Well, I can tell you I'm a totally "normal" looking guy, polite, handsome and professional. I'm an enthusiastic, intelligent and discrete man. I'm also an amateur sissy CD slut! *giggle*
I LOVE dressing like a BAD "grrl" and being erotically humiliated.
Oh yeah, and I am also definitely a REAL life cuckold.
Actually, I think that's WHY I'm a CD "grrl"!
I'm not a wimp, but ever since my (now EX-)Wife made me her cuckold hubby in real life, I feel really submissive. Now I actually LIKE this and WANT it in my life!
I know my wife had sex with real men and I didn't say anything about it. I didn't DO anything about it. My (now-Ex)Wife took a lover, AND KEPT HIM! even after I confronted her about the affair!
She had the affair and I learned: I was not only a consistent loser, but THE WORD WAS OUT - She knew it too! I was INADEQUATE for Her. She had gone to a BETTER MAN because I was so bad. All I could be, was not good enough for Her.
I'D FINALLY LEARNED MY PLACE.
Helped along by all the harsh slaps of HER love affairs and my inescapable record of failure, my lesmister was complete: I am inadequate; as a man, as a boyfriend, and as a husband.
The two of them completely emasculated me - but somehow this ended up changing me inside - and even though I can't explain it, I crave it.
The offense and the inadequacy fueled my orgasms and took over my sex drive. The conviction that I am inadequate pushed me to actually SEEK the offense. I was degrading myself just in order to cum and, in the process, REINFORCING what was humiliating me.
So I became an enthusiastic sissy sub hubby and CD "grrl". I simply LOVE to serve!
My Ex-Wife knows the whole truth and did what any sexy amazing woman would do. She quickly and easily found a Man to satisfy Her like a Woman and cuckolded me. After a few years, She dumped me, and I knew exactly why.
The strangest thing to me though, is that I feel better knowing I am a sissy cuckold! I was actually happy when She put me in my place! I loved finally feeling like I could at least do one thing well in relationships. I could make sure the sexy, virile, lucky pair of lovers were satisfied and well served!
Anymore, all I fantasize about and all I want is a REAL MAN who is masculine, firm, yet gentle, and a total TOP. A "take-charge" confident Man who wants to enjoy the company of a shy, sweet, submissive crossdresser, especially one who is a very feminine sissy type, like me.
A man who is a bit on the Dom side in a reamisterable way and enjoys "enpowerd" feminization. A Man's Man who takes a very active roll in transforming submissive guys like me into their own sweet, sexy, and feminine, girlieboys. A gentleman who enjoys nice slow erotic play, loves to tease and humiliate "his grrl" about her lack of masculinity and her desire to be a sweet little fem for a "real man". A Man who loves the control he has and the look of total presentation on my sissy face as I surrender to his desire to have me as his woman. A man who feels there is nothing as enjoyable as the company of a truly submissive, sissified, feminine male.
In short, a Man who knows how he wants to be treated and who knows how to treat me like his sexy secret, his "grrl" on the side!
BTW, I'm trying to find REAL people who are reamisterably LOCAL to me for REAL life friendship and fun!
bi bi,
Sissy
SissyGrrl2 in "grrl-mode"
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