Hhhhhhh

wow, this is hot. i hope you made her jerk you off once a week as well.

Wonderful! I wish you well in this totally hot new adventure.

My advice is not to push too hard on the "whatever she wants" while you are at her place. Play it cool by being game, obedient, upbeat. Don't get whiny, or entitled, or try to top from below - because if it works out she'll be open to making it an ongoing arrangement and what a world of submissive pleasure that will be!

Especially don't bring up sexual topics in conversation. Don't try to steer conversation at all. (Don't even try to make conversation unless she wants to.) Wait for her to ask about sex. (She may not in this first month.) She knows you, but she'll be curious about what you are up to these days and well be very intrigued and curious about this whole arrangement. If she asks, be totally honest, but don't expect anything from her.

(That was advice. Now for fantasy: I know what I would say. I would tell her that my biggest pleasure these days is imagining her with her boyfriends and I would be willing to give up sex with other people for good and live only to masturbate to her memory and the thought of her with other guys if she'd just let me devote my life to serving and bettering hers.

Of course that is me and probably not you and besides, from what you say, it would could be a total turn-off for her that would send her screaming from you. But this part isn't advice, just fantasy.)
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

Man, enjoy sniffing those panties...I know you will...It will be the closest you can get and you should be grateful for that...Ask her for permission, though, as she might allow it...That would make it hotter.

I agree with the advice you have already heard. Just keep it low key and enjoy the fantasy of it yourself.

I predict she willl eventually start sharing stories with you about the sex she has. Act like her girlfriend, and she will continue to share those with her. But if you try to push her, try to get her to do more, she'll tune you out completely.

Good luck!

Christine

dkei44555....... loved your thread and am excited to hear more. What is the latest with you and your ex? Have you noticed any chances in her behavior since you made your offer to her??

Dear DKei44555,

I think this is a very interesting thread. Your previous girl friend is obvisously a very beautiful and sexy permister.

I agree with most of the things that have been said above.

However, it seems to me that you are now prepared to be this Womans slave.
You have sacrificed your own free time and possibility to go out and look for other girls to allow Her to have sex with others and you are prepared to do Her bidding with no right of refusal of anything.

I think the most important thing is for you now to demonstrate how pleased you are with this arrangement.

Whatever She orders you to do, smile and thank her and then perform the task with interest and care.

Have you thought about sharing your feelings with Her. Above all, tell Her how pleased you are to watch your Daugther and how grateful you are to Her for allowing you all of this time with your common flower.

You obviously need to be careful and not push anything and this will be entirely up to you, but I would probably have told Her that I missed Her. How would She react if you appologized for not fully understanding Her needs and feelings at the time of your breakup. Tell Her that it was terribly wrong of you to first sugest that she got involved in affairs with other males and then not accepting that She developed natural feelings for one of Her lovers and that you now recognize that your jealousy was misplaced. Tell Her that you now understand that it was wrong of you not to accept Her needs and that you now recognize that someone as beautiful as Her should have rights to have lovers beside you even She did develop feelings for them.

Tell Her that you are grateful that She allows you to watch your daugther and to serve Her one night a week simply because you are so pleased to be allowed to be near Her. Ask Her if there is anything else you can do to make Her life more confortable. Carefully start to show interest in Her love live and support Her in whatever you are doing.

Don't push anything, just demonstrate your willingness to serve Her.

Who knows, maybe She will eventullay decide that it might be a good idea to keep you as Her slave; because the way I read your story, that is probably the best you can hope for. But is it what you want and can you handle it?

Regardless how it evolves, I would be very grateful if you will keep us posted.

Sincerely.
elina

Dear DKei44555,

To begin with, let me say I find your story very romantic and it is beautiful that you have managed to get to where you are now, i.e. unreservedly offering of yourself to her.

I agree fully with what Elina says.

Maybe it is a good idea to reserve a time period in your mind that you will dedicate to this current arrangement, say 6 months or maybe even a year. During this period you may have no expectations or even desires concerning how things may develop. Just be steady, keep all your promises and honor your commitments 100%.

Think of the hot buttons that triggered your fights and your hatred and make sure they are neutralized in your mind, so you do not fall into any of those traps as they come up (and they will come up).

At night evaluate how you can improve the things you did in the day.

After the 6 months take a break (like a short vacation or something) and evaluate where you are, how you really feel about things. etc. and then decide whether you need to make changes or adjustments.

All the while be vulgarly honest with yourself and manage your emotions, especially the jealousy that might well resurge. Jealousy can be a powerful motivator for a cuckold and a power for good if you can manage it.

Who knows, you may yet salvage (part of) what seemed for ever lost.

I wish you all the best.
By lovingly allowing my wife this freedom she helps shrink my ego to feed my feeling of self respect.

dkei44555......Did you do a lot of watching your flower this weekend?

Just wanted to see how things are going with your EX? Any new updates?

When they start a story like this, then not give more updates, I usually think its more fantasy, which is a shame

For Gawd sake people of course its fantasy...

+1 tazz...

This is hot. How much do you expect the takes bill to come to when she uses your card?

Thanks for the update dkei44555!

I think that both Elina and Mikuk gave good advice, but your update makes clear that all of us may have been a bit overly optimistic about the situation based on her intitial agreement.

But I think Elina's advice in particular is something you should look at again. Perhaps she is creeped out now because your behavior is, well, creepy to anyone operating outside a BDSM fetish construct. I know a guy who always went over the top with women he was interested in - lavish gifts, over solicitous offers - it always backfired. (I also know some women on the receiving end. They don't like it.)

I'm not saying this is the case for you - I don't know the relationship you have with her or what she is like. But maybe you ought to back off the pleading to make payments - which may come across as a desperate attempt to get in her life - and have the kind of heartfelt apology that Elina described. I'm talking about a true apology - offered without agenda or expectation (so rare these days!) Tell her that when you look back on how you behaved, you are ashamed. That you really feel things were all your fault and you are genuinely sorry for what you put her through. Remember to be clear that the only thing you are trying to do is to set old demons to rest for yourself and give her due remorse - that you expect nothing in return: no getting back together, not being better friends, not forgiveness, not even acceptance of the apology. (If she accepts it or grants forgiveness it is a gift, not your due. Don't say that, of course, but behave with the appropriate contrition and gratitude.)

I think you may find that such honest and upfront acknowledgement of responsibility on your part will clear the air. And then maybe. Just maybe. More honest dialogue will slowly develop, eventually leading her to better understand you and you her.

Good luck.
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

She is sexy..Ill give you that.

I love this story, and your situation dkei44555. Hopefully your ex will become more use to using you as time goes by.
tony

It sounds to me like she is suspicious that you are simply trying to hold on some way and is uncertain she wants that.

Here's an idea: The next time you are sitting, leave her an envelope with cash in it when you go. Leave a note that says that you respect her privacy and understand that is why she doesn't want to create an Amazon list and that you hope she'll just go buy what she likes or needs instead. No strings attached and you promise no questions afterwards. If she takes it and doesn't give it back or complain or mention it to you (and you should not bring it up,) then make it a regular weekly thing. (No note after the first time, just the cash.)
Pantalone, Wittol, oblate, abnegator, fellator, pathic, irrumatiophile,fop, epicene, cotquean, skivvy, thrall, and pilgarlic.

Any updates? Anyone else have any close experiences to this?
tony

Any updates now?

Tell us more dkei44555. How has it developed? Did she ask for you to buy her things and do chores, or do you just offer? How does she react to you buying her things, and doing more chores? Maybe next time, you should not do a chore; and apologies, and tell her you will make it up to her for don't doing such said chore. Even if she didn't think of, or expect you to do it.
tony

Your doing good, its all a learning experience

Would love hearing what the latest is on your situation.

this was a great thread