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Brutus2
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# Posted: 28 Mar 2008 21:32:29
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Choice 2 is probably the "less worse", indeed...just hope she will get LOTS of lovers and be cruel to you...
There's one thing she should understand, denying you and fuck many others is more cruel if you're a man who still desires her with no hope...
Fanatique de l'infidelite feminine
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boss
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# Posted: 29 Mar 2008 05:06:40
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Steven,
Congratulations on setting a boundary and standing up to your wife. I don't understand her remark "was dissapointed with what I had done to her??????" This remark sounds totally selfish, manipulative and backward - not at all loving. (isn't it much more accurate to say "what she has done to you?")
Have you expressed reasons to your wife? Such as how your feminization would negatively affect your children's mental health? Have you had such serious discussions about where she has led your relationship? Have you asked her why she has such a strong desire to humiliate you and asked her why she is being so selfish?
In her 24-hour "non-negotiable" options, she is still manipulating, controlling and humiliating you. Why does she want to do this? Is this what love should look like? Why does she feel a need to control you like this? Is she drunk with power and lust?
I also suffer with the desire to be humiliated as a substitute for healthy love. Where ever you found the strength to stand up to your wife, keep thinking about these healthy important identity values. Consider seeing a therapist.
Congratulations on finally finding a boundary in this ongoing manipulation campaign that your wife has pursued. You might also want to consider a "safe word" with the play scenes she is proposing. For example, are you willing to be r-a-p-e-d and not be able to stop it? Is this love? Is this healthy?
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demimolle
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# Posted: 29 Mar 2008 07:51:13
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Hi Chloe
Sorry for this late msg.
I read your post almost every day and since the last changes i did not have time yet to post.
Those last evolutions are terrific.
Your wife must be very involved in that cuckholding process for having left her good lover Brian.
It seems now you are completely in it.
Did you love testing the sperm of her new lover (i mean not leaking her but the taste of that Mister's sperm) ?
But her last decisions clearly show where she wants to go.
I think you made the good choice.
And sure next time, for the less, you will have to make Mister hard with your mouth !
Are you ready for that ?
Are you somewhere happy about it ?
And when she left Brian, at first i thought too that she must really love you for wanting to bring you back into her adventures and not only leaving pleasure alone with a man.
But now I wonder ! after all, in 3, she proposed you to leave. May be it was just a part of the deal, just to make pressure.
What do you think ?
Well it reveals her perversion and i think you must love it. Do you.
She really wants to go far in that way. Do you understand why ?
However, now you'd better check your food and the signs of femminisation appearing in your body ...
And have good times too !...
PS : did she told you about the efficiency oh her new lover and how she loved it.
Do you know if he is better than Brian ?
And was she happy of your attitude for having leaked Mister's sperm ?
Did she congratulate you ?
demimolle,
voyeur-branleur inoffensif et respectueux
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sb64
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# Posted: 29 Mar 2008 14:56:32
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The wife and I had another long chat last night, I told her that I had chosen option 2. I explained to her that i do love the feeling of humiliation I feel when she is with another man, and I do want her to continue to be satisfied sexually any way she desired. I told her that I do not want to be a woman and that the only aspect of femminization I enjoy is the humiliation.
I told her that I would wear a chastity device if that what she wanted and that I would do whatevre she wanted sexually, but asked her to plesae take it slowly with me. She told me that she was dreading my answer as she didi noit know what she would have done if I had selected option 3 as she loves me and wants to stay married. She said that she was very happy with my choice and is now glad that I stuck up for myself as I obviously felt so strongly about femminization. She said she was dissapionted in a way as I made such a lovely girl and that it was a real waste as I was a much prettier gilr than guy. She asked me if I would reconsider my decision in a year or two, I said that I would but its unlikely I would change my mind.
She was so sweet and loving I thought there was a chance we could land up making love, but that was not to be. Nothing was said and she went to sleep well before me. So that where we stand... life is going to be interesting
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Brutus2
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# Posted: 29 Mar 2008 15:19:53
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Yeah...really sign a contract with her : her vagina is open to anyone but NEVER EVER to your little dick...for life ! You will clean her only...and often...
Fanatique de l'infidelite feminine
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boss
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# Posted: 30 Mar 2008 06:38:55
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SB,
What reasons led you to take a stand against feminization (such as your children, your job, religious beliefs, etc)? Regardless of whether you want to share those reasons with us here, have you shared those reasons with your wife? She said she respects you for taking a stand. Sharing your resaons for taking a stand should help draw you emotionally closer with your wife.
I think you were scared of the Elise Sutton site before you were as far down the path as you are now. This site might help your wife find other ways the establish humiliation and female domination other than feminization. This also can bring you closer - more emotionally intimate. Consider referring her to the psychoanalysis at that site:
http://elisesutton.homestead.com/page2.html
http://imagefap.com/profile.php?user=Bull%20boss
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 31 Mar 2008 15:03:08
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SB,
Here's an interesting new blog - a wife is writing about her five year experience in a female led marriage:
http://femdom101.blogspot.com/search?updated-min=2007-01-01T00%3A00%3A 00-08%3A00&updated-max=2008-01-01T00%3A00%3A00-08%3A00&max-results=1
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beatoffboy
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# Posted: 6 Apr 2008 17:49:00
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any updates?
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 13 Apr 2008 03:53:10
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Steven,
It's been two weeks since we've heard from you. What's happening?
1. Has your wife had any more dates?
2. Did she get you a chastity belt?
3. Did you talk any more with her about why you don't want to be more feminized?
4. Are you still wearing panties, even though you've not doing more feminization?
SFD
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 19 Apr 2008 05:45:22
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SB,
It's been three weeks and counting. I care about you. What's happening?
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sb64
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# Posted: 20 Apr 2008 15:49:01
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I am sorry for not updating, I realyl have not had a chance to get online. Well over the last few weeks we have had continuing discussions about the whole cuckolding thing, our marriage etc. She has accpeted that I do not wnat to be a girl and she has agreed that for now, I can dress like a man (her words). She told me that she remains in love with me, but is just not interested in me sexually speaking at all. I told her that I am very happy with that and that I love being her cuckold, but not her girl.
She told me that she wants to take the cuckolding further (she keeps saying this) I asked her what that means, she said, a more active role for you, that sent a thrill down my spine, but a bit of fear too.
The last few weeks have been quiet, she had one date, was out for about 3 hours, came back and went straight to bed. Last week she had a bad headache, so actually nothing new to report.
Thanks again for all the support, to answer a few questions, I didnt have any specific reasons, except I realised after reading some CD Blogs that I was enjoying the humiliation of being dressed as a girl, but didnt have any desires to be female, I could not see myself as a girl fulltime.
As regards Chastity, mrs has not said or done anything about it, I am sure she will in time.
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 21 Apr 2008 23:47:32
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SB,
Thanks for the update. How's the intimacy with your wife? Sleeping together, oral sex, cuddling, kissing?
Silly
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 8 May 2008 17:53:21
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sb,
What's happening?
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sb64
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# Posted: 11 May 2008 10:23:34 · Edited by: sb64
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I am so sorry for not posting, my wife caught me reading another Cuckold Forum, luckily not this one. She has been stopped me from going online this last month. I have a bit to tell, but don't have time now, as I am scared she may catch me online again. Its all going well and things have settled down a lot, she is sort of seeing a guy, I think tonite will be the fifth time, they will be seeing each other. She will be bringing him here tonite for the first time, I am quite nervous. She said he is by far the best lover she has ever had. Gotta dash...
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 23 May 2008 05:28:43
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SB,
What's been happening. Did you get to taste a cock yet?
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 28 May 2008 15:34:12
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Hi SB,
Why has your wife stopped you going online? What's the latest?
SFD
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sb64
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# Posted: 28 May 2008 15:55:43
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I am sorry, its not easy to get online much, she has limited my access. Well a lot has happend since my last post. Where do I start. Well she did bring him home that first night. His name is Ian and she met him on adultfinder or something, he is an experienced bull, having been involved in 2 previous relationships. From the moment he came into our house I could feel the difference in his attitude, compared to Brian. He was in total control.
Well that night he said i could watch from a chair in the corner in the nude, what an experience that was!!!! They fucked like crazy, she was like a woman possessed, his cock was big, thicker and longer than mine and he sure knew how to use it. My wife couldnt get enough of it, I was used to seeing her lying there montionless (when I used to be in her) here she was writhing around the bed, yes yes yes as he drove into her, she came over and over, again soemthing i had never seen from her before. I sat there in the corner transfixed. At one stage he stopped, looked at me and said are you turned on seeing your wife being fucked by a real man, I meekly said yes, he laughed and said well it must be very small, because I cant see it. Play with yourself he ordered, I did and came all over my hand in a matter of a minute, they didnt notice of course. After a while they took a breather and both seemd to be napping, I crept out of the room and went to my bedroom, i took out one of my pink nighties (it just seemed like the right thing to do) and went quietly to sleep.
I have to go now, I have a lot of housework to do before she gets back. More to tell soon. Thanks for the support.
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sb64
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# Posted: 3 Jun 2008 19:51:15 · Edited by: sb64
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OMG OMG OMG its happend, where do i start, after the last post telling you about the fist time i watched her with Ian, it was amazingly different to when i watched her with Brian, Then it was like she was in control, and I kinds felt all was fine because of that. It was very erotic and of course she made me swallow a mouthful of Brian's cumm after her blowjob on him. But with Ian it was different, he was in total control, I felt totally helpless and humiliated, he made me paly with myself, I have only ever done that once for my wife ever.
I have read up an lot about cuckolding, I suspected wheree this was all going to head, I was not sure how or of I was going to be able to handle what was sure to lie ahead some time in the future, but not in a million years did i suspect what happend the next time.
So 2 nights ago, Ian came over again. He came in took one look at me and said why are you dressed like that, I want you femminized and now! I said, but my Jenn and I had agreed that i wouldnt have to do that anymore, he said, I am not Jenn, I call the shots now, Gulp, I felt so weak, so pathetic, but yet so compliant, off i went, i shaved, amde myself up and dressed in a shrt skirt and top, I came quietly into the room, they were on the bed, he was pounding into her, she was clucthing , clawing at his back saying Nah, nah nah, yesss baybeeeeeeeeee. I didnt think they noticed me, i sat in the corner, quietly. After some time passed, he clearly came in her, and they lay still. After about 10 minutes he turned to me and said come here bitch. Oh oh, I thought i get to clean her out again, I was getting used to it. I approached the bed, he said to my wife , she looks quite good,I think its time don't you? She said oh yes I think it is well past time. Time for what? I thought OMG, he is going to make me suck him, oh oh oh!! I dont know about that, I doint think i am up for that. get on the bed bitch, I sat down, not like that, climb on the bed. I I im not.. shut it he said, you look like a girl ist time to get fucked like a girl. He said what!!!! OMG No no i said, I am not ready for that. Not ready? ready he said, get on your knees. Baby said my wife you know its time, but I thought, well i knew this day would come one day, but not yet, I havtn even sucked a guy yet, or even touched another mans penis ever. She laughed, another mans??? babygirl do it for me, come on. I didnt know how I felt, I was so mixed up, before I knew it I was on my hands and knees and he was behind me, he lifted my skirt up and pushed my panties aside, he put a blob of something wet and slimy on me and rubbed it. Then I felt his cock pressing at my virgin hole. My wife sat next to me facing him, her face was right next to mine, she said to me, you will love this honey trust me. I just looked at her. Slowly he pushed that big cock into me, the pain was quite something, but he never gave up. What a stud he is she said, see how hard he is even after coming in me.
Well it felt as if i were being split in 2, it didnt feel good at all, but he never stopped the pressure, it felt as if I was going to burst, he said I am inside your pussy now, you are no longer a virgin. OMG i didnt know what to think, I was so humiliated, here I was with a guys huge prick up insdie of me, right in front of my wife. I was very uncomfortable, i didnt notice that she was holing my hand and encouraging me gently. It seemd like ages as he gently opened me up, an eventually he withdrew a bit, relievign some of the pain, before he moved forrard again, then he stared slowly moving in and out, in and out. OMG i am being fucked by a man ONG OMG. I dont know how long it went on for, but he got some momentum going. the pain eased, but it was still not nice at all. In and out he drove, i began to feel a bit numb, which was a relief. Fatre what seemed like ages, i noticed he was getting excited, he was panting and moving faster into me, i saw my mrs was fingering herself and she came at least twice that I saw. I realized he was close to cumming, I presumed he was wearing a condom, Then with a stab of pain, he lurched into me and came. Over and over he pumped, I ddint feel anything, he sort of collapsed on me, I tried to squirm away. but he told me to stay still. My mrs was in a frenzy he had one hand almost completely in her cunt, and was fingering herself like crazy. Finally he pulled out of me, what a relief. Thats when I saw he wasnt wearing a condom, I moaned oh no you dditn wear a condom, I never do when I fuck virgins he said, i like to know you have my sperm inside you. Then he said soemthing chilling.. You have been fucked properly by a real man in front of your wife, you will never be the same again in her eyes. I felt so utterly helpless, and so weak and so humiliated, but yet part of me felt, like this is right, this is my destiny this is what I am meant to be. My mrs had recovered by now and she said that was the sexiest thing she had ever seen, I will never forget it. He said you two bitches are both full of my sperm, I am the man, ohhhhhMG
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 4 Jun 2008 14:07:40
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Steven,
On Feb 22, this was posted:
For example, here's an excerpt from installment 2:
"Wives may not want to hear this but if their gurl has no natural
predisposition to date it's going to be the wife's job to line up
and/or bring home her gurl's first guy."
That means she's preparing to find a bi-sexual bull who will be willing to let you suck his cock and "bitch" you in your ass. That's why she's broken off with Brian - he was unwilling to do this - you said so yourself.
Wake up and smell the coffee Steven. Your wife wants you to be Chloe by having sex as a woman has sex. That means sucking penises and being fucked in your ass.
Ask yourself if you're willing to go down this path. Your wife should at least be willing to prep you with a strap-on. See this site and consider showing it to her:
http://www.babeland.com/sexinfo/howto/bend_over_boyfriend
Second, think of your boundaries. Consider:
1. You should always have a "safe word." This is a word that you and your wife have pre-agreed you can use during a "scene" that will stop all further action.
2. You should never be restrained (have your arms and legs tied) so that you can not move your self out of a situation that you don't want to continue. Otherwise the activities that your wife wants can be considered ****.
3. Unprotected oral sex (sucking off a guy in your mouth without a condom) is considered not as dangerous for contracting HIV as unprotected anal sex. Anal sex without a condom (also called "bare backing") is considered very high risk behavior for contracting HIV.
You shouldn't be so surprised. You can still set boundaries, like when your children visit. Talk to your wife about what has happened.
SFD
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 9 Jun 2008 15:34:52
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SB,
How do you feel about what happened? It almost sounds like r-a-p-e. You certainly weren't prepared physically (lub and progressive expansion) or emotionally for what happened. Have you talked to your wife about it? Have you recovered?
SFD
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sb64
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# Posted: 11 Jun 2008 15:58:28
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How do I feel? well firstly, it was by no means the R word, I could have stopped it if i had really wanted to, i guess deep inside I knew that this day was going to come, its what my darling wife has wanted all along. The shock factor was I didnt expect it so soon.
As regards the unprotected sex part, my wife confirmed the next day that, she insisted he was tested before she let him fuck her without a condom.
So i wonder where to from here? whats if anything does my wife have planned. We spoke briefly the next day, she told me that was one of the best nights of her life and that she loves me even more as I have given up my manhood for her. She also assured me that she will never take chances with things like HIV so that unprotected sex would only occur if a guy has been tested. She also told me how much she loves seeign me as a girl and that she would love me to spend more time as a girl. i told her that I was not happy doing that, but I didnt mind an occasional dressup, like the other night. She said if she had her way she would turn me into a full time girl. I cant see that ever happening.
SF thanks for the support
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Little Boy
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# Posted: 11 Jun 2008 22:36:37
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"She said if she had her way she would turn me into a full time girl. I cant see that ever happening."
SB64, I think you should broaden your imagination, if your lovely wife says something like that, expect it to happen... or something close.
No men's underwear - panties only. No more top - bottom from now on. Sharing he men - in a girly fashion. It doesn't so bad does it, Sweetie?
XO
LB
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melbhusb
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# Posted: 18 Jun 2008 13:53:22
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SB, any updates, hanging on your story is so riveting, has there been any new developments?
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 18 Jun 2008 17:34:34
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Steven,
HIV testing is only assured after it is repeated in six months. It can take that long for the antibodies (or whatever) the test is looking for to show up in someone's blood.
There's no such thing as safe unprotected anal sex outside of a monogamous relationship.
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sb64
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# Posted: 19 Jun 2008 15:55:20 · Edited by: sb64
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SFD appreciate teh concern, but whats done is done. according to my wife, Ian has a clean bill of health. I have to trust her she wouldnt put her own or my life at risk.
LB, my wife would love to femminize me, but I really do not enjoy that. I love what has happened but do not like the idea of being turned into a girl. My wife and I have agreed on a compromise, I agreed that she can do whats she wants, I will co-operate with everything, but she wont turn me into a girl at this stage.
MH no real updates, one noticable thing though is a chnage ive noticed, there is no mention of anything sexual now between Jenn and I. She has not mentioned anything at all for the last 3 weeks. She hasnt touched me, nor asked me to help her in anyway. I must say i am a bit worried about that.
Thanks to everyone for all your support and advice in this exciting but difficult time
MH no developments really. One change i have noticed in the marriage
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melbhusb
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# Posted: 19 Jun 2008 16:08:58
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SB what one chnage have you noticed?
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sb64
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# Posted: 19 Jun 2008 16:18:58
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Sorry, post got cut off???
I have noticed that my wife has seemingly lost all interest in anything sexual at all with me. Whilst I havnt actually had sex with her in almost a year, I have been licking her to orgasms regularly and she would also often either make me play with myself or occasionaly even rub me till i came. Not sure why the last 3 or so weeks ther has been nothing, no contact at all. I asked her but she didnt answer me?????
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 21 Jun 2008 07:49:52
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SB
Are you still sleeping in the same bedroom? Have you tried going to bed in a nightie? Maybe she will encourage you with sex if she see's you fem.
Another idea. Tell her you're worried that you don't feel close to her and ask her how she feels about you now since you've had sex as a woman - if that's true.
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sb64
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# Posted: 21 Jun 2008 17:29:49 · Edited by: sb64
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Amazing SFD that is exactly what my wife said, since she saw me lose my virginity to a man she no longer thinks of me as a man, and that the onlt type of sexual contact she will have with me is if I am in a female form.
I think that she has set me up beautifully, she agreed to stop femminizing me, but has now 'turned me into a girl' another way. She told me when I am ready to resume intimacy with her I know what to do.
Yes I sleep on her bedroomm most nights
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sillyfemdude
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# Posted: 22 Jun 2008 06:23:40
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SB,
Don't you remember what you wrote on July 18, 2007, that your wife told you? Let me remind you:
"i know you love me amd I love you too, more than ever, I love the fact that you are happy for me to be sexually satisfied by a real man. But I cannot be married to a wimp guy, thats why i wmat you to be a girl for me, do you understand darling. I guess if you put it that way, I sort of do. She said I have done a lot of reading about all this, long before i met and fucked Brian long long before, when I realized that you were not man enough for me. So my darling, I am going to femminize you one way or the other, you can fight me and be femminized or give up and relax and enjoy the ride. "
She said, "I cannot be married to a wimp guy." She hasn't changed her mind. She hasn't done a very good job of maintaining control - AK wouldn't give her high marks. But I don't think she's changed her mind.
You've never told us, or your wife WHY you don't want to be a girl. If you had a solid reason, like your children's mental health, or religious beliefs, or..... But you've never really said. Do you know WHY?
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