
She just called and wants to go to the beach with her girlfriends but said the weekends are always for us so she wouldn't go unless it was OK with me. I said only if she finds some guy to fuck and tells me all about it when she gets home. She giggled and said she would fuck at least two guys. I laughed and said that would be better yet. Then she sounded kind of serious, asking what if it was three guys? Again I laughed and said even better. lol.

So cuck4one that's the long version of why I never did the detective thing.

Meekone,
I keep reading this and I couldn't put my finger on why it wasn't clicking. Then .. Well. I think you are trying to merge being submissive and being stupid. They are not the same thing. Your plot twists of reamisters why you haven't done something are not credible for a rational permister. A meek permister would value trust and knowing higher than a bull. They would therefore take all steps to discover, even if the knowledge hurt them (or even excited them in other ways). I can't see a wife maintaining this half of the conversation either. At some point she is going to want to discuss, come clean, or say 'what the hell do you mean', depending on what she is actually doing and whether she really loves you and wants to stay with you. If she doesn't, the story quickly collapses anyway.

Meekone: I don't think you should worry much whether she is seeing someone or not. You might be very disappointed to find out there is no other permister fucking your wife. The fantasy that she has a lover or two(or hopefully many more) is very strong medicine, but it may be only fantasy. I would hope for your sake she really has somebody like I hope my wife has, but it may have to remain an unknown like my situation. My wife will never admit to anything under any circumstances unless she is caught with a dick in her. I can live with that, even though I would prefer to watch, participate, get verbal descriptions, or eat creampies. Right now, mentally you are a cuckold, but you can't prove it, so in your mind you feel you really aren't one. It might be better to know you are probably a cuck, than to know positively you aren't.

Your wife told you she didn't want anybody questioning her free time, and I don't question my wife's free time. Don't try to put restrictions on her or complain when she goes out. I care if my wife fucks around, but only from the standpoint of wanting to know whats going on. I never judge her behavior and never will, no matter what or who she does. Like I said, she has my explicit permission to have any kind or amount of sex with anybody she chooses and I only want to know what she is doing if she will tell me. I want her to have sex with others and not tell, rather than not have sex outside our marriage. I prefer the position of knowing, but having the other men thinking I don't know. I love hearing remarks intended as slights, but pretending I don't have a clue what they are talking about. I love the knowing smirks and whispers, and the taste of used pussy. I would hate to know she isn't fucking around.

Again, don't push too hard to get information from your wife. She will share if she thinks you are alright with it eventually. Many of my old girlfriends were concerned I would blow up at their adventures, but once I convinced them I loved and was turned on by what they were doing, I was treated like a best girlfriend that they could confide with. Knowing somebody's dick was large or small, how long they can last, how many times they manage to fill her with a big load, and if they like to eat pussy or will only receive oral are great topics to share with your wife or girlfriend during sex.

Sharing your wife's adventures is a great thing, and I hope you can get to that level with her.
Natural Born Cuckold
Pussy-Free For Life

hando - Saw your post last night. I have a full calendar today. But wanted to say you are in a situation similar to what I was. I wish you the same good fortune I have been blessed with. Will tell you lots more that has transpired the past two days. I expect tonight/tomorrow to seal the deal for Sara and I.

Meekone: I will be away from my computer for a while. I am really looking forward to reading your posts, but will most likely not be able to respond for a few days. There is a possibility I might find an internet cafe, or maybe the hotel will have one available, we'll see.

I hope things are working out with Sara and your dreams can come true. Keep us posted.
Natural Born Cuckold
Pussy-Free For Life

hando – And others. Update as promised.

This past week has been the greatest.
It took me, literally, years to finally come on here and tell my story. I sure wish I had done it sooner!
But though some of the past has been wasted, the future is bright and promising for us.

Tuesday night I parked across the street and waited while my wife went bowling. As I suspected she was out for a night of more than just bowling. She came out with two men. They drove to a diner first and then on to a motel. I waited for an hour before going home. There was no longer any doubt. Sara was cuckolding me to say the least.

But why was she *** to share her experiences with me. I was always vocally supportive of her finding a guy able to physically satisfy her. She teased me all the time about finding a guy with a real cock. Here she was doing exactly what I wanted her to do yet steadfastly refusing to confide or even admit to what she was doing. It was hugely frustrating.

I wondered if it could possibly be about the car. For our first anniversary I gave Sara the Jag she had always wanted. She has never allowed me or anyone else to drive it. Yet Tuesday night when she left the bowling alley, she rode in the guy's car while the other guy followed behind driving her precious Jag to the motel. It really hurt me.

Then Thursday night the same thing happened again. Two different guys but the same routine. Her riding with one guy and the other following in her Jag. Was she concerned about me finding out about them driving her car? It seemed stupid but it was what I was thinking. Why else was she so *** to share her experiences with me? She absolutely knew of my cuckolding desire and often said she would love to do it if she found the right bull.

I guess only fellow cuckolds would understand that while I had no problem with Sara's bowling buddies turning out to be fuck buddies, I was pouting and depressed about her letting them drive her car.

Maybe the car was what spurred me to act Friday morning. It was two AM when she came in. I was all set. I flung my robe open exposing myself in a pair of her fancy panties. She giggled first. Then she began laughing really hard. I grabbed her and kissed her all over her neck. Then I got my tongue in her ear and I knew I had her. She loves me to tongue bathe her ears. But I caught her by surprise and had her moaning for more.

In no time we were on the floor and it was simple to raise up her little uniform skirt. There were no panties to contend with. She half heartedly moaned that she needed her shower. My mouth went in a bee line from her ear to her pussy.

When she came it was really hard. Afterwards we were in each others arms and she regained her composure. She asked if she tasted good. I told her better than she ever tasted before. She licked my ear and said she loved her little cunt cleaning sissy. Then she said she loved having a little pantyboy. I said I wouldn't mind being her pantyboy if it meant I would also be her cuckyboy.

Then it happened. She asked if I would still feel that way if she wanted to have more than one bull. I said that would be fantastic. Then she asked, more than two? I told her the only thing I would care or worry about would be her falling in love with a bull and leaving me, otherwise the more bulls the merrier.

She stood up over me with a devilish grin and spread her legs so I was looking up at her pussy. She said, '''OK cuckyboy. I have four regular studs that fuck me every week. Two of them fucked me bare tonight just before I came home. How did it taste? How did you like your first cucky creampie?'''
It took a second for what she said to register. Truthfully, I did not taste anything very different. She has two tastes or scents. One is kind of a soapy perfume right after she showers. The other is if it has been a while since she showered. That's what this was. I looked up at her for an instant and said she tasted wonderful. She said, '''Good, because from now on you'll be getting a steady diet of creampies.'''

We hugged and kissed and went to bed vowing our love for each other.

Friday morning I had to go in and sign some checks and then came straight home. We talked for hours about a lot of things. She told me how she had wanted to be my cuckoldress ever since I had shown her the cuck websites. But she was positive my desire was for her to have just a single 'friend'. She never seriously considered that I would be good with her having multiple fuck buddies. She said the first time she suspected I might be OK with her having more than one friend at a time was just this past week.

We talked about the possible effects a cuckold lifestyle could have on our business. I said we would have to be discreet about things. I said I wouldn't want any of our friends to find out because of the embarrassment it would cause me.

That caused Sara to burst out laughing. She said every cop in ******** ( a town two towns away ) knew about her and me. I asked if she was serious. She giggled and said the guys on both her bowling teams were cops and a dispatcher.

I really panicked. I was sure we would be ruined. She said, no. She had been fucking cops all the way back to before we got married. I said what about the cops here. They probably know too. She laughed and said, '''probably.'''

I said I would never be able to go out in public again. She laughed and said, ''' sure, sure you can. And you will. You just have to pretend you still don't know they are fucking your sexy wife. After all it's been this way since before we got married. It's just that now you know. Nothing else has changed. Just that now you know. They will continue to think you don't know.''' After a long pause, '''It is what my little cuckold has always wanted isn't it?'''

This was not what I had visualized in my dreams of being a cuckold. I guess I was visibly shaken. Sara pulled my face tight into her boobs and said, '''poor baby. You wanted to be my cuckold and now you are having second thoughts. I'm sorry sweetie. I promise I won't tell any of my fuck buddies that you know they are fucking me. They will still think they are getting over on you. Look at it this way. Everything will stay the same except you will get what all you cucks want. I am going to tell you everything I do with my friends and you are going to get all the creampies you guys fantasize about. You are going to swallow more cum than I do. You should be very happy.'''

I asked, what if her cop friends start making fun of me. She said why would they suddenly do that? They haven't yet have they? The only time they do that is in private. I asked what that meant.

She laughed and said they sometimes tease her about being married to a tiny dicked wuss while they are fucking her. And saying macho stuff like how does she like being fucked by a real man's cock.

We talked about other things too. Sara said from then on I would be free to question her as much as I wanted to. In fact she wanted me to ask her where she was going, who she would be with and what they would do. She laughed her most mischievious laugh and said she knew exactly what cucks like me
want and need even if we won't admit it to ourselves. She said she has learned from her favorite cuck site exactly what cucks like me want. She said she was going to make up for all the cuckolding we had both missed out on.

Sara went on to tell me that she hated the word bull. From then on I could refer to her friends as friends, teammates, mates, lovers, guys,buddies and even fuck buddies. But I was to drop the 'bull' thing. She thought it was demeaning.

Sara then brought up the panties again. She was aware of how embarrassing it was for me. She said from what she had read about cucks, wearing lingerie was not only acceptable for some of them but in many instances desirable and a pleasurable experience. She said she did not want to push me to do something I didn't want to do. But, she giggled, '''I loved it when I came home the other night and you opened your robe and you were wearing my panties. there is no way I can ever get enough of that sight'''

Next it was her girlfriends. Two girls she has been friends with since high school. Both divorcees. And both it turns out had been privy to our permisteral life since before Sara and I were even married. It would not be necessary for me to do any pretending with them. She would be seeing them shortly to tell them all about our official new lifestyle.

She giggled, '''they both always believed I married you for money. They couldn't believe I loved you. They always said you were such a wuss. But I always told them you were MY wuss, I loved you dearly and I would never trade you for some stud with his big cock and bigger ego. Guys like that are easy. But guys like you are rare and special.'''

I asked if she was really looking forward to our new lifestyle. She laughed and said, '''More than you sweetie. More than you. You wanted this cuckold stuff and I wanted it too after I started reading about it. The more I read the more I knew I would like it. But we failed to communicate and as a result we missed out on some fun'''.
She continued, '''You know how I like to tease you. There is so much I would have loved teasing you about. Remember that fishing trip I went on? I was the only gal sweetie. Just me and four horny cops with big hard cocks.''' She laughed and giggled some more. '''Now that it's official I'm going to really have fun. Starting tonight.'''


For any wannabe cucks reading this I would like to emphasize the importance of precise communication with the permister you wish to have cuckold you. Somehow Sara and I each got our heads fixated on an erroneous presumption. I assumed I had made it clear I would be OK with her having more than one fuck buddy. But my use of the word bull (singular) all the time (just never occurred to me to say bull's') led Sara to believe I wanted her to embark on a steady relationship with just one guy. As many women on Cuck sites like to do. But Sara was never going to give up all her friends for just one guy.

So be sure you all talk WITH each other. Not just TO each other.

COMMUNICATE!

Sara still does not know about this website. I assume. I am a little concerned about her finding out I spied on her leaving the bowling alley with her buddies. Everything is suddenly going so good I don't want to risk pissing her off. Although the way things have turned out I think she might be OK with my bit of detective work. I am sure I will tell her after a bit. But not right now.

Sara said she joined a cuck site and is seriously thinking about posting on it. I asked which one and she giggled and said maybe she would and maybe she wouldn't tell me. She said it would depend on me being a good little cuckyboy.

For those of you who gave me so much encouragement, I offer a heartfelt thank you.

This is great news meekone. I'm genuinely pleased for you and Sara - enjoy!
Peter C

Meekone: Congratulations, that is fantastic news. All i can say is "Wow, that was fast!" I would've never guessed in a million years that scenario would play out. You are so lucky to have such a wonderful lady in Sara.

You have what I like, knowing your lady has friends, but the friends don't know you know. For me, that is the ultimate relationship with her men. Those guys think they've got it over you, but in reality, you have exactly what you want and so does Sara. Her men have what they want, too, a win, win, win situation.

I know things will mostly continue as they have been, except now you are a confirmed cuck, but keep us informed on how the details work out. I am very curious how this will finally shake out.

By the way, I have never liked the term "Bull" myself. It seems like an awkward term to use, even though I have played the role of one for some of my married girlfriends in the past. I felt more like a "boy toy" for their use(maybe use is a better word), since they were usually 10-25 years older than I and were using me as a sex replacement for older, impotent husbands in the days before Viagra.

Have fun and enjoy those creampies.
Natural Born Cuckold
Pussy-Free For Life

What a great start to a wonderful journey. Please keep us updated on your/her new adventures as I look forward to reading of your upcoming cuckold adventures. Thank you (and your wife) for sharing this.

So much has occurred in such a short time. Three weeks ago I was convinced my wife would never confide in me the true nature of her extra marital sex life. Iknew (99% sure) it was occurring, she knew I would be cool with it and wanted it, but still she was *** to openly admit to it or discuss it.
I finally got up the nerve to come on here and talk about my situation. Long story short, I wish I could change the title of this thread to: “Yay! It Finally Has Happened For Me!”

Sara and I have really opened up to each other and the results are what I had mostly dreamed a cuckold's life might be. From the beginning even before we married I was very comfortable with Sara making decisions for us. It was not a sub/dom thing like you read about on some cuck sites. It was a natural thing. If she wanted to go swimming it didn't matter to me. Or if she wanted to go riding. Or a movie or club. I was just so happy she wanted to do things with me. I know I have poor taste in clothes. So I am more than happy to wear what she picks out for me.

But there was a sharp change in things a week ago. She asked me if I had tried to spy on her at the bowling alley. I almost had a heart attack. I turned cold and sweaty all at once. I admitted I had and apologized. I was amazed at how calmly she took it. Clearly she knew. One of her cop friends must have seen me. She said she was so pleased with the way things have worked out that she was not going to over react in response to my pathetic attempt at being macho. But ever since she has been calling me Peavey and won't tell me why. She just giggles and says I am her Peavey.

Sara has always enjoyed teasing me. But her teasing never bothered me all that much. But in retrospect I now think it has annoyed her just a little bit that it never got a serious rise from me. Now she is teasing me in a way that does bother me. It embarrasses me no end and she seems to be getting off on it. She has two very close girl friends.

I just recently found out both Sue and Carol have been privy to every aspect of our sex life all along. I should have guessed by some of the snide comments they have made to me over the years. Things like, '''Gee Rich. You must be one hell of a man where it counts to keep a hottie like Sara satisfied in the sex department.''' And, '''We have asked Sara if she would share you with us once in a while. But she always says we could never handle your size.'''

I think Sara wanted a way to cuckold me that would be fun for her but somewhat uncomfortable for me. She said this (cuckolding) was going to be on her terms. She certainly has succeeded in making me uncomfortable.

What Sara has done is make me sit and listen to her phone conversations with her girl friends. I only hear Sara's half of the call but somehow that seems worse than if I heard the whole thing. I am never quite sure of exactly what is being said. But it is terribly embarrassing for me.

Two days after Sara and I had our 'moment of enlightenment' conversation about our past communication failures, Sara called Sue and the conversation was something like this:
'''Hi Sue. Have I got something to tell you.''' ------------------ '''No. You will never guess.''' ------------------- '''Nope. Rich knows.''' ------------- '''Giggle. No, not everything.''' --------------- '''No. What I said about just one guy. He doesn't care how many. My sweetie is just worried about me falling in love and leaving him. Giggle, giggle.''' --------------------- '''He is sitting right next to me listening.''' ------------- '''Giggle, no he's not wearing my panties.''' -------------- '''Giggle. No. Not yet. But we can do that.'''------------- '''That would be great. Sure. Whenever you and Carol want.''' ----------------- ''''God that will be so funny. He will die of embarrassment.''' ------------------ '''Sue, I promise you. But not right away.'''
-------------'''Giggle. Not THAT long. ----------------- '''I promise.''' -------------- '''Giggle. Yes, I promise.'''--------------- '''Yes, yes, yes. I promise, I promise.''' ---------------- '''You'll find out just how good he is.'''


Since then I have sat and listened to other calls. Her other girlfriend and a couple of her policemen friends who were, thank God, unaware I was listening. Her fuck buddy calls were the most embarrassing and yet at the same time the most provocative. She called Bill who she was with Thursday night.

'''Hi Bill. Whatcha doin?''' ---------------'''Giggle. I just miss that hard cock of yours.''' ----------------
'''Giggle. I miss his too.''' ------------ '''Oh. Him. I gave him a few chores to do so I could get him out of my hair.''' --------------- '''Giggle. Do you know how long it's been since I had hair down there?''' --------------- '''I'll give you a hint. I was in high school.''' -------------- '''Well I only had like ten or fifteen real fine strands of hair. They eventually just stopped growing.''' ------------- '''Giggle. They say that happens to women like me that had just a tiny bit of fine hair to start with.''' -------------- '''I'm glad you like it. He likes it too.''' ------------- '''Giggle. You're too macho. ''' ---------------- '''Yeah,yeah,yeah. Talk is cheap Billy boy.''' -------------------- '''You could do it before you fuck me.''' ------------------- '''Yeah, yeah. You're just too macho. I bet you don't even do it for your wife.''' ------------------- '''Giggle I knew it. Giggle''' ----------------- '''I told you a dozen times. We do it on the week end.''' --------------- '''Yes he fucks me. I told you. Yes I can feel him. Just like I can feel his tongue. Just not a turn on like his tongue or your cock is.''' --------------- '''I told you. The problem is it's so skinny.''' --------------- '''Your getting off on this. I know you are you big dick. I told you. I can put my thumb and forefinger around it.''' --------------- '''Yes I would call it tiny.''' ------------------- '''You are such a buster. Of course he's self conscious. We've talked about this so many times. You just like making fun of him.''' ----------------
'''Giggle.You are sooo bad. Giggle. I should never have told you guys he's a crybaby. I exaggerated. He doesn't cry THAT much. Giggle.''' ------------------- '''That's OK. Giggle. I take it as a compliment.''' --------------- '''When are we going to party on the boat again?''' -------------- '''I love it when you tell me I'm a cock starved slut. It's the truth. I am. If he had a cock instead of his little wee wee I'd fuck him day and night and I would be giving you guys the finger.''' ----------------'''Giggle. You know I'm just teasing. I love cop cock and cop cum and you know it.''' -------------- '''Giggle. Sorry. You better not get caught. Bye'''

I asked her about some of what Bill said. She laughed and felt my erection. She laughed again and said there was no doubt. I was a real cuck. '''Only a wussy cuck like you would get hard listening to his wife flirt with a guy who fucks her all the time.'''

Sara told me she wanted me to help her dress for her night out with her girl friends.
YESSSS!! At last. She took a milk bath and washed her hair. I dried her off and then held her nail polish while she did her toe nails. She asked if I was surprised that Sue and Carol had known all along that I was a wuss. I said yes. She laughed and said someone else knows too. I asked who. She laughed and said, '''That's for me to know and you to find out.''' I asked if it was anyone I knew and she said yes. Now I am really worried. I asked if it was a man or woman but she would not tell me. Now I will be forever worried about who it is. Someone I come in contact with regularly? Someone else she is having sex with? I can't get it out of my mind.

After Sara's toe nails dried we went into her dressing room and she pulled out a lot of dresses and skirts asking which I thought would be sexy on her. Ha. I'm not dumb. Each one she held up looked great. She settled on a pretty black one that had skinny little bra type shoulder straps.
She went back and forth about no panties, panties or a thong and settled on black see through panties.

While I was holding her shoes she said she was thinking about how awesome it would be to have someone lavish affection on her little piggies. She held her foot up to my face and I dutifully began sucking her toes. She began laughing and yelled, '''No, no. It tickles.''' Ha. So much for a foot fetish.

As she was ready to leave she said she loved having me around while she dressed. We kissed good bye and out the door she went to the sound of Carol's horn beeping. Two seconds later she came back in. She had lipstick in hand and had me purse my lips while she applied a heavy coat to my lips. She raised her dress, pulled down her panties and said, '''One smooch on each cheek Peavey. Now.''' I did and she turned and said, '''one on your favorite lips too.''' I knelt down and did that too. Then she was off for the night.

I've spent a couple of hours fantasizing about what the three of them will be up to. Eventually I took matters into my own hand and enjoyed a good cum. I'm powering myself not to do it again. I want to be ready if Sara comes home horny. The truth is it's difficult. Writing about everything is actually making me get hard again. Probably another cuckold marker. I better stop now.

I know this isn't a real sex story like most of the threads here about bulls, and chastity and lots of fucking and stuff. But I have enjoyed this site for years and feel like this may be a tiny little pay back for any who may happen to enjoy this. I know a couple of guys -- allen, hando, Peter C, cuckold4one and some others have asked for updates. Hope this is not too disappointing.

And for the permister who emailed me. Neither Sara or I are racist.

Just came back to this...congratulations man. I'm jealous and happy for you at the same time. Way to go after what you want and get it! Gives me hope.

meek1:

Thanks for the update!

It sounds like you'll be in for an interesting ride with this whole lifestyle.

Any chance of seeing some pic's of Sara? Hope she feeds you several fresh creampies every week, and you earn the privelage to watch her being serviced by one or more of her lovers.
Cuck who loves a creampie.