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iloanmywife
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# Posted: 20 Mar 2008 03:27:38
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I'm pretty much like most guys here, in terms of how I've progressed from fantasizing to doing.
When I first started dating my wife, I would have wanted to kick another guy's ass if he started hitting on her. But after the first year or so, I remember seeing some cuckold-themed porn. It made me sick to my stomach at first, but then I started checking it out more and more. Eventually, cuckold fantasies became part of our sex life. We pretty much didn't have sex without me talking about her being fucked by someone else.
Of course, she wasn't into it at first. She played along, so as to turn me on. As she got more comfortable with it, she enjoyed it more and more. With a lot of encouragement, she finally did a few things to humor me. She'd go with her friends to nightclubs and meet guys to fool around with other guys a little, making out, letting them feel her tits, jerking them a little, but she didn't want to become a whore. And she never did it with me there.
After we were married, my fantasy started consuming me. I couldn't get hard without thinking about her getting fucked. I got her to start calling me "little dick" and shit. The first time I asked her to do that, we were both drunk...her much more so than me. In her drunken, almost passed out state, she totally refuse. She couldn't call me that, and even yelled "What is wrong with you?" But as I kept fucking her, she started calling me what I needed to hear. Eventually, that became normal for us as as well.
It so took over our lives that even in the most romantic situations, we were consumed with our cuckold fantasy. On our wedding night, I told her I wanted to watch a black man breed her like a farm animal. Over an anniversary dinner, she has told me that she couldn't wait until we got home so she could "ride my semi-hard short dick."
So our fantasies grew more and more perverted until finally, at long last, this past winter we took a Caribbean vacation, with the sole intent of her getting laid as often as possible. She actually was a lot more receptive to it than I thought she would be. When we arrived at our hotel, she was having second thoughts. But, after a couple of bottles of wine later that night, she managed to lose her inhibitions. Meeting men was no problem.
I don't want to turn this into a "Dear forum, this is totally a true story" sort of thing. Yes, this most certainly happend, but I don't feel like writing about the sex. But yeah, we found what we were looking for.
She fucked one guy on the first night. After that, it seemed like it was game-on for her. For six nights, she fucked every day and every night. All sorts of different men, some vacationers, most were local. Muscular black men. Our favorite fantasy. Some of the men she met on multiple nights, others were one-time. Our hotel bar had a lot of local men, and those numbers seemed to grow every night, as if word were getting out. She gangbanged three of them on the second night. They were back with several friends the next day. Honestly, we were drinking most of the time, so it is actually hard to remember one gangbang versus another.
Frankly, after the second day, I was almost sick of it. I'd jerk off a little when she was fooling around. But, except for the first night, when we made love after she was done, if I got hard, I usually came quickly. After maybe an hour or so, I'd seriously kind of feel like an outsider. So I'd leave the room and sit at the bar and try to pick up some vacationing chick (never worked out for me, though I had some good conversations). Every so often, I'd go back to our room. Sometimes it was almost as if I was walking in where I wasn't invited. I'd sit down and drink a beer and watch.
But it wasn't like I thought it was. Here is the most fucked up thing -- she honestly looked like a disgusting fucking whore. The men were mostly treating her like shit. Why wouldn't they? They knew what she was. They had zero respect for me, and they knew there was no way I was going to do anything to stop whatever they wanted to do.
Cumming on her face, pinching her tits, shoving fingers in her mouth, slapping her ass and face. Yeah, no shit. It was harder than you think...not that fake porno slapping, but real no-fucking-shot slapping her face. I won't say that she loved it. She didn't. But she kept fucking them. Fucked them harder, even. And that fed fuel to the fire.
And then there was the unsafe sex.
The first night, everything went like clockwork. Condoms, my presence. We made love after. On the third night, at some point our agreement to play safe went out the window. I wasn't there when they stopped wearing them. I'm not 100% sure that I would have said anything anyway. She protested at first. At least that's what she told me the next day. Total bullshit move. But she kept fucking them. More fuel to the fire. By the time I came back to the room, dudes were doing whatever the fuck they wanted. I couldn't have stopped it without causing a riot.
They even fucked her when she was passed out. I was there. Watched the whole thing, like a trainwreck. Didn't do shit to stop it. Just watched. Didn't jerk off, or even really get hard. Just watched them take turns fucking her still body. Finishing inside her. Some still sticking fingers in her mouth, laughing hysterically as they pinched her tits or spread their asscheeks over her face and pushed their assholes onto her lips. Maybe it was me betraying her, but it was so sickening to me that I actually left the room with guys still taking turns fucking my passed out wife without condoms.
I watched her get pissed on, degraded, slapped, take facials. And I grew more and more disgusted. There was no degradation she wouldn't take. They actually called her a "white cow" and "white pig." And she kept taking it.
Seriously, I don't look at my wife the same way. Sex has grown sort of passe...all I can think of is the vacation. She's still hot, but not in the same way. She's a whore. A filthy, disgusting whore.
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male37slave
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# Posted: 20 Mar 2008 04:56:37
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First, thanks for posting. I think I can appreciate your feelings. However, it seems to me that you are blaming her for everything. I do not think that's fair. You seemed to initiate it, and admittingly stated you didn't do anything to stop it. It's not fair to her for you to blame/resent her for what happened, and for not stopping it. You stated you couldn't have stopped it without creating a riot... maybe she felt the same way. Also, some of it happened while she was passed out. You can't blame her for that.
If you want my advice, take some time and concentrate on each other. Remember what you love about her. Time usually lets some of the memories fade especially when you replace those memories with more pleasant memories.
I hope this doesn't sound like I'm attacking you... I certainly don't mean it to. I really hope to read how you were able to work out all these feelings. Good luck.
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Berserker
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# Posted: 20 Mar 2008 06:20:21
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Man, you fucked this up royally. Not to mention, you fucking suck. But I will still try to help you.
Sure, you are not the first to take a fantasy too far. But you are the first I have ever seen to take it THAT fucking far. And the first time you tried it as well.
Dude, we are dealing with very strong emotions here. You have no way of knowing how you are going to respond before you are in the situation, which is why you have to thread carefully and take it step by step. Start with having her flirt with other men (with or without you there), then you stop it before anything happens, go home, and talk about how you both feel about it. Next time let it progress a bit more, all the while assessing how you feel and if your relationship can handle it.
Your relationship is the most important factor here, way more important than some sexual kicks. Therefore you need to know you are not jepordizing it. You need to trust each other, and find bulls you can work with.
Whenever I have fucked married women with the consent of their husband we have always made a point of keeping the two worlds separately. In the sexual setting I might play rough and talk shit, but it stops there. Outside the couple is to be threated as they are my good friends, and the husband can always call quits. This is non-negotiable.
You guys did none of this. Indeed, you set your wife up to being raped. Which she was. This is your fucking fault for letting it get out of hand. Don't you dare blame her, YOU put her up to it. You let it happen.
What you need to do now is to sit down and talk about what happened. Lay everything on the table, all the emotions you had and the things you felt. I guarantee you she found herself in a situation she had no idea how to stop, and she will probably have some pretty bad scars herself. Then you can decide what to do to get on with your lives.
And if you want to try something like this again, be smart about it and make sure you both have control over the situation again.
Jesus people, what the fuck?
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Multi_Orgasmic Mary
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# Posted: 20 Mar 2008 07:27:48
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Years ago I had a black guy that I knew from work that was always hitting on me, so one night my hub and I invited him and his wife out (she was white), we rented a room on the beach in Daytona, everything was going fine, he was fuckin me, and my hub was doin his wife,,,then she started to cum, he froze, stopped fuckin me, and after my hub came in her, he slapped her around for enjoying it too much. Needless to say we never saw him again, his wife however came over quite often,,,even brought her new husband,,,there's a message in there somewhere.
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PalmCoastCouple
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# Posted: 20 Mar 2008 10:59:19 · Edited by: PalmCoastCouple
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I sense some exaggeration in the story... but whether true or not the underlying theme is that the wife is somehow to blame for enjoying a lifestyle that she was pushed into by the husband.
Like most couples, I initiated our exploration into the Hotwife-Cuck lifestyle. My wife's participation is/was largely motivated by her desire to please her husband. Penalizing her for enjoying something I asked her to try would be hypocritical, not to mention immature
I may one day grow weary of the lifestyle, but not my wife... and I would surely not blame her for anything I initiated.
cuckold - Pronunciation - kuk-uhld - noun 1. the husband of an unfaithful wife. NOTE - It DOES NOT say: Sexually confused, submissive, sissyboy, crossdresser, cocksucker, scat eater, piss drinker, beastiality, incest or pedophilia.
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iloanmywife
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# Posted: 21 Mar 2008 18:00:46
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Thanks for the responses. I guess I wasn't 100% clear in that I don't blame my wife for this. No doubt, it's my fault that I'm in this sort of situation. But at the same time, seeing her like she was...I see her differently now. I posted in this particular forum, because I almost feel like she's kind of "ruined" now.
I definitely don't want to say anything to her. I'm going to give it some time, see if this sort of feeling goes away, or if I get used to it. It's not that I don't believe in complete honesty in a marraige, I just don't want her to know about how I feel because, after all, I egged her on this whole time, I convinced get her to do this. For years, she had been so reluctant to do it because she didn't want to become a slut, or she didn't want me to think less of her. And I know this sounds totally crappy, but fuck -- she didn't look like my wife like that, and now it's hard not to see her like I saw her there.
Surely I can't be the only one who's had this happen? Again, I know this is my fault. But I can't help feeling like this.
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hrdshaft
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# Posted: 6 May 2008 16:23:28
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I can't see how you could ever recover from doing nothing while your wife was raped. I don't think you could have damaged your masculinity any more.
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ninto
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# Posted: 6 May 2008 22:27:22
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Quoting: iloanmywife I couldn't have stopped it without causing a riot.
This is the key feeling/thought that allowed this to happen. You need to realize that it's not just her that allowed this to happen, it was you as well. You can't sit back and say "I look at her differently now" and treat it like it's her fault. How you see her is *your* mind at work. Your perceptions, memories etc fucking with you.
She isn't ruined. She's a woman who's been through some intense negative sexual experiences, but to say that she appears ruined is to say that you think there's no way that you can change your perceptions. That's some screwed up logic, there.
Your perceptions are coloured by your attitude and decisions. You need to realize that this is a woman that deserves your respect and admiration. You need to learn how to actually see her like this. The feeling won't go away on it's own - replace it with positive feelings, reject the BS impression formed by that traumatic experience.
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bostamp
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# Posted: 8 May 2008 05:33:39
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I have never felt unhappy about my wife having kinky sex with other men. I love watching my wife lick another mans asshole. I would probably even enjoy watching a man piss on my wife; but not sure about that. My wife has asked before if I would mind a couple of guys pissing on her; she really wanted them to piss on her, but I said no, I am not sure I would like that.
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redimac
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# Posted: 10 May 2008 22:57:55
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bostamp
How about they piss on you?
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jamesriske
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# Posted: 11 May 2008 00:40:52
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I think you both just went too far and you both need to have a long talk and put on the brakes.
She's probably pissed at you for not controlling the situation and you're pissed at her for doing it and taking it. All the while, she might have been thinking 'why doesn't he stop this, how far does he want me to go?" while you are thinking, 'I can't believe she's going so far and letting them do that."
Don't make a big deal out of it, you two just need to talk more and talk about what happened and what you both truly want to do.
Set limits in the future. Restrict it to one or two regular studs, one night a week or something. Take more control over what is going on.
You just screwed up that's all. Now fix it and continue the great relationship and fun sex life that you have with your wife. Don't just be quiet about everything and let it get worse. Fix the problem and start over again but this time with more communication and standards.
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joranc
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# Posted: 11 May 2008 06:14:15
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i agree withjamesriske
spot on 100%
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vslay
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# Posted: 11 May 2008 06:30:25
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way to go,,,, you let your wife get raped, you are a real piece of shit dude
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MU_24
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# Posted: 12 May 2008 16:31:09
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The only time I've actually watched a girl get fucked was a fuck buddy who got turned on by being a whore. I loved to hear the stories. One night I was hiding in the second bedroom to listen to her fuck a large black man and peered out a few times. She was riding him and saw me peer out and she loved it. I, however, felt a little disgusted with it and couldn't look at her the same. I can't imagine what you're going through and I'm sorry it happened the way that it did.
The general theme above seems to be that you need to talk things out and save the relationship. It appears that cucking is not for you. Counseling might not even be a bad idea. Ideal cucks see their wives in the same or better light after watching their wives fuck, but yours went a little too far and probably ruined it for the both of you for the rest of your lives. What you haven't talked about is what she's feeling or how she's acting now. Does she still desire to be with other men? If she's not talking about future possibilities, she's probably feeling the same way and hoping to forget about the vacation and move on with your life together. This is a good thing for you because it means you're on the same page. Talk it out and live happily ever after.
Best of luck.
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