Help, is my wife cuckolding me? Should she?

My wife and I are both 35 years old, married for 5 years. My wife is 5'6", 125 lbs, very pale alabaster skin with freckles, dark blonde hair (naturally) and deep brown eyes, delicate freckled 36B cup breasts and a bubble butt.

As for me, I'm a pretty good looking guy overall, tall, with just under 5 inches in the penis department. Sexually I've always had very good stamina with her (I can fuck pretty much as long as I want), but I've never once made her cum through intercourse, and she always told me that she simply can't cum that way with me. I tried everything with my penis, every position, but nothing would do the trick. She did have boyfriends before me, but she has never told me if they were able to do better in bed. I don't know if she's ever been with a black man before.

For the longest time, we made do with her vibrator and me going down on her. When I would try to have sex with her, she'd very quickly beg me to cum in her, even when I could go much longer.

Lately, especially since the birth of our baby, our lovemaking has become more and more oral sex on her. She'll have me go under the blanket, sometimes while she watches TV, and then have me go down on her while giving me occasional guidance with her hands at the back my head. This can last for an hour but by the end she always cums very powerfully on my tongue. I have gotten really good at this type of lovemaking. I hump the bed while I do this and a few times I have nearly sprayed into the sheets while doing this for her. When she's finished we like to cuddle, or she may finish me off with her hand - which typically lasts about a pump or two given how turned on I am.

More and more our lovemaking has become me going down on her. It seems like the only time we bother with my penis anymore is when we are trying to get her pregnant again, so during fertile periods of time. She doesn't generally give me oral sex, but if I've been really good, she will use her hands and let me cum that way. But lately she hasn't shown much interest in my penis that way and after oral sex for her we just go to *****. Truthfully I masturbate frequently as I have a very high sex drive, but out of respect for her, I don't cum even when I'm alone. I save that for her.

Anyway, lately she has been going out more and more with friends. It started out with just one time a week, now often twice a week or more she is having dinner with friends and going out with them. She almost always comes back pretty late, midnight or later. I work during the day (she stays home with our ********) so I do miss her sometimes.

However, when she's out, and after our ******** goes to bed, I compulsively masturbate, mostly to interracial and cuckold videos. All I can do is pump my modest 5 incher (it's actually a bit shorter than that) while I imagine what she might be doing and who she might be doing it with while watching videos of black men having their way with white girls not unlike my wife - and making them cum that way. One thing is for sure, the black men don't have to use their tongues to get a woman off. They seem to get oral sex as a right and rarely need to give it. Even anal sex (something my wife has never permitted) they just take for granted.

When I go down on her and she has my tongue pressed into her, all I can think about is if this is the kind of lovemaking that really satisfied her, or if she needs something more to feel complete. She's never told me she's unsatisfied with our sex life, but the idea just won't leave my head. Is my tongue enough for her? What about my penis? I know it's a little smaller than average, but it just seems like she wants less and less to do with it sexually and it has been more and more excluded and ignored in our sex life. Sometimes when I'm going down on her, my face pressed into her dripping sex, her hands holding my head, and my cock pumping uselessly into the mattress - I feel it would be better if I just give up trying to do it the 'normal' way.

Sometimes I wonder - am I a cuckold? And if not, should I be?

Sounds to me like you have very fertile ground to start working on making her a hotwife if that is what you want. Go slow but ask her if she is satisfied with your sex life and encourage her to be open to new ideas. With you penis under 5 inches you definitely are not giving her the depth she needs. Good luck and keep us posted.

Talk with her. I am always amazed that husband's who want to be cuckolded do not start with this simple step.
Mention your fantasises, and that will open a dialogue with her.

It sounds like being a cuckold is a fantasy, but reality is different and you need to think about the downsides as well as the ups (e.g. no sex with wife; wife falling in love with another; people you know finding out)