I have a chance to be in cuckold-style porn and do cleanup

Hi all, new to the forum. A little background about me: believe it or not, my very first kiss was when I was 18 with a very beautiful blonde girl, and for that first kiss she snowballed me another guys semen. I did not know before the kiss she had cum in her mouth. I never would have agreed to it had I known beforehand, but afterwards I found it turned me on.

I think this was the beginning of my desire to be a cum eating cuckold, which I have not truly made happen yet. I've eaten some ejaculate since then, but only from women who provided used condoms or containers of their boyfriend or husband's cum for me to eat.

Anyway, back to the title. I have the chance to play the cuckold in a couple porn scenes, but I am having a hard time getting over the nervousness of agreeing to it. The scenes would be first: watching a boy/girl/boy scene with 2 black guys fucking a blonde white chick, no condoms allowed. Then I would do clean up duty and eat the cum of both men from her.

And the second scene would be her taking a bukkake, and me licking her clean afterwards. I don't think it would be like 50 guys like in a lot of the bigger productions, but maybe something more like 6 or so.

I would be allowed to wear whatever I want to hide my identity, but I am still pretty nervous about it. I think one of my hangups is eating another guy's cum in front of him for the first time, let alone multiple guys. Also, even with my identity hidden, it is still a big step to me to be filmed doing it. I think I'm a bit self-conscious as well about the guys being grossed out by an overweight white guy licking up their cum. I was possibly considering requesting the bukkake scene to be changed to a gloryhole scene, and just have each guy pop on her tits or face/mouth and clean up after each load. This is if I even do it at all though.

I realize it is not true cuckolding as it is not my wife or girlfriend I would be watching and cleaning

What say you?